Reborn back to college to have a love affair

Xia Qing lowered her head to eat, and Cui Jinsong kept picking up her favorite dishes for her.

Some female classmates passing by showed envious expressions. It was rare for a boy to take care of his girlfriend with such loving eyes while eating.

Xia Qing also felt the gazes from people around her, and she felt a little uncomfortable.

She wasn't used to the attention yet.

She didn't know how to face the people around her and Cui Jinsong, so she could only lower her head and eat like a quail.

Cui Jinsong looked at her helplessly. Xia Qing had not yet experienced the hardships of social life at this time, and was not confident enough or calm enough to face the eyes of people around her.

The innocent college students have not yet learned how to deal with those bad words and looks in a sophisticated way.

Cui Jinsong turned his head and glanced at the group of onlookers with a serious expression and fierce eyes. Those people looked away embarrassedly when they were stared at by his stern eyes, and some even moved away.

After dinner.

Xia Qing took him out of the cafeteria, and the two of them strolled along the cement road with plane trees on both sides.

Cui Jinsong tilted his head to show concern for her gently. "What's wrong? Are you unhappy?" His voice was deep and magnetic. It was like a brother caring for his sister, which touched Xia Qing's heart.

She thought for a moment and said, "Cui Jinsong, I want to tell you something."

"Ok?"

"Cui Jinsong, you said before that I was your wife, but I feel that I don't like you. I have to make it clear to you." She didn't want to be the kind of person who didn't like someone but didn't tell them clearly, occupying this person as a backup or keeping them hanging to satisfy her vanity.

Cui Jinsong stopped suddenly.

"Why? Do you have someone you like?"

Xia Qing thought of her senior's face, but she and her senior were not at that level.

Xia Qing shook her head.

"No, I feel that you have wasted your time, manpower, material resources and talents on me, but I cannot repay you." He came from such a far place every week just to see her, but she didn't like him.

He was so persistent in his efforts that she felt guilty when she couldn't repay him.

Cui Jinsong's eyes were gloomy, and he said calmly: "I don't need your return, I just want to be able to stay with you." He had everything except her, and he wanted nothing else but her.

"But I don't want it. Your existence makes me feel stressed." She and he were not from the same world. Xia Qing looked at him with some annoyance, but saw the sadness that flashed in his eyes. She was stunned for a moment. She thought it was his illusion.

But when she turned her eyes, she saw that he had clenched his hands and put them in his pockets.

Was he hurt by her?

Will she stop coming back after being hurt? That would be good for him, right? Otherwise, wasting time on waiting in vain would be even more painful. He deserves a better life, not being dragged down by her.

She had seen for so long that he was well-off, and the good here meant being top-notch in every way. But such a good person always had to accommodate her, whether it was eating, talking, or doing things.

She felt that she was not worthy. You could say she was feeling inferior at this time. Maybe she was really inferior and sensitive. She couldn't tell whether she lacked confidence in herself or in him when she said she was not worthy.

He also likes good people, but rationally he feels that she doesn't have the fate or means to keep such an outstanding person by her side.

In her stereotype, the second generation of rich people are all playboys, the top students are all character flawed, and older brothers are all in love with 18-year-old girls...

She felt that she had to become better before she dared to eat the big, round, sweet apple.

She doesn't dare to do that now, for she is afraid of being laughed at for being overestimating her own abilities and being shameless.

Cui Jinsong had no idea what she was thinking.

All she heard was that she didn't want him to be around, disturbing her life and adding to her distress.

Is that how she sees him?

Could he never get into his heart?

"Is this what you really mean?" There was a sense of determination in his deep voice.

Xia Qing lowered her head and murmured "hmm".

Cui Jinsong smiled, but it was an ugly smile.

"Okay, Xia Qing, you know, I am willing to give you whatever you want. If you don't want to see me... I won't appear in front of you in the future. But even if we can't be together, I hope you are well and happy." Just think of it as praying for his wife in the previous life.

You are not her after all.

He was in a state of confusion and didn't know how to proceed. He really had no experience in pursuing girls.

Just out of passion, he chased and accompanied, he thought that this was okay.

As a result, in the end he was still not liked, and he was not even liked around her.

Xia Qing still remembers how Cui Jinsong left that day, and the lonely figure who turned and left is still in her mind.

Obviously he no longer comes, she should feel relieved, after all, when that man stands next to her, she feels like an ugly duckling.

Now, he no longer comes.

There is no news.

The big boy who had given her endless care and love finally gave up on her.

In fact, he had just graduated and might have met her when he was in love for the first time, and then it was a one-way pursuit that ended in nothing.

So, when the senior studied with her in the study room again, her guilt was still there.

It was a different kind of guilt from before. She felt that she had betrayed him and let him down.

But, I clearly had not explicitly agreed to be his wife before.

Yes, he had always treated her as his wife and treated her as a husband would treat his wife.

But she was obviously not, so at that time she felt that he was putting a lot of pressure on her.

Now that he is gone, she always misses him in a useless way.

Sometimes, she didn’t even hear the senior calling her.

"Xia Qing, what's wrong with you lately? You seem a little dazed. Have you been busy with schoolwork and haven't had enough rest?"

Xia Qing shook her head. That wasn't the reason.

She looked at her senior's face, and another handsome and gentle face flashed in her mind.

That person knew a lot and gave her a lot.

When he was not around, she realized how happy she was when he was around and when he cared about her.

In particular, there was one time when I went to the cafeteria to eat with my senior.

I met the girl again whom I met when I was having dinner with Cui Jinsong.

That girl also knew Xia Qing’s senior.

The words were very rude: "Xia Qing, where is the brother you were with before? It's only been a few days and he's been replaced by a senior? Is he your boyfriend? Why didn't he pick up food for you and just ate it himself?"

"Senior is not my boyfriend." Xia Qing hates this person.

"Oh, I think so too. How could he look down on others when he has such a good brother?" the girl continued.

"Your brother doesn't have a girlfriend, right? Can you introduce him to the girls in your class?"

"My brother has someone he likes~"

"You're not saying it's you, are you? Don't you like it? But I asked you last time, and you said it wasn't your boyfriend."

Xia Qing didn't want to pay attention to her and said to the senior: "Senior, I'm done eating, I'm leaving first."

Senior: "Oh, I still have to wait a while before I finish eating, then you can go first, no need to wait for me~"

Xia Qing: “…”