[Journey to the West] Tucao Emperor who was delayed by Buddhism

Xuan Jing knew he was running, but he didn't know where he could run.

Abyss, mountain stream, cave, forest...

Go to a place where there is no mirror image.

He knew that there was an extinct volcano at the end of the mountain, and there was a dark cave inside, even if there was a mirror image, as long as there was no light, no one could hurt him.

As long as there is no light...

Yes, he grew up in such an environment.

In the beginning, there was no light.

He didn't know when he saw the world, or, not seeing, but reflecting.

Even now that he has turned into a human form, he still does not see the world with his eyes.It's not that he doesn't use it all, but he's not very used to it. Most of the time his eyes are out of focus, and he looks extremely lifeless, like a dead person.When he turned into his original form, that is to say, when he turned into the mirror monster that was neither human nor ghost, he could use his whole body to see the world around him. This feeling was very familiar to him, but to outsiders Words are terrible.

He has always been such a monster, no one understands him, no one is like him, he observes others alone, he wants to blend into a place, but he can't blend in no matter what.

A born alien, a lifelong monster.

Until one day, he learned to become what others like.

For a while, what he liked most was to become what others liked. His wisdom came very slowly. Even if he was transformed, he would still walk in the world like a dead body. He also imitated how others did things, stiff Movements, harsh pronunciation, dull pain - numb love.

He has never been liked by others, and he does not know how to like others.

Human beings are always very smart and can freely use their emotions, but the mirror can only imitate. During thousands of years, he can occasionally feel a wave from the depths of his body, maybe it is emotion, maybe something else, he does not know.

But there is one thing he knows - because of his weirdness, everyone is afraid of him, only one person is willing to stare at him, and that is Qing Mang.

He called her Aqing, which was the first word he learned.

Ah Qing would stare at him for a long time, he couldn't tell what was in her eyes, but apart from her, he never got any attention, and no one even dared to look at him.

She named him Xuan Jing, and told Xuan Jing that he used to be her mirror, so he was hers and she was his, they were a ghost, a mirror, and nothing in this world except each other No.

But Xuan Jing didn't understand.

Not only did he not understand her words, he did not understand everything.

But he felt that what Ah Qing said was right, even understanding human language was difficult for him, but he wanted to hear what Ah Qing said, he wanted to know what the only person in the world who was not afraid of him was saying .

So she taught him to speak, to practice, to...kill.

Xuanjing sometimes squats in the grass in the mountains, watching mantises preying on insects, watching birds preying on mantises, and watching humans shoot down birds with slingshots. He feels that it is quite normal for creatures to kill each other, but sometimes He would also see the mother bird protecting the chicks, and then he was confused again.

It was too long for him to figure out all this, and what continued was just sporadic sparks in the boundless dullness.

He began to know——Ah Qing didn't like him becoming smart, sometimes she just wanted him to become a plane, a qualified mirror, as long as he moved every ten years, and found a new body for her.

He has been looking at Ah Qing's reflection in the mirror for a long time: sometimes she is a girl with fair skin, sometimes she is a young woman with charming eyes, sometimes she puts flowers on her hair, sometimes she disguises herself as a man, and he Curious about what a person is from her eyes, he looked and looked, but couldn't see through.

Ah Qing would sometimes tell him about her childhood, how she once loved someone until the end of her love, and her body was covered with scars.

She said to Xuan Jing: Love is something that can hurt people. Love is different from liking. Likes always hurt others, but love only hurts oneself.Love is blind. You cut off your own flesh and gouge out your own heart to give to others. This is the weakness of human beings.

She also said, I gave you life and wisdom, not to make you have the same weaknesses as humans. You are a mirror. If you don't have your own heart, you won't cut yourself.

But Xuan Jing always thinks—it is precisely because he does not have himself that he always cuts himself.

But Ah Qing didn't listen, Ah Qing told him that everything he thought was wrong, that he had imagined it, and that the outside world was not like this.

Ah Qing said that if a person likes a flower, he will pick it off and watch the flower wither in his hands.But if a person loves a flower, he will break his arm and cut out his heart for this flower. He would rather lose a part of his body to make the flower whole. If you meet someone who is willing to break your arm to save you in the future, she must be I love you very much.

