You have a bamboo horse waiting to be checked

When Ling Yifeng got up from the bed again, it was already three or four o'clock in the afternoon.

He took out his phone and glanced at it, and saw the message from Ling Yichen, saying that he had asked for leave because of a fever, and asked him to rest well.Qi Zhongshan was quite a straight man at this time, he didn't ask anything, he just sorted out his homework and notes for him.

Ling Yifeng was relieved instead.

He is very annoying now, and he doesn't want to deal with anyone's questioning, including his boyfriend.

To be honest, he likes Qi Zhongshan very much. The two of them have a tacit understanding almost by nature, and they will never bother him when they get along in daily life.

But it was precisely because of this that he felt alienated.

Qi Zhongshan consciously does not disturb his life, does not affect his decision-making, does not get jealous, does not play tricks, and does not have any excessive curiosity, respects his choices in everything, logically speaking, such a worry-free and caring boyfriend It’s really hard to come by, but I don’t know if it’s because Qi Zhongshan is so kind to him and he feels sorry for him, or because, as some people say, sometimes falling in love is to show the importance of the other party through acting, The more model boyfriend Qi Zhongshan is, the less confident he is in going on.

To put it nicely, it is to think too much about gains and losses. To put it bluntly, it is a combination of naturalness and uncertainty.

Although he had a long-awaited sleep because of his illness, Ling Yifeng didn't feel refreshed all over his body. Instead, he felt pain everywhere, as if his bones were falling apart. Even because he had slept for too long, his head was congested with blood and he became dizzy. heavy.

He had to lean on the bed for a while, and when he was less dizzy, he stuck his feet out from under the quilt, and quietly pressed against the door to listen to the movement for a while.

After confirming that there was really no sound of arguing outside the door, he ran back to the bed, put on his slippers, and opened the door to find water.

The room was very quiet and tidy, and it was completely impossible to see that a terrible quarrel broke out here, probably because Qi Ming and Ling Yichen would never hurt innocent people when they quarreled, and they would not even smash a glass.I don't know if this is because of self-cultivation, or because the two of them were too poor when they first talked, so they were forced to form a habit.

Qi Ming leaned back on the sofa, covered with a blanket, with his eyes closed, as if he had just fallen asleep.

After such a fuss, he must be quite tired.

Ling Yifeng walked lightly to the coffee table and poured a glass of water. Qi Ming heard the voice, opened his eyes and saw Ling Yifeng's thin clothes, and quickly sat up straight from the sofa: "You don't know how to find something thicker when you get up. son’s clothes? I just had a fever last night, and the scar is healed and you forget the pain?”

"I won't change after repeated admonition." Ling Yifeng looked at him, and said very frankly, "Because I'm not sensible."

"I'm not sensible yet so confident. I don't think I'm coughing all the time? I've got inflammation again. I've eaten the clarithromycin dispersible tablets over there." Qi Ming was angry and funny, "Don't always eat mints if your throat feels uncomfortable. Alright, good."

"Don't don't don't, I'm fine!" Ling Yifeng didn't expect Qi Ming to make such a move on him, and immediately ran back to the room to add clothes, and while putting on the clothes, he shouted out, "Can I not take that medicine?" ? You still don’t let me eat candy after eating, what’s the matter?”

"Don't be ashamed of yourself," Qi Ming waited for him to come out, and flicked his forehead with his hand, "You and this medicine are also old enemies, and I've been afraid of it for ten years."

"Yeah, I still remember taking medicine when I was a child. When I saw the medicine, I ran and went under the dining table. You and my brother followed me to catch me. When I caught me, I cried until you dared not take the medicine. , the three people in Daxia are making a fuss as if they just got out of the water, and their hair is dripping..." Ling Yifeng laughed as he said, "It's really hard for you, I think about it now, let me Take care of a child, either he is crazy or I am crazy."

"Yeah, your brother and I were going crazy, and then upstairs Aunt Xu brought Chongshan over to coax you and you just ate it," Qi Ming teased, "You have a lot of thoughts at such a young age."

"That's his mother who can coax children! It's not him!" Ling Yifeng blushed inexplicably, "Was I sensible back then!"

