Become a stepmother and save the male protagonist of the painful literary school

He felt suffocated for a moment.

No matter what you say, the other party will answer politely, just for the sake of form but never for the sake of heart. No matter what you do, the other party will regard it as having ulterior motives and be on guard against it silently.

Living together like this can be said to be torture.

Feeling powerless, he let go of her hand, but heard her say, "I just have an irregular heartbeat, it's nothing serious. Remember Mr. Tong said that the project was not at 7 o'clock in the morning. It's not even 5 o'clock in Country M now. If we rush back, we'll still have time..."

Jian Yan also felt that his words were too cold. He paused and then said tactfully, "After all, it's not a small project."

"It's impossible to go back on your word once you've turned it down. Your partners won't be interested in hearing about your fickle changes."

Tong Ruixiao pinched his brows in exhaustion. If you care about someone who is only defensive and resistant to you, you are destined not to receive genuine care, and you will have to bear the bitterness yourself.

She didn't care whether he was tired or not.

“Will that cause losses to the company?”

Jian Yan asked this question.

No matter what his purpose was for coming back, it was apparently because of her.

She didn't want to be held responsible for the profits and losses of his company caused by this incident.

"Fortunately."

She lowered her voice, "It's still a loss to say that..."

"Nothing, don't think too much."

He seemed to have no interest and his answers were all indifferent.

His usual smile is just the result of twenty years of social skills, but he is essentially a taciturn person. He is not good at expressing himself and does not like to talk.

Many times, he couldn't help wanting to stay with her, so he talked a lot in front of her.

But today, it only took a moment for me to go from anxiety to peace of mind and then to bitterness and heartache. My emotions went through ups and downs like a roller coaster. It would be uncomfortable for anyone.

Jian Yan noticed his indifference and fell silent. It seemed that he would have to pay a high price.

However, she did not have any internal conflicts, and the company's losses were not her fault.

The choice has always been in Tong Ruixiao's hands. She did not force him to come back. It was he who wanted to cancel the contract with the partner.

Why should she be morally condemned for his choice?

She would only feel sorry for a while, but would not really be so foolish as to blame herself. She was not the beneficiary of the company.

I choose to remain silent because I shouldn't speak at this time.

Otherwise, the other party might get angry and put the blame on her, saying things like "If it weren't for you, the company wouldn't have missed this project", and then she would suffer the consequences.

In her original family, her parents were always like this.

Under the banner of "for your own good", they do arbitrary and authoritarian things.

It was clearly their decision, she had no choice and was not even aware of it. Then when something went wrong they came to blame her, saying "If it weren't for you, this wouldn't have happened. It's all your fault." How disgusting.

There was silence for a long time.

Suddenly, he said, "Can you..."

"what?"

Jian Yan watched him move his fingers, then retract them, not understanding why.

"Nothing, your health is not good, I am worried, can I accompany you to get a full body check-up in the next two days?"

He curled the corners of his mouth, but it was forced.

I was thinking, what I actually wanted to say is - Can you care about me? It's okay if it's just perfunctory, even if it's against your will, I will be satisfied.

But he was of high status, thin-skinned and inexperienced, and the self-discipline and propriety he had been taught since childhood became a bondage that he could not take off.

In addition, there is a family conflict of interest between the two, which makes his request seem shameful and greedy.

The words stopped at my lips, and I couldn't speak them out.

He didn't tell her what he had paid for, nor did he want to use moral coercion to get anything from her. From the beginning to the end, he just wanted her to stop rejecting and hating him so much.

Even if you are just ordinary friends, it is not an exaggeration to say "Are you tired?" or "Are you sleepy?"

But she also knew that she had no obligation to care about him.

It is normal in this circle that the two parties in a marriage live their own lives and pretend to be equal when attending public occasions.

"it is good."

Jian Yan nodded.

She just had to agree to whatever he asked for, after all, they were all unimportant things.

Although she could go by herself and didn't need him at all, he had already proposed it, so could she refuse his request?

If you have time, whatever.

"It's late, I'll turn off the lights. Call me if you need anything."

After turning off the lights, he hung his suit jacket on the hanger, took off his glasses and put them aside, opened the top two buttons of his shirt, and lay down on the accompanying bed next to him to rest.

Breathing is long.

Jian Yan was not sleepy.

She leaned on the pillow, looking at the moonlight outside the window, thinking about what happened in the Lingxu mirror, thinking about those words, and her brows were filled with worry.

There is a 50% chance that I will become a murderer when I return. What should I do?

Her hatred and the revenge she wanted had all been cleared away by someone. What was the point of her returning to that world?

The person she was obsessed with died, her love rival died, her blood-sucking brother died, her parents who favored boys over girls died... everyone died, and she was the only one left alive in the world.

Is it cool?

happy?

not at all.

Those faces were all replaced by blurry blood, and once she imagined it, she would be terrified.

Jian Yan covered his chest, a cramp spread. It seemed that it would take some time to recover, otherwise it wouldn't be called a punishment.

As long as the emotions get excited, I will feel heartache.

She breathed with difficulty, unable to straighten her back, and pressed her chest. When the pain subsided, she collapsed back onto the pillow.

Take a deep breath.

There is sweat on the forehead.

Why is it so difficult for people to fulfill their wishes?

She couldn't help but hug her arms and felt cold all over.

The pale lips opened and closed, silently saying those two words, "Go... home..."

But does she have a home?

In the Jian family, she was called Jian Yan, and her nickname was Zhaodi. Her parents hoped that she would have a younger brother, and she was an unwanted vassal.

In the Si family, she was Si Yanchen's childhood sweetheart, the mistress who had been treated with kindness by his mother but was not allowed to get involved with her own son, and a past tense that should not be seen in the light.

In society, she is notorious in the upper class circles for relying on men, a "white lotus" despised by women, and the failure of the wealthy Jian family.

Where is her home?

The only two people who truly cared about her are gone. Her teacher died because she helped her go abroad to escape Si Yanchen's persecution, and her best friend Gao Chi died in an unknown fire in the laboratory.

She was deserted by her friends and family, and she was isolated and helpless. She committed suicide because she could not bear it any longer and had no desire to live.

The system told her that as long as she completed the task, she could go back for revenge, back to the time when everything had not yet begun.

This is the motivation that supports her in doing her mission.

But now, they told her—

Someone has avenged you and changed your fate. When you go back, all the people you hate are dead, and you become a murderer.

No one ever asked her if she was willing...