Mecha Star Wars.

Chapter 1336 The Hidden Self

Lin Fan didn't think about that past for a long time.

It's been so long now that when Antonio suddenly mentions it, recalling it, it feels like something that happened in a lifetime ago, so unfamiliar... like I'm just observing someone else's story. It's hard to feel the emotions I once had.

After experiencing so many life and death situations, Lin Fan looked back at the reasons for his depression and felt that they were so insignificant.

But it was such a trivial pit that made her struggle at the bottom of it for several years and she couldn't climb out.

Lin Fan still remembers that noon, the dazzling sunlight above the grove, filtering through the leaves and casting scattered spots of light on the shade of the trees.

She turned around, and in the moment of transition from light to darkness, John Woo seemed to have walked out of the light... Intermediary...

He extended his hand to her and smiled: Ms. Lin, my name is John Woo.

At that moment, Lin Fan's destiny began to turn again...

Afterwards, she went to the Special Affairs Office with the determination to die, hoping to plan an ending that could earn her money, but unexpectedly, she ended up living towards death.

The process of depression and recovery was equally long. However, those strangers gave her the most thoughtful care and love, which made her feel like she was reborn.

Lin Fan was delicate, sensitive, and in need of love. Even though she knew from the beginning that all the good intentions were actually directed at the mecha, the result was that she came back to life, and the new world was better than before.

Whether it was out of a sense of gratitude or a reflection of his own value - as long as he was willing to sacrifice his life, he could contribute his strength to the mecha industry of Country H, Lin Fan had almost no hesitation.

Originally, she was only worried about her own life and death, and about Lin's father and mother, and wanted to be a sophisticated and selfish person.

But the gears of fate kept pushing Lin Fan forward.

Put out the fire, save people, kill the green turtle...

As the power of the stars was released bit by bit, Lin Fan climbed higher and higher without realizing it.

When she held the medal of bravery in her hand and felt like she was being suspended in mid-air, unable to get up or down, her personal gains and losses had already been unconsciously pushed behind many things by herself.

She doesn't like fighting, but she can fight with the alien Gro to protect Country H from being invaded.

She didn't dare to kill anyone, but she went on a killing spree and her hands were covered in blood for the strangers who were slaughtered in the subway.

She was afraid of death, but in order to blow up the spaceship, she almost lost her own life...

Later, as the stars came into light.

As Lan Xing's most formidable force, Lin Fan himself seemed to be equivalent to that indestructible mecha. She dared not fear, dared not retreat.

If he had a choice, Lin Fan didn't want to leave Lanxing.

When she was sick, she was on the verge of life and death more than once, and all she thought about was what would happen to Lin's father and mother if she died.

After she recovered from her illness and developed bionic armor, she was worried about her parents and whether the progress of 623's mecha development would be affected when she was pierced by the green turtle.

When blowing up Gro's spaceship, she was worried that without her, Lanxing would not be able to withstand Gro's attack.

Once in space, all she thought about was the Noah - what would happen to the people on the Noah if she died?

So she had to work hard, she had to become stronger, less likely to die, so that she could protect everyone...

Everyone said that Lin Fan had grown up, that he was becoming more powerful, more stable, and more like a leader.

But Antonio said that Lin Fan was trapped in one shell or another and lost himself.

Lin Fan's heart felt a little bitter for a moment.

She knew everyone wanted her to be great. Many people had a problem with her indecisiveness and impulsiveness, and hoped she would be a perfect captain with no faults.

She was eroded by evil resentment and became what she became. She herself didn't know whether it was her soul that was affected or she deliberately magnified the impossible that was difficult to achieve in her heart.

But the result after the decisive killing was still unsatisfactory. Everyone tried their best to make her change back...

Lin Fan was in a state of confusion and rebellion, unable to figure out what would satisfy others. However, she found an environment in Changtianmen where everything was fine for her. Her mentality began to thaw.

