Xi Yin

The next morning, Chen Huai was still awake when the doctor came for rounds. Qin Chuji lightly stuffed the thermometer in. After waiting enough time, his body temperature dropped to 38.6°C, which was much better than yesterday.

The female doctor nodded, prescribed the medicine and asked Qin Chuji to get it

"Eat this before going to bed. Eating it during the day will make you sleepy. I can be discharged from the hospital today. They are all young people. Their self-healing ability is good, so don't worry."

Qin Chuji went to the first floor to pay for the medicine. Chen Huai, who seemed to be in a deep sleep, opened his eyes silently. It was so clear that he didn't feel sleepy at all.He just wanted to escape and didn't know how to face him.

The beds in the hospital are tight, and it's not easy to hang on to a minor illness like him. Chen Huai couldn't pretend anymore. Before the person came up, he got up and tidied up the two people's things, and sat by the bed and waited.

Qin Chuji came up and saw him, "Are you awake? Are you still feeling bad?" He reached out his hand to Chen Huai's forehead, but when he was dodged, the hand froze in the air, and he retracted silently, "Let's go home."

Chen Huai got up, followed him silently into the car, but the car didn't drive home directly, and stopped at the door of her mother-in-law's porridge shop

On Monday morning, there were not as many people as there were on weekends. Seeing that there was no need to line up, Qin Chuji was not in a hurry. He first took the military coat Chen Huai was holding and threw it to the back seat, then went to pull him down, ignoring his struggles, and pushed him on the back seat. On the seat, I ordered the food and brought it over by myself

"Soymilk fried dough sticks are all your favorites, but they are not the signature of this store. I don't know if they are good or not. You can try them." He handed Chen Huai a pair of chopsticks

Chen Huai took it and ate in silence. He couldn't tell whether it was good or not, but he still had a fever and felt sick to his stomach.

Seeing him start, Qin Chuji took two mouthfuls of porridge by himself, and finished his breakfast with cold side dishes with chili oil, but he didn't leave, sitting beside him and waiting for him

Chen Huai looked around the store, it was hard to see so many empty seats on weekends, the line could go all the way across the road from here, today...it's already Monday!Then Qin Chuji should go to work, but he was delayed by himself, this...

"I delayed you from going to work, I'm sorry." The silent atmosphere was suddenly interrupted, a flash of surprise flashed in Qin Chuji's eyes, no matter how indifferent he acted, he was still worried. Now that Chen Huai opened his mouth, he finally let go mind

"No hurry, take your time, I asked for leave in the morning." Qin Chuji wiped off the soup stains on his chin for him, and added, "It's okay."

The words in his heart passed by his throat in circles. Last night, he thought about communicating with Chen Huai and changing his temper. I can't speak, it's really hard to change my nature

Qin Chuji pursed his lips, those words were gurgling and swallowed back

Chen Huai only felt that he had something on his mind, but he was still in the awkward atmosphere of the Cold War, so it was inconvenient to ask, so until the two returned home, Qin Chuji tidied up inside and out, and went out to work exhausted, the two still had no communication

Chen Huai blamed himself for being ignorant, Qin Chuji, who was not related to him, dared to lose his temper at him, it was simply making trouble for no reason

Qin Chuji blamed himself for being too stubborn. The angry Chen Huai fell ill, but in the end he still couldn't open his mouth, and the rotten wood couldn't be carved.

The two had their own concerns, and they both carried their little guilt, and passed a few days without embarrassment or embarrassment.

Every day, Qin Chuji got up early and made breakfast on the table. At noon, he ordered takeaway from an old shop he had known for many years. At night, he hurried back to make dinner. Every day was actually fulfilling. , there is a faint illusion that the two of them are living a life of daily necessities like ordinary couples, and they enjoy it

Chen Huai saw his hard work, and finally, on the day of the sixth-level exam, mustered up the courage to break the deadlock

Chen Huai stood in the hall, changed his shoes, and called him "Brother!"

Qin Chuji was taken aback for a moment, after all, he hadn't heard this name for many days, and then walked over quickly

"what happened?"

Chen Huai only waved to him, Qin Chuji took two steps closer, and was embraced by Chen Huai, the estrangement of several days disappeared in an instant

"After the exam, can my reward be cashed?"

Qin Chuji smiled and almost forgot about it, "Okay, wait until you come back from the exam."

Chen Huai shook his head, "I don't want money." He raised his head and looked into Qin Chuji's eyes, "I want something else, a reward."

The body seems to be tighter, and there is something surging in the dark eyes... Others, rewards... Qin Chuji doesn't know if it's what he thinks, he is not sure, and he is not sure

Chen Huai did not hesitate, a light kiss landed on the corner of his lips, like a piece of velvet brushing gently, itching——

Qin Chuji's body tensed up, his pupils shrank suddenly, as if he wanted to continue, but was pushed away by Chen Huai

"Such a reward, will you give it?" Chen Huai looked at him from bottom to top, "Don't push me away, don't reject me, don't stay away from me...Give it?"

