[British and American] Jason Wayne's Struggle

"Da, Dad...sorry..."

When Jason saw Bruce, he wanted to say a lot. He wanted to say sorry, I can't be what you expected me to be, I'm sorry, I have to leave you first, I'm sorry, because of my recklessness, I have to make you sad.

Sorry, his mistake has landed him in the hands of the Joker, and now he has to leave his father forever.

Please, Bruce, don't blame yourself for my departure. My death was caused by my own carelessness. And Alf, Dick, Laura, Katie, Kurt... my friends, don't be sad either.

It was not until his death that Jason realized that his departure might hurt many people, but those who would be sad for him were the ones he cared about the most, which made him feel unwilling and regretful before closing his eyes.

Jason thought this was the end for him, but he could feel a soft hand sliding across his palm.

He subconsciously knew that it was the hand of a girl who should have black hair, blue eyes, a very cute little face and a sunny and cheerful smile.

But he couldn't hold that hand, and could only watch a tiny baby bird spread its wings and fly away from him.

It was a very strange feeling, as if he had seen the little blue bird a long time ago.

"who are you?"

The presence of the little blue bird made all the pain in his body disappear, and Jason felt extremely peaceful, as if he was illuminated by a healing magic.

The little bluebird also reminded him of Dick.

A light laugh sounded, and in the distance there was a blurry figure. Well, that person seemed to be wearing yellow clothes and had no hair. He looked at Jason with a very gentle and calm look, which made him feel relieved.

"Don't say sorry, this is not your fault."

Following this soothing voice, Jason fell once again into a sea of ​​golden orange and fell into a deep sleep.

The days in that sea were very boring. All he did was sleep. Fortunately, the water was very warm, and sleeping here was very comfortable and peaceful, as if any anger and resentment could be washed away. Sometimes Jason even felt like a god here, without any negative emotions in his heart.

Later, a green chain pulled him out of the ocean, and then Jason appeared in a marble temple with stone pillars everywhere, and outside the temple was a light golden desert.

A blue jay gracefully landed. It was the only blue in this golden and orange world. Jason subconsciously raised his hand to catch the bird and smiled.

"I thought you were going to leave me."

The bird stared at Jason with its clear eyes, then lowered its head and rubbed Jason's palm. Jason could feel that the child was still ignorant. Yes, she had not had time to be born and see the outside world, and she knew nothing.

"Your feathers are the same color as the eyes of the person I like."

The first person to arrive in the desert was Bruce, who was wearing a Batman uniform but without a mask. He looked very tired. Jason walked behind him and called him softly.

"Bruce."

Batman was startled and turned around, only to see Jason standing behind him, still looking fifteen years old, dressed in white, with a beautiful blue bird on his shoulder.

Bruce was stunned for a moment, and said softly: "I missed you a lot."

Jason smiled shyly, "This is the first time I heard you say you missed me. I missed you too, but I don't really want to see you here."

"Let's go back."

When Bruce woke up again, the voices of Alfred and Dr. Leslie talking reached his ears, and he raised his arms to cover his eyes.

"Alfred, I saw Jason."

Ah Fu put the tray with gauze, forceps and other things beside him: "It seems that you had a good dream."

Bruce added: "He was the one who brought me back to the human world."

The Batcave became very quiet. After a while, Bruce stood up. Before he passed out from his serious injuries, he rescued those little mutants who rushed into Arkham to avenge Jason. Now he had to finish the matter.

The second person to go into the desert was Dick.

That day, Jason was sitting on the steps of the temple and talking to the Little Blue Jay about his past ice skating experiences. The bird suddenly became agitated and flew out of the temple, and Jason quickly chased after it.

Dick, standing in the desert in a daze, heard a familiar voice calling a name.

"Maureen!"

Then he saw the little bird fly to his shoulder and pecked his cheek affectionately with its tender beak. Dick turned around and saw Jason running over.

At that moment Dick almost cried, and Jason was also stunned looking at Dick.

They stared at each other from a distance. After a while, Jason stretched out his hand and called out, "Mulin, this guy is leaving. Come back."

The bird looked at Dick reluctantly and flew back to Jason's palm.

Dick's breathing became rapid. He staggered after the bird and ran to Jason, but he didn't know what to say.

He could only say dryly: "Her name is Mu Lin?"

Jason held the bird in his hands and forced a smile.

"Well, she is a gift given to me by a magician or a god. With her, I won't have nightmares anymore because she always reminds me of you, so I named her Mulin."

Dick's mother's name is Mary Grayson. The name "Maureen" means "little Mary", and the pronunciation of Maureen is similar to marine, and there happened to be a golden orange sea nearby.

At this moment, Dick finally couldn't hold it anymore and cried in front of Jason. He lowered his head and bit his lower lip tightly, with his cheeks tense.

He said vaguely: "I miss you so much, Little Wing. Sometimes I even want to die to be with you. I'm sorry. It's all my fault."

"No, my death was caused by my own recklessness. You are not wrong, Dickie Bird. You are not wrong. Don't blame yourself, okay? I hope you won't punish yourself for my mistake."

