She is so pitiful? I choose to pity myself first

Extra: Gu Chenlin's choice

Gu Chenlin devoted himself to the country in both of his lifetimes.

Yes, when he was young, he actually had vague memories of his past life.

Gu Chenlin didn’t remember what his identity was in his previous life, but he remembered that when he died in his previous life, he was probably very young, about eleven years old.

He had been dead for decades and had even forgotten his own name, floating in the cemetery all day.

From time to time, groups of students would come to the cemetery to pay tribute to them.

Yes, they.

Gu Chenlin remembered that in his previous life, many of the companions who died with him were very good.

It seems that no one from their batch survived.

But they all disappeared one after another, or were reincarnated.

Gu Chenlin didn’t know why he didn’t go. He only remembered that he was floating in the cemetery alone, and there was no so-called Black and White Impermanence to catch him.

Maybe it’s because he has no name.

One day, a very gentle older sister came.

The older sister looked to be in her twenties. She put candies in the hands of each stone statue, and also placed several kinds of candies in front of his tomb.

Sweet and delicious.

He must have never eaten such delicious food in his previous life.

Gu Chenlin fell in love with this older sister.

The elder sister said tenderly with red eyes:

"If you want, when I get pregnant, it will be my child."

Gu Chenlin listened to it.

He wanted to be the child of this gentle big sister.

Being her child must be very happy and sweet.

Gu Chenlin waited for a long time, and he seemed to remember that he had other opportunities to reincarnate, but he always remembered that the elder sister said that when she got pregnant, he could become her child...

She would let him live happily, no longer trapped by war and poverty.

Gu Chenlin didn't want to reincarnate, he just wanted to be that big sister's child.

However, the eldest sister never got pregnant. In fact, she was not even in love.

Gu Chenlin felt very disappointed. Why didn't his elder sister get married and have children? In this way, how long would he have to wait before he could become his elder sister's child?

When the elder sister went to the cemetery to see them for the second time, she also brought a lot of candy. But this time, Gu Chenlin discovered that the elder sister looked pale and seemed to be very ill.

She smiled bitterly and said:

"I can't seem to be your mother anymore... because I'm going to die."

The elder sister is going to die?! How can this be possible?! This is the mother he has been waiting for for a long time!

Gu Chenlin was anxious.

In this hurry, he found that he seemed to have become different. He actually grabbed the elder sister's hand!

Then, I followed my elder sister and left the cemetery...

Gu Chenlin finally found out that this older sister was named Lin Tingyu, a nurse and an orphan.

Even when she was seriously ill, no one came to see her. She seemed to have helped many people, but when she was dying, those people did not repay her.

The light in the elder sister's eyes slowly faded away, and she died in that small house amid his cries...

Gu Chenlin didn’t remember what happened afterwards. He only remembered that after his elder sister died, she turned into a ray of light.

The color of that light looked very cold, but he felt it was so warm.

He didn't know how he did it, he followed the light and came to another world...

The big sister in this world has become very cold and is not enthusiastic towards anyone.

But he knew that it was because his elder sister had been seriously injured in her previous life.

If the elder sister can protect him from harm in this way, then it doesn't matter even if he still can't become her child in this life.

But in this life, there is Gu Shiye.

The eldest sister finally let go of the events of her past life and began to accept the company of people around her. She married Gu Shiye and became pregnant.

He can finally be a big sister's child!

Oh, no, now it’s not big sister, but mother.

His mother's name is Lin Tingyu.

He loves his mother.

His father's name is Gu Shiye.

He didn't like it very much, after all, this father had never appeared in his previous life. However, seeing that it was his father who collected his mother's body in the previous life, and seeing that it was his father who accompanied his mother in this life...

He just had to accept this father reluctantly.

……

These memories were only clear to Gu Chenlin before he was five years old. As he grew older, they gradually faded, and he even forgot about them.

Until one day, when his comrades sacrificed their lives for the Dragon Kingdom and Gu Chenlin stepped into the cemetery, those memories slowly became clear again.

Gu Chenlin stood in the wind, thinking about what Lin Tingyu had said to him.

Mom said that she was very happy to have him as a child and felt that he came to repay her gratitude!

What Gu Chenlin didn't say was that...

He really came to repay a favor.

Without Lin Tingyu, he might still be wandering in the cemetery, never returning to the human world.

In his previous life, he died protecting his country and nation.

He is also willing to do so in this life.

His parents supported him very much, even though he was doing very dangerous things and was always listed as one of the top ten people that enemy countries wanted to eliminate.

Gu Chenlin didn't care. In this life, he only died for his mother.

One is the motherland, and the other is his mother, Lin Tingyu.

——End of Extra