"Then you are sensible now, what do you think, tell me," Qi Ming raised his eyebrows and said, "Whose clothes are you wearing?"

Only then did Ling Yifeng realize that the clothes he put on casually were school uniforms, but the school uniforms were indeed not his.

But the arrow was on the string and had to be fired, he still bite the bullet and said: "Mine."

"Nonsense," Qi Ming tugged at Ling Yifeng's large school uniform sleeves, "That person must be taller, and he doesn't like restraints, so he took off the elastic bands on the cuffs. You are so afraid of the cold, it's you who didn't fasten the elastic bands style?"

"That's Qi Chongshan's." Ling Yifeng pulled a bench from the side and sat down, deliberately avoiding Qi Ming's eyes. "Or it's Ye Yiming's. Anyway, the two of them were the ones who got the wrong clothes last night."

"The two of them don't wear school uniforms." Qi Ming leaned on the sofa, squinting his eyes, "If you confess, you will be lenient and if you resist, you will be strict."

Ling Yifeng became anxious: "Hey, you...you are allowed to fall in love early and you are not allowed to fall in love with me!"

"You admit it?" Qi Ming looked at him, "I have a puppy love, I admit it."

"I..." Ling Yifeng took a deep breath, "Let's not talk about this, okay? I'm a bit messed up now, wait until I sort it out."

Qi Ming stared at him for a long time.

"Okay," Qi Ming said nothing in the end, tried the water temperature, got up and changed him to a cup of hot water, "The main reason is that I may not have a chance to talk to you in detail. Are you sure you don't want to talk now? "

"What do you mean?" Ling Yifeng suddenly thought of the words he said while holding Qi Ming's hand when he had a high fever, and an ominous premonition floated in his heart, "What do you mean there is no chance?"

"What can I mean? Let's chat casually, my brother is still hiding his words when he talks to you?" Qi Ming took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and threw it over, "One?"

"How can you instigate minors to smoke?" Ling Yifeng felt nauseous when he heard the word "cigarette", and threw it back without even looking at it. "I smoked and you will blame me again."

"Did you smoke less when I didn't instigate you? Smoke one, I think you usually smell like cigarettes when you go out, why, now that you're sick, you don't have the appetite to eat and you smoke, so you're also bored?"

"Yes, you don't know if you don't smoke, this..." Ling Yifeng bit the bullet and said nonsense, "I may have a cold. When I have a cold, I don't have any interest in smoking."

"This cigarette is very good, are you sure you don't want to take a look?" Qi Ming waved the cigarette case in front of his eyes, "Do you know me?"

"'Nanjing'...isn't this your cigarette?"

"Well, your brother uses it for human relations. Let me tell you about science first, this cigarette is not called 'Nanjing', it is called 'Nine-Five Zhizun'. Secondly, the reason for not smoking when you have a cold is to follow the doctor's advice. There are many people who become addicted to smoking when they have a cold. Here." Qi Ming sneered, took out his lighter and lit a cigarette, and immediately rubbed out the lit cigarette with his hands very deftly, "Besides, your brother didn't tell you that he used to be in the second grade Who brought him to smell like cigarettes? I quit smoking just to take care of you."

Ling Yifeng has never associated smoking with Qi Ming. He really never imagined that Qi Ming really smoked when he was about his age, and he lied recklessly when he was exposed. After being exposed, he smiled at him. Feixiao was fidgeting, and finally admitted it simply: "I'm just pretending, trying to annoy my brother."

"Why do you want to be angry with him? First, he doesn't care about your academic performance, second, your puppy love, and third, he doesn't care about your money. You are a student, how can you have conflicts with him?" Qi Ming pressed on step by step, "Pretend to smoke, yes What is the use for you?"

Indifferent tone.The skinny smile is not.There is no trace of the usual gentle shadow.

Ling Yifeng understood that Qi Ming was vaguely angry, it was the first time he had experienced it since he grew up, but he couldn't figure out why.Intuition told Ling Yifeng that Qi Ming had something to say, he was a little uneasy and wanted to find a wall to stick to, but he forgot that this was a bench and not a sofa, and he almost fell down. Fortunately, Qi Ming on the opposite side had quick eyes and quick hands, and pulled him up. .

