Can't hold hands

After finishing the report, I confirmed that the fire did not burn myself, and my life returned to its original calm state.

That kid Chen Shixin really started chasing Han Hui, and he didn't leave after finishing the experiment, pestering me with questions, without any cover-up.

"Don't keep asking me," I was really annoyed by him that day, "I ask her out a few times during this time, I know everything."

He suddenly became depressed.

"what happened?"

"She doesn't want to go out with me."

"Huh?" Luo Suo's hand stopped, I was a little surprised, "Why?"

"She said she rejected my advances."

Turns out it's not as bad as I thought it would be!I wonder.

"You know she likes gays, right?"

"Yes, she told me."

"She's the kind who doesn't like her since she came out of the womb, and can't get her back."

I thought he didn't really know about it.

"I know, I know what's going on, but I just like her, and I want to fall in love with her. When I first saw her, I thought, and after communicating with her, I became more determined. Plato is fine. It has nothing to do with sexual orientation, does it?"

I can't speak, I can't imagine what kind of emotion this is, it sounds like a sacrifice, what is it about Han Hui that attracts him so much?

But I won't ask this kind of question, in the end I just pat him on the shoulder.

"Then come on, Han Hui is not someone who is easy to compromise."

I don't really believe that he can persist for a long time. After all, this kind of relationship is too extreme, and Han Hui can't meet the perfect standard in his mind. After discovering this, Chen Shixin will no longer like her.

The temperature in August was terribly high. Xu Ming asked Han Hui and me to go out with them to choose their wedding clothes. He was planning to hold an open-air wedding here, and invited some close friends to be casual.

"Have you booked your wedding venue yet?"

I remember that some churches need to be booked at least half a year in advance.

"We booked it last November."

"Then there is a plan!"

"That is!"

Xu Ming's wife was trying on a wedding dress, and a best friend of hers. Han Hui easily got along with them, and now she was pulled in as a consultant.

It was already half an hour later when the women came out, pushing and shoving, Han Hui walked in front, holding the bride's hand.

"Ah, sister Hui, walk slowly!"

The bride was wearing high-heeled shoes about ten centimeters, and was helped out by two people.

very beautiful.

Solemn yet playful, gentle and gentle, I have to admit that when girls wear wedding dresses, they are really beautiful, making me want to marry a wife.

But think about it...

"Does it look good?"

Han Hui asked me, all three of them were staring at me.

"Please! Why are you asking me? The Lord is sitting next to me!"

"We don't believe in the aesthetics of straight men, tell me, be good!"

Han Hui's tone was gentle, with a smile all over her face, I could only say to the worried bride,

"Good-looking, good-looking, really, this set is very suitable for you," and then poked Xu Ming beside him, "You think so?"

"Ah-ah, yes, yes, yes, it looks good..."

Xu Ming's stuttering made me want to smack him.

"My wife looks good no matter what!"

When they went in to change clothes, Xu Ming was still grinning stupidly, so I couldn't help but slap him.

"You idiot! Aren't you going to change your clothes?"

He just woke up from a dream and found another district to choose the groom's clothes.

Xu Ming brought me one, and didn't even discuss whether it was good or not. Although I think I have good aesthetics and have been right with Lin Jue for so many years, my opinion is always too thin.

"It's fine if you think it's good. Your aesthetics must be better than mine, better than most, um... straight men. Really, I believe in you."

He gave me a cheering gesture, turned around and changed into a red suit.

"Change it, please."

I raised my hand in surrender, and suddenly felt that what he said before was not unreasonable.

I recommend him to wear black. Xu Ming has a slender figure and a gentle face. Wearing black looks more restrained and looks like a beast. After that, he tried a few different styles of black.

"Aren't you trying to be coquettish? Black is the most suitable for your coquettishness, really." I tilted my head and thought for a while before adding, "The previous set is better than this one. It seems that your legs are 1.8 meters long."

The clerk stood by and looked at us happily.

They all went to pick out clothes, and now I’m the only one sitting on the sofa. The bride’s side came to ask me about changing clothes, and Xu Ming also asked me here. My head is getting bigger, and I feel that my aesthetic ability has never been like it is today Improve fast.

"Your vision is really good!"

The clerk took the initiative to chat with me. I saw that she was standing all the time, so I asked her to sit next to me.

