【Black Flower】Guide to breaking up in the world

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It was an evening that was rarely cool, and the black glasses brewed a pot of tea, sat on the wicker chair outside the shop, and enslaved the college student guy he hired to smash walnuts for him to eat.

"Master", - this guy is a rich second generation, the kind who drives an Audi to work, the two met by accident, and the black glasses taught him some serious knowledge and heresy, so he is honored as a teacher with peace of mind - "Next week we I can't come to the final exam, the afternoon of Monday, Tuesday and Thursday, Wednesday morning, and all day Friday."

The black glasses nodded and said yes, if you smash it lightly, Ren'er will be broken.

"Master, do you know how difficult it is to serve you? You are so difficult to serve, why don't you consider giving me a raise?"

"Why do you need a salary?" Black Glasses asked bluntly, "Buying models? I told you to pack up your pile of things. I almost tripped when I went to fetch them yesterday."

"Ah?" The buddy said in surprise, "Are you all right? My Gundam?" "It's broken, go and see for yourself."

The man dropped the walnuts and ran into the house howling.

The black glasses picked up the cup and took a sip. The tea was fragrant and elegant, and the small wind was blowing, so pleasant.After a while, he heard the sound of footsteps coming back, and then there was the regular sound of cracking walnuts beside him again, so he stretched out his hand and put whole walnuts into his palm one by one.

The black glasses ate for a while, and asked, "Don't you work overtime today, Mr. Xie?"

Xie Yuchen stopped smashing walnuts, ate the one in his hand, and asked, "When did you find out?"

The black glasses smiled, "As long as you don't spray two catties of perfume on your body, I will recognize you."

Thinking of that day, Xie Yuchen couldn't help laughing.

The black glasses asked, "Where's the idiot?"

"Let's go," Xie Yuchen said, "Leave as soon as you see me coming."

The black glasses laughed, "Why is he so afraid of you? What did you do to him?" Xie Yuchen was also puzzled: "It's nothing, I haven't said a few words." "You are too murderous."

Xie Yuchen shook his head, "It's not him I want to kill."

The black glasses laughed, seeming to enjoy it quite a bit.The next moment, Fu asked again: "Xie Yuchen, have you been free for half a month? Come to me every day?"

Xie Yuchen thought for a while and said, "Mr. Qi, I'm chasing you, didn't you notice?" The black glasses laughed and said that you are so direct, I am going to blush.Xie Yuchen said that's not necessary, you just cooperate.

The black glasses gradually stopped laughing, and said Xiaohua, you have never done such fruitless things before.Xie Yuchen took a sip of his tea, and the evening reflection was reflected on his smooth forehead and handsome eyebrows. He said that I am old and past the age of pursuing results.

The black glasses were silent for a while, expressionless, and then asked, have you ever thought about it, maybe the choices I made have nothing to do with you at all, they are just my whim.It's just a coincidence that I always run into you.Maybe I'm just teasing you by the way, who would have thought you'd be hooked every time.

"By the way, mess up my engagement? Then help me recover my losses?" Xie Yuchen sneered, but instead said: "It's okay, just by the way, I don't care." He played with the few walnuts in his hand with downcast eyes, leisurely He said: "What are you doing for, you just know it yourself, don't try to give me an answer. Anyway, I am doing it for myself, and I want to be with you endlessly in this life. Don't hide. You I can't escape either."

The black glasses sighed inwardly, Xie Yuchen really lost all face, and gave him all the lining.He has never been cowardly or timid when he grew up so old, but the pain in his heart at this moment is really beyond words.He thinks that I can't hide for a long time, but I don't always think that maybe you can hide.

In fact, after thinking about it, I know that the two of them have tried every means to break up in the past ten years, but if they can really break up once, there is no reason to talk nonsense here at this age.

The black glasses think of me as a prodigal son who wanders the world. I originally thought that living in my 30s would be enough for me. Who would want to kill you halfway, but I can't take you with me, and I can't let go of you.Your beautiful little head is full of calculations and calculations all day long, but you don’t care about your own sorrows and joys, but you grow stronger and stronger.I'm dead, who else dares to love you, who can afford you?

