walk across the bridge of fog

46.

He Ren looked directly into Duanmu's eyes, "You didn't ask me how I did it last time. So now I have a chance to be honest."

Duanmu frowned and narrowed his eyes slightly, making his eyes both blurred and deep.She nodded slowly, "How did you do it?"

He Ren gently bit her lower lip with her upper teeth. She needed courage.Once she starts to be honest, she must bear the consequences of being honest.Of course, if you conceal it, you must also bear the consequences.The difference is that the consequences of concealment are not imminent.And the consequences of honesty will appear immediately.

He Ren reached out to pick up the backpack placed beside the sofa, and took out his mobile phone from it.The phone is recording.

Duanmu stared at the phone without speaking.

"Dr. Duanmu, I just tell you that I have to write notes every time I go back. What I didn't tell you is that I will also listen to the recording."

Duanmu frowned even tighter, leaned his body on the back of the sofa, hugged his right arm in front of his chest to support his left arm, and kneaded his lower lip with the slender fingers of his left hand.She is controlling her emotions and thinking.

"Why do you want to record secretly?" There was deep disappointment in Duanmu's tone.

"Dr. Duanmu, I dare not ask your forgiveness. I just want to explain a little bit. I have listened to these recordings many times. You say that I have a strong comprehension ability because I have listened to it many times. It is very helpful to me. Doctor Duanmu, I have already started writing, the real start, my new book." He Ren stopped, how she expected Duanmu to express his appreciation to her as usual.

But Duanmu did not.Duanmu has no expression on his face.

"I used to think that the key to writing is to find inspiration, but now I find that it is more important to find a rhythm, the rhythm of life. My rhythm is found here. Over the past few years, I have lost the life I have no fixed time, no fixed things. I wait for Wenxin [-]/[-], always on call. I have no rhythm, no goal. I have no sense of order and rhythm in my heart. I am in slack and commotion Swing. So I lost my tranquility, and I lost my creative inspiration.”

He Ren continued, "I come to Xinqiao at a fixed time every week. This is an anchored time. The cycle of my life is based on this day. This makes me very sure and comfortable. And I would listen to these recordings over and over for the rest of the week and you spoke with a reassuring rhythm and a constant source of inspiration with your words. You suggested that I find a regular time to sit down Writing, I figured it out, you're asking me to find an order, a rhythm. I'm doing it now."

He Ren stopped again, Duanmu still did not respond, silently watching He Ren.

"Dr. Duanmu, if there is anything that can be forgiven in my secret recording, it is what I said above. What I will say later is the reason why it is impossible to get your forgiveness."

Duanmu moved his body, is this a sign of a loose attitude?However, any loosening has no meaning for He Ren.The arrow is not on the string, but has left the string.

"I eavesdropped on the entire conversation you two had here. And listened to it many times. I have the desire to spy on you. I have imagined countless times what you are like when you are not in the clinic. I have imagined your life in the casino. The look, the look in death valley, imagining you flirting with others. I listened to this recording many times, I hate this swimming coach of yours, I think she is totally unworthy of you, she can't understand complicated things I know, I'm actually jealous of her. I'm madly jealous. She can get your smile, get your love, she can accompany you on a trip. No matter how much nonsense she talks, you will still put up with it. But, now I Don't ask your forgiveness, I will promise you."

While talking, He Ren took out a USB flash drive from his bag and handed it to Duanmu. "All my recordings are backed up here. There is also a section of my solemn promise. If these audio materials are leaked, I am willing to bear any punishment."

Duanmu hesitated for a moment, and reached out to take the USB flash drive.He Ren's honesty and sincerity made Duanmu unable to get angry. "He Ren, I accept your explanation. To be honest, if you tell me directly to record, I will not refuse. You don't have to record secretly. I just need the right to know."

"Doctor Duanmu, it's too early for you to say that." He Ren smiled wryly, then closed his eyes, she needed to gather strength.

When He Ren opened his eyes, Duanmu saw the desperate firmness in her eyes.

"Doctor Duanmu, there's more to come."

He Ren's overly serious expression made Duanmu a little nervous, so she smiled nervously, "You have quite a lot of secrets."

He Ren looked at Duanmu's smile infatuatedly, tears were about to come out with regret, she blinked her eyes several times to hold back the tears, and said to Duanmu silently in her heart, "Duanmu, this may be the last time you smiled at me .”

He Ren clenched his lower lip again, opened the phone screen, clicked on a photo, and then put the phone on the coffee table in front of Duanmu.

Duanmu glanced at the photo, it was a photo of He Ren and a woman.

"You and Wenxin?" Duanmu asked suspiciously.

"Don't you know her?" He Ren asked a little surprised.

"Should I know Wenxin?" Duanmu had an ominous feeling, but couldn't tell what it was.

"Her name is not Wen Xin, but Tang Li." He Ren said.