Qin Chuji's mind was in turmoil. Pan Yiduo's words, Chen Huai's kiss, the warmth of his body, the peace of mind of the hug... All kinds of emotions surging like a whirlwind made him stalemate without speaking.

Chen Huai lowered his eyes, looking very disappointed, "If you don't want to, forget it. There are always others who are willing..." He put his hand on the door with force, and the door was pushed open, and the draft rushed in.With the sound of hunting wind, Qin Chuji was awakened by that blow

He grabbed Chen Huai and pulled him into his arms, with undisguised panic in his voice, "Don't think about other people... I will give it, only I can give it."

Chen Huai listened to the chaotic heartbeat in his ears, and the familiar breath filled his nostrils. He finally felt at ease, and gently rubbed his cheek against his chest.

"Do you keep your word?"

Qin Chuji knew that he couldn't see it, but still nodded, "Forget it, I never break my promise."

"What happened in those few days. If you don't want to tell me, I won't ask." Chen Huai said softly, "I said, as long as you don't drive me away, I will never leave. But if you hate me, I... ..."

"Xiao Huai, I'm sorry." Qin Chuji interrupted him, not wanting to hear the word leave from his mouth

"Hmm..." Chen Huai took a breath, struggled out of his arms, stood on tiptoe slightly, kissed lightly, backed away with a blushing face, and rushed out the door in a panic. Go to the test."

Qin Chuji was leaning against the door, listening to him kicking and stepping down the stairs, with a reassuring smile on the corner of his mouth

What is the difference between not starting because you are afraid of the end and giving up at the beginning?He is always thinking about such questions, hesitating and dare not speak, he is afraid to take a step in the face of the unknown, the soul and the body are like two separate parts, always lost.It wasn't until just now, until Chen Huai's warm lips touched his own, and his wandering soul returned to its place in an instant, and his mind was filled with the figure of the person in front of him, that he had the answer in a trance.There is a difference. If you don’t start, you will have nothing. If you try to start, you may have unexpected gains

He chuckled and closed the door. The sun outside the window was warm, without warmth, but with dazzling brilliance

Chen Huai came out of the examination room and heaved a sigh of relief. The real questions for two months were not in vain. With some confidence in his heart, he dared to ask for rewards with confidence. For some reason, he jumped up and almost jumped back home.

"Brother! Open the door, I'm back!"

Qin Chuji went up to him, seeing the unconcealed pride on his face, couldn't help but stroked his hair

"It seems that the test is very good."

Chen Huai nodded, without saying a word, threw himself into his arms, "I want to make up for what I owe these days... so comfortable..."

Chen Huai was buried on his shoulder, with a satisfied smile on his face, and Qin Chuji's body tensed up suddenly with a sigh.

"Torture me? Really..."

Qin Chuji didn't feel wronged, he pulled him in, pushed him against the wall, everything he wanted was between his arms, very satisfied, he leaned down slightly to give him a deep kiss

Chen Huai's eyes went dark, the sound of the swinging wall clock was heard next to his ears, and colorful light spots appeared in his mind, as if he didn't think about anything, but also seemed to think a lot, the touch of body conveyed some unspeakable emotions

He softened his waist, and slid down against the door as if he had lost his strength. When he regained consciousness, the weight of his whole body was on Qin Chuji's body.

"Huh—is this reward beyond the standard?"

Qin Chuji smiled lightly, and his warm breath fell on his neck, "There is no super-class, and it is within the specified range. Do you want to review it?"

Chen Huai hung on top of him and jumped up, lying next to his ear, a little shy, but more blunt: "I want... I am free today."

Qin Chuji pulled him up and brought him into the bedroom, and closed the door smoothly, his voice was low and hoarse, with an unconcealable desire

"Coincidentally, I'm free today too..."

The sky is bright outside and the voices of people are bustling, but these seem to have nothing to do with the two people in the room...

It was the first time in Chen Huai's life that he fell in love, and he was actually very proud. The examination room was also enough to give him face. He completed his sophomore year with a high score that he had never achieved in two years. Chen Huai stared at the lucky one on the report card. I got a class with full grade points, and I laughed out of shape

If Qin Chuji was with him, he must be happy with him, but Zhou Nan was standing side by side, the situation is quite different

"Shut up, don't laugh." Zhou Nan didn't have any idea about his low-altitude flying results, but when he compared with Chen Huai's, the gap came out. I became a traitor, and stepped into the threshold of a school bully, he is lonely

"Didn't you fail the course? Speaking of it, it's thanks to Mingjie. Don't you plan to thank him for coming back to help you review after breaking a leg. How about we have a meal together to celebrate his discharge from the hospital. It's a holiday." The last dinner together before." Chen Huai smiled and looked at his report card. Thinking of the business, Sheng Mingjie's parents seemed to be in a hurry to go back. If they don't see each other this time, it will be years later when they see each other again.

Zhou Nan and Sheng Mingjie have the best relationship. If it was normal, Chen Huai would not have reminded him that he would have suggested this, but today Zhou Nan was a little strange, especially when he mentioned Sheng Mingjie, Zhou Nan didn't answer the question, his expression was a little embarrassing

"What's the matter? Are you two having a fight?"

