think too much

36

It was rare, until Lu Xingchuan fell asleep, Xu Ze was still in a daze with his eyes open.He tucked up the quilt for Lu Xingchuan again.This person sleeps very honestly, the chance to pat his head, pat his back, and cuddle him is definitely gone, even if he tucks in the quilt, it is actually unnecessary.Xu Ze just needs to do something, stay awake, and think about it.

Either from the first encounter, or from the habits he gradually developed, he was a little afraid of Lu Xingchuan.Even though he hadn't dared to point out that bit of thought for many years, with Lu Xingchuan's keenness, he must be able to see it.Xu Ze was originally willing to be content with not being rejected.He always thinks that there is still a lot of time, and it is good to have the opportunity to share with you, but the most important thing before that is that Lu Xingchuan is by his side.

But Lu Xingchuan has his own things to do and reasons to leave.Not wanting to get involved and not taking advantage, this reason is so morally innocent that Xu Ze even said the phrase "Let me treat you well", in fact, he felt that he was belittling Lu Xingchuan.

At the saddest and most desperate moment of being rejected, Xu Ze thought that Lu Xingchuan was all alone in this world. He could rely on the power of Ningbi Palace, use force and authority to distort Lu Xingchuan's wishes and force him to stay in the world. around.

Pushing down the deep-rooted fear of Lu Xingchuan, Xu Ze knew that he could do it.But what can be done may not necessarily be done.Xu Ze often spread out those old things that were abandoned by Lu Xingchuan and carefully collected by himself one by one, thinking for a moment that he was thrown away by Lu Xingchuan just like those obsolete words and worn-out clothes.Thinking about it, I paid for my own heart, and I am qualified to keep Lu Xingchuan by my side.

But most of the time he thought sweetly, in the next ten years, no matter whether Lu Xingchuan himself cares about it or not, Xu Ze will have a share in his time.Although Xu Ze would not be satisfied with this job, although his intentions are true and deep——

No matter how sincere and deep his heart is, Lu Xingchuan himself is still better than this heart.

"Xingchuan, I knew I couldn't keep you, you're so good." Xu Ze turned sideways and looked at the sleeping Lu Xingchuan.No matter how this person talks and laughs with others when he is sober, he unconsciously reveals that he is superior and indifferent.Now his brows are stretched, he still has a cold face, but he shows a bit of gentleness and amiability, which makes Xu Ze very bold, and leans over to kiss Lu Xingchuan's temples.

"I knew I couldn't keep you, but now you are finally willing to keep me by your side. That's the same."

Up to now, Xu Ze can roughly understand that he happened to meet Lu Xingchuan's rare show of weakness today by coincidence.Xu Ze also knew that the promise in exchange for this luck was a bit despicable, and he was also worried that Lu Xingchuan would regret it afterwards.But now he didn't care so much.

Xu Ze doesn't understand Lu Xingchuan's encounters in the past or his thoughts.Not only did he know, but he also felt distressed.But he also has his own mind.Lu Xingchuan is so good, he will definitely meet someone who is willing to treat him as well as Xu Ze—even more so, Xu Ze.After getting along for so long, Lu Xingchuan has not fallen in love with him, and Xu Ze is not sure, but he will fall in love in the future.

Although these are tenable reasons, Xu Ze is too lazy to think about them at this time.

"This time, you promised me, Xingchuan." He kissed Lu Xingchuan's side face very lingeringly, "I will never let go."

And when he fell asleep peacefully, Lu Xingchuan opened his eyes and smiled very lightly.

Xu Ze is good enough, although Lu Xingchuan always believes that Xu Ze will wake up and get out sooner or later, but since it is not now, then it doesn't matter if it goes on as it is.

37

Now that Lu Xingchuan is walking in the rivers and lakes, his reputation has really grown.Not long after leaving the boundary of Ningbi Palace, people challenged him one after another.Now what he wears on his waist is the saber of his deceased father, using the Lu family's swordsmanship that is completely covered in legends.The little swordsmen who had just entered the rivers and lakes and wanted to make a name for themselves, did two tricks under his hands and went back with a wound on their backs, which is also a story worth telling.

