walk across the bridge of fog

33.

Instead of being moved by He Ren's frankness towards Duanmuqian, he started a thunderous fire.

"What do you mean by telling me such a long paragraph? You told me irresponsibly that you are a psychiatrist who often suffers from insomnia, and even becomes anxious to the point of being unbearable. You think I need someone like you A psychiatrist?"

"He Ren, why are you angry? Because my answer didn't meet your expectations?" Duanmu has begun to get used to He Ren's moodiness.

"I don't have any expectations." He Ren replied impatiently. "Why are you telling me this? I don't want to know."

"I tell you this because you asked me this question. We can only choose what questions we ask, but we cannot choose how the other party answers. My answer may make you unhappy, but it is the truth. I am the one who lost sleep." Does the fact disturb you?"

"As a psychiatrist, how can you suffer from insomnia?! How can you be powerless against your own insomnia?!"

"I'm a psychiatrist, but I still have the possibility and right to be anxious. He Ren, you just can't face an incompetent psychiatrist, can you?"

"That's not it! You are the perfect psychiatrist in my heart..."

"Then, you can't accept my imperfection. But the fact is, I'm a person first, and a psychiatrist second. As a person, I'm not perfect. The so-called perfection is just your illusion."

"You have the right to be imperfect, but you should choose not to tell me that you are a psychiatrist." He Ren began to argue with anger.

"I will not give up my right to choose just because I am a psychiatrist. I choose to tell the truth." This time, Duanmu did not back down.

"You choose to declare your imperfection, what exactly do you want to achieve?"

Duanmu realized that He Ren was keenly approaching his real little thoughts.

"That's a good question. Because I realized that you long to have a therapist who is full of wisdom and omnipotence to help you, so that you feel safe or comfortable. After I exposed my shortcomings and incompetence, you showed anger. And disgust, you'd rather not see what's behind my image. I'm going to tell you that what you're looking for in your bones is a magician, not a therapist."

He Ren curled his lips in disdain.Duanmu is just pretending to be smart.

"Thank you for your criticism. But I can tell the difference between a magician and a psychiatrist. I care more about what you imply. I am worried that you are implying that I have to make a new choice and choose to change the psychiatrist."

Duanmu nodded, "That's right. You always have the right to choose."

"You don't want to be with me anymore. You said it yourself that you would be with me through this difficult time."

"I didn't choose to give up on you. I just chose to tell the truth. You still have the option to keep telling me about your insomnia. We can give it a try."

So He Ren began to describe his insomnia symptoms and his mental state during insomnia.Like always panicking in the dark.And the panic kept her from sleeping at all.

"What are you panicking about?" Duanmu asked.

"The content of the panic is uncertain, but the scope is very wide. It ranges from the future of mankind and world peace to as small as a look or a small movement." He Ren paused at this point. She really wanted to add that the eyes and movements she mentioned , In fact, they have been focusing on Duanmu recently.Her mind is full of Duanmu.But He Ren chose not to take any risks today.

"The range is really wide." Duanmu smiled slightly. "I can understand. It can basically be said that there is one reason, that I can't sleep."

"Haha. You can also say that." He Ren actually laughed out loud.Her mood improved a little. "Dr. Duanmu, the insomniac, really understands my insomnia. So, what should I do?"

"You think so much, and think so anxiously, why? Do you worry about the future of mankind and world peace? How can a look and behavior make you nervous?" Duanmu needs He Ren to continue digging.

He Ren thought for a while, "Although the future of mankind and world peace are grand and far-fetched, they are actually related to our destiny. And a look and a movement, although small and trivial, can profoundly affect our emotions and emotions. Everyday life. The anxiety of all this, I boil down to three things: loneliness, meaninglessness, and death.”

"You have sublimated to the height of human's ultimate thinking, which is really easy to cause insomnia. You are lucky just because of insomnia, and many people will be crazy about it. From another angle, maybe you are just thinking about your writing?" Duanmu tried to describe He Ren Topics that are too grand and empty lead to specific things and problems.

"It can also be understood in this way. I lie on the bed and always talk to myself, endless conversations." He Ren swallowed the second half of the sentence again, and now she spends more time talking to Duanmu in her mind, that is An imaginary conversation.

"I can understand that your creativity is recovering? The process of you talking to yourself is actually an integral part of writing. You can continue to ask and answer questions, and continue to argue with yourself. Is it a kind of vitality of thinking? ?” Duanmu asked tentatively.

"If writing medical notes can be counted as writing, I think you are right. In fact, I am not writing any works except for publishing a small article on the official account."

"In my understanding, these are writings, and there is no distinction between high and low." Duanmu said.

"Of course there is a distinction between high and low. Advanced works are rare. Have you ever heard that those great thinkers can only have no more than three great ideas in their lives, or even only three sentences. And their life The rest of the time is spent repeatedly proving and defending these points of view. Similarly, an ordinary writer may only have one or two good works in his life, and spend the rest of his time lying in the halo of these two works and thinking wildly. So I lost sleep."