Time flies, eyebrows become books

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I keep in proper contact with Wen Hao. He is facing employment after graduation, so he will ask me some questions occasionally.The text message from Ziqi was three months after our quarrel, in which he explained the reason for buying couple shirts.He said that he had to face a lot of problems, his father's expectations, his inner guilt, the pressure of his studies, and the tense atmosphere that we had created since then.He said he was a little tired and wanted to rest.

He didn't say breakup, but I understood what he meant.He always puts the pressure on himself silently and moves forward with a heavy load.If he said he wanted to take a break, he really needed it.

I didn't call because I was afraid that I would lose my composure, so I only replied a text message, telling him that the story had already been turned over, and I don't need to feel sorry, I hope he will slow down, and remember to contact me when he has difficulties.

Whether we broke up or not, I don't know.But I know one thing, we are all tired.

We did not contact each other after that, but Wen Hao and I got much closer.We often have dinner together on weekends, sometimes at his school, sometimes to find food or buy vegetables to cook at my place, and then chat.I also gradually told him about the family affairs, maybe the closer relationship between each other started from sharing secrets.

I will still quietly pay attention to the development of Ziqi, of course he has always been a person who is too lazy to update.Even so, occasionally seeing a little new development is enough to make me happy for a while.

After Wen Hao's job was confirmed, he specially invited me to dinner.That day he drank a little too much and was sloppy, so he insisted on going to live with me.

"Let me take a taxi to take you back to school." I suggested.

"I want to go to your place." He cheated on me.

"I only have one bed, it's inconvenient."

"You despise me?"

"No." I was a little helpless, not knowing what to say.

"Are you afraid that your boyfriend will misunderstand you?" He looked at me innocently.

I don't know how to explain, I understand that he is interested in me.Perhaps because I was afraid that our relationship would develop indiscriminately, after Ziqi and I separated, I still told him that I had a boyfriend.This kind of mood is very subtle, like putting on a layer of protective clothing for yourself, and putting on a posture of not getting close to strangers.If Ziqi comes back, then I have not let him down.If I don't come back, then I also have a buffer period, and I am not eager to invest in a new relationship.

I still let him go to the dormitory, he sleeps in the bedroom, and I sleep on the sofa in the living room.The next day was a working day, I bought breakfast and went to work.He didn't contact me for more than a week.I understand him, I used to worry about gains and losses just like him.Any move of the other party may stab me, but now I become calm instead.

One day, I inadvertently saw the dynamics of Lin Sha, it was a travel photo, and the attractions were all the cities where Ziqi was located, and even Ziqi's school.At that time, my heart skipped a beat, an indescribable sadness.Looking at the message below, someone asked her if she went to see her boyfriend, but she didn't answer.

This time I was not angry, maybe there was no reason to be angry.What right do I have to be angry?I'm not even qualified to ask.It turns out that the cruelest thing about changing from a lover to a stranger is that I can only pretend that nothing happened.

Suddenly remembered, our first anniversary together.We travel, climb mountains.Along the way, I took many photos.He laughed at me as a tourist here.I said that I would choose a few beautiful pictures, develop them, add text, and make a souvenir book.Then, he proposed to organize a trip every year on the anniversary in the future, record all our journeys in turn, and read them slowly when we get old.Unfortunately, that was our only anniversary trip, and the subsequent anniversary trips were delayed for various reasons.