Quick Wear: The scumbag is on the prowl, beware

Xu Xiaoxiao laughed at herself and said, "After graduation, I realized that it wasn't until I graduated that I realized that I could get a good job just by going to college."

There are really too many college students, and they are not that valuable.

In addition, she knew nothing back then and had enrolled in a very difficult major, which made it even more difficult for her to find a job.

Three thousand yuan may not be enough to recruit a migrant worker, but it can recruit a bunch of college students.

This group of college students was supported by the migrant workers of that time.

After leaving the ivory tower, she quickly understood what "class gap" meant.

I also understand that hard work does not make you rich.

"I rented the cheapest shared apartment, braved the 40-degree sun, took the bus to various places to submit my resume and interview.

Several of my roommates got jobs arranged by their parents right after graduation, and their RVs were ready long ago. "

Even her roommates’ grades were not as good as hers. Some failed the Level 4 exam, and some couldn’t even figure out how to do a spreadsheet.

She continued: "It's been three months since I graduated and I still haven't found a suitable job. I can barely afford to eat."

Ata frowned: "Why don't you tell your parents?"

Xu Xiaoxiao smiled bitterly: "Because they can't imagine that migrant workers can find work, but I, a college student, can't find a job."

She couldn't explain the anxiety and pain to parents who had different perspectives.

"They couldn't understand it. They just thought it was my problem and said I was wasting money by going to college."

She could only borrow some money from friends, live frugally, and save every penny.

I was reluctant to turn on the air conditioner and got heatstroke. I cried at night and had to continue the interview during the day.

Several times she hesitated when seeing recruitment information from milk tea shops, hot pot restaurants and factories, and finally did not go.

Because those are not what college students should do.

Xu Xiaoxiao: "I've been taught in textbooks since I was a kid that 'there is no high or low occupation', but does anyone really believe that?"

Qi An said: "Nonsense, what a bullshit!"

Ata also shook his head.

Xu Xiaoxiao laughed: "Look, everyone knows that this is bullshit. So I can't convince myself."

Just when she was at her wit's end and was about to compromise with reality, she saw a recruitment information from a large Internet company.

After three rounds of interviews, she stood out from hundreds of people.

Her shattered cognition was pieced together again.

After telling my parents the good news, all the relatives and the entire village knew about it within a day.

They all said that the daughter of the Xu family was very promising. She joined a big company right after graduation and would definitely make a lot of money in the future.

"I was determined to make a name for myself, get a promotion and a raise, and reach the pinnacle of my life."

Ata asked, “And then?”

Xiaoxiao smiled bitterly: "Then I found that dreaming is faster."

Without any background or connections, and without understanding the ways of the world and knowing how to flatter, promotion and salary increase are just empty promises.

She is like a donkey pulling a millstone, just moving from one millstone to another.

Although this grind looks more shiny, it is still a grind in essence.

Others envied her because she got a job in a large Internet company right after graduation, with high salary and good benefits, which made her feel proud when she talked about it.

Only she herself knows how tiring this job is.

It can be said that you are exchanging your life for money.

It's not even that much money, it's all earned by working all year round without being able to take a vacation.

After four or five years, her originally healthy body was gone and she suffered from a lot of occupational diseases.

Cervical spondylosis, lumbar disc herniation, tenosynovitis, insomnia, hair loss, stomach problems, allergies and obesity due to overwork.

Commonly known as eating less and less, sleeping worse and worse, but continuing to gain weight.

The long-term reversal of day and night coupled with tremendous work pressure made her overall condition worse and worse.

The mind is always in a tense state and cannot relax.

Because whether it is late at night or on vacation, you may receive an urgent call from your boss.

Xu Xiaoxiao said: "Do you know? Until now, whenever I hear my phone ring, I start to feel anxious before I even look at the screen."

Ata asked: "Why don't you quit and find another job?"

Xu Xiaoxiao: "Because I can't find a better offer than this after I quit, and my parents won't agree."

Ata: “…” So difficult!

"Every time I tell my parents that I'm tired and don't want to work anymore, they always say..."

Qi An: "What?"

Xu Xiaoxiao imitated: "You sit comfortably in the office all day, just moving your fingers and tapping on the keyboard.

