She's waiting for me there.

After that day, I didn't see that scumbag for a long time.

In order to let me concentrate on my studies, my sister arranged for me to live in the first year of high school, so we never met.

I put the bottle of pesticide in a hidden place under my bed at home.

Everything about me was still heading in a bad direction. Due to the long period of mental exhaustion, I felt unprecedented pressure, which directly affected my academic performance.

My ranking in the final exam this time dropped to 24th in the grade. My homeroom teacher contacted me many times, trying to find out about my family situation. After all, that scumbag had a bad reputation, and the news spread quickly among classmates, and naturally reached Teacher Li's ears.

But what can I say?

Can this problem be solved by telling the teacher?

That's impossible. My sister and I still have to take responsibility for everything.

Looking at Teacher Li's concerned eyes, I swallowed all the words.

On the way back to the classroom, a boy from the next class blocked me at the stairs. With a flushed face, he handed me a love letter and then stammered some words of confession.

I didn't move until he finished speaking. I had no impression of this boy and didn't even know his name, but out of politeness, I still listened to what he said.

"I'm sorry, you can't enter my world."

I stuffed the love letter back into his hand. The classmates watching the fun kept making noises, so I turned around and went back to the classroom.

I thought the matter was over, but after class, Li Na came to me and told me, "If you dare to have anything to do with the man she likes, you're dead."

I don't understand what she means. I have already rejected it, so what does it have to do with her?

But this is often the case. As long as one unfortunate thing happens, the rest of the things will become unfortunate as if they are contagious.

In the following days, Li Na targeted me everywhere, with mischievous pushing and insults coming one after another.

It was like I was back in elementary school. I could only continue to pretend to be even more cool, but this time I was hurt even more.

Home and school once again formed a Möbius strip, fitting together perfectly, but this time my sister was with me.

Maybe I can handle these things myself and just bear with them.

However, when I heard Teacher Li talk about the tuition, accommodation and tutoring fees for senior year, I felt like the whole world had collapsed. It would cost more than 5,000 yuan, not to mention the printing costs of the monthly examination papers and the cost of buying a set of examination papers for the joint examination.

I don't know how to talk to my sister. She works very hard. She only earns more than 3,000 yuan a month, and her monthly expenses are not enough to cover her income. How can she have extra money to pay tuition?

I stood on the rooftop of the school, looking at the carefree faces below, and for the first time I lamented the injustice of this world.

I've clearly tried my best to live, I've repeatedly compromised my bottom line, I've experienced the ups and downs of life, I've already...

There are so many "already"s, why can't I be like them.

I just want to study quietly, find a good job in the future, and help my sister escape from the sea of ​​suffering so that we can face the rising sun together.

Complaints are like an unsprouted seed. When I water it, it begins to sprout and grow until it spreads to the entire heart.

I slowly stepped onto the edge of the rooftop. A breeze blew by. I tucked my messy hair behind my ears, opened my arms, and closed my eyes.

I'm tired, really tired. It's been 17 years. Why do I have to walk through this world? I can't figure out the meaning of existence?

Whenever I read the sentence "When Heaven is about to confer a great responsibility on a man, it will first test his mind and will, make his muscles and bones weary, starve his body, and deprive him of all his possessions", I always sneer.

My bones and muscles had long been shattered by Qing Anfu and Zhang Guifang, and my flesh and skin had long been devoured by the abyss, leaving little behind. As for my will, ha! So, great responsibilities and the like have nothing to do with me at all.

Just as I put one foot in the air, I heard the voice of my deskmate from behind.

"Lime, are you here? Lemon..."

Hearing the shouts behind me, I withdrew my foot and retreated to the bottom of the roof.

"I'm here, what's wrong?"

"Your sister called, here you go."

"Thank you."

I picked up the phone, and my sister's gentle voice came from the other end: "Qing Ning, is it time to pay tuition? I've prepared three thousand yuan, which should be enough. Come home to get it in the evening, and I'll make you something delicious."

After hanging up the phone, I suddenly woke up and instantly understood my "big mission".

Yes, I still have my sister. How could I suddenly forget about that scumbag just now? As long as I use that bottle of pesticide to take him away, my sister can leave that abyss.

Thinking of this, two dimples appeared on my face and I smiled, a very happy smile. This must be the meaning of my existence.

That afternoon, I was in a good mood, and even Li Na's little tricks didn't have much impact on me.

In the evening, when I got home, I saw that my sister was the only one at home. For the first time, I felt disappointed. That scumbag was not at home.

When my sister asked me about my tuition, I didn't tell her and just said that three thousand was enough.

That night, my sister made egg noodles for me. I ate a lot and was so full that I couldn’t eat any more, but I still ate one more bowl.

My sister sat next to me, smiling gently, her eyes full of doting.

The next day, when the teacher was collecting tuition, he was stunned when he saw the three thousand yuan I handed over. He looked at me with complicated eyes, but did not point it out. He just asked me to come to my office after class.

In the office, Teacher Li looked at me gently, with eyes very similar to my sister's.

"Qing Ning, is there any difficulty at home?"

I shook my head and said nothing.

She still patiently asked about the situation at home and kept saying some heartwarming words.

These words did not have much impact on me, after all, I had already found my mission.

Actually, I don’t want to pay the 3,000 yuan tuition fee, but I don’t know when I will meet that scumbag again. If the teacher finds my sister because I don’t pay the tuition fee, she might be upset again.

But I thought it was too simple, so the teacher told her about it. In the afternoon, my sister called me and told me to go home after school to get the money.

In the evening, on my way home, I passed by a massage parlor. Suddenly, a drunk man grabbed me, looked me up and down, and nodded with satisfaction.

Then he said greedily, "Little sister, do you want to make some money?"

I wanted to run away immediately, but when I heard the word money, I stopped.

"How many?"

The man burped, and a foul smell filled his nose. "One thousand, is that enough?"

I was stunned for a moment, then shook my head and turned away.

"1500, no more."

I paused, then left.

The man's cursing voice came from behind.

In fact, 1500 is already a lot, enough for my sister's living expenses for a long time, but when Li Na scolded me, she said that there would definitely be someone willing to pay a high price for someone like me.

It would be a good idea to leave some money for your sister before leaving.

After all, these don’t matter to me anymore, so since I’m going to sell myself, I must sell it at a good price so that my sister can live a better life.

Thinking of this, I feel inexplicably happy.

After returning home, I saw the man's leather shoes at the door and almost laughed out loud.

It’s great that he is home too and everything is going so smoothly.

Ha ha!

My "big mission", here I come.