Now, Antonio said this again.

Live for yourself...

Antonio was surprised that Lin Fan didn't struggle at all when he held her in his arms. He let go and looked at her: "Hey, Auntie, don't cry!"

Lin Fan covered his face with his hands, and before he could even finish his sigh, they were forcibly pulled away. The unfinished emotion was stuck on his face, and it felt uncomfortable. He rolled his eyes at Antonio fiercely.

“Who’s crying?!”

Antonio took a closer look and breathed a sigh of relief.

"You scared me." He smiled again and put his arm around Lin Fan's shoulders. "I was wondering why my words touched you so much? You must have been holding it in for too long. Look at me later and I'll make fun of Jin Sichen. He's a psychologist! What did I do to you?"

Lin Fan pushed him away and stood up: "Come on, you can't argue with him."

Antonio curled his lips and spread his hands: "Hey, miss, which side are you on?"

"I'm on my own side." Lin Fan crossed his arms, "Don't you want me to be myself?"

Antonio blinked, his face blank for a few seconds, and scratched his head. "Although, but, let's not talk about anything else, just this, I was the one who broke your knot, right? Right, right? What Jin Sichen couldn't do, I, Antonio, succeeded, right?"

Antonio always lost every time he argued with Jin Sichen. Whether he was using pornographic or pornographic language, his mouth, which he was always good at talking, never worked well.

Humph! A high IQ is so great?! Even though he can transform into a mecha, he's not that proud!

Look at it now! Haha! Didn’t Lin Fan calm down after just a few words from him?

What's the use of a high IQ?! Humph!

Seeing Antonio's happy and proud look, Lin Fan felt relieved to explain for Jin Sichen.

Jin Sichen's conversation was actually much more subtle than Antonio's blunt words. But why didn't it resolve Lin Fan's feelings? It was primarily due to a lack of mainstream values.

The education that H country people have received since childhood has taught them that as long as their values ​​are correct, they will have a broad-minded attitude of sacrificing themselves for justice.

Even if Jin Sichen was usually petty and vindictive, when it came to an emergency, like when he was needed to deal with the ugly woman alone, he stayed with the ugly woman for several months without saying a word, and managed to become her fake best friend who could influence her thoughts.

He is like this, Cen Fangyuan is like this, Cui Yan is like this too...

It should be said that all the H people on the Noah, and even the H people that Lin Fan came into contact with on Lanxing, were like this.

So from their own perspective, Lin Fan's improvement and progress are normal, positive, and worthy of encouragement.

Even if Jin Sichen discovered Lin Fan's retreat, she would never persuade her from the perspective of liberation - they all did this, and they would not think there was anything wrong with it.

Even if he tried to persuade him in this way, Lin Fan knew that he was not sincere and would not believe it in his heart.

Antonio is different.

Country P has always advocated freedom and individual consciousness. One's own rights and interests are the first priority, and everything else comes second.

So Antonio's words really came from the heart.

Lin Fan's true self had been ignored for too long, and was suddenly pulled out by Antonio. Even though he was not ready and shrank back again, the deadlock had been broken, and subsequent improvement was only a matter of time.

It’s just a matter of balance…

Lin Fan thought for two seconds and decisively decided not to waste time and just let things take their course.

"Hey, where are you going?" Antonio jumped up and asked when he saw Lin Fan suddenly turn around and leave.

"Learn a skill." Lin Fan turned around and looked at him. "No matter who it's for, the first beneficiary is always me. Besides, if I learn it sooner, won't I be able to rest earlier later?"

Antonio thought about it and nodded: "That's true. Then I..."

Thinking of Le Zhengyuanqing, his determination to study began to waver again.

"Whatever you want," Lin Fan ignored him. "Wait until the time comes to call me to go to Shanggu. This is the most important thing in the near future."

"Okay!" Antonio put two fingers together and made a gesture in front of his forehead. "You're busy, I'm free. Please!"