After a breakup, a song heals the world

Su Yan saw different complex expressions on the faces of the four examiners.

Surprise, confusion, deep thought, guilt, sympathy...

Su Yan was surprised before, but he was quickly relieved.

It was because I realized later that before the school entrance examination, these art students had a physical examination. It was probably at that time that my depression was written on the physical examination form.

But for him, this is also true.

If it was the young man from before, he might have been stumped by such a sudden question.

But for Su Yan, whose soul now completely belongs to another person, it is better to admit it openly.

After glancing at the four teachers, Su Yan said calmly, “Perhaps many people don’t know much about depression.

Although this mental illness causes me a lot of trouble, it is actually just a disease.

It won’t hurt anyone else…”

When he said this, Su Yan paused, with a trace of disappointment on his face, "At most... I will hurt myself..."

But soon, he smiled again, “Besides… depression doesn’t affect singing, right?

On the contrary, I think sometimes depression may give me an advantage in musical expression that other people don’t have.”

Among the examiners, the middle-aged man looked serious and asked in confusion, "Advantage?"

Su Yan nodded, “The most typical symptom of depression is low mood, although sometimes there will be a loss of interest.

But for emotions like sadness, sometimes we can feel them more delicately, right? "

I don’t know whether the four examiners are satisfied with Su Yan’s answer.

They just looked at each other and then wrote something on the paper in front of them.

Only the youngest female teacher had red eyes and looked down in a daze.

The old man who asked the question first asked again, his expression much more relaxed, "Why did you choose to become a musician?"

Su Yan thought for a moment and said, "At first, when I saw someone playing the piano, I was very envious.

Although my family is not well off, they still support me in learning piano.

This is probably the original intention of learning music.

As for now, I want to make my family's life a little better through music.

More importantly, I want to use my singing to...heal the world."

The middle-aged male teacher who had been silent in the audience raised his head and smiled, "To make my family live a better life, this statement is quite honest.

As for healing the world? Looking around the world, there are not many musicians who can achieve this.

So for you, is this goal too... far away? "

Su Yan smiled slightly, just as the examiner said.

In the past, this goal was indeed very big, but for me, the chance of achieving it could only be described as slim.

But now...it's different.

So Su Yan said calmly, "You still have to have dreams, just in case... they come true."

The middle-aged male teacher nodded and looked at the other teachers, indicating that he had finished his questions.

"I know... depression is mostly intermittent..." This time it was the young female teacher who had been silent all the time who spoke.

Su Yan raised her head. Her eyes were still slightly red and her voice was even a little hoarse.

But the look she gave herself was very gentle, “Many people don’t know that the suicide rate among people with depression is very high.

The suicide mortality rate caused by this mental illness is around 20%.

Forgive my rudeness, if I may.

I wonder what happened then?

And... finally, how can you stand here and continue to take part in our school exams?"

Su Yan was stunned.

If the questions asked by the two previous teachers were more professional issues related to music.

Now, the questions from this young-looking examiner were more like personal questions.

What made Su Yan even more puzzled was why she knew so much about depression, and why she had such a sad reaction after hearing that he had committed suicide due to depression.

Perhaps seeing Su Yan's silence, she apologized and spoke again, "I'm sorry, I was abrupt. You can choose not to answer this question."

Su Yan came back to his senses and shook his head gently, "It's okay, it's all over."

Then, Su Yan looked out the window and began to reminisce.

Of course, rather than calling it a memory, it would be more like flipping through the memories of the dead Su Yan in my heart.

In fact, Su Yan is not bad looking.

Although he looks a little thin, his gentle face, the faint sadness on his face all year round and his introverted personality make some girls who are just beginning to fall in love like Su Yan's temperament.

So, when I decided to take the art exam and was preparing for it, I met that girl - Xie Ming.

At that time, his depression was not that serious.

As for why he got sick, Su Yan, as a half-bystander, felt that it was more due to the pressure from studies and family.

Studying art, especially music, is definitely a considerable expense for an ordinary family.

Even so, Su Yan's parents did not complain at all and supported his somewhat naive musical dream.

But Su Yan's talent for music is pitifully little.

It's bad enough that I started to fall behind in my professional courses, but I also couldn't keep up in my cultural courses.

But in the face of worsening rankings, Su Yan's parents still comforted him.

Over time, his guilt and self-blame towards his parents, as well as his inability to catch up in school, made him more and more introverted.

It was at that time that Xie Ming took the initiative to approach Su Yan.

The two often practice piano, study and chat together.

When they went to the beach together as boyfriend and girlfriend, they shouted towards the sea, saying that they wanted to apply to Lincheng Conservatory of Music.

To be together forever.

Like a drowning person who suddenly grabs a piece of driftwood.

Although campus romance is pure and beautiful, it is also immature and delicate, and cannot withstand the wind and rain of the outside world.

A few months ago, Xie Ming suddenly broke up with me.

The girl was very tactful at the time.

She has to make plans for her future, and another boy who is also an art student is pursuing her.

The boy's uncle was an examiner at Lincheng Music School.

He can guarantee that he can pass the school examination.

After that...Su Yan's depression became more serious.

Until a few days ago, Su Yan came to the beach where he and her had been before.

Step by step...towards the depths of the sea.

What followed was the scene that Su Yan experienced before he woke up in front of the hospital bed.

Retracting these thoughts, Su Yan took a deep breath and said calmly, "At that time... I chose the place to commit suicide in the sea.

It was one night.

The moonlight scattered through the clouds.

I took off my shoes, stepped on the beach, and slowly walked towards the sea.

Finally, the sea swallowed me up.

Lost, lonely, painful, helpless...

At that moment, I began to regret and began to understand that being alive means hope.

And death is the loneliness of eternal sleep.

But it's too late.

I struggled and shouted, but to no avail.

But fortunately, I was saved in the end...

That’s why I’m standing here today.”

of course.

What he said before was all true, but the last part about being saved sounded like Su Yan was lying.

The old him is already dead.

The one standing here now is another Su Yan.

Although Su Yan has his memories, his soul is forever sunk to the bottom of the sea.

And this will be a secret that only Su Yan knows...

The young female teacher seemed to be trying hard to suppress her sadness.

Her voice was trembling, her eyes were red, and she said softly, "Thank you."

Maybe he felt her emotions.

The older, short-haired female examiner patted her shoulder gently and looked at Su Yan.

“We have finished asking our questions, and you may begin your vocal performance.

Choose a pop song and sing it a cappella.

One minute.

What song did you sing?

Su Yan was silent for a moment, then said softly, "Under the sea."

"Under the Sea?" The short-haired female teacher frowned slightly. "Whose work is it?"

Su Yan, "My own song... is that okay?"

“Original??!!”

Including the young female teacher, the four examiners were all shocked.

Looking at this student who once again surprised them...