think too much

33

"That silly boy Aze, I'll leave it to you."

"Is this an order from Master, or a gift?" Lu Xingchuan frowned slightly, this slight wave made him look like a painting, showing a bit of stinging arrogance.

"It's my hope." Xu Zheng looked at Lu Xingchuan like this, but felt relieved, "My apprentice, my son, I wish you well."

"I know." Lu Xingchuan slowly raised his eyebrows and considered his words, "But I don't want to accept it. No matter whether Xu Ze or I will stay with each other one day, I will hope so, not obey Master's hope." He bowed respectfully to Xu Zheng as a disciple, but even the bowed back revealed his arrogance.

He could have restrained himself in front of Xu Zheng, truly, respectfully.But if he didn't even dare to let go of his full posture in front of his mentor, there would be no one left in the world who could tolerate him being honest with each other.

"You...stupid apprentice." Xu Zheng was silent for a long time, but still laughed, he lifted him up and held him in his arms, "Forget it, forget it, I don't bother to care about your juniors' affairs. It's just you, Xiao Chuan must remember,

Although the Lu family is no longer here, there is still me. I have always regarded you as my family. "

"……I know."

"You know what a fart!" Xu Zheng grabbed the silly apprentice's collar and looked at the child with cross-eyed eyes, "I said that if you cause trouble, I will take care of you; if you are bullied outside, report my name." Head, I will support you; if you can't bear anything, run to me. You are a little kid, don't think about fighting everything!"

Xu has been in the rivers and lakes for many years, and he doesn't know what the consequences of Lu Xingchuan's previous actions will be.What Lu Xingchuan said in front of him this time, besides setting aside his relationship with Xu Ze, I am afraid that he also has the intention of never getting involved with Ningbi Palace again.

This silly apprentice can do good and bad things, but Xu Zheng can ignore them.But he was not happy that the child who had been raised for so many years dared to meet him.

"Understand?" He raised his hand and knocked on Lu Xingchuan's forehead.

"Understood." Lu Xingchuan shyly turned away his face, pursed his lips and hesitated for a while, and then replied clearly, "Thank you, Master!"

"Thank you, okay, go and rest." Xu Zheng paused, his seriousness and ferocity on the surface couldn't hold back, and he took a soft breath, "Until you make plans for the future, keep it in peace. It’s okay if you don’t think well, just think about it slowly.”

For most of Lu Xingchuan's time so far, Xu Zheng has played the role of father, and this role is different from the tall and distant back of his childhood.

The biological parents entrusted him with the foundation of character, perseverance, bottom line and responsibility.These things have supported Lu Xingchuan to move forward so far, and will continue to support him to go on.

And Xu Zheng, Xu Zheng's words and deeds, beyond words and deeds, are telling him that he can let it go for the time being, and he can rely on it.

Lu Xingchuan didn't dare to confirm this promise, whether he was qualified to fulfill it, but he was grateful and he liked it.

"Thank you, Master."

34

While Xu Ze dragged his nose and squeezed onto Lu Xingchuan's bed with his clothes and quilts in his arms, Lu Xingchuan's room in Ningbi Palace was spotless, so empty that it didn't look like someone lived there.

With Xu Ze's arrival, many of his personal belongings were added to the room.From insignificant trinkets to swords collected from various places, the young master of Ningbi Palace is very happy to show off all his beloved things to Lu Xingchuan.

Before living with Xu Ze, every piece of Lu Xingchuan's writing, no matter whether it was written or not, was thrown away after writing.But Xu Ze was very reluctant to see it, Lu Xingchuan dropped it on his front foot, and he helped someone put it away on his back foot.Now in Xu Ze's hands, there is a complete context of Lu Xingchuan's handwriting changes over the years.

Lu Xingchuan himself didn't quite understand Xu Ze's habit of hoarding old things.But there is nothing to like or dislike about it.Going with the flow, there was not only one more person in his originally empty room, but also a bit of rare popularity.

When he left Xu Zheng and returned to his residence, Xu Ze had already fallen asleep with a corner of the quilt in his arms.He was different from Lu Xingchuan, he always fell asleep quickly, slept deeply, and had few dreams.Lu Xingchuan ripped off the corner of the quilt quite habitually, and Xu Ze only rolled half a circle, showing no signs of waking up.

Lu Xingchuan covered the quilt for others without being particular about it, and Lu Xingchuan also lay down on his side.Sleep is not good for him, but Lu Xingchuan has not been afraid of sleep for a long time.

Now he is a little scared.

A familiar dream began to unfold in front of him while he was half asleep and half awake.The father fighting against the enemy alone, the crying mother, the little maidservant whose head fell to the ground, blood in the rain, fire in the blood, all things he was familiar with.

Lu Xingchuan stood aside, both devoted and dissociated.He knows what happened, and he knows what will happen.

It should have been like this, but Lu Xingchuan's chest was tight and his hands and feet were cold.He is afraid.A premonition that should indeed be fulfilled frightened him.

The sky suddenly cleared, the blood in the rain in the dream, the fire in the blood, everything became light and faint.Lu Xingchuan stood aside, unable to take a step closer.He saw the little maidservant standing upright with a clean face and smirking at him; he saw his mother take off her gorgeous makeup and stop her tears; he saw his father put away his sword and turn around and walk towards him.

Everything was so good, Lu Xingchuan still stood there, unable to move.He knew what was going to happen next.

"Xiao Chuan, take care."

"Well, I'll take care."

