Dreaming of 1988, I have the ability to see ghosts and ghosts

It was another hot summer. The first thing Yingzi did when she returned home was to take her almost three-year-old daughter to the amusement park to play for a few days.

I visited several big cities and bought several sets of clothes for my parents for spring, summer, autumn and winter.

After doing all this, she stayed quietly at home for more than a month, accompanying her parents and daughter.

On the day of Chinese Valentine's Day, she put her daughter to sleep without any abnormality and sat by the bed and wrote:

“Dear parents, daughter, and relatives: Hello! When you read this letter, I will have left forever. Please forgive me for leaving like this.

Dad, Mom: I'm sorry! Not only have I failed to fulfill my filial duty, but I've also added to your burden.

But now my life has lost its color, and the road ahead is so dark that I cannot find myself in the darkness, and I have no courage to survive.

You gave me life, but I didn't protect it well, and fate played jokes on me time and time again.

No words can describe how shameless I feel at this moment. I beg for your forgiveness once again!

There is a bank card in my daughter's shirt pocket. There is more than 10 yuan in the card. The password is her birthday. I think it should be enough for you to raise her to adulthood.

Daughter: I’m sorry, Mom hopes you can grow up well. Don’t blame Mom for bringing you into this world and then leaving you behind. I will protect you in the other world.

Eldest brother, second brother: I'm sorry, Dad, Mom and my daughter are now left in your care. It is because of you that I can leave with peace of mind.

Don't be sad about my leaving. Letting me go is the best relief for me. Staying in this world in pain is a torture.

Xiongzi: I'm sorry, when love has become a thing of the past and when my heart has reached the freezing point, I choose to disappear from your world forever and don't want to make you worry about me anymore.

You and I are destined not to be together in this life. Don't be nostalgic for me, don't be sad for me, and don't give up Xiaoli for me. Her love for you is not less than mine.

Cherish the people around you, cherish everything you have, I will bless you in another world, and I will still wait for you in the next life!"

After writing this, she changed into beautiful clothes, put on light makeup, and stayed by her daughter's bedside until midnight.

After midnight, she kissed her daughter, went to her parents' room, opened the door and took a last look.

Then, she walked towards the river where she played in her childhood. Although the summer night breeze was not cool, it blew on her cheeks, taking away her tears. When she raised her eyes, the hazy stars twinkled and changed their positions.

The Milky Way is so bright. Can the bridge built by swallows on the turbulent river allow the Cowherd and the Weaver Girl to meet?

Looking down at the land, everything that happened in her short life came to her mind vividly.

She was leaving, disappearing from this world, erasing those sad memories.

Today's riverside has lost the vitality it had in my childhood. The water plants are still swaying, but the water that kisses them is no longer clear.

The holly trees are still there, but they have withered and are no longer the same size as before, and the water areas where the water chestnuts lived have been occupied by nets surrounding the lake.

She walked along the water plants into the deep lotus forest and slowly disappeared on the lake, silently and without causing any ripples.

The next morning, the parents felt strange when they heard their child crying.

The parents who had not found Yingzi, and before they could comfort the child, villagers from the same village came to their home and brought back the already cold Yingzi. The sky also started to cry, and it began to rain heavily.

The two old people, unable to bear the blow, sat in the corner holding their child and stared blankly at Yingzi's cold body.

The child also seemed to understand why his mother was lying there motionless, and his grandparents seemed not to hear her heart-wrenching cries.

Friends and relatives who rushed over after hearing the news also shed tears and helped arrange Yingzi's funeral.

After receiving the news, Xiongzi drove back with Xiaoli, but when he got home all he saw was a handful of ashes. The man couldn't control his tears.

Xiaoli followed behind Xiongzi, who had a numb expression, and watched him send Yingzi away step by step.

After Yingzi was buried, her mother gave Xiongzi the sweater and scarf that Yingzi had kept at the bottom of the box. Xiongzi's heart trembled when he took these things.

It was the seventh day after Yingzi's death. Xiongzi and Xiaoli drove back to Hai City. Along the way, the muscles on Xiongzi's face were stiff.

Xiaoli wanted to comfort him but didn't know how to start. Finally, she told Xiongzi about how she looked for Yingzi and asked her to leave that year.

After listening to this, Xiongzi said nothing but drove very fast, which made Xiaoli feel scared.

At this time, Yingzi was calling out to Xiongzi. He drove faster and faster, chasing after Yingzi who was slowly disappearing.

Amid Xiaoli's screams, there was a loud bang and the car hit the guardrail of the highway. At the moment when the collision was about to happen, Xiongzi turned the steering wheel towards his side.

Amid Xiaoli's cries, he just said "I'm sorry" and chased after Yingzi.

On the seventh night, Yingzi's daughter woke up her grandmother at midnight and asked her to help her get dressed and go outside.

When her grandmother asked her what she was doing, she replied:

"I want to see the new girl (we call the bride a new girl in our local area), mom, the new girl!"

I was originally very scared of my grandmother, but when I heard the news that Xiongzi was in trouble, I changed my mind and thought that maybe these two poor children got married in another world.

In fact, after Xiongzi died, Yingzi was found soon, and they really became husband and wife in another world.

After listening to the story of Yingzi and Xiongzi.

I suddenly sighed, sighed about life, sighed about living. Yingzi experienced too many setbacks, joys and sorrows, and the warmth and coldness of human nature in her short life.

In the end, she turned into a ghost. Although she stood together with Xiongzi again, they just floated together. I don’t know whether this is a blessing or a curse for her. I don’t know whether I should bless her or not.

I didn't say anything, but looked at Xiongzi beside her with complicated eyes. What was the mentality of a man who couldn't even tell whether he loved her or not?

Or is he still greedy for the wealth and glory that Xiaoli brought him? He really doesn't know where his heart lies?

But everything has become history, and the two people in front of me have become ghosts, no longer entangled in the past of the earthly world.

Xiongzi looked at me and lowered his head embarrassedly, still holding Yingzi's hand tightly.

I looked at Yingzi again, but I couldn't tell the expression on her face. Was it resentment or joy?

In short, there is a man around her whom she both loves and hates.

What Yingzi and Xiongzi experienced is also a microcosm of the lives of people born in the 60s and 70s, who also went through the process of taking exams and escaping farming.

This is also the process that Wang Fang, Wang Erming, and many other children who grew up in rural areas are going through.

"Sister Yingzi, why did you come to see me today?"

I asked meaningfully.

"We don't want to enter reincarnation for the time being. We want to watch our daughter grow up. But now Xiongzi and I have no name or status. I would like you to talk to our families and bury us together."

I don’t think this request is excessive, but will the two families agree?