Lu Xingchuan didn't feel much about it.He didn't have a clear destination for this trip, so the journey was slower and he met a few more people along the way, which was pretty good.Only Xu Ze saw that he often had to fight, and sometimes he was almost injured, so he was angry and anxious.

"Xingchuan, you are always so merciful, they will coax you up like flies." Xu Ze took advantage of Lu Xingchuan to retract his sword, and took the man's wrist naturally, and squeezed it gently.

"It's just a sparring match, it's enough to decide the winner. How can it be considered 'merciful'?" Lu Xingchuan patted Xu Ze's hand and said with a smile, "You said they were rushed by flies, so what happened to me? ?”

Xu Ze lowered his head begging for mercy, and held Lu Xingchuan's hand so that no one would take it away, "I'll just say it casually. Besides, since I have the guts to ask you for a 'comparison', if I lose, I will keep the hand holding the sword. When the time comes You are walking on the road with a string of arms, let me see who dares to trouble you!"

He said this almost seriously - Ningbi Palace is not a decent family, although Xu Ze's behavior is not considered murder, his temper is definitely not good when he treats people other than Lu Xingchuan.Seeing his serious face, Lu Xingchuan couldn't help but bend his back slightly, and laughed even harder. "It's not impossible, but please bother me. I'm walking empty-handed, and you lift the string of arms for me. You are so vicious. From the perspective of others, I'm afraid you are even more afraid, and you don't dare to make trouble."

"Okay, okay." Xu Ze responded positively.He didn't care at all, Lu Xingchuan was obviously joking, but if it was true, he would be very willing.

The closer to the Central Plains, the more people came to challenge Lu Xingchuan. When he saw Li Muran standing in front of him holding a sword, Lu Xingchuan was a little surprised.

Xu Ze stood aside, and it seemed that his posture instinctively felt bad.He took Lu Xingchuan's hands and covered them in his hands very tiredly. He could even lean into Lu Xingchuan's ear and ask, "Xingchuan Xingchuan, who is this person? Do you know him?"

"Shen Tian forgets the first disciple, Li Muran and Li Shaoxia." Lu Xingchuan put aside Xu Ze's hand and walked towards Li Muran, "I have something, I should return it to him."

Li Muran's appearance didn't change much, but his whole person was silent a lot, standing there like a dead branch, shaking very quietly.

"Xingchuan, long time no see." He stared at Lu Xingchuan closely, tried his best to control his facial muscles, and smiled, "I have some things that I still want you to see and let you know."

Lu Xingchuan drew his sword with his backhand and laid it across his chest.The snow-white sword blade divided Li Muran's figure into upper and lower parts, which could not be tightly pressed together. "What I said back then, until now, still counts. Are you here to get your mind, or my life?"

"What I said that day also counts." Li Muran's muscles tensed up, but he tried his best to maintain a decent smile on his face, "I want you to believe that, no matter what, I like you to be true."

When Xu Ze on the side heard this, he was so angry that he wanted to kill the thief directly, but his Xing Chuan put down his sword and spoke softly to the thief.

"Li Shaoxia, what does it matter if I believe it or not?"

"What's important... Xingchuan, I only want you..." Before he could finish his sentence, he suddenly flew towards Lu Xingchuan, with the tip of his sword pointing down, and stabbing straight at him.

Lu Xingchuan raised his sword to block it slightly, but only heard a clang. Li Muran seemed to have gained strength, and the sword in his hand fell straight to the ground.And his right hand holding the sword couldn't bear Lu Xingchuan's simple block, the tendons burst, and from the fingertips to the elbow, fine and dense drops of blood oozed out.

"What are you messing around with?" Lu Xingchuan grabbed Li Muran's injured hand and checked his pulse, "What's going on?"

Shen Tianwang's most hopeful disciple, the former No. 1 of the younger generation in the world, now has no internal strength in his body.