Those clean and warm figures slowly disappeared from Lu Xingchuan's vision.His great revenge has been avenged, and among the living there is hardly anyone he cares about; the dead will never dream of him again.

"Understood, I take care, I take care."

"Xingchuan? Xingchuan! Xingchuan, wake up!"

"Xu Ze? What's wrong?" Lu Xingchuan's voice was terribly hoarse. He felt a headache, his vision was blurred, and he was surrounded by trivial noises.What he felt more clearly than other emotions was irritability.

"It's not me what's wrong, it's you, why are your internal breaths so chaotic?" At this time, Xu Ze didn't care about his timidity, he touched Lu Xingchuan's back and wanted to adjust his breath for others.

"My inner breath?" Lu Xingchuan calmed down a little to feel it, and then felt a sharp pain in his chest.

After vomiting a mouthful of blood, Lu Xingchuan leaned on Xu Ze's body, feeling that there was no pain anywhere on his body.Xu Zezao was so frightened that his eyes were red and his hands were shaking, wishing he could use all his underwear to adjust Lu Xingchuan's breath.While sorting out his sweetheart's chaotic inner breath, he couldn't stop asking in a low voice, "What's the matter, Xing Chuan, Xing Chuan, where does it hurt you, Xing Chuan..."

"Okay, it's all right." The initial turbulent pain subsided quickly, Lu Xingchuan sighed, recalling his dreams, sword skills and mind skills, he probably guessed the reason for his current situation. "Don't be afraid, it's okay." He supported Xu Ze who was terrified, pushed him away, and showed a half-formed smile at him with a pale face.

"Xingchuan... I beg you, can you..." Scared by Lu Xingchuan, Xu Ze seemed to have temporarily forgotten his usual fear of Lu Xingchuan's force.He still firmly held Lu Xingchuan's hand, saying that he was ruthless, but it was in a begging gesture, "Stop laughing, when you are unhappy or uncomfortable, stop laughing..."

"You're always like this. It's such a small matter, but it's so serious." Lu Xingchuan still smiled, but it was rare to be sincere, his eyes trembled slightly, the cold was like melting snow, and the warmth was like melting snow, and Xu Ze stayed there. .

"Your business is nothing trivial." Before Xu Ze fully recovered, he said what was in his heart, and even more boldly, he embraced Lu Xingchuan's cool body in his arms. "Tell me, okay, what's wrong with you?"

35

"I dreamed of the Lu family, parents, and many other people." Lu Xingchuan said calmly.He never revealed his dreams to anyone, not out of shame or defense, but this is his own business, even if others know about it, giving him a little bit of care and pity, it will not touch him, and it will be useless.

But at this moment he wanted to say it—to whomever it was, he wanted to say it.

"It's all over, Xing Chuan." Hearing that he touched this topic, Xu Ze was heartbroken and surprised at his trust and honesty.He hugged Lu Xingchuan even tighter, only thinking about warming up this person.

"Yeah, it's all over. They used to say goodbye to me as nightmares, and now I don't have nightmares anymore. It's good."

"Xing Chuan?" Xu Ze knew that there was nothing wrong with what Lu Xingchuan said, but he instinctively suspected that this person was trying to force him. "You really think so?"

"I originally thought that regardless of life or death, regardless of sorrow or joy, we will always meet again." He suddenly looked at Xu Ze and smiled happily. His eyes were full of genuine smiles, but even the smiles were about to turn into water drops and fall down. "From now on, there will be no reunion. But that is also very good, I should say goodbye to these people and things long ago. I am not willing to let go, and it is also a burden to want to come to them."

It was as if his heart had been pricked by fine needles, and the pain was so painful that Xu Ze couldn't breathe.He and Lu Xingchuan had known each other for ten years, most of which they slept together in the same bed.Originally, he believed that his feelings for Lu Xingchuan were deep enough and true enough, but in the end he only found that this person could always make him more pleasing and... more distressing.

"Not a burden." He declared earnestly, word by word, "You are not a burden to them, and you are not a burden to everyone."

"Okay, it's not such a serious matter." Lu Xingchuan moved lightly, leaving Xu Ze's arms around him, "I've made up my mind. I've thought about what I want to do after leaving Ningbi Palace."

Just now his mind was indeed in turmoil, but in fact it was not to the point where his breathing became disordered or he vomited blood.During the chaos, he was not injured.

His swordsmanship has broken through.

Back then, his mother told him that what was handed down to him was the complete Lu family's swordsmanship.He originally thought that the complete mental method was only for oral instruction to prevent people like Shen Tianwang from snatching it, but now that he thinks about it, it may not be so.

If one really takes the way of sincerity as the foundation of swordsmanship, perhaps the Lu family's swordsmanship cannot have a truly complete mentality, and there will always be only one step forward, one step further.

Lu Xingchuan wasn't sure if there was anything in the world worth his effort to do, but now he has found it.

Old relatives and friends are destined to meet again, and death is not difficult. In the past ten years, he can even live.

And now he was no longer eager for the inevitable end.He found something else, something worth trying.

"I want to see all living beings, mountains and rivers, and dust all over the world, and then judge whether it is worth it—whether everything is worth it."

"I'll accompany you—let me accompany you..." Xu Ze only felt that he had never had more courage in his life than now.He looked directly at Lu Xingchuan, all his beings, his mountains and rivers, and his dust were all Lu Xingchuan.Now facing everything about him, he also asks and promises, "I will be the one who stays with you, I will see all your joys and destroy your sorrows."

"what ever."