"Thank you," she still pursed her lips and smiled, her accent sounds like a northerner, "customers usually ask us, but your friends always ask you. I think you are more accurate than us. Are you in the design industry? ?”

"Me? No, no, it's completely professional and wrong."

I smiled and shook my head.

"Then you are born with good aesthetics, and you must be happy to be your girlfriend."

She said this very naturally, her tone and demeanor were sincere, and she didn't feel offensive or otherwise uncomfortable.

Before I could respond to her, the phone rang.

I took out my mobile phone to take a look, my eyelids twitched, and from the corner of my eye, I saw that the clerk had turned his head away, and he was relieved.

"Hey."

"One hundred—I'm back, where are you?"

Lin Jue's voice fell into my heart, and there were echoes. I think we haven't been in touch for a long time.

"I'm in a bridal shop. Xu Ming is getting married, so I'll accompany them to choose clothes."

Lin Jue didn't speak for a long time, I guess he might be thinking about who Xu Ming is.

"...Then when will you finish? Can I go find you?"

"Don't," I looked around. There are not many people here, but there are also many, "Don't come."

"Then, you're done, can I pick you up?"

"..."

"...Can you, live with me in the future? As you understand, live together, the two of us."

I leaned back on the sofa, feeling a little breathless, put my hands on my forehead, and closed my eyes.

"...Don't come to pick me up. I'll go back tonight and go to your house tomorrow."

This is the last time, I told myself, for me and for him, the last chance.

"How about this set?"

Xu Ming jumped out again. I glanced at him and shook my head.

The cohabitation between me and Lin Jue started in this hot July. I feel that my feelings for Lin Jue are no longer the same love as it was many years ago. That kind of passionate feeling has cooled down, replaced by a very strange impression , I will not think of him deliberately, but he is like the cicadas in summer, always there.

[Are you coming back to eat tonight]

On weekends, I will fry two dishes at home.

[back]

The current life gives me a sense of security. I feel that my life is not empty, and I can step on it with one foot.

At the end of August, Lin Jue released a single, Prison Bird, which is basically the words in Sun Xue's suicide note.

The accompanying phrase on his Weibo is - "Crazy that can't go back".

I took out my earphones, suddenly afraid to listen to this song.

Finally got the headphones plugged in.

Familiarity enveloped me in an instant. Sun Xue’s last words seemed to come from the abyss of hell, alerting me and mocking me. The collision between Lin Jue and Sun Xue, the work after falling together, is the most perfect, perfect at the cost of life.

A peak that Lin Jue and Sun Xue reached together.

They looked at me together, the eyes of the devil, I felt scared, trembling with fear, I thought I was wrong, why did I have to make Lin Jue become like this?The current Lin Jue will never be able to write this piece, and he can't even write angry works now.

I should let him rot in the mud, let him struggle in hell, and let us in the world understand what sunshine is. This is what he has been doing, but now, and probably never will continue to do.

Why should I stop him?

The devil comes from hell, so he should return to his original place. Isn’t the one I love originally from hell?Those of us are all the same, love the depravity, but dare not really stay in the depravity place, too cowardly, so we step on the flesh and blood of these people to enjoy the carnival, and finally leave them where they are.

This is the case.

When Lin Jue came back at eleven o'clock in the evening, I was confused on the sofa, my mind was in chaos.

"one hundred?"

I woke up as soon as he turned on the light.

"You released a single."

I looked at him quietly.

"Ah... Well, I wrote that song before, but I have been busy with running concerts and competitions before, so I didn't have time to record it."

Seeing that I didn't speak, he was a little puzzled.

"What's wrong?"

I looked up at Lin Jue in front of me, grabbed his collar roughly, and kissed him suddenly, and he quickly responded.

"That's the last song..." Lin Jue hugged me as if to comfort me.

"You could lose lots and lots of love."

"Isn't that good?" He tilted his head and kissed my hair, "I'll need you more, your love, isn't that good?"

His voice was so sad that I was even more confused.

Lin Jue's life is better now than before, isn't it?Healthier, less smoky, okay?

not good?good?But it's all your own choice, there's nothing good or bad, others say what they want to say.

Is it better to follow your nature, or to exercise restraint?

Or it's pointless to worry about these things at all.

"Have you had dinner yet?"

I heard my own voice, it was dumb.

"not yet."

"I'm going downstairs, do you want to eat?"

Lin Jue didn't speak.

"I didn't eat it myself."

"Then I want too."

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