I can't keep a low profile when cultivating immortality; the sixth one is actually myself.

People who are sentimental have always been sad about separation, and it is even more unbearable to be left alone in the cold and lonely autumn festival!

Toyokawa is no longer as carefree and leisurely as it once was.

Yesterday's sorrows have not yet subsided, and today new sorrows have been added.

For several days, I tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep.

On one hand, there is the opportunity to pursue immortality; on the other hand, there is the love of one's parents. One cannot have both. How can the word "sorrow" possibly describe the pain?

If one could both cultivate oneself and return home without hindrance, why would things have come to this?

Right now, the mortal and immortal realms are separated.

Once you enter the immortal realm, it may be difficult to return. Even if this departure is not a permanent farewell, it may still take sixty years.

I can wait, but how can my parents and family wait?

Half-asleep, half-awake, I didn't realize that dawn had broken.

Toyokawa got up, went to his desk, and in a daze, he had already prepared the ink.

He picked up his brush, dipped it in ink, and with a flourish of his brush, a poem titled "Youthful Sorrow" leaped onto the paper.

The poem says:

They say youth knows no sorrow.

Only when you are young and carefree.

Even now, the decision to part ways is still uncertain.

Old sorrows have long been intertwined with new ones.

"

After finishing writing, I stared blankly at the poem for a while, feeling that trying to drown my sorrows in poetry only made them worse!

"Sigh!" Toyokawa shook his head and sighed.

He turned and walked out of the study, heading towards the gate of the mansion.

……

In recent days, Zhou has noticed that her child has lost his appetite and is in a depressed mood, which has made her very sad.

He personally brought tea and snacks to the study early in the morning, only to find that Chuan'er was not there.

As I walked to the desk, a short poem immediately caught my eye.

The ink on the Xuan paper was not yet completely dry, suggesting that it was a recent work.

Zhou read it aloud once, fell into deep thought, and only came back to his senses after a long while.

After a moment of stunned silence, he grabbed the Xuan paper, hurried back to the backyard, and found Feng Yang.

"Master, come and see what this is!" Zhou handed the Xuan paper to Feng Yang.

Feng Yang took the Xuan paper, glanced at it, and also fell into deep thought.

After a moment of silence, Zhou broke the somber atmosphere with her voice.

“Master, Chuan’er has been independent-minded since he was a child.”

He could compose poems at the age of three, became a student at the age of six, and passed the county-level imperial examination at the age of nine.

Now, he has achieved fame at a young age, passed the provincial examination, and holds official rank.

This appearance is unprecedented.

I thought there was nothing in the world that could stump my Chuan'er.

Chuan'er is my greatest pride.

But now Chuan'er is frowning all day long and depressed.

I saw it all, and it pained me deeply, but I didn't know how to offer any advice.

In truth, how could I, as Chuan'er's mother, not understand what he was thinking?

He yearns to cultivate immortality, but hesitates because of us, and is distressed all day long.

There's nothing wrong with the saying that a man should have lofty ambitions.

But Chuan'er is a sentimental child.

It's heartbreaking to see him like this!

Let's not try to stop him, let him go!

As children grow up, it is their nature to want to pursue their own lives and ideals.

As a mother, although I am reluctant, I should not stop her.

"Please, sir, go and persuade them!" Zhou pleaded.

"Hey~!"

I thought he would think it over slowly and come to a conclusion in a while, and then he would be able to make up his mind.

"It seems we can't expect him to make the decision on his own," Feng Yang said.

"Master, Chuan'er is still young!"

How can you expect him to make a decision when faced with such a major life event?

I originally didn't want Chuan'er to go to the world of cultivation.

If Chuan'er stayed in the mortal world, with his talent, it would be easy for him to become a marquis or prime minister in the future.

Why bother spending your life striving in the world of cultivation?

Moreover, the cultivation world is so dangerous, and Chuan'er is so young. How can one feel at ease and not worry?

"But now it seems that Chuan'er has already found someone he loves," Zhou said.

"Yes! Look at these verses, they are full of sorrow! How could a child have so much sorrow?"

It could only be that he had two extremely strong thoughts in his mind that he couldn't suppress.

These two desires are contradictory and cannot be fulfilled simultaneously, which is why Chuan'er is so conflicted.

"It seems Chuan'er has lofty ambitions and aspirations!" Feng Yang agreed.

“Lianfang, I know you can’t bear to part with Chuan’er, and so can I.”

Not to mention that the Feng family now only has this one son.

Even if that's not the case, who would be willing to let their child go far away from home and never return?

But ultimately, life and destiny are his own.

He has the right to pursue the life he wants.

Even fledglings eventually grow up and deserve their own sky to soar freely.

As parents, we should support him and not hinder his progress.

Moreover, with Chuan'er's intelligence, I believe that he will surely achieve enlightenment in his lifetime and return to reunite with us.