He was in a mess thinking about all these years of dilemma, these things he would never say.After a long time, I suddenly thought of defending myself: "Well, I really didn't want to delay your marriage. I saw your news after my eyes recovered, and then I heard that you have a girlfriend, and I think it's good. You will What you did. Later, when I found out that you were engaged, I really wanted to see you. I was afraid that the meeting would be too embarrassing, so I went to drink first, and I accidentally drank too much. "

Xie Yuchen said yes, then why did you change your mind later?

"Oh, when I saw your expression when you saw me, I knew you didn't want to get married at all." "What expression do I have?"

The black glasses said happily, "You want to kill me on the spot." Xie Yuchen thought about it and smiled. "Do you have the same expression now?"

Xie Yuchen shook his head, then remembered that the other party couldn't see, so he said, "I'll kill you, it's too cheap for you."

The two sat quietly for a while, the sun was setting, Xie Yuchen said, let's go into the house, don't you let your apprentice read newspapers every day, it hasn't started today, I will read it for you, which one comes first, "Enterprise Home", "Global Times", "Financial Weekly", or something else?

"No need." The black glasses can be said to be self-defeating and replied: "I am already here, why are you still listening to news and gossip!"

Xie Yuchen stood there in a daze, slowly chewing on this sentence for a long time before asking, "Is that why you have stayed in Beijing?"

A once-in-a-lifetime look of embarrassment flashed across the face of the black glasses. He waved his hand and begged not to say anything. He walked into the room and sat on the chair. A cigarette was lit on the table.

After smoking a cigarette, he said, "Xiao Hua, you have checked my medical records and contacted the doctor, so you should already know about it. It took me at most two years from complete blindness to death."

More than know.This incident is a countdown timer hanging over Xie Yuchen's head every day, teaching him to experience real madness.

"I have been blind for more than half a year now, and I have to plan out the time when I may be unconscious or comatose at the end."

Xie Yuchen didn't move at all.The black glasses didn't want to imagine the other person's expression, and then said: "Hua'er, don't bother, really. For the rest of our lives, it's mainly because I have more than enough heart and not enough life,... I'm sorry."

After a while, in the silence, the black glasses said in a panic: "Hey, baby, aren't you crying, don't..."

"No." Xie Yuchen interrupted him, and said softly, "I'm going to cry for you if you're blind."

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Xie Yuchen understood the meaning of the black glasses, and he didn't want him to toss and suffer any more about this matter.But Xie Yuchen thought, why should I listen to him?He is a big liar, a big hooligan, a big bastard, why should I listen to him?If you don't let me work hard, I won't, I will persevere and exhaust myself for this. If there is a chance, I will die for you, bloody and bloody, and hang my life on a thread. See if you are willing to die!

Therefore, Xiao Hua, who refused to be obedient, refreshed Wu Xie's cognition of him over the past thirty years again and again in a few months.The proud, independent, strong, and calm Xie Yuchen would knock on his door in the middle of the night, saying that we have to add up, and there must be many doctors who can treat diseases; When the experts were discussing the disease, they became furious because of the sentence "no therapeutic value"...

Wu Xie was both heartbroken and frightened, and went home and said that even Xiaohua was like this, Zhang Qiling, please don't let anything happen to you, otherwise, when you recover, I'm afraid I won't be me anymore.

Later, Wu Xie and his studio simply suspended most of their business. He went back to his hometown to look for famous doctors. Fatty went to a place called Yucun in Fujian, saying that there was a special product that might be helpful. Zhang Qiling went to Miao Village in Guangxi, where he was when he was young. After staying for a while, some ancient folk prescriptions were quite effective. Huo Xiuxiu and her husband also contacted various medical institutions overseas.

Just still hopeless.

One night, Wu Xie and Xie Yuchen had dinner together. They had a poor appetite, and they lit cigarettes after a few mouthfuls.After drinking, Xiaohua half-lyed in the chair, and said vaguely that one night, when I fell asleep, I dreamed that I was 20 years old, and I saw him for the first time at Xiuxiu's grandma's house.He slowly said that I dreamed that I knew what was wrong with him since I was 20 years old. He couldn't lie to me if he wanted to, and he couldn't hide it from me.