"I'm going to take the medicine," Ling Yifeng lowered his head, trying to shake off Qi Ming's hand, "I know I was wrong."

"What's wrong with you?" Qi Ming squeezed his wrist tightly, "You haven't answered my question yet. What conflicts can you have with your brother, are you going to be angry with him?"

"You haven't seen him beat me! Isn't this a contradiction!" Ling Yifeng shook his hand violently, "You might as well let him do it himself! I just want to get angry with him!"

Ling Yifeng felt a mess in his head.

He knew that the current situation was quite abnormal, and the ominous premonition had been lingering in his mind, making him desperate to escape from here.

"He beat you because you smoked, drank, fought and skipped class, Ling Yifeng, do you think it's fun to ruin yourself?" Qi Ming stared into his eyes and asked him in a low voice, "You have respiratory problems since you were a child, and then you pretended not to smoke Smoking; I can't drink, you are a bit like me, I don't drink at all, you talk all day long to learn from me, but you can vomit yourself out of drinking; you are obviously a soft-tempered person, but you just want to put on a thorn Let’s not talk about fighting, it’s normal for you to fight with that bastard Ling Haoran; in the third year of junior high school, you stayed up all night to study questions, and to put it bluntly, you still wanted to study hard. Your brother was in the cold war for half a month, and you skipped the monthly exam and ran to his company to cause trouble. He was so angry that he could still stand your anger. After returning home, he was whipped. I stopped there desperately, stupefied Duan An's birthday was just passed after a quarrel ended the anger. I should have reacted earlier, but to be honest, if you hadn't behaved so naturally since you came here, I really wouldn't have become suspicious."

"Yifeng, in fact, you already know about our quarrel, right? That's what you told me not to leave last night, right?"

Qi Ming's last voice was very soft, but it sounded like thunder to Ling Yifeng's ears.

"I don't know." Qi Ming's words were too sudden, making his mind a mess, "You two quarreled at the end of the bed, and I never took it seriously."

"Listen to this sentence yourself. Is there any inconsistency?"

"I don't know." Ling Yifeng still bit the sentence, "I don't know!"

"It doesn't matter whether you know it or not, but I know what you did. Besides, if you really don't know, then I'm notifying you now." Qi Ming said softly, "We've been exhausted from quarreling over the past few years. Without you busy reconciling and dealing with it in the middle, we would probably have broken up a long time ago. Thank you."

"I said I don't know!" Ling Yifeng gritted his teeth and swears, "Thank you, uncle!"

"You don't need to thank him, my uncle is not your uncle?" Qi Ming emphasized again, "It doesn't matter if you didn't know before, you know now."

"What are you crazy about!" Ling Yifeng's voice trembled, and he softened his attitude quickly, "If you and my brother quarreled, sit down and have a good talk, what do you mean by that!"

"We've been arguing for a few years, and I've put you in to accompany me for a few years. I can't continue." Qi Ming's voice was very gentle, "I'm sorry."

There is no way to continue.

Ling Yifeng was swayed by these words.

He subconsciously knew that there would be such a day, but when this day really came, he still refused to accept it. He would rather pretend that he knew nothing about it, that he had never worked hard for it and struggled with it, It seems that this can offset most of the sense of powerlessness and escape the hopelessness and panic under the backlog of indifference for so many years.

"What's sorry? I'm happy! If you really feel sorry for me, you can take back what you just said. There is no sign that you suddenly said this to me. I ask you, who can bear it!"

"Is it still necessary for you to pretend? Is there any sign that you know best that something that is already in jeopardy, how long do you expect it to last?"

"I count on me to live a day and it can last a day!" Ling Yifeng roared with red eyes, "I expect it to last a lifetime!"

"But I can't ruin your life! Don't tell me you're happy!"

Ling Yifeng was suddenly blocked and speechless.