Maybe we can even benefit from Chuan'er's good fortune and live a few more years?

By then, Chuan'er will have achieved his dream, and we will be able to enjoy the bliss of family life.

"Wouldn't it be better to have the best of both worlds?" Feng Yang continued.

"Also, if you are worried about not having anyone to serve you."

"After Chuan'er leaves, we can have another one!" Feng Yang said to his wife with a lewd look on his face.

"Master...you've said so much, if I still disagree, wouldn't I be acting like an unfit mother?"

"You can make the decision!" Zhou immediately blushed and gave a slightly reproachful look.

Feng Yang and Zhou Shi got married quite early, and they are only in their early thirties now.

Toyokawa's second uncle and aunt are even younger, only in their early twenties.

Because he often runs his business away from home, he now only has one son.

Fengpei still has no children.

"Okay, I'll find some time to talk to Chuan'er."

"Help him make up his mind and let him pursue his own path to enlightenment with peace of mind," Feng Yang said.

At this moment, Toyokawa was walking on a crowded street.

Without a care in the world, I simply enjoyed the bustling and lively atmosphere.

He just wanted to wander aimlessly and clear his head.

As I walked, I unknowingly arrived at the Book Mountain Pavilion.

Seeing the familiar building, Toyokawa went inside and ran into an old acquaintance as soon as he entered.

"Brother Feng, it's been a long time!" It turned out to be He Buwei.

He also came to Shushanlou and took the initiative to greet us.

"Brother He, you've come too? Didn't you return to the prefectural city after the provincial examination?" Feng Chuan asked.

"Not yet! I originally planned to take the imperial examination."

However, there have been quite a few rumors circulating among students lately. Have you heard them?

Why not ask the question in a mysterious way?

"Come on, let's talk upstairs," Feng Chuan invited He Buwei to come to a private room on the fourth floor.

The two sat down facing each other, and He Buwei immediately started talking.

"Brother Feng, have you heard the news?" He Buwei asked.

"What news?" Toyokawa asked, puzzled.

I've been studying hard at home lately and haven't been paying attention to outside news.

"The Immortal Ascension Ceremony! This is an extraordinary event; the news has spread far and wide." He Buwei didn't keep anyone in suspense and said directly.

"Huh? You've heard about it too? It's all over?" Toyokawa was a little surprised.

"Yes, such a big thing, the news spread very quickly."

"However, the government has not yet released any specific information, and it is unclear who has been selected," He Buwei said.

"Brother He, if you are chosen, what will you do?" Feng Chuan suddenly asked.

Why not stare at Toyokawa like he's a fool?

"Is there even a question? This is a blessing from heaven. If we don't seize it, we'll be struck by lightning!" He Buwei replied.

"What about your family?" Toyokawa asked, puzzled.

"Alas, it's always been difficult to have the best of both worlds."

My family members are still able to live well even without me.

But if I give up this opportunity, I will definitely regret it for the rest of my life. I don't want to have any regrets for the rest of my life!

If this opportunity comes my way, I will seize it no matter what.

Besides, who can predict the future?

I have confidence in myself, and if I achieve success in my spiritual practice in the future, I will definitely return.

"Wouldn't it be wonderful to fly with your family?" Why not be a little impassioned?

Toyokawa savored He Buwei's generous words, while silently making plans in his mind.

I am still young, and my parents are not old either.

If I go to the world of immortals and strive to achieve success in my cultivation as soon as possible, perhaps I can return to the mortal realm before my parents pass away.

They can use their knowledge to help their parents live longer and also support them in their old age.

But, there's always a chance of something going wrong. What if something does happen?

If your spiritual practice is not going well, or if you encounter difficulties, anything is possible.

If we go and cannot return in time, wouldn't we suffer the sorrow of wanting to care for our parents but finding them gone?

Isn't this also a kind of regret?

“Brother Feng, Brother Feng…” He Buwei interrupted Feng Chuan’s thoughts.

"Oh, Brother He, what is it?" Feng Chuan asked, regaining his senses.

"It's nothing, I just wanted to ask for your opinion," He Buwei said.

“Me? I… don’t know…” Toyokawa fell silent again.

The two then chatted about other things and inquired about recent news. Without lingering, they said their goodbyes and left.

When Fengchuan returned to the mansion, he found his father waiting for him in the study. He went over and said, "Father."

"Chuan'er, these past few days, I've noticed you seem distracted. Are you caught in a dilemma?" Feng Yang asked directly.

"Father, I am indeed finding it difficult to make a decision."

Your child does not want to leave you and Mother, but wants to stay by your side and serve you.

I will provide for you in your old age, fulfilling my duty as your child.

But earlier, I had only learned a few words about cultivating immortality from a book.

The child often felt uneasy about it and wanted to find out the truth.

Now that such an opportunity has presented itself, I am even more overwhelmed.

"Father, I don't know what to do!" Toyokawa confessed to his father.

