go back and try love

An Wenxuan never thought that one day he would be scolded by a father who pointed his nose at his nose. He could not utter a word with his mouth tightly pressed together. Apart from the astonished staff members outside the room, there were also some trainees watching the excitement. In the past, he was an idol, a role model, and a goal to work hard for, but now everyone knows that he is actually a pervert who has sex with men, and every expression on his face outside the door is very exciting.

After hearing the news, the manager who rushed over persuaded Zheng Yu's father to leave, but Lin Che dispersed them, leaving only him and An Wenxuan in the room. An Wenxuan's heart tightened: "Brother."

"An Wenxuan, what's going on?" Lin Che got straight to the point, "Why did Zheng Yu's father say those words?"

An Wenxuan clenched his lower lip, showing embarrassment: "I, I..."

Seeing An Wenxuan's expression, Lin Che could already guess most of it, but this matter was too weird. In his impression, these two people were people from different worlds, and when they were together, they were even friends. Can't talk about it, how could it be...

"Wenxuan, you," Lin Che sighed without knowing what to say for a while, "Hey, although I don't know the ins and outs of the matter, I know more about Zheng Yu than you. …”

The word 'cheat' is really hard to say, but apart from this trick, Lin Che really couldn't figure out how a simple and elegant boy like An Wenxuan would get so entangled with that person and willingly walk on that road of no return?

An Wenxuan smiled bitterly: "No, I did it voluntarily, but I didn't expect that his father would come here and cause trouble for you."

Lin Che waved his hands helplessly, and said in a melancholy tone, "It doesn't matter to us, the key is yourself, you should think about it carefully, I know better than you what kind of virtue Zheng Yu is, I don't want you to go to a desperate situation, Wenxuan , this road is beyond redemption for us! You must think clearly!!"

I don't know how the manager calmed down Zheng Yu's father. He locked himself in the practice room alone, lying on his back on the floor full of exhaustion, quietly recalling everything that happened recently.

The setting sun is like blood, leaning against the dusk alone, the sky is dyed dark red, and the window frames are inlaid with strong ancient Greek colors, thick and deep like an oil painting.

Suddenly, the phone rang—"Hello?" There was obvious weariness in the voice.

"Xuan...Wenxuan," the person opposite was also cautious, "Are you okay?"

"Well, it's okay."

The matter has come to this point, and An Wenxuan has no need to ask questions. He understands that the two people's personalities are very different. They finally started, but they ignore the potential danger. , refused to give in, the two of them made mistakes again and again, and now they are in this irreparable situation, the original promise is only left if...

As for what happened today, An Wenxuan has nothing to complain about. He pities the parents of the world. No father would want his son to go on this path of no return. Why would he want to fall into this ridiculous emotional game? But, The most difficult thing in the world is the word 'love'.

"It was my impulsiveness that made me confront my dad, but I didn't think he would go to you. I'm really sorry..."

As he said that, he was already a little choked up. Originally, he wanted to be brave for love, but now he hurt the person he likes - such tragedies and comedies are staged every day in the world. Intimate friendship is lost to scruples, hard-won love , Lost to suspicion, people are naive and stupid, childish but arrogant.

"No, it's okay, don't think too much, it's not too bad now."

He tried his best to keep his tone steady, and even wanted the other person to feel relieved—this was the first time he loved someone with all his heart. Ever since he met this person, his heart seemed to be in a deep quagmire, and he couldn't escape or escape. , unknowingly leaning on this person, he is not a qualified lover, always unable to give this person enough trust, worrying about gains and losses, and anxious, but he always tries his best to love, and is criticized for no reason , obviously a lot of words are stuffed in my heart, and I want to explode and confide, but facing him at this moment, I still smile gently, and the words on my lips have become nothing...

I just don't want him to experience the pain he has suffered again.

"Wenxuan, I'm sorry."

Zheng Yu clenched his lower lip, a little sparkle overflowed from the corners of his eyes unconsciously, and silently crossed his cheeks, he understood his relief, understood his embarrassment, and felt sorry for his incompetence—he always thought that in front of him, he was the king who conquered cities and conquered territory. Keeping him safe for the rest of his life, protecting him for the rest of his life, and now, he suddenly discovered that from the beginning to the end, he was dependent on him like a child, domineering, and accepting his love with peace of mind.

"Then, we..."

An Wenxuan interrupted him forcibly, and said, "Zheng Yu, your father is right in saying that there are so many roads in the world, why do we have to take the small road?"

Zheng Yu was stunned for a moment, his eyes dimmed slightly, as if he had a premonition long ago, there were not too many ups and downs, he just restrained the out-of-control emotions just now, and asked in a calm tone: "What do you want to say?"

"It's because we think things are too simple, don't say we are public figures, even ordinary people, homosexuality is taboo," rational words have the power to drive people crazy, "Now, if you don't have deep feelings, you can get them back , let's end it."

Zheng Yu was not angry or refuted, just listened quietly, and finally heard the word 'end', his eyelashes trembled slightly, slowly closed his eyes, took a deep breath, opened his eyes after a long time, and said softly: "You really do you think so?"

"...well, really."

The eyes are dim, like ashes after the flames, desperate and cold: "Okay."

Every word at this moment is thoughtful, and every decision is irresistible. Compromise with you is not because I lost, but because I understand your hesitancy to speak, and feel sorry for your dilemma. Love has always been a pure Faith, even if the heart is like a knife, I still smile at you, even if the world is barren, I will still be your believer.

Obviously he proposed it by himself, but the moment he heard him say "yes", his heart felt as if he was hit hard by an awl, and the pain was severe. An Wenxuan tightly pursed the corners of his mouth and did not say a word. The two seemed to be Like reaching an agreement, holding the phone, listening to each other's breathing, I don't know if putting down the phone means it is completely over...

From then on when he threw the key to him, the time hastened like a white horse, and the memories were trivial, like catkins. In less than a year, the two of them had joined together, whether it was joy or pain, they accumulated At the corner of memory, it becomes an insurmountable heartache. Is it possible to end it with one sentence?

But, what if it doesn't end?

The rift in the heart always exists, and the external pressure is getting bigger and bigger. Their love is like a knife stuck in the chest. If you pull it out, you will die, but if you don’t pull it out, it will hurt. The two seem to have a broken heart, facing each other. , obviously in a straight line, but can only go further and further...

"Now, the company's treatment of you is also frozen, right?" Zheng Yu asked suddenly.

An Wenxuan froze for a moment, then replied blankly: "Well, almost, what's wrong?"

"You haven't had a vacation for a long time." Zheng Yu took a deep breath as if he had made a big decision, "Next week, let's go out to play, just the two of us, the world is so big, there is no need to curl up in a shadow. ..."

'...going out...to play? An Wenxuan didn't follow his train of thought, his head was empty.

In the end, the man sighed in disappointment and said to himself quietly: "It seems that we have never traveled alone, so let's keep it as a memory for the future!"