Time flies, eyebrows become books

【29】

Why do we drift away gradually, this is the question I have always wanted to pursue.Is it because he accompanied my mother in and out of the hospital again and again, but I didn't take care of her around, or did my closest person pass away and I didn't get his comfort?The degree of participation in each other's life determines the depth of the relationship.In the past ten years, we have been in close contact, participating in and influencing each other's major decisions, even if we are occasionally absent, we firmly believe that the existence of the other party is a constant law.But since when did we become prone to argue and doubt each other?From friends to lovers, this is a relationship I never dared to dream of.When the dream comes true, from careful care to dissatisfaction, from low-key and cautious to unwilling to be lonely.We are stretched and hurt.

When I came back from the funeral, I had to devote myself to work, because I had accumulated too much work, and I didn't see Ziqi until about a week later.My aunt asked me if I wanted to go over for dinner on the weekend. I agreed to go there after working overtime. I wanted to call Ziqi at first, but considering that he said the day before yesterday that he was very busy and wanted to stay at school, I went alone.Not surprisingly, Lin Sha was still there.In fact, I was building my heart the moment before I entered the door, but I was still very annoyed when I saw the real person.During the entire dinner time, I seldom spoke. My aunt thought it was because of my grandma, so she said a few words of relief.

After dinner, Lin Sha and I left together. I remembered Ziqi's promise to me before, and looking at the situation today, I felt cheated.Therefore, I couldn't help but ask her, "Are you guys dating?" I didn't expect that I would be so direct. After my patience was repeatedly polished, this was the only reason I had left.

Instead of answering immediately, she asked me instead, "Are you guys dating?"

I was really taken aback. I didn't understand what it meant, and unconsciously popped out the sentence "You are asking a strange question", but I still lacked courage.

"That's right." She said it a little playfully, with a rising tone, like a question sentence or a declarative sentence.

"It doesn't matter anyway. You have known each other for so many years, and it is not ruled out that some things will be confused. What you firmly believe in may not necessarily be believed by others." She said casually, but every sentence seemed to mean something.

"I'm afraid it's not so easy to confuse! It's not a kindergarten kid." I was a little annoyed by the provocation.

"It doesn't matter if you don't believe me, are you sure what Ziqi thinks?" I found that she was more impatient to speak out than I was.

"I should know better than you." Anger was spreading.

"Not necessarily! In fact, the problem between you is not necessarily because of me. If you were so sure, you wouldn't ask me. If you ask, it means that your relationship is not that strong, and he didn't give you that much. A firm belief." Sure enough, she is different from Chengcheng, she is calmer and much more witty than Chengcheng. "You have known each other for so many years, and your uncles and aunts also like you very much. In fact, I think if you want to live for a long time, then he should confess to his family. I am not stupid. I don't need to separate you on purpose. I am not stupid enough to think that sex The orientation can be reversed, but I think you should think about whether he is the same as you. In our hospital, there are several beautiful nurses who like him. Although he didn’t respond, he didn’t refuse. If I were him, I would definitely He will say that I have a date, no one will check anyway, but he didn’t say anything! So the problem between you is not because of me, but you only know me. I admit that I like him, but I don’t I want to throw myself into my arms, and I often come here because I feel that my aunt is very pitiful, and I don’t know the place well, so I spend more time chatting with her and enlightening me. By the way, last time I was invited to dinner for this matter, in fact, I think He doesn't have to be so polite." She spoke casually and softly, some words even pierced into my heart, I didn't know who to vent my anger and complaints to, and I felt helpless.