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It was still Cheng Yin's favorite shorty barbecue, and he ordered a bunch of vegetarian dishes and a few sporadic meat dishes as usual.Li Yu had no appetite, so he only ordered a few bunches of vegetables for show.

Cheng Yin sat opposite him, the barbecue hadn't been served yet, so he didn't know what to say for a while, so he asked, "Want a Coke?"

Li Yu casually nodded.

Cheng Yin pressed his shoulder, "Sit down for a while, I'll go buy it."

Sitting there, Li Yu saw a small firepit piled up with bricks. In the small firepit, the boss burned the charcoal for barbecue red, and then put it on the grill.

In late autumn, the weather began to cool down.

The flames in the small fire pond are very high, and the fire is quite big, and it is shaped into various strange shapes in the wind.

They sat on the side of the road, very close to the small firepit.However, Li Yu didn't feel any warmth, and just watched the dancing flames silently.

When Cheng Yin came back, Li Yu was still staring at the fire pond next to him, with an idiot on his face, just like the first time they met.

Only then did Cheng Yin notice that Li Yu's clothes were different from usual today.The casual suit looked a little mature on him, and the firelight reflected in his eyes gave him a sense of calmness. The two blended into an aura that made him feel strange.

Because of this, Li Yu seemed extraordinarily lonely.

Cheng Yin sat over and Li Yu turned his head.Cheng Yin wiped the mouth of the can carefully before handing it to Li Yu.Li Yu took it and opened it and took a sip.

Cheng Yin didn't know what to say, and felt that it was pointless to deliberately ask him what was wrong, so he could only keep silent.

After the barbecue was on, Cheng Yin pulled off the skewered mushrooms one by one, put them on a clean small plate, and pushed them in front of Li Yu.

Li Yu picked up the chopsticks and ate slowly.

After eating, Cheng Yin made other things for him, such as rice cakes, sausages, eggplant cakes... all made for him one by one.

Li Yu ate in silence, and drank the Coke bit by bit.

After Cheng Yin made it up for him, he picked up a string of fish steaks and started to eat. After eating a few mouthfuls, he heard a slap: Li Yu's tears dripped onto the table.

Crying, Cheng Yin sighed, put down the fish raft and rubbed his hands vigorously with paper, and handed Li Yu a clean paper towel.

Li Yu took it, his voice was still quite calm, without shaking, and he said slowly: "My mother doesn't want me anymore."

Cheng Yin didn't expect it to be such a big deal, and his heart sank.

"Why doesn't she want you?" Cheng Yin asked cautiously.

Li Yu sniffed and wiped his tears, "I lived alone in the second year of junior high school. After my parents divorced, I lived with my father for a few months, and then my father passed away. My mother will live with me every once in a while. One or two months. Later, the interval became longer and longer, and the time we stayed together became shorter and shorter. This year, she only came to see me at home. I always knew that she would definitely leave me, and she didn't need it This son."

Li Yu paused and took a sip of Coke.

"Today I went to her piano recital. The last piece should be the last time she conveyed her love to me in the name of mother. She will not think of me again in the future. She will develop her own life."

Cheng Yin was a little confused, "You mean, your mother is going to start a family again?"

"Probably." Li Yu twitched the corners of his mouth and forced a smile, "She pursues her own piano career and has no time for me at all."

Cheng Yin looked at him, frowned and asked, "You've lived alone since the second year of junior high, and she hasn't cared about you?"

"She gave me living expenses at the beginning. Later, she hardly came to see me, and only sent me money regularly. I refused. I have my father's inheritance and I have income." Li Yu said, "I don't want her to feel that , I'm just a child who needs someone to take care of her."

"But," Li Yu still choked up, "she still doesn't want me in the end."

Cheng Yin frowned even tighter, "Did she tell you that she doesn't want you anymore?"

Li Yu smiled, with a desolate tone, "She would not say such hard-hearted words herself. She must be beautiful and decent. Her piano sound tells me that I am her drag, and I am blocking her pursuit of the highest realm of music. If she doesn't come to see me, she doesn't need to think that she has a son who is underage, so she will become more and more good at playing the piano." Li Yu almost gritted his teeth and said: "She used her piano sound to tell me that I was hindering her , is dragging her down."

Li Yu took another sip of Coke, and couldn't help shouting: "But I have been trying to avoid affecting her!"

