The scumbags are all catching up to seek reconciliation

When Xie Guanju first returned to China, the weather was freezing cold, but it has gradually cleared up these days.

Or maybe Zhong Zhi's illusion, he felt that he was no longer like a walking dead.

For Zhong Zhi, in the 17 years he has not met this person, his world is black.No one wants to share a piece of cake with him, and no one wants to sit with him. Wherever he goes, he is alone.If he didn't suffer from contempt and white eyes, then that day would be a happy day for him.

And his parents are very strange to him, they are the ones who abandoned him.This kind of hatred and anger planted seeds in his blood very early, but at that time he was too young to control his own destiny, so he could only suppress himself desperately, telling himself to endure, and to endure.When he grew up a little bit, he started to fight back.

He originally thought that this was his normal life, but after being intruded by this person, he realized what kind of normal life other people lived.Some people accompany, some talk, some give gifts, some celebrate birthdays.Only he hides in a dark corner, looking so abnormal in the eyes of others.

It's not so much that this person came up to him at his house and gave him a kiss that made him make up his mind to get close to this person, it's better to say that the first time this person took the initiative to sit next to him and smiled at him. shaken.

His heart was hidden in the darkness, and he had been carefully spying on this person from the very first sight.

With every glance this person casts on him, every movement he makes, there is an undercurrent surging in his heart.I can't tell if it's palpitations, longing, joy, doubt, or any other emotion, but all these things are mixed together, and only the word "possession" remains.

Want to possess, want to be your own.

——That's why the deep-rooted hatred was born.

This person appeared suddenly, disappeared suddenly, gave with his own hands, and crushed and destroyed with his own hands.The little light he had spied before completely disappeared without a trace.

Everything collapsed in an instant, which made him fall into endless darkness again, even more painful and tormented than last time.

But this time, Zhong Zhi wavered again, without hesitation.

He knew that if it was still an illusion created by the other party this time, then he would still repeat the same mistakes of the past, and finally become a ridiculous person.But he also knew that no matter how many times he did it again, he would only do it like this.Then, he can only pray that the other party really likes him this time.

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In the next few days, he found that Xie Guanju often secretly peeked at him when he turned his head away.But once he turned his head away, the man nonchalantly looked away.She was not as resistant to him as before, as if she was used to him hugging him from behind all the time, and sometimes sitting on the sofa, she deliberately reserved a seat for him.

When he hugged this person, this person turned out to have some reactions. Although he couldn't say anything good, sometimes his ears were slightly red, his straight nose bridge and slightly upturned lips were the same as the confident and flamboyant eight years ago. But there is no difference to those who are gentle with themselves.

When going to bed at night, if he didn't go to bed, this person didn't seem to be asleep at all.Zhong Zhi tested it on purpose, and stayed up in the study until after two o'clock in the morning before quietly pushing open the bedroom door, throwing off the quilt and squeezing onto the bed.The man's eyes were tightly closed, but his body didn't look like he was asleep. He clearly pretended to be asleep, and subconsciously put his hands around his neck and moved a little closer to his arms.

This discovery makes Zhong Zhi feel like a beast that has stolen the meat and tasted the sweetness. He is happy in his heart, but his face is calm.

The body temperature and breathing of the person in his arms made him feel like he was in a dream.

Now he doesn't want to find out what kind of toy this person used to treat him back then, and why he abandoned him without saying a word.Now he just wants to imprison this person a little bit more tightly. If this person likes him a little bit, then let him use all means to make this person like him a little bit more.

He doesn't think it's begging, he thinks it's taking.

Now he is completely different from back then, it is impossible to be the same as back then, watching this person disappear without being able to do anything.Now he is strong enough that this person cannot escape from his palm.

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The next day, Xie Guanju went to the balcony to cook some potted plants that Zhong Zhi had bought back as usual, and Zhong Zhi received a call from his assistant.The key to the diary was found from Xie's house.This is not a difficult lock to open, adult men can break it open at will, but it will be damaged, so Zhong Zhi chose to wait a few more days until the assistant got the key from Xie's house.

He came out of the kitchen, glanced at Xie Guanju who was squatting on the balcony, and said, "I have something to do with the company, I'll go down."

Originally thinking that Xie Guanju would have no reaction, he turned around to get the coat hanging at the entrance, but he didn't expect that this person suddenly put down the flower watering device in his hand, walked over from the balcony, and asked casually: "What are you doing at night?" Are you coming back for dinner?"

After Xie Guanju finished asking, he seemed to feel that his question was redundant, so he looked away in a concealed manner, sat on the sofa and looked for a magazine and flipped through it.

Zhong Zhi looked at him with burning eyes: "You want me to come back soon?"

"Don't interpret my words too much." Xie Guanju muttered.

Even so, the magazine in his hand fell down.

