Demon Lord 3

The reason he couldn't do it was because he'd always practiced with beer, but this time I gave him white wine. He felt a bit overwhelmed and eventually fell asleep. I asked Liu Yu to carry him back home and, when he woke up, tell him not to think too much about it. I wouldn't consider him a burden, nor would I dislike him, nor would I think he was a burden to me. After hearing this, Liu Yu carried him back home and went back to sleep. Liu Yu said he would sleep until noon. After returning home, I also slept soundly, but when I woke up, I saw the long-lost True God. The True God smiled and asked me why I was here all of a sudden. This is considered a deep sleep. It was too shallow before, but he couldn't see me, so I said I was drunk this time. He asked me why I was drunk, and I said I drank with the guy in the human world. It was also my boyfriend who was more capable, so I got drunk as soon as I drank with him. I have never been drunk with others. Then I told the True God that the guy's alcohol tolerance was not particularly good, and it was about the same as his. Anyway, we were both defeated by me. He looked at me helplessly and said that he just didn't want to drink, but it didn't mean that he couldn't beat me. Then he asked me if I had encountered something. I told him and asked him what loneliness was. He couldn't explain it and said that this was the ultimate loneliness. I also told him that I believed him on this point, but my boyfriend in the human world didn't think so, saying that this was not the ultimate loneliness. The True God asked me what true loneliness was. I said maybe loneliness is just a synonym for an image. There is no real loneliness, only yearning on the road of loneliness. Only by facing loneliness or avoiding it can loneliness be embodied. Without yearning and avoiding it, loneliness seems to be meaningless. After listening to me, he nodded, thinking it made sense. Later, he asked me what I thought. I said that perhaps this life is what I want in this life. If life is lonely, then enjoy it. If it is happy, then enjoy it. He asked me if I was happy or not. I said that I am content. I feel that my life is lonely and happy. Loneliness lies in closing my eyes, unable to see my companions, unable to see him, just wandering in the vast universe. This is my own loneliness. But loneliness will eventually end, and dawn will eventually come. Happiness lies in having companions around me, and having him, a strong person, to answer my questions. I can always stand by myself. I love myself, listen to myself, and understand myself. Nothing can deprive me of the right to love myself, unless I give up on myself. He asked me why my boyfriend felt this way, and if I was putting too much pressure on him. I shook my head and said no, maybe it was because one of our companions had a child, and I just took a few more glances, but it was also out of politeness and I didn't have any special affection. When someone has a newborn, I go to take a look and help take care of it, which is also my duty. In fact, I basically take care of pregnant women and don't take care of the child at all. In fact, I am a little wrongly blamed for this matter. I didn't take care of the child. Besides, I didn't participate in this matter. I was just polite and thought the child looked good, so I took a few more glances. There was nothing special. He asked me, was it just out of politeness? I nodded and said that what I said was true, and I didn't want a child like this. After all, I know my own situation and my boyfriend's situation. Even if both of us have no physical problems and can have children, I won't want them. Even with the current situation outside, I feel that giving birth to a child is a burden for us and unfair to the child. The True God asked me if I would ever fall in love with someone else. I shook my head and said I probably wouldn't. Maybe one day, but not right now. Maybe I'd wait for the other person to give up on me first. But these things are just empty talk; no one can say for sure. Besides, my biggest goal right now is to control the Big World and prevent the situation from getting any more chaotic. We came to the Small World at most to gain experience as True Gods. Understanding this, he didn't press me with these questions again. He simply looked at me and asked how I considered happiness. He didn't ask if I was happy, but rather how I thought he was happy. I gave him two explanations: first, he loved himself, so he was happy; second, he was unhappy because he wasn't loved. He smiled faintly and asked how I knew he wasn't loved. I was speechless, but it was difficult to directly refute him, so I didn't say anything. He said, "How do you know I'm not loved?"