Everyone at the other tables looked at Li Yu. Li Yu's eyes were red, and his hand holding the Coke was trembling.

Cheng Yin immediately stood up and grabbed his hand. With the other hand, he took out 100 yuan from his pocket and put it on the table. He turned around and called, "The boss pays the bill. You don't need to look for the money here."

Cheng Yin pulled Li Yu away quickly, Li Yu's hands were still shaking, Cheng Yin put his arms around his shoulders again.

Li Yu struggled away, walked a few steps unsteadily, and reached the dark alley opposite, Li Yu punched the wall.

Cheng Yin roared: "Li Yu!" and rushed over to grab him.

Li Yu looked at him, and burst into tears again. He quickly wiped the back of his hand, but the tears fell in strings and could not be stopped.

Cheng Yin was heartbroken, patted him on the back lightly, and slowly called out "Xiu Cai".

Li Yu slid down against the wall and sat on the ground, crying silently for a long time as if exhausted.

Cheng Yin had no choice but to squat down too, staring at the ground silently, occasionally handing him a tissue.

It took a while for Li Yu to start talking again, "Cheng Yin, I have no friends, and I am very lonely. My father is gone, my mother doesn't want me, and no one likes me. In fact, I have always felt that loneliness is a normal emotion. But, really It's so uncomfortable."

Cheng Yin hugged him, he knew that being alone was painful.

"Really, I don't think I'm miserable, and I don't think there's anything particularly bad about me. Why doesn't anyone like me?" Li Yu looked at the front in confusion, "Why?"

Cheng Yin asked him dumbfounded, "Why do you think no one likes you?"

Li Yu looked at Cheng Yin's puzzled eyes, and inexplicably felt a little funny, he sighed, "You are my only friend."

Li Yu seemed to be thinking about something, his voice was faintly illusory, and he was spit out gently: "I have always thought that I am very kind, but no one has ever been willing to approach me, except you. I always feel that, No matter where I am, I don’t fit in, no one asks about me, and no one has deep communication with me. I can’t tell anyone about my sudden thoughts, and all my emotions are ignored.”

Cheng Yin frowned, "Why do you think you are neglected?"

Li Yu chuckled, "Every time a parent meeting is held, I'm the only one who sits in my seat and holds it for myself. Why doesn't the teacher ever ask?"

Li Yu tapped his fingers on the ground unconsciously, as if he was counting. He casually recalled: "After graduating from the third year of junior high school, the class teacher lectured to the boys who played games all day long in the class, and tried to persuade them to go to school. In high school, I studied hard to get rid of the evil and return to the right. Even the most annoying classmate who fought every day was touched by him and admonished, but he didn't even say a word to me. In the first grade of high school, the class organizes parties, and no one asks I wondered why I didn’t go. I had diarrhea that day. My mother couldn’t remember me, and my classmates didn’t like me very much. Even if I worked hard to study and my grades were a few points higher than No.2, no one remembered me.”

Li Yu glanced at Cheng Yin, "How can I be so good? How could I be able to return to the first place in the exam so easily? I recited the Chinese texts until I vomited, and I didn't know how many reading comprehension questions I did. Yes. Mathematics and physics, there are so many papers at home that there is no place to put them. I am very tired and tired."

Li Yu pursed his lower lip vigorously, "But why doesn't the teacher remember me? Why doesn't my mother still like me?"

Li Yu looked at Cheng Yin, gritted his teeth and said, "Cheng Yin, I said before that I was hypocritical. I'm really sorry."

Cheng Yin looked into his eyes in confusion.

Li Yu struggled to utter the words in his heart: "I didn't take the Chinese test this time, not all because of you. I want to know, how will the teacher treat me? I really long for him to touch my head , and asked me with concern what happened, and if I was in a bad mood." Li Yu burst into tears again, "But Teacher Yang severely criticized me, accusing me of not taking the exam seriously, why not take myself seriously. Seriously."

Li Yu yelled fiercely: "How much I want to take myself seriously! But no one takes me seriously!"

Li Yu took a few breaths violently, and Cheng Yin froze in place. He didn't know that Li Yu was in such pain and helplessness, and he didn't even ask him.

Cheng Yin was almost angry, Li Yu was so aggrieved and sincerely longed for attention, why did no one care about him?