There is heating in the winter and air conditioning in the summer. There is no wind or rain, so why are you tired? "

"Are you as tired as us working in the fields? Are you as tired as the migrant workers working under the scorching sun and cement on the construction sites? You don't know how to appreciate the blessings you have."

"Your company is so famous, so many people envy it, but can't get in. If you quit, where can you find a better one?"

"What? Mental labor is more tiring? As a college student, are you going to do hard labor without using your brain? Wouldn't your father and I be laughed at to death?"

"Sudden death from overwork? Pah! What nonsense! Those people must have been ill to begin with. How can young people die from overwork?"

"There is only one person like that in a million miles. It's fate. God wants to take it away. There's nothing we can do about it."

"Besides, working overtime is great. Double pay on weekends and triple pay as required by law. If it were us, we would want to live in the company except for eating and sleeping."

"Insomnia? Oh, you must be playing on your phone. It seems you are not tired enough. How can you not sleep if you are tired?"

"Be obedient, don't be so squeamish, and don't quit. It's hard to find a job now. What if you quit and can't find a better one? Wouldn't it be a waste of our college education?"

"Your brother still uses you as a role model, so don't set a bad example for the kid."

"By the way, exercise more when you have time, don't lie down and play with your phone all the time. Look at how fat you are, lose weight and find a partner quickly. You've become an older leftover woman, and if you can't get married, people will laugh at you."

……

But outside the company, she felt too tired to even speak or make a facial expression, let alone exercise.

What does socializing and finding a partner have to do with her?

Xu Xiaoxiao said helplessly: "They can only accept that I am getting better and better. If I go back, I will be a loser."

So gradually she stopped complaining of being tired.

Every time my parents call to ask how I’m doing, I only get two casual words in response.

"Good".

Xu Xiaoxiao imitated the moves so well that Qi An and Ata were stunned.

She sighed: "So you see, no matter how disgusting it is, I have to visit this grave, and I have to be diligent every month."

Of course, half of the problem lies with oneself.

Xu Xiaoxiao lowered her eyes: "If I hadn't gone to college, I could have been a waiter, made milk tea, screwed screws, or done anything that interested me, but I went to college."

After studying hard for more than ten years and still making it to the present, she cannot accept other people's ridicule and gloating.

I am even more afraid of hearing the disappointed accusations from my parents.

"What's the point of reading so many books? I'm not as good as those who haven't read any books."

After all, in their eyes, going to college means being a superior person and being able to make a lot of money easily.

Little do they know that the humble animals are exhausted.

"My parents tell everyone how successful I am, but the fact is that any lady selling pancakes downstairs earns more than me."

But in the eyes of parents, working in an office is respectable and it is prestigious to talk about it.

"As for buying a house, haha, I'd better ask God for another 500 years."

"The saddest thing is that after the outbreak, my first reaction was, oh, I'm so happy I can take a vacation. I feel so sorry for myself."

Qi An and Ata were silent. Is it so difficult for young people in this country?

Xu Xiaoxiao said: "In fact, there are many people who are as tangled as me. They can't roll up, and they can't lie down flat."

"People like us are called Kong Yiji in society, and our education is like the long gown we can't take off."

"When we were little, we were told to study hard and go to college. But when we grow up, we are told not to care too much about academic qualifications and not to be like Kong Yiji."

She wondered, "So what was the point of all the suffering I've endured for nearly twenty years?"

“Sometimes I even wonder if it would have been better if I hadn’t studied so hard back then.

Wouldn't it be easier to just live your life in confusion without knowing about the outside world? "

Finally, she let out a long sigh: "Actually, I think it's good to be relieved like this. Anyway, I have no expectations for the future."

Ata said, "Don't you feel it's a pity that you've never been in love?"

Xu Xiaoxiao smiled and said, "It's okay actually. I just want to experience love and don't want to get married and have children."

"why?"

"Because I don't want to marry someone I don't have feelings for as if I'm completing a mission, and I don't want to bring a child into the world and repeat the path I've taken."

"If I can't give him a good life, I won't harm the child. There are enough leeks, and this one doesn't matter."

Qi An nodded: "Since you have no wish, then go and reincarnate on your own."

Xu Xiaoxiao shook her head: "No, I don't want to be reincarnated."