"Chuan'er, your father and your mother are also reluctant to let you leave."

However, children who cannot live without their parents will never truly grow up.

How can someone who doesn't even have the courage to leave their hometown achieve anything great?

A good man should have ambitions beyond his hometown; how can he let romantic love diminish his lofty aspirations?

Chuan'er, you have the right to pursue your dreams.

Your mother and I have both thought it through, and we both support you.

Furthermore, you don't need to worry about who will take care of us in our old age and see us off when we die.

Our family is quite well-off, so we won't suffer in our old age.

What's more, your mother and I have already planned to have another child after you leave.

"So you don't need to worry about us growing old alone and having no one to take care of us," Feng Yang said.

Toyokawa was touched by his father's support and understanding.

The last two sentences left Toyokawa speechless with shock.

"Father, did you just say that you plan to have a younger brother or sister for me?" Toyokawa asked.

"We do have that plan, but there's no rush. We can't force it," Feng Yang said.

"Oh dear, Father, you must hurry!"

It would be best to get this settled before I leave.

"Now I can leave in peace!" Toyokawa urged excitedly.

"Can this be rushed? Let's take it slow!" Feng Yang said with a hint of helplessness.

……

After that, life in Fengfu returned to normal.

Every now and then, Toyokawa would run to ask his mother about his younger brother or sister.

Both Feng Yang and Zhou were at a loss and extremely annoyed by the questioning.

Even at the fastest pace, it will take more than a month to know the outcome of this matter.

However, Toyokawa was like an ant on a hot pan, impatient and restless.

However, there was no news from the Zhou family, but news came from the second uncle's side that the second aunt might be pregnant.

The family quickly invited a well-known doctor from the city to diagnose the second aunt.

After all the fuss, the whole family was overjoyed to find that Auntie was indeed pregnant.

When the news was confirmed, my aunt hadn't even had time to be happy, but my uncle cried tears of joy, like a child!

My second uncle and aunt have been married for many years, but there has been no sign of a child, which has made them very anxious.

I saw many doctors during that time, but none of them could diagnose the problem; they just occasionally prescribed some remedies.

My second aunt suffered a lot in order to recover, to the point that my second uncle later began to doubt himself.

Now that my second aunt is pregnant, the Feng family is about to have a new baby, and the whole family is overjoyed.

The gloom and depression that had been brought about by Toyokawa's departure were swept away.

As the saying goes, good things come in pairs, and it may also be a blessing from heaven.

A month later, the Zhou family also made a move.

The family was busy again, and just like her second aunt, she was pregnant.

This made Feng Yang and Zhou Shi extremely happy, and even Feng Chuan felt that he had lost favor and no one was paying attention to him anymore.

One day, after finishing his business, Feng Yang came to Fengchuan's study.

"Chuan'er, it is the will of Heaven, and it can be considered a triple blessing. How fortunate our Feng family is."

Now you can leave without any worries and go to the world of cultivation to pursue your dreams.

When you achieve success in your cultivation in the future, our Feng family will be able to flourish and grow in the cultivation world.

"In the future, when we worship our ancestors, we can proudly say, 'Our Feng family has produced an immortal.'" Feng Yang said to Feng Chuan.

"Yes, Father, but in the future my younger siblings will have to suffer and take on the responsibility of supporting me."

I will also return as soon as possible after completing my cultivation, and reunite with my father, mother, younger brother, and younger sister! Toyokawa was also very happy, but felt guilty towards his unborn younger brother and sister.

Next, while waiting for the government officials to come and check his qualifications, Fengchuan continued reading.

In my spare time, I often go to my mother's place to talk and chat with her.

I also often accompany my mother shopping and taking walks.

My mother and second aunt are both pregnant now and it's inconvenient for them to go far.

Most of the time, they would stroll around the courtyard and then go back to their rooms to rest.

The prefectural government did not keep Toyokawa waiting for long; a month later, a constable came to his door with a talisman.

The whole family gathered in the front hall, waiting for the officer to conduct the test, and the result was somewhat unexpected.

Everyone already knows that Toyokawa is qualified.

It turns out that Toyokawa wasn't the only one with the qualifications.

Toyokawa's mother, Zhou, was also found to be qualified.

Unfortunately, Ms. Zhou was over thirty years old and did not meet the requirements.

However, even if she doesn't turn thirty, Zhou will probably give up on her own initiative.

After all, she is already married now.

The worldly views formed from childhood are difficult to change; the idea of ​​obeying one's husband after marriage is deeply ingrained.

Of course, this was also due to the deep affection and mutual respect between Feng Yang and Zhou.

Thus, because Toyokawa was found to have the qualifications and the intention to train, he was registered.

The constable also informed Toyokawa not to travel far within three months, so as to ensure that the government office could summon him at any time.

After that, Toyokawa gave up the idea of ​​participating in the imperial examination and stayed at home.