"No, it's nothing..." Zhou Nan lowered his head, unable to see his expression clearly, "Call him if you want."

"I'm terrified of you like this." Chen Huai's face was a little embarrassed, "He couldn't be prying your corner, he's not like that..."

Zhou Nan slandered, it was not prying the corner of the wall, he wanted to pry the house together, Sheng Mingjie is a rational and well-behaved person, he did not suddenly confess to him, nor did he suddenly come out with his parents, in the eyes of ordinary people, nothing happened

But Zhou Nan can always see the clues from his casual touch and his hesitant eyes. Sheng Mingjie really can't lie. Zhou Nan knows that he likes him, but he doesn't know if he is He also has the same thoughts, he is not sure

"It's nothing to say, let's call, come out to have a meal." We will live together for a few more years, and we won't turn our faces over this trivial matter. Zhou Nan is [-]% sure that as long as he doesn't mention it, Sheng Mingjie will never talk to him pick out

When Sheng Mingjie received the call from Chen Huai, his luggage was almost packed, and his parents were still busy

"At night? That's fine, don't book too far away, it's inconvenient for me."

After greeting his parents, he sat by the window and waited for Chen Huai to pick him up.His mind was a little confused. He hadn't seen Zhou Nan in the past few days after the exam. Sheng Mingjie vaguely felt that he was hiding from him. He went through it like a video in his mind, but he didn't find any unreasonable behavior. But he is not confident that he can hide Zhou Nan, maybe he was discovered... Zhou Nan is always so sensitive, he is aware of every little bit of other people's emotions. He didn't feel it when it was useless to him before, but now he feels a little bit of it. Scary, as if there is no privacy

He stared blankly, when he heard someone knock on the door, it was Zhou Nan and Chen Huai who came together

"Uncle and aunt! Let's go have a meal together... Hey, yes, no drinking, er, we understand." Zhou Nan greeted Sheng's father and Sheng's mother, walked in, met his gaze, and only touched After a while, look elsewhere

"What do you want?" Zhou Nan asked him

"No, just take me away." Sheng Mingjie touched the crutches, stood up, spent a few days with these two iron guys, except for slopes and steps, he can basically walk freely

Zhou Nan reached out to him subconsciously, and when he saw that he stood up straight, he retracted it, "Let's go, Shen Xutian is already waiting."

When he was going down the stairs, Sheng Mingjie consciously handed the crutches to Chen Huai, and he grabbed the handle of the stairs himself, and Zhou Nan could only support him on the other side.

The stairs are narrow, standing by the side would get in the way, Chen Huai ran down the stairs first with a wink, and there were only the two of them here

Zhou Nan was inexplicably nervous

"You've been avoiding me recently." Sheng Mingjie didn't question, as if he just stated a fact "Why?"

"No, you think too much." Zhou Nan avoided answering, if he really said it, it would be a bad thing

"Is it me that makes you feel stressed?" Sheng Mingjie moved down, barely relying on Zhou Nan for support, and the hand holding the handrail had bruised veins

Zhou Nan pulled him and leaned on him, "You can rest assured, I won't fall on you, and I don't want to see how dirty the armrest is." She avoided answering Sheng Mingjie's question

Sheng Mingjie didn't want him to hide, "You don't need to feel pressured, I do have... the kind of feelings you think about you, but I... can't do anything, maybe it's just the first time I've been recognized by someone, and I'm passionate , It will be fine after a while. I have a female classmate, who is in the same class in high school. She confessed to me, and I promised her to try it with her during the holiday... So, don't be afraid, I will be normal after school, nothing Change."

Zhou Nan paused, feeling an indescribable emptiness in his heart. It turned out that Sheng Mingjie thought so, calmly like a psychiatrist, analyzing his impulses, and never thought of having anything to do with him from the beginning to the end. , it turns out that no matter where I am, I am not a worthy object of love... Hey, it's like this again, pretending to be affectionate...

"I fucking know, just shut up." As dull as Sheng Mingjie, Zhou Nan was very angry when he heard it.

"You..." Just as he was about to say something, Zhou Nan took him a few steps faster, and he could only keep up with his best. When Chen Huai approached him not far ahead, Sheng Mingjie had no chance, so he could only shut up

This meal was a little tasteless, Sheng Mingjie thought about it, and felt that he should have made the right decision. He ignored the sadness in his heart, and only remembered that Zhou Nan was watching a drama in the dormitory and said many times, "Although I watch this, but I'm straight."

Zhou Nan, he likes women, probably because he thinks being looked at by men is disgusting

That day until the end of the show, Zhou Nan didn't say a word to him again. He had to catch the train home in a hurry, and he couldn't spare the energy to find Zhou Nan. The strong feelings born in his heart were extinguished by himself, Sheng Ming Jie's heart ached, but he didn't regret it. He remembered what his father said all the time. A person is not born to live for himself, so naturally he can't help himself.

I can't help my feelings, forget it...