Wu Xie's empathy ability is so good, it's very uncomfortable to hear.He couldn't say something like persuading Xiao Hua to be more open and mentally prepared, because he knew that if it was him, he would be unable to do it at all.

A few months later, Black Glasses began to experience headaches, dizziness and other complications.The glasses shop has been closed, but Xie Yuchen still shows up at least once a day. If there is a doctor with him, he may need to cooperate with the examination or question and answer. If he came by himself, they will talk casually as usual.Xie Yuchen's anxiety has never been shown, but the black glasses seem to be able to see that his cherished heart is struggling and sinking in the swamp of despair.He knew very well that one day he would not even be able to hold on to entertaining Xie Yuchen. Looking back, if only he could give himself a good time when he was just blind.

One day, Xie Yuchen came over very late, and after a few gossips, he sat opposite him and said calmly, "I want to know if you have any unfulfilled wishes."

"Yes," the black glasses said with a smile, "I haven't seen you wearing a small skirt yet."

Xie Yuchen paused for a while, "What else?"

The black glasses said, "It's gone."

Actually not, there is another one.I regret that my imagination is not rich enough to imagine what you will look like when you get old.The black glasses went through it in his heart, and chose not to speak.If Xie Yuchen is finally able to let go, he doesn't want to hang regrets in his fingers anymore.

There was no sound from the other side for a long time, and the black glasses said: "Hua'er..."

If his eyesight is still there, he will see Xie Yuchen slam the document in his hand on the table, look at him with an extremely disturbed expression, and say, "I wanted to tell you that now there is a surgical plan, and it is successful." The rate can reach 50%, if you have any unfulfilled wish, you have half the chance to realize it.”

——In the end, you just want to see me in a skirt?What about your future? ?What about your ability to make waves all over the world? ? ?

The black glasses froze for a few seconds, then lowered his head, frowned and smiled.He stretched out his hand, Xie Yuchen held it, and pulled him in front of him.The two involuntarily hugged each other's much thinner body.

"That's fine," the black glasses whispered in Xie Yuchen's ear, "You can only wear half of it." Xie Yuchen's hands grabbed his shirt behind the black glasses.They seemed to be laughing,

But the kiss was bitter.

It has been more than half a year since they reunited, and they were finally able to hug and kiss each other, and finally allowed themselves to rest for a while in the embrace that was longing for the pain but did not dare to touch.

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The black glasses were admitted to the hospital soon, and began to do examinations, consultations, take medicines, and prepare for the operation.

The facilities in the private ward are very advanced, and he quickly got used to it.Xie Yuchen came over whenever he had time, and did everything by himself without calling a nurse.

The black glasses lamented, and finally became a sick patient. The stalwart image I have erected with you over the past ten years has been destroyed in one fell swoop.

Xie Yuchen stuffed the pill into his mouth and said cheerfully, "Yes!"

When all aspects were basically ready and he began to arrange the date of surgery, Xie Yuchen always thought about the 50% success rate, and the worst possibility was that he would not be able to get off the operating table.He calculated over and over again, but of course he couldn't figure out any results.Finally one day, he couldn't help asking, "How's your luck?"

"Great." The black glasses said happily, "But it's all used to spoil you." Xie Yuchen looked at the man and remained silent.

For examination and surgery, the black glasses' hair was shaved, and of course he didn't have to wear glasses. The striped hospital suit was fat and short on him, and he looked more like a reform-through-labour prisoner than a sick one.His facial contours are three-dimensional, with masculine and sharp lines. Even when he is old, the lines on his face are only deepened when he smiles, adding to his mature charm.Because he was blind, the nurses stared at him blatantly.

Presumptuous, free and easy, careless, nonsense.Still this virtue.Xie Yuchen always felt that with him, anything could be accomplished and anywhere could be reached.

The black glasses flirted with no response, so he decided to change his strategy, change from active to passive, and give Xie Yuchen a chance to confess his love, so he asked, "What about you? Are you lucky?"

"I don't know." Xie Yuchen replied truthfully: "I have always relied on strength."

The door lock rang, Wu Xie came in with two bags full of things, sweating and said, "What are you two laughing at? Are you finally going crazy together?"