"I thought, I did it in front of you. But I was worried that pretending to be miserable like this would definitely annoy you." Li Muran seemed to be in extreme pain, and couldn't hold back his laughter.Seeing that Lu Xingchuan was about to let go, he didn't care about the pain, so he quickly pinched the man's cuff, his voice was still steady, but his figure was already sluggish, "Xingchuan, swordsmanship, martial arts, fame, Shen Tian forgot to give me, I don't want them all. Xingchuan, I know you won't agree, but I can't help but hope, I still want to..."

His posture was pitiful enough, but Lu Xingchuan's expression turned completely cold, and with one finger at a time, he separated Li Muran's hand holding his cuff.

"Do you think that self-abandoning martial arts means breaking all ties with Shen Tianwang? You sacrificed for me, shouldn't I be grateful and comfort you? I didn't mean anything to you before. Is it because of your relationship with Shen Tianwang? Li Muran, I lied to you, used you, and hurt you. Now that you have thought about it, the way you think of is to completely abandon Shen Tianwang, who has taught you so carefully, in order to - like a Like a dog, please me?"

Every time he said a word, Li Muran's figure became more and more fatigued, and in the end, he couldn't hold on anymore and fell to the ground.He whimpered a few times vaguely, then looked up at Lu Xingchuan, his pale face was dripping with tears.

He knew it would be like this - Lu Xingchuan definitely looked down on him like this.Since the Lu family was destroyed, Lu Xingchuan's heart is full of blood feuds, it's his responsibility, he must look down on himself like this.

But he was still not reconciled, and still wanted to go in front of this person and try again.

"I know I'm sorry for Master and I'm sorry for Wulinmeng, I know... But Xingchuan, my intentions for you have never been adulterated." Seeing Lu Xingchuan's expression was calm, he must have despised him to the extreme, "I know that if I do something to hate you Blame your appearance, you may still see me in your eyes. I thought about it, I thought about it before I came to you. So I have no martial arts but still wear a sword, I thought about it... I originally I want to die at your hands today. I have returned my swordsmanship and martial arts to Master, and now I will give my life to you...I thought about it..."

"But Xingchuan, I can't do it. I have to pretend to hate you, to pretend to hurt you, I can't..."

"Xing Chuan, I just now..." Li Muran suddenly laughed, with a pale and embarrassed face, this smile brought some genuine joy, "I just used the trick you corrected before. Now there is only an empty shelf left, but I still remember-I remember correctly, you taught me, I still remember."

This man threw all his pride and pride on the ground, almost hoping that Lu Xingchuan would get some pleasure from crushing these prides and be flattered, but Lu Xingchuan just frowned, leaned over, and gently lifted him. help up.

"Xingchuan!" Li Muran couldn't stand still, and handed over all the weight of his body to Lu Xingchuan.The man's cool body temperature made him addicted.If this person is still willing to allow him to approach like this, he will be so happy that everything is worth it. "Xingchuan, I like you...I only want you."

"Even since we met, I have said and done without any sincerity?"

"I am pleased with you. If I am lucky enough to have your sincerity, it will be my reward."

"Even today, I have no interest in you who is useless?"

"I knew it earlier." Li Muran suddenly laughed in a low voice, "Xingchuan is always like this. I don't believe what you say. You said that you can only use it without sincerity, but you can make good use of it. When you can use it to the end, you let me go. , and even willing to pay me with his life.”

"Although you don't mean anything to me, now I'm in your arms again." Li Muran couldn't hold it anymore, tears streaming down his face. "Xing Chuan is always just pretending to be ruthless, but in fact he is the most soft-hearted. You call me like that...how can you be reconciled, how can you let go?"

"I don't mean to be true to you." Lu Xingchuan finally sighed, "In the end, I owe you. The world is naturally big, and you have found me. If everything you said is true, then give it a try. Can you catch up with me again and find me again." He pushed Li Muran away, and before turning around to leave, he left the sword manual and mental technique to this person.

"If I can..." Li Muran resisted the urge to ask for another promise.His wound still hurt, and seeing Lu Xingchuan's leaving back, his heart ached and he couldn't rest.But that's pretty good.

"Of course I can still find you, several times, forever."

38

"If you want to leave, now is the time to leave." Ever since he met Li Muran, Xu Ze remained silent.If Xu Ze left right now, Lu Xingchuan felt it was justified.

