Locking away my heart and love! Going back to 2000 to be a top student again.

"I'm telling you this not to see you cry, Su Su. I'm not as good as you think. I'm bad and scheming. Even though I know you're the most soft-hearted, I still told you."

His eyes were terribly red, as if he were about to cry at any moment.

Xu Su smiled bitterly. Of course she knew what he meant by telling her that, but what right did she have to blame him? It was clearly her fault; she had betrayed his sincerity; she had seamlessly moved on…

The scar on his wrist will probably never fade...

Xu Su gently touched it and carefully looked up: "Does it hurt?"

Xi Zirong was slightly taken aback, then nodded with a wronged expression: "...It hurts."

"..." Xu Suzhen couldn't bear to see him looking so pitiful. She held his wrist and gently blew on it. Feeling really guilty, she carefully kissed it.

Finally, she said "I'm sorry" very softly...

She was truly remorseful…

Xi Zirong remained silent for a long time before slowly smiling: "Since we broke up, the word you've said to me the most is 'I'm sorry,' but you know, that's also the last thing I want to hear."

The last thing I want to hear is "I'm sorry"...

Xu Su had a splitting headache. She knew what he wanted to hear, but she simply couldn't do it. If she went out for a walk and then went back to break up with him, Zhou Mochen would probably devour her alive…

Unless she can split herself in two.

If it really came down to it, even if she were split in two, Zhou Mochen would definitely want both halves.

That person was good in every way, and could be described as being completely obedient to her. Xu Su sometimes thought that, given how much Zhou Mochen spoiled her, if one day she suddenly decided she wanted to go to the moon for a spin, he would probably find a way to fulfill her wish.

He would give her anything she wanted, except for the fact that she wanted to break up with him—that was his absolute bottom line.

Xu Su was so distressed she didn't know what to do. If only she had the right to choose, if only she...

"Alright, don't make it so difficult for me,"

Xi Zirong bent down and brought her face closer, her eyes filled with tenderness: "Su Su, the fact that I can't let go of you is my own problem. You don't need to carry any psychological burden about it. I just want you to be happy."

I just want you to be happy...

Happy my ass!

Xu Su took a deep breath and looked him straight in the eye: "I also want you to be happy, so Xi Zirong, tell me, is there anything I can do to help you?"

Her gaze was open, frank, and utterly sincere.

It's as if it's saying: "Just tell me, and I'll do anything I can."

As Xi Zirong watched, a desire kept welling up in her heart, which she then fiercely suppressed.

He couldn't bring himself to take advantage of her guilt and make demands that would put her in a difficult position.

After a long silence, Xi Zirong finally asked, "Can you accompany me on the rest of the journey?"

Xu Su paused slightly, and quickly nodded before his expression turned dejected: "Okay, okay."

This wasn't an unreasonable request; it was just to travel together to LS. After thinking for a moment, Xu Su grasped his hand and said, "You must never do anything like this to harm yourself again. I promise I will never ignore your messages again."

She had also had the urge to self-harm, and knew the uncontrollable pain. At that time, she was fed up with Shen Chen and did not know how to face Zhou Mochen. Under the influence of her ostrich-like mentality of escapism, she inexplicably wanted to self-harm.

And what about Xi Zirong?

Xu Su couldn't even imagine how he gradually lost hope during the days she heartlessly refused to reply to his messages, to the point that he felt like dying.

…………

They stayed in the tent for more than two hours, and when they came out, their eyes were redder than the other two, like two rabbits.

Sika and Jiang Chusheng were sitting at a round table not far from the tent, each holding a can of beer. When they saw the two of them finally come out, still looking the same, she was stunned for a moment, then she gave a mischievous smile. With her idol by her side, she didn't say anything explosive.

She just smiled and looked at Xu Su, saying, "What did you talk about? Seeing you crying like that, with tears streaming down your face, it broke my heart."

Xu Su pursed her lips and didn't say anything. She was a little embarrassed, so she opened a can of beer and sat down.

After a few sips of beer, Xu Su looked up and continued to gaze at the stars. Under the same starry sky, her mood was completely different from two hours ago.

The four of them sat quietly for a while until Xu Su, who was wearing shorts, felt cold, and then they dispersed.

On the way back, Jessica couldn't help but radiate gossip.

Xu Su was also troubled by having a lot of worries and no one to talk to, so she briefly told her about her entanglements with Xi Zirong and Zhou Mochen.

After hesitating for a while, she still didn't mention Xi Zirong's wrist-cutting incident, since it was a matter of personal privacy and she had no right to tell others.

Having said everything she could, Xu Su once again berated herself, sighing sadly, "I'm really not human!"

Jessica didn't say a word the whole time. After she finished speaking, she was silent for a while before asking her, "So who do you actually like?"

Xu Su: "..."

Seeing her speechless expression, Sika glared at her: "Don't tell me you don't know either?"

"No, no, of course I know," Xu Su hurriedly denied, then hesitated after thinking for a moment: "If it's the kind of 'I can't live without him' kind of liking, I don't think I've reached that level."

Whether it's Zhou Mochen or Xi Zirong, she can adapt well without either of them. She doesn't have much pursuit of material life. Even without Zhou Mochen, she can still successfully enter B University and become a new student of B University by relying on the scholarship issued by the No. 1 Middle School of the city.

She may lose the glitz and glamour and the adulation she once enjoyed, but she will still have a bright future.

This was also her plan for her life when she was reborn. She never expected that she would still be unable to get around Zhou Mochen, this mountain, no matter how many times she went around.

If it were just Zhou Mochen, that would be fine, but then Xi Zirong was also brought in.

Sika exclaimed in disbelief, "I never expected you to be the worst one!"

"..." Xu Su was speechless, and asked her with a worried look, "What do you think I should do?"

"Your indecisiveness will only complicate matters further."

Sika pondered for a moment, then said seriously, "In my understanding, falling in love with someone always involves exclusivity and possessiveness. If you don't have these, either you haven't felt them yet, or you don't love. If you don't love either of these, then you haven't met the person you truly love."

Xu Su was about to retort instinctively, but before she could speak, Xika interrupted her again:

"I think it's impossible for you not to be attracted to either of these two top-tier guys. Rather than not loving either of them, it's more likely that you're just too lucky. The guys you meet love you more and more than the last, and they can satisfy your 'possessiveness' without you having to ask."

"You get too much security in love and can't feel the pain of losing it, so you haven't experienced the importance of 'exclusivity'."