Li Yu looked sadly at the silent Cheng Yin, knowing that Cheng Yin would also hate his hypocrisy, so he simply said it all, "I am such a hypocrite. This is not a college entrance examination, so what if I handed in a blank paper in Chinese. But I didn't Dare to tell you that, how disgusting I am, let me tell you, I have never handed in a blank paper, I feel very happy. No, no. I care about grades and other people's opinions."

Li Yu was full of despair, leaning against the wall and looking up at the sky, "Cheng Yin, I really want to be friends with you. You are my only friend. I want you to have a good impression of me, and I want you to think of me It's what you call a talent."

Li Yu stood up, turned his back to Cheng Yin, and said softly, "But I'm not. I'm a hypocritical and annoying person."

Cheng Yin didn't move.

Li Yu wiped away the tears that came out again, "I'm sorry, you go home." Li Yu walked back slowly.

Suddenly all the anxiety and helplessness were gone, Li Yu suddenly calmed down, why not go home and write a set of papers.

Suddenly being hugged from behind, Li Yu was taken aback, Cheng Yin lay on his back and said helplessly: "You are so careful, you still have the nerve to call yourself hypocritical."

Li Yu turned to look at Cheng Yin, but Cheng Yin covered his eyes. Cheng Yin leaned into his ear and said, "Li Yu, you can only be a scholar. There are indeed many dirty things and people in the world." , It has nothing to do with you. The hypocrisy you said is not hypocritical at all. I am not a child, and I will not turn against you because of such a trivial matter. You are a little extreme tonight." Cheng Yin thought in his heart Sighing, I like you to death, this is nothing, it is not worth my anger at all.

Cheng Yin hugged him tightly, her voice was as gentle as possible, "The last time you asked me if Teacher Yang would call the parents, you wanted to know if your mother would care, right?"

At this moment, Li Yu's mind was in a mess again, only Cheng Yin's low voice echoed in his heart, he could only think along Cheng Yin's words, and nodded upon hearing the words.

Cheng Yin rubbed his head against the back of his neck, and said slowly: "Then let's wait and see how your mother reacts."

Li Yu was about to open his mouth to refute him, but Cheng Yin continued: "Don't make a sound, listen to me."

Cheng Yin loosened the palms covering his eyes to make him more comfortable, and said again: "I don't know much about music, and I don't believe you said that your mother told you in the song that she didn't want you anymore. Since she didn't speak Say, don't think about it that way."

"Also," Cheng Yin let go of him, pinched his arm and made him turn around to face himself, Cheng Yin looked into his eyes and said word by word: "Why do you think no one likes you?"

Cheng Yin pointed to himself, "I, Fang Yuan, Jia Hui, Qin Lang, Xiao Yun, many classmates in the class and my parents, we all like you."

Cheng Yin frowned and said seriously: "Li Yu, don't live in your own pitiful world. People who live in their own world often moan without illness. You don't really know You yourself, sometimes you take yourself too big, and sometimes you take yourself too small. You are sensitive, you have low self-esteem and you are stupid. Don’t be like a little girl who is sad and sad. Li Yu, you You're a man, and you're a wonderful person."

Cheng Yin really didn't want to talk about him anymore, so he hugged him again and said heavily: "Li Yu, look at yourself."

Li Yu didn't know what to say for a while.No one had ever spoken to him like this, never had anyone hugged him so tenderly and forcefully, telling him to face himself.

After a long time, Cheng Yin tapped his shoulder with his chin, and his voice was as soft as a little sheep, "Xiu Cai, shall I go to sleep at your place tonight? I should be scolded for coming home too late."

Li Yu closed his eyes and hugged Cheng Yin back, "Okay."

That night, Li Yu's mind was full of ups and downs. He had just fallen into despair as if he were at the end of the road, but suddenly it became clear, and the up and down stairs made him physically and mentally exhausted.

He was moved by Cheng Yin's hug and sincerity, but he didn't know how to treat it. Finally, this request of deliberately lowering his posture finally made him feel at ease.

Li Yu didn't have time to think about Cheng Yin's various behaviors, and didn't have time to analyze whether their hug had exceeded the boundaries of friends, so he hugged Cheng Yin tightly.

This solid feeling made Li Yu calm down.

The author has something to say: In fact, Li Yu is not so fragile.It's just that my heart is simple, my heart is ups and downs, and I am a little sad.If he didn't see Cheng Yin, he probably couldn't vent his anger.