Jason reached out to wipe Dick's tears, but Dick pulled him into his arms, and the adult male cried loudly on his shoulder.

He has been on the verge of collapse these days, as if he would go crazy at any time. After Jason left, he felt that traces of Jason were everywhere. He wanted to cry when he saw a bookstore on the roadside. Jason loved books so much, but he had never even accompanied Jason to a bookstore. They had only dated once, and he gave Jason so little happiness.

Dick's tears were exactly what Jason didn't want to see the most. He had always been afraid that his departure would leave them with pain.

He hugged Dick and coaxed him gently: "Shh, Dickie Bird, I'm here, remember what I said? My heart is always with you."

Jason whispered in Dick's ear: "I miss you too, but it's better for us to meet again in a few decades. You have to go back now."

Later, Jason met Kurt (Nightcrawler) and Laura here again. To be honest, seeing them here did not make Jason happy at all, so he kicked them back without any hesitation, of course, on the buttocks, so that these idiots would know that if they did not cherish their lives, Jason would be angry.

Another time, Jason saw Natasha, which was the most unexpected thing for him. In his heart, Natasha was a super smart person, so she should not have been on the verge of death. However, according to Natasha, she was affected when the target of the mission was sweeping the room with a submachine gun, and Jason pushed her back.

By the way, there was another kid named Harry who also came here. He seemed to have lost his mother, so Jason held him and sang for a long time before sending him back.

But the more people pushed back, the more tired Jason became, so one day, he returned to the ocean with the little blue jay in his arms.

The last person he pushed back was a girl. They were old acquaintances. Jason had worked with her for two days when he was a kid. Later, she hooked up with pimps and wanted to sell Jason to those pimps. If Jason hadn't run into Killer Croc when he escaped to the sewer, he would probably have met a miserable end.

The girl was later tortured badly by Crime Alley. Jason dragged her to the vicinity of Dr. Leslie's clinic before she was killed. It was said that she was adopted by someone from another city.

The sleeping Jason didn't know that the girl started writing articles on the Internet after being pushed back to the human world by him. The article was called "Prince of Gotham", which tells the story of Yana, a girl from Crime Alley, who has a crush on Jay, a boy next door.

"In Crime Alley, everyone's eyes are numb, but Jay is different. His mother loves him, and his neighbor's sister loves him too. He has love, so his eyes are so beautiful that they seem to glow, like a forest cleansed by rain. He is the best-looking boy in Crime Alley."

"Yana was always beaten by her mother. One time, Jay gave her a candy, and then he smiled and went to school with his schoolbag. He loved reading and sometimes stayed in the library. Yana thought that maybe one day he would leave Crime Alley, after all, he worked so hard."

"That was their first meeting, and Yana fell in love with Jay at first sight."

"Later, they all became street kids. Yana was doing very badly, but Jay was doing relatively well. He was very smart, so he protected himself very well. Sometimes he would lend a hand to others, and Yana was helped by him before."

"But she betrayed Jay. Yana knew that she was such a bad person. She wanted to drag Jay into the same dirty situation as her. Fortunately, God bless, those pimps were killed by Killer Croc who passed by."

"At the moment when she thought she was going to die, Yana thought a lot. She thought that this was how her life would end. She was only thirteen years old and was going to rot in Crime Alley. The moment before she closed her eyes, she saw Jay approaching her and dragging her to a nearby clinic."

"After leaving Gotham, Yana thought she would never see the boy again. But one day, her mother took her to watch the U.S. Championships, and Jay was the champion of that game. He was only 14 years old at the time, but he had already defeated all the adult players. He was still kind and would participate in charity ice shows to speak for mutants."

"Yana watched Jay flying on the ice and suddenly burst into tears. After the game, she ran to the first row and threw out the red roses. There were many people throwing red roses at that time, but Jay happened to pick up Yana's bouquet of roses."

"He was holding a rose, standing on the ice, looking as beautiful as a prince. He recognized Yana, but still smiled, his turquoise eyes sparkling like stars."

"He said, Greetings to you, madam, and may you be happy and blessed."

"That was the last time Yana saw her Gotham prince."

At the end of the article, the author stated that the above stories all happened in reality, and Jay eventually died in a car accident, but he will always be Yana's little prince.

This article later caused a huge response on the Internet, and many ice fans recommended "Gotham Prince" to people around them. When Dick saw the article, he had just finished watching the musical "The Phantom of the Opera" and was about to leave Broadway.

That’s when Barbara texted him.

【Barbara: Dick, go to this website and have a look! 】

Dick was a little confused, but he still walked into the roadside cafe and clicked on the website.

For a while, anything related to Jason would make Dick sad again, but this time it didn't happen. Dick calmly finished watching "Gotham Prince", then held his coffee, looked at the rain outside the window, and slowly hummed the song Jason once sang.

It was not the "Think Of Me" he had just heard, but a song created by David Sylvian and Ryuichi Sakamoto called "Forbidden Colours", from the movie "Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence".