The couple made a living in the 1950s.

I was born in 1932, when the white magnolias were in bloom.

There is also an older brother and an older sister in the family.

When we were young, our parents always told us there were little devils outside so that we wouldn’t go out to play often.

Later when I grew up I found out that there were really Japanese devils outside at that time.

My family lives in Beijing, and my grandfather was a teacher in an old private school.

He often liked to say, "Books are as affectionate as old friends, and are always with you in your joys and sorrows, morning and night."

Under his influence, my brother, sister and I started to learn to read and write at a very young age.

My older brothers and sisters took the college entrance exam differently than I did.

I was the first batch of college students to be admitted to university by taking the national college entrance examination.

In my college, I met a lot of people.

There are teachers I respect, classmates who help each other, and roommates who love each other.

There are also Sister Yu and Wang Wei.

I was really planning to marry Wang Wei, and I think he thought the same at the time.

We are different from many couples who get married after meeting a few times and spending a short time together.

We met on the university campus. I was studying at Peking University and he was at Huazhong University of Science and Technology. In everyone's eyes, we were a perfect match made in heaven.

We ourselves have always believed so.

Mom and Dad are very satisfied with Wang Wei, and his parents were also very kind when I went to his house.

Later, we both waited patiently for graduation and then got married.

How could I know at that time that we would never have a future together?

I remember the first time we met was at the door of our professional classroom.

He was accompanying Sister Yu's husband to the class to help Sister Yu get her test transcript.

Sister Yu’s husband is very charming. He exudes a strong aura just by standing there.

Although everyone knows that he is married, they still restrain themselves and secretly admire him from time to time.

I don't know what happened that day, I was just going to the door to deliver Sister Yu's report card to my brother-in-law.

But he saw Wang Wei into his heart at first sight.

He was not like Sister Yu’s husband, who had a cold and brilliant glow about him.

Standing there, it is impossible to ignore it, but it will never warm anyone.

There was a warm glow on him.

When our eyes met, I could clearly feel my heart about to jump out of my chest.

Later, I secretly went to school to see him three more times.

There are so many students walking together during class time, and most of them are wearing clothes in black, blue and gray.

But no matter how many people are around him, I can always see him first in the crowd.

It was like something was guiding me and I could no longer see anyone else.

Later, we finally got together.

I can’t remember now what I said at that time.

I only remember how I felt when I hesitated for a long time before I mustered up the courage to walk up to him.

And the light that flashed in his eyes when he heard what I said.

The light in his eyes once amazed my whole heart.

I still remember the first time I went to his house to meet his parents. At that time we were still sophomores in college and had just started getting together.

That day, I happily went to her door with the gifts I had carefully prepared.

His mother is very gentle, and his father even took a break from work to wait for me to visit him at home.

I grew up with my grandfather and I am very good at pleasing my elders.

The atmosphere in the house was always good, and later Wang Wei's three sisters and younger sister also came back for dinner.

When we are together, we sometimes talk about family matters.

Naturally, I will talk about my brothers and sisters.

I also got up early and prepared gifts for them all.

They were very easy to get along with and smiled at me very gently.

The meal that Wang Wei’s mother prepared that day was also very sumptuous.

But for some reason, I always feel uncomfortable getting along with these sisters.

Later I talked about this with Sister Yu, and Sister Yu told me that I should talk to my mother about this feeling.

I usually listen to Sister Yu. She is kind and knowledgeable, and many of her insights have benefited me a lot.

But this time, for the first time, I didn't listen to her.

I still remember that I was lying alone on my bed in the dormitory.

I kept thinking about what happened at Wang Wei's house that day, trying to find out what was wrong.

As I thought about it, I started to laugh. That's how it is.

His sisters smiled very gently, but that was at Wang Wei, not at me.

Come to think of it, that day they only spoke to the two of us when Wang Wei was next to me.

When Wang Wei was not around, there was only silence between us.

At that time, Wang Wei was not with me for so little time that I didn't notice it.

After I found the reason, I didn't take it seriously at all. I thought things would get better as we got to know each other better.

Until one day, Wang Wei suddenly told me that he might go home to stay at night in the future.

His eldest sister told him that their parents were getting older and he was the only boy in the family.

My elder sisters are all married, and my younger sister just graduated from junior high school and started working.

Now is the time when their family needs him to be at home more.

I can no longer remember what we said to each other.

All I remember is that I didn't stop him.

At the time I thought I wouldn't care, but later on it stayed with me for a long time.

Our school is not in Beijing city.

It takes Wang Wei more than two hours to ride his bike home from school.

Since he started staying home at night, the only time we see each other every day is at lunch.

Time passed by leisurely like this.

The two of us seemed to be getting more and more accustomed to it, and we only had lunch together every day.

Time flies, and it’s time for us to graduate and be assigned jobs.

Wang Wei was assigned to work as a designer in the design institute of the Beijing Municipal Construction Engineering Department.

I was assigned to work as an accountant in the municipal government.

In fact, Wang Wei and I have always believed that marriage is a natural thing for both of us.

Both of us have completed our studies and have stable jobs, so the only thing left is to get married.

These days, the food rations of every household are not sufficient.

I still remember the day when our two families met at his house.

Mom and Dad deliberately didn't bring my older brother and sister, hoping to save some money on tickets for their family.

It wasn't until Mom and Dad saw the all-vegetarian dishes on his family's dining table that they all changed their expressions.

I still remember the glance my mother gave me when she turned her head that day.

The complexity in my mother's eyes at that time was something I saw only a long, long time later.

It wasn't until my daughter was getting married that I truly understood it.

When Wang Wei and I just graduated, our family discussed the issue of my dowry.

When my sister got married, my parents gave her a sewing machine and 500 yuan as a dowry.

My sister also let her take her own watch and bicycle to her own home.

My brother-in-law bought my sister a new watch and a radio at that time.

Also gave my sister 500 yuan as a betrothal gift.

In the end, all these gifts and dowries were taken to my sister's new house.

Mom and Dad said that my dowry is the same as my sister's.

No matter how much the betrothal gift Wang Wei's family gives you, bring it all back to me.

I didn't even have the time to say these words to Wang Wei.

Our family of three was at the vegetarian banquet first.

I heard from his eldest sister how difficult his family was and how they were able to afford the 66 yuan betrothal gift.

It was their parents who went out to borrow it from relatives and friends.

I still have a vague impression in my memory of the surprise in Wang Wei's eyes and the guilt in his parents' eyes.

At that moment, I felt a little sorry for him.