Good luck every time

The eldest sister was also embarrassed and hurried to explain.

"It's not your fault. It's just that these bricks are old."

Han Shian landed his feet on the ground, bowed to his elder sister, then turned and walked out of the yard.

But he had only taken a few steps when he saw a figure standing at the door.

The humility on his face was slowly replaced by a complex emotion, a mixture of worry, fear, disbelief, and surprise that was hard to conceal.

However, after the surprise, there was a sense of loss.

His steps were still steady, but his speed was slightly faster.

"Pan'er, you're back?"

There were many emotions hidden in the word "Pan'er", but Li Ruyi ignored them subconsciously out of guilt.

Li Ruyi nodded in panic and avoided Han Shian's gaze.

"Brother Han, I've changed my name! From now on I'll call you Ruyi instead of Pan'er."

Han Shian's expression froze on his face, and the look he gave Li Ruyi was suddenly filled with inquiry and suspicion.

Sun, who was supposed to die two days later, died yesterday.

Li Zhaodi, who was supposed to be arranged to get married by her clan members, is still fine and there is no news of her getting married.

These changes made Han Shian feel a little uneasy. He stared closely at the expression on Li Ruyi's face, not missing any details, and asked her tentatively.

"As one wishes?"

Li Ruyi still didn't look at him. She remembered the hurtful words she said when they last met.

I remembered how lonely Han Shian felt when he left the capital...

Her body is new.

But the soul is old.

Those things may seem false to others, but they are unforgettable only to her.

She reached out and unconsciously wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes. After she calmed down, she raised her head.

Li Ruyi looked at Han Shian with nostalgia and guilt in her eyes. The person in her memory was still a teenager, thirteen years old, with his eyebrows and eyes still not fully grown.

She smiled subconsciously.

It was the smile she had slowly learned in brothels, backyards, and the Music Bureau over the years, a smile that was polite and showed weakness, hoping to win some sympathy from others.

But immediately, her smile faded and was replaced by a slightly serious look.

"Yeah! I want to live a more fulfilling life."

Li Ruyi loosened her fingers that were tightly gripping the backpack, leaving messy wrinkles on the backpack.

She didn't dare to face Han Shian, nor did she dare to face herself who was living in the abyss. She lowered her head, ran past Han Shian back to the yard, and walked together with the elder sister who came out to greet her.

The boy at the door stood with his back to them, so no one noticed his trembling fingers and the joy gradually appearing in his eyes.

"This... this life... this life?"

So does that mean there are... other lives?

Is it the same as him?

Han Shian suddenly turned around and looked at Li Ruyi's back.

The little girl has not yet lost her childishness, but her calm appearance is unlike the Li Pandi in his memory when she had just lost her mother and sister.

Han Shian suddenly laughed.

He exhaled deeply.

Starting over again, even if the Pan'er he cared about disappeared, he didn't want her to go through the same old path again.

However, some emotions are tied to memories. Without those memories, Han Shian would rather guard the past until he grows old than confuse the two completely different lives of Pan'er.

His heart was filled with that girl who had a tragic fate but was always strong, a little bit aggressive, kind and pure, and there was no room for anyone else.

Even though that person was just herself who had never experienced suffering, to Han Shian, they were completely different.

However, things now seem to be moving in another direction.

Han Shian quickly left the Li family and ran towards his own home. He suddenly had many thoughts. The noisy and messy past needed time to sort out.

He had to wait until he had sorted things out before he knew how to face such a contradictory Li Ruyi.

He ran too fast and naturally didn't see it. Li Ruyi turned back as if he sensed something and cast a resolute look at his back.

During the last two years of her life, Li Ruyi always felt that Han Shian's biggest failure in his previous life was because of herself. If it weren't for her, he would definitely be able to shine brightly!

He passed the examinations to become a scholar, a juren, and the top scorer. He married the daughter of the Minister of Personnel, had a good future, gave birth to children of his own, and rose to prominence, having a smooth life.

Instead of going to the post alone with his old servant, he focused all his attention on her. Even after learning the news of her death, he was unable to get over the past.

Perhaps everything can start over again, but the memories of hurt and suffering will always exist.

Li Ruyi didn't want to be distracted by the other party. In this life, she wanted to see if there was a direction that could allow her to move forward.

Seeing her staring at Han Shian's back in a daze, the eldest sister pulled her sleeve.

"How are things going?"

Li Ruyi's attention was called back by her elder sister, and she quickly suppressed the worry in her heart.

A smile instantly appeared on her face. She looked at her elder sister who was waiting eagerly on the side, and instead of answering, she asked in a low voice.

"Is Li Zhuzi back?"

The eldest sister shook her head.

"Not yet! He hasn't even come back for lunch."

Li Ruyi stretched her neck to look inside, and sure enough, she didn't see Li Zhuzi. She relaxed a lot and took out the household registration form from her backpack to show her elder sister.

"Look! This is our household registration! I'm the head of the household. You and the third brother are both here."

The eldest sister was illiterate, but she still took out the household registration and household sticker to check.

She rubbed her fingers over the red mark on it and asked with a happy look on her face.

"Is this our household registration? Which one is my name?"

Li Ruyi searched for it and pointed at her elder sister's name and read it to her word by word.

"Here! These three words are Li, Ji, and Xiang."

These three words seemed to carry a heavy power that instantly filled the eldest sister's chest, and her red and swollen eyes suddenly brightened.

His rough, cracked fingers gently stroked the three words, and his mind depicted their appearance stroke by stroke.

Li Ruyi looked at the expectation and longing on her face and spoke to her again.

"I still remember how that adult wrote it. Can I teach you how to write your name?"

The eldest sister was even happier now, and couldn't suppress her smile.

No one would like an unexpected name like 'Zhao Di'.

Those prejudices and malice will become clearer as we grow older, and become numb due to the oppression of the environment.

The eldest sister was a little impatient, but when she saw Sun's tattered coffin parked there, she immediately suppressed her anxiety.

More than ten years have passed, so a few days or two won’t make a difference.

Li Ruyi saw this and changed the subject.

"Oh right! I'm starving. Is there anything to eat at home?"

As she spoke, she put her household registration back into her backpack. It wasn't that she didn't trust her elder sister, but no one in this world could make her believe it.

It is better to keep something as important as household registration in your own hands.

The eldest sister nodded and her brows slowly frowned again.

"There's still porridge in the kitchen. The third child has gone to dig wild vegetables. He's going to be buried the day after tomorrow, so maybe we need to provide him with a meal."

Li Ruyi knew what she was worried about and was more open-minded than her.

"It's the same every year. After the burial, I'll go up the mountain to chop some firewood and sell it. I won't have to buy medicine for my mother. There's so much food around, she'll never starve to death!"

"Let's work hard for two days, get through this period, and then we can wait for the autumn harvest!"

When the eldest sister thought about it, it made sense and her brows relaxed a lot.