walk across the bridge of fog

48.

"What kind of meal do you cook?" Duanmu changed the subject habitually.

"Duanmuqian, you can't always be like this!" Yu Xiaobu angrily turned his body on the sofa.Yu Xiaobu's own action is to pierce his body down hard, which is equivalent to stamping his feet to represent anger.As a result, the sofa bounced Yu Xiaobu's body back again, so he seemed to be bouncing on the sofa.

Duanmu pursed her lips, anyway, she wouldn't talk about work.

"Duanmuqian, you can't decide not to trust me before you start talking."

Duanmu smiled slightly, Yu Xiaobu's words were right. "It's not about trust. I don't think you like thinking about these things."

"Of course it's about trust. You don't say anything and you assume I don't like to think, or you assume I don't understand. Just because I don't think in front of you doesn't mean I don't think. Just because I don't understand doesn't mean I don't think No. You can’t make a decision without talking.”

The more Yu Xiaobu talked, the more angry he became, and the more he talked, the more wronged he became. "You told me a lot in the United States. I admit that I don't quite understand it, but I still think about it when I come back."

"Then tell me, what are you thinking?" Duanmuqian felt that Yu Xiaobu's expression at the moment was quite interesting.The strong vicious stimulation in the afternoon made Duanmu yearn for something simple and friendly.She wanted to hear Yu Xiaobu's pure and happy thoughts.

"You talk a lot about the meaning of life, and you end up saying that life is essentially meaningless. I don't know how you guys think about things, and I don't know how you can come up with nothing after all that The conclusion of being meaningless. I have been thinking about it for a long time, and now I can only tell you that no matter how you decide that life is meaningless, I cannot accept it. Your life, Duanmuqian, is meaningless. "

Duanmuqian was stunned when he heard this sentence.She didn't expect Yu Xiaobu to say such a sentence.

"Your life is more than meaningful, it is simply the most beautiful existence. Your existence itself already means a lot to me. If you must think that my life is meaningless, I have nothing to say, because I really haven't thought about it What do I mean." Yu Xiaobu waved his hand, making a resigned gesture.

Then, the aggrieved Yu Xiaobu found that Duanmuqian's eyes were covered with mist.

"Huh? What's wrong with you?" Yu Xiaobu blinked, and suddenly changed back to his original shape, "Duanmuqian, are you touched by me? Huh? Huh?"

Duanmu rubbed his eyes embarrassingly.Looking at Yu Xiaobu, there was no chewing sound.

Yu Xiaobu leaned in front of Duanmu anxiously, "Duanmuqian, what are you talking about?"

"Xiao Bu, you are the first person to tell me that my life is meaningful to you. That's it."

"Ah? That's right. That's what I thought. It's not nonsense." Yu Xiaobu was even more stunned.After thinking about it, he asked again, "No way? At least your parents said so."

"No, they didn't say that." Duanmuqian replied firmly.After hesitating for a while, Duanmu chose to tell Yu Xiaobu about his life experience.After she grew up, she never mentioned her life experience to others.When she was young, she didn't tell anyone about it, but everyone around her knew that this was exactly what Duanmu felt most ashamed of.

Duanmu is an adopted child. When she was adopted, she was already in kindergarten.The reason why the adoptive parents adopted Duanmuqian from a relative was that they thought they would not be able to have children.

Duanmu always remembers that he was sent to a strange place, and then his mother left without looking back.Duanmu often can't figure out whether it is a dream or a real memory.She was lying on a small bed, watching the back of a woman leaving.The later adoptive mother was talking to herself and coaxing her to sleep.She even remembered the tune of that nursery rhyme.Duanmu's only memory of his biological mother is that back view.

With Duanmu's memory, she can remember more, but she can't remember anything.Duanmu knew that it was a memory that she deliberately erased from her mind later.

At first everything was calm.But when Duanmu was in the fourth grade of elementary school, his adoptive parents miraculously became pregnant and gave birth to a little sister.

Then Duanmu became a superfluous child.The adoptive parents are also not bad, but the family atmosphere has become a little unnatural.Neighbors in the compound and schoolmates all know the story of Duanmu.

Duanmu became more and more sensitive, more and more silent and introverted.She was acutely aware of her unknown origin, and she was anxious.She resented her biological parents who were born but not raised, and she respected her adoptive parents. She felt that she was not worthy of making them angry or making demands, because she was not from this family at all.Duanmu gradually became out of tune with this family.Although the adoptive parents don't say anything, their disappointment and helplessness can be felt from their sighs from time to time.

Duanmu began to live on campus in junior high school.She would rather live in a dorm, and a group dorm would make her feel a little more relaxed.That is to say, from this time on, Duanmu suffered from insomnia, and from this time on, she wanted to be a psychiatrist.She felt that in her life, she couldn't find anyone to talk to or someone who could help her.In terms of academics and life, she doesn't think there are many things that need help. The biggest help is the help of the soul.

After Yu Xiaobu listened to Duanmu's calm narration in astonishment, she always thought that she was the most unlucky child in the world.However, it now appears that psychiatrists really start with their own heart disease.When Duanmu was young, he was much more pitiful than himself.

"Duanmuqian, I believe they all regret it now. You are so good, you are the biggest bragging capital for any parent." Yu Xiaobu patted Duanmu's face comfortingly while talking. back.

Duanmu is still elusive to Yu Xiaobu's simple thinking.Xiao Bu's first thought was that he missed the opportunity to brag.But Duanmu doesn't blame Yu Xiaobu.Duanmu is in a much better mood now.So she's even hungrier.

"Let's go to KFC. I want to eat a chicken leg and two spicy chicken wings." Duanmu remembered that when he was in school, he always used these two rewards to comfort himself.

"It can be, but Duanmuqian, you still haven't told me what happened this afternoon." Although Yu Xiaobu likes to ramble, he can always stick to the topic in the end.

"I can't tell you this. I signed a privacy and confidentiality agreement. Don't force me to commit a crime. You can rest assured that this person's treatment is over."

"Okay, then I can rest assured." Yu Xiaobu kept muttering while putting on her shoes. She thought that Qin Yue didn't protect Duanmu enough, so she should take this part-time job.