Reborn back to college to have a love affair

Xia Qing felt like something was off track, and she kept thinking of Cui Jinsong from time to time.

When she dreams, she always dreams that he smiles at her one moment and leaves sadly the next.

Cui Jinsong seemed to have filled every aspect of her life without her realizing it. Some of her personal belongings were bought by him, as were the backpack, water cup, small blanket, small pillow and other small items.

Knowing that Xia Qing was unwilling to accept expensive things, Cui Jinsong put a lot of thought into these inexpensive little items.

Xia Qing's roommate once casually asked, "Xia Qing, where did you buy your backpack and cup? I went to several shopping malls and couldn't find them."

Xia Qing didn't know at that time that Cui Jinsong bought it for her. She thought it was not expensive so she didn't ask.

Later I was told that it was a co-branded product of a certain brand. It was generally hard to buy and not cheap. It was considered a luxury for college students at that time.

It was obvious that she didn't want so many things from him, but she still accepted a lot from him, not only things, but also her feelings.

She thought she had kept a distance from him, and she did not receive or enjoy the affection Cui Jinsong gave her.

However, she found that she was wrong.

She didn't know when it started, but she realized that the senior whom she liked but never expressed her love for him was not as good as she had imagined.

It was as if my eyes were covered before, and I couldn't see the shortcomings in him clearly.

The senior didn’t like her very much, but he should have known that she was interested in him, but he didn’t point it out nor did he keep his distance from her.

Enjoying the ambiguity with her, enjoying her admiration, enjoying her care in every way.

They met by chance in the study room, and it seemed that she was accompanying him, but in fact she was accompanying him, satisfying his vanity without him having to take any responsibility.

After all, both of them said to the outside world that they were just friends.

He would verbally care about her low mood, but he would not do anything to make her happy in order to improve her low mood, nor would he think about how to do it or what to do to make her happy.

Even when he was unhappy, he needed Xia Qing to comfort him carefully. If Xia Qing couldn't comfort him, it was as if she couldn't provide any emotional value. She was left there to fend for herself, and he had to find some way to make himself happy.

She meant nothing to him then.

At first, Xia Qing thought that her senior was not a good boyfriend.

Later, she realized that the senior's behavior was normal and that people were selfish.

He doesn't treat her as a girlfriend, so naturally he won't care about her or treat her like a girlfriend.

Moreover, even if she tried hard to become his girlfriend, she couldn't get the same treatment as him.

Because, the one who loves deeply always has to pay more.

Between her and her senior, she was the one who gave and took the initiative.

He had no love or affection for her, only the weakness of being liked and the stimulation of ambiguity.

She rejected and drove away the person who had been giving to her without reservation.

When she realized this problem, she felt a little sad.

Life taught her a lesson: cherish the people around you.

It is better to find someone who loves you than to find someone you love.

Besides, she found that she did not really have no feelings for Cui Jinsong.

Her low self-esteem was the reason she was unwilling to accept a relationship with such a huge gap in status, fearing being looked down upon. But, could loving an ordinary person who didn't love her back, loving an ordinary person full of flaws, loving someone who was destined to make her regret it one day, make her respected?

She would be looked down upon and laughed at by others, who would laugh at her for picking up sesame seeds and losing watermelons.

She regrets it now.

When she wanted to find Cui Jinsong, she realized how little she knew about her.

It was as if she had never cared about him before, where he lived, or how he came to find her.

She knew very little about him.

It is Christmas Eve again, and everyone is forwarding blessing messages. Those blessing messages are of various kinds, and students will forward good messages to each other when they receive them.

Xia Qing picked out the best one from the various text messages she received, edited it and sent it to Cui Jinsong.

In the past, whenever Xia Qing sent him a text message, he would reply to her no matter what the message was about and find topics to continue chatting with her.

This time, nothing came of it.

After a long, long time, Xia Qing looked at her phone many times.

Every time she received a new text message, she thought it was from him, but it was never.

She realized that Cui Jinsong had really decided not to want her after she said that.

Yes, a man like Cui Jinsong should be a proud person. He lowered himself for her and restrained his edges, but he was not cherished or loved by her. Anyone should have given up on him.

What is Cui Jinsong doing?

He was very busy recently. His startup company was just starting up and he had a lot of things to do. Before he went to Xia Qing's city, he would work overtime to finish his work in advance and then squeeze out time to see her.

After that return, he entered a busy period.

If you haven't figured out how to deal with personal feelings, then don't think about emotional matters and focus on your career.

For a man, career is also his pride and capital.

He decided to build up his business first. With the experience from his previous life, he felt that he could achieve something bigger.

Maybe he is pursuing her too closely in matters of the heart, so let Xia Qing do what she wants first.

When he received the Christmas Eve text message forwarded to him by Xia Qing, he thought that such text messages were sent to a group of people.

Maybe I didn't intend to send it to him originally, but since it was convenient for group messaging, I forwarded it to him right away.

Xia Qing didn't want him to disturb her, and since there was nothing important, he shouldn't bother making small talk.

So, he didn't reply and hesitated whether to forward one to her.

Think about it, forget it.

So he didn't take this matter seriously, because in the past, when Xia Qing forwarded such text messages, even if he sent the same reply, there would be no response unless he forced a topic.

It was the first time he didn't reply to the text message, and Xia Qing couldn't sleep again because of her.

She felt that she was ill, and very ill.

Not cherishing what you have and regretting it when you lose it is really despicable.

Late at night when her roommates were asleep, she had a lot of random thoughts and felt that she had to call him, otherwise she would not be able to sleep.

She felt she owed him a sincere apology.

Yes, she wanted to apologize, so she had a reason to call, so she put on her coat and went out to the corridor to make the call.

"Beep~beep~" I thought about it for a long time, and I don't know how many times I dialed but no one answered.

Xia Qing cried. Did Cui Jinsong block her?

I really don't want her anymore~