Ah Qing said again, but you are a mirror, who would be stupid enough to love a mirror?

Because he is a mirror, after practicing for a long time, he can start to reflect more things - the beating heart, the inner bones, the flowing blood... the fear and yearning of the people.

At the very beginning, he could only see, but not understand.

Until one day, Ah Qing asked him to bring a woman.

In the past, he just killed them, like praying mantises kill other insects, birds catch praying mantises, and humans shoot down birds.Since he was different from them, he felt that there was something wrong with it.

But Ah Qing soon discovered that killing a person would make the corpse ugly and deformed, so he asked him to bring them back alive.

Ah Qing also said, don't scare her, and bring it back carefully, otherwise the soul will become venomous.

Xuan Jing was in a predicament.He didn't understand what people were thinking, and he didn't know why they were the way they were. He tried to understand the ants in the grass, the birds in the trees, and the fish in the river, but he couldn't understand any of them.In order to take the woman back, he looked at her around her house day after day, looking at her past, what she wanted, and what she was afraid of. After a long time, he felt that this Man has something, something of man left in his body.

In the end, he turned into the woman's dead son, a child less than three years old playing in front of the door, chasing a butterfly.The woman rushed out of the house, extremely suspicious that she was blind, but still unable to control herself, she chased after her.

Xuan Jing chased the butterfly all the way to the edge of the cliff, and the woman shouted the child's baby name heartbreakingly behind, knowing that she might have read it wrong, or she was crazy, and at the end when he jumped off the mountain Shi Shi jumped down recklessly and held the child tightly in his arms.

At that moment, something new flowed in his heart, he didn't know the name of that thing, he only knew that it was warm and hot.

With a gust of wind, he brought the woman into the cave and handed it to Ah Qing.

He watched the woman fall into the environment, the soul chased the phantom in front of him, and jumped into the soul-locking jar. He looked and looked, and finally raised his head and said to Ah Qing, it seemed that there was something in this soul that was left on him. .

He tried to reach out, grabbed Ah Qing's hand and told her that it was something warm, like sparks, flashing by.

But his hands were so cold that Ah Qing shivered and shook him off.

Later, he brought back more and more people, and more and more small things remained, those memories that belonged to people, those small warm lights. Make yourself more and more like a person, and at the same time, hate your own ugly face more and more.

Not ugly, but heterogeneous.

There is nothing in this world more disturbing than aliens.

That feeling became deeper and deeper into his heart, and as the feeling continued to improve, he began to realize a terrible thing: he didn't have himself.

He can be anyone but not himself.

What does he look like, what shape?He used to think that he set off the appearance of others, that he was a mirror, that he could see others, but he didn't know that he had always used the existence of others to reveal his own existence, because he himself was nothingness.

This fear became more and more intense, until this ten years, his mind was completely sound.

He saw the dragon girl, saw the happiness written in her eyes, saw that she liked the incarnation he conjured up, he saw that she was the same as himself, always changing herself for others, and becoming what others liked...

He rarely talks to a woman who is about to die, but this time is different.

He asked her: Is it tiring to always be a good child?

Is it tiring to always shape yourself according to the image in other people's eyes?

Have you ever wondered what it would be like if you weren't a good boy?

That time, his metallic heart beat for the first time, and he didn't know what it felt like, but it was good—because they were so similar.

He knew her fear as he knew himself.

So for the first time, he did something against Ah Qing's order. He didn't strip out the soul of the dragon girl because he didn't want to.

He had never known what he wanted and what he didn't want before, but this time it was different.

He hates the shape he has turned into, but he doesn't want to take it off, he doesn't know what kind of emotion it is, he hates it, but longs to be like it, that kind of conflict keeps surging in his metal heart , about to tear him apart.

He looked at her sleeping state and said to her, "I think we all have the same unfortunate soul, little fairy."

He saw the lanterns and evil spirits all over the street from the top of Baoxiang Kingdom. He stopped when he saw the dragon girl. He felt incredible at that moment-he saw her as he saw himself, but he had never seen her before. seen himself anywhere.

But he didn't let her go, just like every time before.He knew that everyone would leave something in his heart, but they would die, this was the rule.