Zhong Zhi looked at the person in front of him. After eight years, he once again felt that he had grasped the life-saving straw and had the hope of going ashore to breathe.His eyes were full of smiles, he squatted in front of Xie Guanju, and turned the magazine in Xie Guanju's hand over.

Xie Guanju: "..." He coughed in embarrassment.

Zhong Zhi stretched out a hand and rubbed the top of his head with gentle but firm movements.Just like what Xie Guanju did to him back then, but the positions and roles of the two were reversed.Even if Xie Guanju was playing with him at that time, but this time, he should be more or less sincere.Zhong Zhi is not sure, but he refuses to let go of any hope——

Xie Guanju didn't dodge his move, but just looked at him in a daze.

Zhong Zhi looked into this person's eyes, as if he was reflected in them, there was no one else around, only the two of them.The sofa, the lights, the low-pitched TV, the tea on the coffee table, the unwashed dishes in the kitchen, this is the scene that Zhong Zhi has always desired the most, and now it has come true.Although this realization was obtained under his means and coercion.

Several emotions welled up in his throat, eager to say something to Xie Guanju.

But he moved his lips and swallowed the words.

It's not too late to say these words in the evening.

"I'm leaving, I won't be back very late." Zhong Zhi straightened up and glanced at his watch.

"Yeah." Xie Guanju looked up at him, his eyelashes fluttered slightly.

I don't know if it was Zhong Zhi's illusion, but he actually saw the word reluctance in this person's eyes.

It was his illusion——

Whether it is an illusion or not, Zhong Zhi has an illusion of being saved deep in his heart.

The assistant has delivered the keys.Zhong Zhi went downstairs wearing a black mask, found his car in the parking lot, and took out the diary from the trunk.He opened the car door and got into the driver's seat, and waved to the assistant to signal that he could leave.

Now that the key and the diary are in his hands, he opened them easily with a "click".

But he held the diary and frowned, he hesitated for a moment and dared not open it.If he wasn't in the diary, it's okay, that person didn't take him too seriously, and he can force himself to accept it.But what if there were other people in the diary, say, someone the person had liked before him?

Then he would definitely go crazy with envy.

Just thinking about it now, a trace of anxiety flashed in Zhong Zhi's eyes, if there was really someone else, he would have to dig three feet to find it and wipe his neck.The more he thought about it, the more he felt as if this person really existed.

Not only that, if there is him in the diary, but it is describing how to joke and bet with others, which is good for him, then he...

A hundred thoughts flashed through Zhong Zhi's mind, he frowned and threw the diary on the passenger seat, maybe it was right not to pursue the past—but he still couldn't help it, couldn't help but want to go Know more things related to Xie Guanju, even if it's a single word.

He glanced at his face in the rearview mirror, took a deep breath and calmed down, and picked up the diary again.

The book is obviously old, some color has faded on the cover, and the title page is also slightly yellowed.However, the number of pages written is not many.The first ten or so pages have roughly memorized the names and passwords of some favorite games. Since the handwriting is eight years ago, the handwriting is very green, but Zhong Zhi still turns over slowly, reading each word.And with a sigh of relief, no other names appeared.

On a certain page in the middle, the date began to be written.

Followed by a line of crooked writing: "There is a very special child, who seems to be from our school."

Zhong Zhi immediately recalled the words that this man confessed to himself in his home eight years ago. He said that he had been paying attention to him for a long time, that he knew that he got up at six o'clock, and that he was very special—although A long time has passed, but Zhong Zhi almost engraved Xie Guanju's words and the expression on his heart when he said those words.

When Xie Guanju said these words, Zhong Zhi didn't believe it from the bottom of his heart, and he just thought that the other party was teasing him.Even now, Zhong Zhi doesn't believe what Xie Guanju said back then is true, what he likes and what he wants to play together are all lies.Otherwise, why would it disappear without leaving a word?After disappearing, let yourself look around like an idiot.

But unexpectedly, like a proof, he really appeared in the diary on this day.

Zhong Zhi's breathing was a little unsteady, and he turned to the next page with great anticipation and fear.He now seems to be flipping through his sentencing records.

"Deliberately being at the same table with him, but he doesn't care about people at all, and he doesn't copy homework..."

Zhong Zhi's whole body was tense, and his eyes moved back almost half a word—the handwriting was scrawled and childish, and it was indeed Xie Xiaofei's handwriting back then.As early as that time, Zhong Zhi had already snooped everything about this person, including his writing.

"I want to please people but I don't know where to start, I want to hit people. And he looked at me with wet eyes, making me like a bad student who bullied female classmates and pulled their braids. Although others called I'm a bully on campus, but I'm actually very kind, okay? Besides, his side profile is really pretty."

Zhong Zhi's heart was about to jump out, and the blood rushed to the top of the scalp.