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The black glasses entered the operating room, and Xie Yuchen sat alone in the waiting area.They did not tell others the exact date and time of the operation.In the end, it was a private matter that belonged only to the two of them.

Xie Yuchen lived in the ward yesterday, and the two shared a bed, neither of them slept.In the early morning, Black Glasses simply sat up and asked the person next to him, "Do you remember when we first met?" Xie Yuchen turned his back to him, looked out the window and said, Wu Xie and I are going to the fat man's house for dinner, and you come to open the door. Holding a pot of unmixed salad.

His tone was flat, and he continued unhurriedly: "I know what you want to say, save it, it's useless to say it. From the age of 20 to now, thanks to you, in the past ten years of my life, I have always You smell like scum, do you think I’ll forgive you now that the truth has been revealed? Dreaming. Now you’re an accountant with me, and you’ll have time tomorrow, let’s settle the matter.”

"Yes, yes, of course." The black glasses responded in every possible way, then took back what he said just now, and said, "Actually, I want to tell you that it was the first time you saw me, not my first time." See you once."

Xie Yuchen looked back at him in surprise.

Black Glasses recalled: "The day you arrived at the school, you all went to get your card. The machine in the service department was broken, and you all waited in line. I was playing billiards on the second floor, which used to be a rehearsal room. For dancing, the windows are covered with reflective film, so you can’t see the inside from the outside. Foreigners gather by the window to watch the Chinese girls in the procession. I went to light a cigarette and I happened to see you.”

Xie Yuchen sat up, leaned against the head of the bed, and looked at his toes, "Am I prettier than a girl?" The black glasses showed his desire to survive: "I don't know, I saw you at a glance, and then I patronize you."

Xie Yuchen laughed.

The black glasses are rare and serious, and his tone has slowed down. He said, you know, I was very desperate at the time. I didn’t despair when the doctor said I would be blind and short-lived, but when I looked at you, I felt that life was really boring.

"Because at that time, I felt that I would definitely not be able to sleep with you."

"..." Xie Yuchen said, "I'm sorry, I let your expectations fail."

The black glasses just laughed, then spread their hands and said, "I, you know, don't really talk about anything else. Since I have thought about you from the beginning, it can't be anything else. If you can't sleep If we don’t see each other, we won’t have any intersection, if we don’t have any intersection, how can we see you in the future, if we don’t see you, other things in the world don’t mean much.”

Xie Yuchen turned his face sideways, staring at the black glasses.It's a little fortunate that he can't see his expression at the moment.The black glasses were still smiling, and said: "So baby, you see, when I was young, people said that I would not live to be 30 years old, but now I am fucking middle-aged, not only fell in love with Xiao Hua at first sight, but also fell in love with him Breaking bones and connecting tendons, lingering for the rest of my life, I tried all the postures I wanted to try."

Xie Yuchen's face turned pale, and he replied softly: "But I haven't tried it yet." The black glasses smiled and closed his eyes, very fond of and helpless, "Oh, then why didn't you say it earlier." Xie Yuchen With his lips slightly parted, he tried to find something to say, but failed.He knew what the black glasses were going to say next, and he wanted to stop him again, because as long as he opened his mouth, he couldn't refuse some words.

Sure enough, the voice of the black glasses sounded, just like his hands, wide, slender, powerful, and airtight, gripping his heart tightly.

"I mean, Xiaohua, even if it's the worst outcome, I'll die without regrets, so don't be reconciled, okay? Anyway, life is your person, and death is your ghost."

He smiled in the direction of Xie Yuchen, even more handsome and suave than when he was in his twenties, like darkness and light converging into nuclei, which would violently burn all mediocrity and make people burn at any time.Still so fascinating, this man, no matter what situation he is in, is still proud of his life.

Xie Yuchen walked over and kissed his lover, his confidant, his enemy's nemesis, and his support and guidance in the boundless world.

The black glasses lightly stroked the corners of Xie Yuchen's eyes, then raised his right hand as if swearing an oath, opened his palm, and asked him, "Promise me?"

"promise."

He slapped it hard into his hands, a very loud and tough high five.Putting aside all the definitions of their identities, they are just two men who have decided to share their destiny, filled with sorrow and joy, and daring to each other.