"Actually, your methods are not very clever, and your words and actions are often full of loopholes, but the two of us have believed in you for four and a half years." Qi Ming said that his nose was sore afterwards, "Because I like him. I admit that I like him. I have talked with him for ten years, during which we have experienced all major events except death, do you think we are willing to share? I will put this here in front of you today. Except for Ling Yichen, I will never be like him in my life. I love someone like this without hesitation, and I can't bear to let go even if I see the slightest hope. But if I continue to pretend to be deaf and dumb and selfish like this, I will ruin you. I have to tell you this matter clearly. Then since You know it all, and there is no need for me to carry it to death."

"Since we like each other, why can't we be together!" Ling Yifeng made the last resistance, his voice was so hoarse that it almost broke, "Can't I be good!"

"Because the degree of torture is much greater than the degree of liking. We can't live by memories." Qi Ming smiled, "It has nothing to do with whether you are good or not. We have just been working hard to pave the way for you. But you don't seem to understand our hints. Now that you don't need to do the foreshadowing, it's time for a showdown. I originally planned to tell you in a few days, but I'm afraid I won't be able to let you go again in a few days. Can't let him go. So I have to cut the mess quickly."

"So you want to go?" Ling Yifeng was silent for a long time, finally gave up resistance, and asked hoarsely, "Don't you feel that you are too determined to go your own way?"

"I've discussed it with your brother. It may not be a farewell, but if we continue to torture each other like this, we will only become more and more desperate. It's not good for anyone. Let's calm down for now."

"Don't talk about anything else, just say whether you want to break up." Ling Yifeng's voice was almost whimpering, "Just say whether!"

It took Qi Ming a while to give a positive response: "Yes."

"Who allowed you to break up like this!" Ling Yifeng suddenly stepped forward and grabbed Qi Ming's collar, and shouted at him almost out of composure, "Why are you! Who told me that no matter what happens, it's impossible Don’t want mine, who told me! Just say thank you and sorry and send me away, what do you think of me! You..."

"Ling Yifeng, take your hand off!"

Ling Yichen, who had been listening to the changes in the study, realized that something was wrong, so he hurried out and broke his hand away. The 17-year-old was crying like a seven-year-old child. Qi Ming just stood there and let him toss without saying a word. His body stretched out.

"You just promised me last night that you wouldn't leave...Brother, I beg you, brother, I won't mess around anymore, you can't delay me, don't want me, okay...you told me that we It's a home... Where can I find a home when you're gone..."

Ling Yifeng grabbed Qi Ming's drooping hand, tears slid down his arm into the other's palm, and then fell drop by drop onto the ground.

"Get up." Ling Yichen squatted down and sighed, "Qi Ming has told you everything that needs to be said. So Qi Ming and I are here. I know you like to criticize me, but you didn't Come out, don't blame me."

Ling Yifeng just buried his head between his knees and said nothing.

"It's useless for you to escape. Yifeng." Qi Ming also squatted down, "Since you fell asleep on the bed yesterday, your brother and I have been talking about this issue outside. There is no quarrel or cold war. We are calm There is something wrong with our relationship now, and we need some time to calm down, maybe for a short time, maybe forever. I won't say 'I promise I will come back later', that's coaxing children. You all You are 17 years old. In your own words, you can already bear civil liability. Your brother raised you when you were your age, so no one treats you like a child. Before I leave, I still want to talk to you seriously. You talk, you also know my attitude towards other younger siblings, so I won't talk nonsense about 'we will still treat you the same after we separate', this is impossible, you are not only my younger brother, I can't do it Getting so close to you. So before I come back next time, I will talk to you as a brother for the last time."

"Let's talk about Chongshan first. I haven't guessed what the status of the two of you is, let's treat it as not enough lovers for the time being. Yichen and I are both puppy lovers, so we have already said that we don't plan to care about you on the issue of puppy love. Puppy love is not the key to the problem, the key is gender. Our relationship is not perfect like this, but I did have good memories with him. This does not mean that everyone will end like this, but it also means that some people It will be like this ending. Do you feel that you would rather step on this narrow road and be with him, or you are afraid of worldly prejudice and finally give up, it is your own choice. Do you feel regret is more painful, or break up The torment before and after is more painful, and it’s all your own feelings. I’m just telling you clearly, the person who makes the final decision is you.”

