my roommate is my lover

In fact, before today's show started, I secretly made a decision, the most important decision about my life, I will do what I made my wish at the beginning, no matter what, one day, I will change to a new attitude and stand on his side In front of you, in front of the whole world.

Be someone who is good enough to be worthy of him.

I called my aunt: "Auntie, I want to be a soldier, can I ask my uncle to help me?"

My uncle is a senior commander of the National Third Air Force. The two are just married and have no children. My aunt wants me to join the army every day, but my mother doesn’t want me to suffer, so she never agrees.

"Oh, that's great. I'll tell your uncle right away. He wants you to go quickly. When he retreats, you just make it up. My aunt is very optimistic about you." The aunt said cheerfully.

"Okay, thank you, Auntie."

This decision actually came so suddenly that I couldn't even react to it. After hanging up the phone, I realized that I had made the biggest decision in my life, and it was also the most correct decision. I knew in my heart that this road was difficult to walk, but I But I will never regret it...

When I met Li Anni again, I suddenly understood that there is nothing predestined about love, everything is never arranged by God, and the trajectory of everything will be very different because of your small decision all the time. What I have to do now is not to let my future self look down on my present self.

It was only when I got out of the broadcasting station that I realized that it was snowing. The snowflakes were falling softly and coldly. Li Anni stood opposite, holding a black umbrella, and looked at me quietly. I immediately smiled. , I felt that the corners of my mouth could reach the roots of my ears, and now it was so easy to face him, I walked over and hid under his umbrella: "Come pick me up?"

He still had a cold face, but the fine lines at the corners of his eyes betrayed him, and his voice was as gentle as water, quietly melting away in the winter snow, and he said, "I can't help it, who told you to stay in this building?" , thinking of you all day long."

I laughed: "Me too."

It was the same winter, and that year was also the same snow field, almost at the same time, but with different moods and different endings.

Li Anni, I accept that I like you, and I am ready to fight for it.

We walked towards my hut side by side, with creaking footsteps and fluttering snowflakes. I secretly put my hand into his pocket and said, "Why did you beat him?"

He also put his hand in and held mine: "No reason, just hit me if you want, who told him to be so annoying."

I squinted at him: "Hmph, are you still reasonable?"

He turned around and propped the umbrella towards me: "Why, do you feel distressed?"

I laughed: "Why, are you jealous?"

The people around let out low muffled laughter, and the laughter spread in the chest, overflowing in this winter.

He whispered in my ear all night: "Shali, I'm sorry, you were wronged back then."

"Actually, I already guessed it at the time, but there was nothing I could do. Only by leaving can you return to a peaceful life. You cannot be forced to choose between your family and me. On the night we separated, my dad came to pick me up and told me 'If you want to protect the one you love, you must have enough ability. If you want to bring pain to others for your own selfish desire, then you are a coward.'”

"He was right, so I never went to you again, but I know that I still like you, still love you, never forget, never reduce, what about you? Do you still like me?"

I turned over and hid in his arms: "Well, I like it, I have always liked it."

"So, do you think you have the ability to protect me now?" I asked him.

He rested his chin on top of my head, pinched my fingers, and kissed them one by one: "I don't know, maybe there is, I worked very hard. I studied construction management in Germany for two years and ran all over the world. I opened a photography exhibition, and even opened a small company. Later, the country hired me as a strange official. It doesn’t matter, as long as I can improve my ability, I am willing... So, am I capable now? I don't know, but my mother can't stop me, Shali, we can be together now."

I nodded, "That's right. You see, I'm still nothing. I'm struggling to live at the bottom with no value in life. Just like what your mother said, how can a person like me be worthy of you."

"What are you talking about? She has the final say on whether she deserves it or not!! I have the final say. You are the one I like and the baby in my arms. You are more important than anything else."

"Really? You can't lie to me." I said, but my nose made a heavy nasal sound. After he noticed it, he lowered his head and kissed him: "Fool, when did I lie to you? I have lived for such a long time, all The happy times are those days with you, don't you realize?"

"Well, I found out."

"Baby, hold me tight."

"I like you..."

Early the next morning, I heard a knock on the door in a daze, and just as I wanted to get up, I was held down by Li Anni: "Go to sleep, I'll go and have a look."

There was a noise at the door, as if there was a dispute. I squinted my eyes and got up, put on a pajamas and squeezed towards the door. When I saw who was coming, my mind was already clear, it was Li Danqing.

When he saw me coming, he said inarticulately, "Sand, who is this... why are you in your room with no clothes on? I thought I made a mistake?"

Li Anni pushed me in: "Be careful of catching a cold, go get dressed." Then he turned and asked Li Danqing, "Come in?"

Li Danqing put down the thing in his hand earlier, but didn't sit down, and ran to my side to make a fuss: "When did you become so open, Shali? Are you...?" He made a winking expression, as if there was a thousand words Wanyu is embarrassed to say.

I glanced at the person on the sofa who was flipping through the breakfast brought by Li Danqing, and smiled: "It's my boyfriend."

