Mecha Star Wars.

Chapter 1335 Live for Yourself

When Antonio first saw the disciple order, the first thing that came to his mind was who had kidnapped the Changtianmen disciples and wanted to threaten Lin Fan.

But immediately, he overturned his idea.

Although the patterns on the disciple orders of Changtian Sect are the same, the identity of the holder can be easily distinguished by the material.

The rough porcelain plate contained the most common inner sect disciple token. Disciples holding such tokens were everywhere in Changtian Sect.

As far as Antonio knew, Lin Fan had only a few good relationships with in Changtian Sect, and none of them matched the disciple order in front of him.

Of course, if a fellow clan member were in trouble, it would be easy for Lin Fan to save him.

But for the past two days, fearing getting involved in the royal family's disputes, they've kept a low profile and avoided several places. They haven't been to restaurants, and have been resting at street stalls, practically smearing ashes on their faces to pretend to be beggars.

Not only that, but he could also find Lin Fan so accurately... a candidate immediately emerged in Antonio's mind.

"Ha!" He chuckled playfully. "After changing my identity, I really do act differently."

Lin Fan held Antonio's hand and pushed the lid of the bowl back down. He continued eating his wontons as if nothing had happened.

Antonio couldn't be as calm as her. After searching for the delivery girl but to no avail, he turned around and asked Lin Fan, "Hey, Junior Brother wants to invite you. Do you want to go?"

"No." Lin Fan didn't even raise his head.

"That's right." Antonio's eyes fell on the covered white bowl, and he completely lost interest in eating. "That's not the way to invite someone...hiss! Is he warning you not to get involved with this? Does he know you and Ruilin know each other? I think he heard about it when we were chatting before? Is it a misunderstanding? If it were me, I would definitely curry your favor and flatter you right away!"

"No matter what he thinks," Lin Fan wiped his mouth calmly, "I won't get involved. Do you want to eat or not?"

Seeing Lin Fan was about to leave, Antonio quickly took the bowl and drank it in three or two gulps: "Let's go, let's go. I didn't expect these eye-reporting spirits to be so powerful. I want to stay quiet recently, so I'd better not go out for a stroll."

Lin Fan had no objection. She had been there to accompany Antonio, and now that Antonio didn't want to play anymore, it saved her a lot of effort.

Unable to stay outside, the two had to return to Yinyuewu and continue their practice.

Antonio was once again trapped in the dire straits created by Le Zhengyuanqing. His only hope was to return to ancient times. He kept counting down the days and whispered to Lin Fan.

There is actually nothing interesting about going back to ancient times. Excavation and measurement are equally boring, but at least it can give Antonio a break.

In his words: Every time he wanted to make positive progress, he would be hurt physically and mentally by Le Zhengyuanqing's radical methods, which led to subconscious fear and avoidance.

He asked Lin Fan how he managed to persevere.

Lin Fan thought for a while.

When she first met Le Zheng Yuanqing, she took advantage of him somewhat by using her childish body.

Although the eldest brother was ruthless later, what really pushed her forward was the life-and-death crisis hanging over her head. The green turtle, Gro, including the evil resentment later on.

She needed to become stronger to ensure the survival of herself and others. In that situation, there seemed to be no other choice.

If you don’t become stronger, you will face death.

If she doesn't die, someone else will die.

Lin Fan didn't want anything, so she could only choose to become stronger.

Later...it seemed to have become a habit.

She is the captain of the Noah, but in reality, there is very little that she really needs to do.

When her heart was floating in the space and she was at a loss, it seemed that only by becoming stronger and practical could she feel grounded.

It seems that only by constantly becoming stronger can I live up to the crew of the Noah and the expectations of Lan Xing...

"Oh, that damn sense of responsibility!" Antonio put his arm around Lin Fan's shoulders like a brother and looked at her with emotion. "Has anyone ever told you that you're a very good leader?"

Lin Fan thought for a while and shook his head.

"Didn't you think I was dangerous earlier?"

"That's two different things." Antonio laughed quickly, patting Lin Fan's shoulder guiltily. "Back then, you were under the influence of that black energy, becoming incredibly cold and ruthless, as if you could choke anyone with a single word. Besides me, who wouldn't be afraid?"

Of course Antonio was afraid, but his fear was different from that of others.

"But we all know you weren't like that before. You were a good girl." His smile faded, no longer playful, and his face was filled with sincerity. "We want you to change back, not entirely out of fear of your uncertain new personality, but because we feel you shouldn't be like that, with a stern face all day long, unable to show joy."

Lin Fan turned and looked at Antonio.

This was indeed a point she cared about—everyone said she was good, but everyone also wanted to change her. Was she just going to have to live the way others wanted her to?

"Hey~ Don't look at me like that." Antonio grinned. "Even if my filter for you is thicker than the atmosphere, I can't say that everything about you is good. No one is perfect, and no one can avoid shortcomings and live like everyone else. But!"

He paused, emphasizing his voice. "I still hope you're the same Lin Fan you once were. It's not that being high and mighty, comparable to a god, is bad, but if you keep being like that, your life will lose a lot of its joy."

"I hope you laugh when you're happy and cry when you're sad." He patted his shoulder. "Hey, this is always here for you to lean on. I hope you can be angry when you're angry, and be ruthless when you're ruthless. Don't always feel high and mighty, detached from all worldly coldness, nor do you want to be humble and heal alone."

"I know you've been through the lowest times, covered in mud, and once looked down on everyone as a demigod. I know how difficult your journey has been. You've always thought about the Noah, other people, and Lanxing, but you can't think of yourself."

"Lin Fan," Antonio's pronunciation was remarkably standard, his deep brown eyes fixed on Lin Fan's. "I hope you remain you, the you who lives for yourself. Like when we first met, the you who can laugh, rage, and be happy to the fullest, instead of being trapped in a shell, confined, involuntary, and unhappy."

Antonio has always been a playful person, and this is the first time Lin Fan has heard him speak so seriously.

His speech wasn't as polished as Jin Sichen's, nor as smooth as Cen Fangyuan's. Even his choice of words and pronunciation were flawed, but it smoothed out the rough edges in Lin Fan's heart. Like a breeze bringing life, it slowly rekindled a certain feeling within her.

"Are you touched?" Antonio was serious for a few seconds before returning to his playful smile. He put his arm around Lin Fan's shoulders and pulled her into his arms, his other hand already stroking her head. "Even if the sky falls, don't I still have you to hold it up? Jin Sichen, Deputy Cen... those people on the Noah can also help in a critical moment. And that guy, and Mr. Little Black Cat..."

"Lin Fan, you are not alone. We are all here with you! Of course, the most important thing is that I am by your side. The Noah is not your responsibility alone, and Lanxing is not yours alone."

"Don't live for others! Live for yourself, boldly and freely!"

The details of the struggle between Shu Zhiyu and Ruilin should have been written here.

But then I thought about it again, this part of the story had little to do with Lin Fan. It didn't have much impact on the main plot, so I deleted it decisively and changed it to a heart-to-heart talk between Antonio and Lin Fan.

Lin Fan's awkward personality was softened by Changtianmen and comforted by Antonio, and he gradually adjusted to normal.

Initially, I wanted her to be more ruthless, so I planned a scene where she was attacked by evil resentment. Later, I realized it was too cold, and it couldn't be developed from Lin's perspective. It took too much time to develop Lin Fan from other perspectives, so I spent so much time switching her back.

Once his personality becomes normal, Lin Fan's participation will increase.

There's not much more to say. Come on, finish writing about this planet quickly. Go somewhere else and have some fun~~

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