But others always leave something warm, but she left him a tear.

What had been whitewashed for a long time was torn apart by her appearance, and at that moment he became afraid.

Just like when he was running away like crazy now.

He saw Ah Qing from the face of the dragon girl, and also saw the dragon girl, the two souls were struggling in the same body, one raised the killing sword, and the other blocked it with his bare hands.

The torn hole spread rapidly, and his fear grew, he turned his head and ran away.

Since he already knew that such a day would come, why did Ah Qing create him?

Since it was going to be taken away from the beginning, why did it take so long to get ready to take it away?

But he already...doesn't want to return it to her.

Xuan Jing didn't know where he was going, he just wanted to go back to the very beginning, to a dark place.

But in that safe entrance to the cliff, there stood a man quietly, dressed in white as quiet as snow, with a faint lotus fragrance on his body, and a calmness on his male and female face, he was afraid of that kind of peace, Because he didn't know if it was compassion or indifference.

Perhaps, it was the same.

Avalokitesvara of the South China Sea.

The person standing in front of the cave turned his head, as if he had expected Xuan Jing to come here, and asked lightly: "Did the old man tell you that I won't find you in a hundred years? As long as you hide yourself , is everything okay?"

When he said this, he suddenly shrugged his shoulders, with a look of extreme indifference, as if he was not a Bodhisattva, but a hooligan, and said: "Oh, you don't know, we gods are not good people."

He calmly waved a short golden stick in his hand, and said: "You also know that my Buddhist school does not kill, so let's have a good talk, don't make things so complicated, why don't you just tell me: my Where is the baby apprentice now?"

As he said that, he twirled the stick in his hand, tapped Xuan Jing's shattered arm lightly, and said, "I'm a more accommodating person. You also know that killing is not enough, and there are still many gray | areas that can be dealt with." Just did it."

Xuan Jing gritted his teeth and said, "I don't know."

Avalokitesvara in front of her raised her eyebrows, as if she didn't mind what he said, she just said to herself, "What are you talking about? The volcano is too noisy here, I couldn't hear you clearly. Oh, you don't know, do you? I was afraid that you and I would play tricks, so we revitalized the extinct volcano, and now the fire inside is burning brighter than the sun outside."

Xuan Jing stared at him with wide eyes in astonishment, completely speechless.

His only way out was cut off just like that.

Nanhai Guanyin said to him in a comforting tone: "Now you believe it, we gods are not good things."

he……

He is really a Bodhisattva, isn't he some kind of local hooligan?

After falling into desperation, Xuan Jing had no choice but to hold his injured arm tightly, enduring the pain, and told the truth: "Nantianmen."

"She's at Nantianmen, with Ah Qing."

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At the same time, Nantianmen.

Nezha arrived early, saw a blood-stained girl in white clothes in the clouds, drove up to the Nantian Gate, chased after him, saw a familiar face, and hurriedly said, "Miss Dragon Girl? Why are you injured?"

Long Nu raised her head towards him, she obviously recognized him, a smile appeared in her eyes, only the smile was a bit strange, but she couldn't tell what was wrong.

She supported her broken arm and said, "Thank God, I met you and not someone else. I didn't have time to explain. There was a big incident in the Western Paradise. The Bodhisattva sent me to see the Jade Emperor for urgent matters. I beg the little prince to take me there. 33 Tianling Xiao Treasure Palace, this matter must never be disclosed to others."

She staggered, fell into Nezha's arms, covered her bleeding arm and said, "My hand was injured by people from Heaven, and now I don't know who is real and who is fake, but luckily I met you... ..."

Nezha supported her, and said in confusion, "It's okay to take you there, but my second brother usually comes to see you off. Why is there no sign of my second brother this time?"

Long Nu said: "Brother was sent to Beihai by Master, this is a big matter, so don't delay."

Nezha always felt that there was something wrong with the Dragon Girl today. He remembered seeing the Dragon Girl under the seat of the Bodhisattva in the past. She was a pure and well-behaved girl, but she still looks like that now. The child's eyes were a little more charming than his age, which made him unable to adapt for a while.

However, he was still in a hurry, he hid the dragon girl under his robe, and said, "Don't be afraid, I'll take you there."