"You want to drive me away? Lu Xingchuan, you're dreaming!" Xu Ze never expected that after finally getting rid of the thief who coveted Lu Xingchuan, Lu Xingchuan would actually drive him away.He grabbed Lu Xingchuan's collar, wanted to say harsh words but didn't dare, in the end he just pursed his lips tightly and put him down.

"You promised me...you promised, keep me by your side."

"I promised." Lu Xingchuan only felt a little headache.He has never been very clear about what these people who talk about love and love are thinking in their hearts. "But shouldn't you... be angry? I didn't reject you before, and I didn't reject Li Muran just now."

"I'm so angry, I'm so angry! This little thief has used such shameless tricks, I can't wait, I... well, if you don't allow it, I won't really bully a person who has no martial arts." He The angry voice got to the back and softened, "Xing Chuan, as you said, I'm just by your side, I haven't been able to take you as my own yet, if you... No, you promised Yes, you can't drive me away!"

Xu Ze naturally hoped that his Xingchuan could get along well with him, and naturally hoped that all outsiders would not obstruct his eyes, but the priority above this hope was that Lu Xingchuan must be willing.

As long as Lu Xingchuan is not willing, he can only...stay by Lu Xingchuan's side until Lu Xingchuan is willing.

"I don't understand." Lu Xingchuan's eyes were dark, pure, clean, with a layer of ignorance on the surface, but a little indifference deep down. "I promised. As long as you don't want to leave, I won't drive you away."

So Xu Ze stayed by Lu Xingchuan's side and traveled to many places.Only now have the young knights experienced the true spirit of the quack.Lu Xingchuan has always acted properly, not being too warm with others, and caring about the subtleties, but Xu Ze became more and more addicted.

Back then Lu Xingchuan said he wanted to see all beings in the world.All living beings have trivial joys and sorrows, and have amorous feelings.As long as Xu Ze saw Lu Xingchuan, he would know all the trivial joys and sorrows and customs.When the atmosphere was great and he was extremely brave, Xu Ze asked Lu Xingchuan,

"If you didn't promise me, if you want to choose... that little thief, isn't it great?"

There was a jar of wine next to the oil lamp, Lu Xingchuan drank, lit the lamp, and then smiled at Xu Ze. "He's not as good as you."

"Really?"

"Why should I lie to you." Lu Xingchuan propped his head, and in his comfortable drunkenness, some words that he would not say to sting people were revealed now, "I still don't understand, for me, for his sincerity, he is willing to give up everything To be someone else in the future, if you are more sincere, you will naturally be willing to give up everything."

"I don't understand." He is finally used to love, love, life and death, but he still doesn't understand.

"You are different from all other people and things. Others are incomparable. Only you."

"Why?"

"Because... because you are Xingchuan." Xu Ze looked at the quiet and pure beauty under the lamp, clearly cold as ice, but showed a bit of tenderness under the firelight, only heartbroken, he leaned over involuntarily, and kissed her Lu Xingchuan.

"I don't understand...that's all." Lu Xingchuan originally wanted to ask, could it be that just because he was a little bit dissatisfied when he was a child, is enough to support Xu Ze to this day?Now that the matter has come to an end, whenever he asks, no matter what the truth is, Xu Ze will definitely deny it.He has devoted enough time and energy to his intentions, and it is already unbearable to be questioned.

Lu Xingchuan was not attached to the answer at first.Xu Ze is good enough.It's nice to have someone around.When Xu Ze wanted to get away and leave, it would be nice to be alone.

He skillfully kissed Xu Ze back.In the dim light, Xu Ze's eyes were deep, full of affection and lust.Lu Xingchuan said "he is not as good as you", which directly made his heart tremble, it was so sweet that it was unreal.

"Xingchuan, Xingchuan...you are so kind...we are together, we have been, always, together..."

Lu Xingchuan agreed softly, kissing, hugging, and comforting.Under the light, his eyes are like deep pools, covering sharp ice edges and pressing down dark flames.

Either the world has the answer, or it doesn't.The way of sincerity is to be honest with the sword and with yourself.

Only.