"Yes? What?!!" He yelled again in a fuss: "That host?"

"No."

"...You change really fast..."

Li Anni reserved a table in the restaurant, invited Qi Mengmeng and Li Danqing, and I was with him.

He was wearing a white suit and black shirt, and he was so handsome. Standing under the light, he made me feel like I wanted to show off. Qi Mengmeng is always playful and cute, teasing: "I said gravel these days Why is it so silent, it turned out to be kidnapped by someone."

Li Danqing was still a little confused, staring at us blankly, not knowing what he was thinking.

Li Anni smiled, stood up, and raised his glass: "Then I would like to thank you for taking care of the gravel, and I will take over in the future."

"Actually, what he said back then is not completely false. Shali still likes girls a lot, so you have to be careful." Qi Mengmeng added without fear of death.

I looked at Li Anni nervously, and he smiled: "With me here, he won't like other people."

"So confident?" Li Danqing, who was in a daze, said, "That radio host seems to be good at gravel."

Are these two people dedicated to dismantling the stage?I glared at them both...

Li Anni smiled: "He's too busy to take care of himself now, so he probably won't bother Sand Gravel again."

At this time, my mobile phone rang, and when I looked down, I glanced at Li Anni reflexively. He smiled at me and motioned me to go out to pick it up.

"Hello, Auntie." I went out and whispered, covering the door.

"Sand, I asked your uncle. He said you can go now, just in time for them to recruit soldiers. Do you think it's a coincidence? But you have to rely on yourself when you go. Being a soldier is not an easy job. If you want Be mentally prepared."

"Well, I see, please send me the time and the things to prepare."

"it is good."

"Goodbye, Auntie."

They have already started to order, Qi Mengmeng is arguing to eat seafood, but Li Danqing refuses to let it go, saying that the sea water in winter is not clean, and they will eat it in summer, the two of them started arguing again, Li Anni looked at it funny, Seeing me coming in, he handed me the menu: "I ordered a chicken soup for you, and your favorite shredded pork with Beijing sauce."

"Thank you." I said.

He raised his eyebrows and smacked his lips: "So polite."

"Would you like to drink any more?" I asked.

"White beer is fine, but don't drink red beer, I'm really not used to it." Li Danqing's forthright character returned.

"I said gravel, I know what you guys were discussing at that time, and you kept it from me. It's too disrespectful. Now that you are so open, are you still afraid that I will discriminate against you?" Li Danqing stood Get up and grab a glass of wine.

"I can't explain what happened back then in a few words." Qi Mengmeng grabbed his clothes and pulled them off forcefully: "Don't meddle in it."

Li Danqing avoided her hand: "I'm talking to the gentlemen, don't interrupt."

Qi Mengmeng snorted: "I'm too lazy to care about you."

"Although I don't know what happened back then, Shali, since you chose this man again, it means you still like him. I really hope you are happy, but there is one condition. If this man treats you badly, I will Li Danqing was the first to stand up for you, I don’t have any other skills, I have a lot of crooked ways.” His words moved me, because in Inner Mongolia that year, I did not recognize this friend in vain.

"Thank you." I smiled and clinked glasses with him, and drank the wine in the glass in one gulp.

In the middle of the night, Qi Mengmeng's driver came to pick her up, and Li Danqing was picked up by the way. After Li Anni watched them leave, he hugged me, kisses fell like raindrops, and his body was hugged tightly. Oxygen is thin, and the sky is hidden in his thick black hair.

"Sand, I miss you so much." He gasped.

"I'm not here." I said.

He kissed my ear and said in a deep voice: "I can't help but miss you, I still miss you when I see you, just miss you so much."

"That, Li Anni..."

"Huh?" He put his hands on my head: "What's wrong?"

"I-I want to be in the army," I said.

His arm holding me was visibly stiff, and after a while, he spoke again: "Do you have to go? I just came back."

The atmosphere suddenly became heavy, and my arm was tightly held by him, as if if I said something that displeased him, he would become very angry, and then wring my arm severely.

I still nodded: "I have already decided."

His arm was thrown away, he gave me a cold look, and walked away. I stood where I was, feeling that this winter was really cold, even colder than the last winter.

The person who had left came back quickly, grabbed my hand, and led me towards the parking area.

I felt that my arm was about to be pulled off by him, and I didn't know where the anger came from. I shook his hand vigorously and shouted: "I don't want to be looked down upon, I want to be a person worthy of you, Li Anni, I like this Living is tiring, do you understand?"

"You have everything in your life, but what about me? Even if you have a little something you like, you have to look at other people's faces. You can't decide anything until now. You have to worry about this or that. Being with someone like you It's not easy..." I don't know if there are bloody tears on my face again, the cold wind in winter makes me shiver.

"Lee Annie, let me go, I will become a character like you, and then stand with you."

"..."

"...Let me go."

"...Okay." He seemed to use all his strength to say this word: "But, you must come back."

"Yeah." I nodded emphatically and grinned at him.

When he took my shoulders and leaned against his chest, I could hear his heartbeat, fast and powerful.