My Mr. Monster

"Eat slowly... No one is snatching your food away..." Lu Xuan felt helpless as he looked at Wu Yang, who was eating with big mouthfuls of food. He didn't quite understand Wu Yang's current behavior. It seemed like he was venting his anger or getting angry.

He always glares at me from time to time. I should be the one who is angry, but I don't know why I was bewitched by Wu Yang and ended up in this situation now.

"Is the soup not ready yet?" Wu Yang looked at Lu Xuan.

Lu Xuan added some firewood, opened the lid of the pot, looked at it, and shook his head, saying, "Not yet. Wait a moment. Do you want some milk? I'll heat it up for you."

Wu Yang looked at the box of pure milk in Lu Xuan's hand and nodded. He had just vented his emotions by eating, and when he calmed down, he felt that he was really childish.

What was there to worry about? Lu Xuan was right in front of him, could he really run away? He needed to rely on him everywhere now. Wu Yang didn't believe that Lu Xuan would leave him just because of something like that.

Lu Xuan used boiling water to heat milk for Wu Yang. He was so busy that he didn't have time to think about it. Preparing a meal for Wu Yang alone was almost like killing him.

"Hello, Lu Xuan." Wu Yang took the milk, inserted a straw into it, and then slowly sucked it up. He looked at Lu Xuan with bright eyes.

Lu Xuan also looked at Wu Yang, feeling very confused, and asked, "What's wrong?"

"What does it feel like to be in a world of your own?" Wu Yang asked.

Lu Xuan looked at Wu Yang and asked, "Why do you ask that?"

"Because I want to know what you think a person's world is like. Nothing else, I just want to know."

"I don't know. I can't live alone." Lu Xuan didn't know why Wu Yang suddenly asked this question, but it seemed a little strange. His eyes looked so strange.

"I'm the same. It's tiring to live alone." Wu Yang leaned towards Lu Xuan's shoulder. His movements were both skilled and awkward, but fortunately Lu Xuan did not dodge.

"What? Are you... emo?" Lu Xuan shook his shoulders happily.

Wu Yang thought for a moment and chuckled, "Maybe I really am emo. It's really interesting. When you've been alone for a long time, you find the meaning of life. I can't just live for the sake of living anymore."

"How wonderful it is to be alive. The world is so big, we can go to more places." Lu Xuan said, "Some people can't even walk. Some people are tortured by illness and can't go anywhere."

Wu Yang threw away the milk carton. He grabbed Lu Xuan's hand and placed it on his chest, saying, "It's still beating, but my heart is dead. Lu Xuan, I don't know how to put it so you understand, but I simply have no reason to continue existing in this world."

He has no worries, no thoughts, and no idea why. If he feels he has lived enough, he will use a pistol to smash his head to inhibit cell repair and eventually die.

However, if he felt that his existence was meaningless before, he now has a goal. Since he said that the world is big and many places are beautiful, he wants to see how beautiful it is.

Wu Yang squeezed Lu Xuan's hand and used his other hand to force Lu Xuan to turn and look at him. He asked, "Will you abandon me?"

"I..." Lu Xuan had never seen such a scene before and was frightened on the spot. The hand that was being held by Wu Yang could still feel Wu Yang's energetic heartbeat.

"Go ahead." Wu Yang looked at him, his eyes eager and full of anticipation.

"You will meet a girl who likes you. I can't be with you forever. Wu Yang, you will only be a passer-by on my journey. I don't want to give you any hope because I can't do that." Lu Xuan frowned and said, "I am also just an insignificant passer-by in your long life, so I can't promise you this."

Wu Yang was stunned. He didn't expect that the words from such a gentle person at this moment would be so unforgettable. He even thought that Lu Xuan would say "OK".

This is no less than digging out your heart and showing it to him, and then that person turns around and stabs you in the heart with a knife.

Wu Yang was silent for a moment. He looked at Lu Xuan. In his eyes, Lu Xuan was not blushing and had no other expression. He just looked at him quietly.

Wu Yang felt a little flustered. It was an indescribable feeling as if something elusive had escaped from his palm.

He didn't like this look.

"Then how long will you stay with me?" Wu Yang said with a wry smile.

"I don't know and can't give you an answer." Lu Xuan answered helplessly. He didn't know what was going on with Wu Yang. He had so many questions and words today.

"Who will protect you if you leave me?" Wu Yang seemed fearless. He still stared at him, trying to show his value.

"I'm not weak. I will learn to protect myself. The world may not be as bad as I imagined." Lu Xuan said, "Maybe other places will be better after I leave this dead city."

"You are simply... unreasonable!" Wu Yang said.

Lu Xuan smiled and nodded, "Okay, the soup is almost done, I'll serve you a bowl."

"Why didn't you agree to me? Are you afraid that I would eat too much?" Wu Yang asked.

Lu Xuan shook his head: "This answer was only made out of considerations from both sides."

"I don't like that answer. Your life belongs to me."

"Ah."

"Are you just treating me perfunctorily?!" Wu Yang was irritated by Lu Xuan's indifferent attitude. He glared at him angrily.

But Lu Xuan was like a stone, not moved at all, which almost made Wu Yang fuming. He took the soup and drank it in one gulp, which was so scalding that he almost dropped the bowl.

"Fuck, it's hot!" Wu Yang shouted.

Lu Xuan was startled and quickly handed the bottle of mineral water to Wu Yang. Wu Yang drank the whole bottle before he came to his senses, and sweat broke out on his forehead.

Lu Xuan was stunned by this operation. Before he could say anything, Wu Yang glared at him and said coldly, "Why didn't you remind me? Did you do this on purpose?"

Lu Xuan felt overwhelmed. This was not the way to find fault. At least give a reason. Why did he just start finding fault?

Is he dissatisfied with the question just now? That's too naive of Wu Yang.

Wu Yang was simply frustrated. He didn't care what Lu Xuan thought. Lu Xuan's answer wasn't what he wanted. Lu Xuan's life was his own, so he had the right to interfere with his life and thoughts.

"I'll give you one last chance to reorganize your words."

"But I really don't have anything else to say." Lu Xuan said, "If I tell you something, you'll stay away from me. You might even kill me. Besides, I'm not that mean. Do you really have to treat me like this?"

Wu Yang looked at Lu Xuan and saw that he actually had a sad expression on his face. His beautiful eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of mist, as if he was about to cry in the next second.

"I... I'm not forcing you, I just..." Wu Yang was silent. He couldn't respond to this question.

"Do you think I'm annoying?" Lu Xuan hugged his legs and curled up, looking at Wu Yang with his eyes. The "grievance" in his eyes alone made Wu Yang's heart sink.

"I didn't!" Wu Yang said anxiously, "That's not what I meant. I just..."

"Just what?"

"I just don't want you to leave me."