"Let's talk about your study. I know that you are really timid and insecure. You are afraid that others will make irresponsible remarks, and you are afraid that one day you will be alone and helpless, so you always want to go out and look more insecure. Safe way. You are just pretending to be unrestrained and coquettish, but in fact, you can feel uneasy for a long time with long hair. Therefore, please be cautious when reading literature, science, or even art. Whether you read seriously or not, you must do what you want to do if you don’t read. Think clearly."

"Then let's talk about Ling Haoran. Yichen and I didn't get into an argument, and he really couldn't do anything about it. We really don't want to see you suffer the grievances that you shouldn't have to suffer, and be tortured until you lose what you originally had. Some precious things, I can only say that fortunately, you are fine, and he probably won't bother you again."

"Finally, let me talk about the breakup. You have been very sensible since you were a child. You are not responsible for our breakup, let alone because you didn't pretend to be bad. Don't blame yourself and don't have psychological pressure. At the same time, even if you don't Depravity, I will not come back to control you because of this. You know that I am easy to soften my heart, so I will go to a place where you can't find me and I can't see you. Don't rebel blindly in the future."

"Then Ling Yichen and I will be here."

It's "Ling Yichen", not "Yichen", and it's not "Your Brother" with a warm atmosphere.

Qi Ming waited until Ling Yifeng's trembling body calmed down a bit, and then slowly let go of his hand.

"When I was young, you asked me if I wasn't afraid of you. At first I thought yes, but later I realized that I was most afraid of you. Even if my brother whipped me a hundred times with a belt, he would still gnash his teeth and try his best to treat me well. You are different. You are such a good person. Even when I don’t know that you are my own brother, I don’t want to see you sad and make you angry. In fact, in the end, I am more afraid of you mercilessly Take back your kindness to me, and just leave. You are more decisive than my brother." Ling Yifeng raised his head and said softly, "But you still left."

"sorry."

Ling Yifeng waved his hand: "It's my fault. I insisted on tying the two of you together to give me the illusion of a family. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have to torture each other long ago."

Qi Ming really wants to say that I am also willing to say that I would rather be able to endure these tortures and be with him, but the tortures are endless and the good things are diminishing, I really can't bear it anymore.

He hesitated for a moment, took off his coat, and put it on Ling Yifeng.

"You will soon be unable to wear my clothes, so I will leave you another piece of clothing at the end." Qi Ming took a few deep breaths before restraining the urge to flush his eyes, "I will leave you a copy of the key to my hometown, which is considered as a gift for you." Make a souvenir with Chongshan's childhood. If we are really together in the future, take him back and help me clean up the house together."

Qi Ming booked a flight ticket for that night, and Ling Yichen drove him to the airport in person.

Qi Ming said that he had seen himself not long after he was born.

However, Ling Yifeng leaned on the back seat of the car and thought for a long time, only to find that Qi Ming's earliest memory was a summer afternoon when he was pestering Ling Yichen who was doing his homework, making him very irritable. At this time, Qi Ming just opened the door and walked in. , just knocked Ling Yichen on the head, bent down and hugged himself.

The person who always had the upper hand when messing around with his friends not only didn't fight back, but the corners of his mouth were obviously curled up, revealing a smile that he couldn't hide.

The author has something to say: Thanks to the little angel [Xi Qing] for the nutrient solution ×5

I didn't want to drag my hands on the details, so I sent them all out.

I typed a lot of words and finally deleted them.Counting the first time I wrote this paragraph and the two revisions, there are a total of three times. Every time I read this paragraph, I feel very uncomfortable.

I know some little angels like vice cp very much, thank you for liking them as much as I do.At the same time, I would like to thank all the little angels who accompanied the deputy CP to come here. This is just a cut-off point of the story, and it is by no means the end of the story.

Think about it or come up to make up a knife.

The original sentences of those sentences in the dialogue.

Qi Ming, "Ling Yifeng, are you not afraid of me at all?", Chapter 21.

Qi Ming, "Your brother and I, no matter what happens, we will never let you go, remember?", Chapter 22.

Qi Ming, "Don't cry, baby, let's go home.", Chapter 29.