when i used to love you

After talking with Dr. Lu, my mood gradually became clearer.Although I have an alcoholic mother in a crush on someone who will never respond, at least I have a father.

I was raised by her as a child.It is said to be raising, but in fact, I am probably her last bargaining chip.Maybe she really loved Dad, but in the end, she gave up in front of a huge check, but took me away.After that I lived a dark life.But I still remember the secret meeting with my father every birthday, the novelty gadgets that I have never seen before, and the extravagant fatherly love that I can only enjoy once a year... At that time, my father was more beautiful than now. Younger, or compared to other people of that age, he is so full of vigor.I never asked him what happened before.But I still clearly remember what he said when I saw him for the last time when I was 15 years old: "Feng, Dad never thought you were a trouble, never." Understand the connotation of this sentence.

Now that I have someone I like, maybe I can understand a little bit about my father's feelings at that time.But I don't know when, I completely forgot how easy it was to be satisfied when I was a child, but on the way of growing up, I swelled and swelled step by step...

So, I have come to a conclusion.It's my business to like him, there is no need to affect my life because of his actions without knowing it.My love is his, and my life is mine.

So, I once again decided to get on the right track and get out of the vicious circle of hypocrisy.