Good luck every time

The second young master Zhao liked her passionate and lively nature, just like he liked the treasure vase placed at the entrance of the Zhao family's lobby, or like he liked the inkstone placed on the desk that he often admired and played with. He cherished her but did not insist on her.

A good classmate took a fancy to her, and Mr. Zhao sent her out without saying a word.

She was also a young talent. She followed someone to high school, became an official, rose to high positions, took sides in the fight for the throne, and also followed someone to have their house raided.

Men were exiled three thousand miles away, and women were sent to the Jiaofangsi.

Life in the Jiaofangsi was not easy either. It was common for them to be beaten, starved, suffer, and be humiliated and teased.

Fortunately, she had been kept in the backyard for many years. In order to pass the time, she had learned some skills. She could sing songs well and was good at needlework. She also learned to read and write, learned some carpentry, and knew some acupuncture techniques. She managed to curry favor with the person in charge and showed her face in front of some people. Her life became a little easier.

But it was just a little bit relaxed.

It was at this time that Han Shian appeared in the capital.

He has become a juren.

When he heard that she was sent to the Jiaofangsi, he rushed here, but it was not easy to redeem a government slave, and even it was extremely difficult for them to meet.

At that time, Han Shian was much braver than before, and he still said those things that he didn't dare to say when he was young.

He talked about his past years, saying that he spent all the money he earned on studying and that he was only accompanied by an old servant who was over fifty years old.

He did not marry or take concubines, and his only goal was to pass the imperial examination.

At the end of their separation, he asked Li Ruyi to wait for him until he graduated from high school, and said he would definitely find a way to take her away.

He said she could depend on him.

He also said that their life together had just begun, and he talked to her about the future, and it would last a long, long time...

Li Ruyi was moved.

She is already thirty years old. Is she going to spend the rest of her life in the Jiaofangsi?

For the first time, Li Ruyi held Han Shian's hand tightly, as if she was holding a life-saving straw.

She selfishly forgot her past and their identities, and just wanted to find a shoulder to lean on.

They stood under the tree for a long time.

However, Li Ruyi finally backed down.

The passionate emotions faded away, and rational inferiority returned to her.

Born in a brothel, she had been a concubine and was finally sent to the Music Bureau. She had seen too many men and heard too many evil thoughts.

Is it necessarily a good thing to leave with Han Shian?

Even if Han Shian never changes his heart in his life, can she calmly become a stain in his honest life?

She couldn't confide all the contradictions and anxieties she was feeling, and every time Han Shian came to see her, his increasingly undisguised enthusiasm became the source of her self-hatred and guilt.

While Li Ruyi wanted to pursue a better life, she gritted her teeth and said that she was a selfish person.

At the same time, he hated his own shamelessness and always wanted to drag Han Shian into the same abyss as himself.

She can deceive others but she cannot deceive herself.

Every sleepless night is a time for her to judge herself.

In the end, she still drove Han Shian away!

She told him that she just loved money and was greedy for fame and fortune, and she didn't want to live a hard life with him, so she asked him to never come to her again!

On the other hand, she took advantage of her status to hook up with a royal family member, and with the help of the other party's status, she was able to leave the Music Bureau within a few months.

The day Li Ruyi entered the palace was the day the results were announced.

The new number one scholar’s ​​parade on horseback occupied the main roads of the capital.

The sedan that brought her into the mansion passed through the alley next to the main road.

She seemed to hear someone calling Han Shian's name amid the noisy crowd.

Li Ruyi hurriedly lifted the curtain to look. Her mind traveled across thousands of mountains and rivers, but her sight could not go beyond the eaves of the building in front of her.

It seemed as if they were destined to take different paths since birth.

Han Shian worked hard and endured all kinds of hardships, but he kept moving forward.

Li Ruyi did not need to overcome layers of obstacles, as if she could just move her fingers and there would be fine clothes and delicious food waiting for her, but she slid uncontrollably into the bottomless abyss.

The son of the royal family did have some genuine sympathy for her, but his sympathy was too much. It was not enough to give it to one person, and he would feel comfortable only after giving it to more people.

The mistress of the house was as fierce as a black-eyed chicken, and everyone looked at her as an enemy who she wished the other person dead.

She looked down on Li Ruyi's humble background, and Li Ruyi also looked down on her domineering behavior.

As soon as the two met, they fought fiercely.

For a woman trapped in the harem, all the fighting seemed to be the only beautiful embellishment of reality in her boring life.

Other than that, there is only torment with no end in sight.

Li Ruyi occasionally heard some rumors about Han Shian.

It was said that the Minister of Personnel had taken a fancy to him and wanted to marry his only daughter, who was only 28 years old, to him, but he refused because he had some concerns and could not bear to disappoint others.

I heard that he was clearly a top scholar, but because he offended someone, he was sent to the poorest and most remote county to serve as a ninth-rank official, which was tantamount to exile, and he was afraid that he would never be able to return in this lifetime.

I also heard that he refused the help of his classmates and decided to go on his own to a foreign land...

On the day he set off, Li Ruyi went there. Her carriage stayed at the city gate for a whole day, but she never got off.

She knew that Han Shian had stopped in front of her carriage.

Han Shian must also know that she was in the car.

But they never saw each other again until they died.

Li Ruyi covered his chest and felt a dull pain in his heart.

Later, she made a mistake and was imprisoned in a farm by the mistress of the house, where she lived on one steamed bun and two bowls of water every day.

During those two long years, her hair turned white and her eyes became blind, but she had plenty of time.

The mistress of the house got angry outside and came over to scold her.

Tell her how Li Zhuzi, whose legs she had broken in the early years, is doing now.

I told her that the grass on the graves of her eldest sister and third sister was growing very tall and no one cared about it.

Tell her that the old patriarch’s son is even less valuable than his father, but he is wealthy and respected.

Talking about her master and mistress, and about the second young master Zhao's new love...

But, he never told her anything about Han Shian.

Neither of them mentioned it tacitly. She didn't say anything and Li Ruyi didn't ask.

In her whole life, others have always let her down, and Han Shian is the only person she feels sorry for.

Before I knew it, memories came like a tide and receded like a tide.

There seemed to be a layer of mist in front of Li Ruyi's eyes. When she was about to wipe it off, she vaguely saw Han Shian's footsteps falling. The earthen bricks that had been placed in front of the Li family's door for several years suddenly cracked, and the young man staggered and almost fell.

The eldest sister was startled and screamed to remind him, and wanted to pull him away.

"Han..."

As soon as the word "Han" came out of his mouth, the young man in front of him swayed and immediately stood firm again.

He bowed to his elder sister, looking as if he was used to it.

"I'm sorry, I stepped on the bricks at the door of your house and damaged them."

Most of the depression in Li Ruyi's heart suddenly dissipated. This guy is still as unlucky as ever!