I really don't want to be a teacher

"Okay, I'll call now..."

On the road, a middle-aged man carrying a woven bag and a young man walked by the road.

……

"...this is the mighty motherland

It's where I grew up..."

With a hoarse voice, the old man struggled to hum,

After the last line was sung, the radio fell silent, and the old man stopped humming,

In the shade, calm down again.

After another pause, the old man was silent for a while, turned around, turned on the radio, took out the tape again,

"...How about it, young man, I can sing well, old man."

Smiling, the old man carefully put the tape away again, and asked aloud,

"The old gentleman sings very well."

Turning his gaze, Lian Ge glanced at the old man, and responded with a slight smile.

Hearing this, the old man smiled again, turned around, fiddled with the radio again,

Turning back again, he looked at the bustling street outside the tree-shade,

The smile on his face gradually faded, he was silent for a while, and continued talking,

"...I just stood in that small square and listened to him finish playing the whole song... When he finished playing, I went up to him and asked him what song he played, and he told me that the song was called "I Motherland".

...my country, my country..."

Stretching out his hand, the old man pressed the tape in his pocket again, his eyes were a little lost, he murmured and repeated,

The voice gradually subsided, and the old man fell silent again.

"...I fumbled out my wallet, then took out all the change in the wallet, and gave it all to him... Put the wallet away, and I ran all the way back to the school."

"...I don't want to wait any longer, I have to go back to my country, I should go back... This is the place where I was born and raised."

The old man was talking, turned his gaze, and then looked inside and outside the shade,

"When I arrived at the school, I went directly to the principal's office and told him that I was going to go back to China to visit relatives on a long vacation... He listened to me, stood up from behind the desk, looked at me, and asked me, asked me Have you considered it clearly?

He told me that if I stayed there, there would be better development, a better research environment, a better living environment,

He told me that he had known about the country, and said that the country was poor and white, with nothing.But there, the industry is highly developed, the city is highly prosperous, I can enjoy a life far beyond that in China, and even have children in the future, so I can receive a better education..."

"...Fuck me!"

The old man said and cursed,

"I don't care about this thing? Yes, your country is developed, the roads are full of cars, and the city is full of high-rise buildings, but no matter how good it is, will you give us these things? No matter how good it is, it is also your country , it's not my place..."

The old man cursed, then paused again,

"...At that time, I had endured enough. I didn't want to bear it anymore, and I didn't want to be able to bear it when someone shouted in front of us."

Looking out of the shade, the old man continued on.

"...I rejected the school's conditions and insisted on returning to China...the school granted me a leave of absence and allowed me to "take a long vacation and return to China."

"Before I left, I took the piece of bacon that had been stored for several years, went to the restaurant of the old overseas Chinese, and gave the piece of bacon to him...After that, although I experienced some twists and turns, I still set foot on the road. I got on the boat back to my country, first went to another country, then changed from that country to the boat, and returned to the country..."

Under the shade of the tree, the voice of the old man echoed,

Outside the shade of the trees, the sun in the sky climbed to the sky,

Beside the winding path, there are fewer and fewer pedestrians, and the surroundings become more and more quiet.

Chapter 407

It was already noon, outside the shade of the trees, on the park road, there were fewer and fewer pedestrians,

Taking advantage of this gap, beside the road, the stall owners were either sitting on a stool, or squatting beside the stalls, eating their own food by the side of the road, chatting a few words with the stall owner next to them from time to time. .

"...Old Ding, how is business today?"

"It's okay, it's okay...Old Chen, when it's time to close the stall later, give me a portion of your potatoes. The daughter at home is thinking about the fried potatoes, and I'll bring her a portion home..."

"to make……"

Outside the shade of the tree, the voices of voices were mixed, faintly resounding in the shade of the tree through the dense branches and leaves.

Under the shade of the tree, the old man was sitting on a bench, looking in front of him with dazed eyes, a little silent.

"...A man with great ambitions to restore Shenzhou, and a vigorous army to attack Yanyou..."

Beside the bench, the radio was playing, playing Manjianghong, and the sound of opera came out, intermingling with the voices outside the tree shade.

On the side, Lian Ge listened to the sound of the opera mixed with the voice, but did not make a sound, just looked out of the shade with the old man,

……

"...After returning to China, I first spent a few years in the valleys of Sichuan and Shu Province, and then spent some time on the Gobi Desert."

The old man turned his head slowly, fiddled with the radio again, fell silent for a while, and continued talking,

"...At that time, I wasn't the only one who was in that place. Some seniors who returned to China first were also there. The conditions are a bit worse, but they are much more comfortable than those abroad."

The old man raised his head while talking, with a smile on his face,

Through the dense branches and leaves of the sun, mottled swaying on the old man's face with loose skin,

"...Living conditions and research equipment are not as good as others, but there, everyone is working hard on one thing. Just to stop being so useless, everyone is holding their breath...you say this My heart is getting angry, there is nothing I can't do."

The old man lowered his head slowly, with a smile on his face,

"...Finally, we did it too."

"... You don't need to be useless anymore, you have to endure being bullied."

"That's right……"

The old man was talking, the smile on his face gradually faded, he looked out of the tree shade, his eyes were in a trance, he paused,

"...There are so many people, but none of them can see..."

After saying a few words, the old man fell silent again, just looking out of the shade of the tree, his cloudy eyes were in a trance,

Glancing at the old man, Lian Ge turned his gaze back,

Gu Xiaoying looked at the old man, was a little silent, turned around, looked at Lian Ge,

Lian Ge looked at Gu Xiaoying, stroked Gu Xiaoying's hair, and didn't say much.

……

"...Old man, I lost my life, but I came back to life... A lot of people fell at that time... A lot of people..."

Outside the shade, by the road, some vendors wiped the sweat from their faces, or they were still eating, or got up to clean up the dishes, and greeted the customers who stopped again.

The old man looked out of the shade of the tree, fell silent for a while, his eyes were in a trance, and he continued,

"...At that time, there was a person who went to that valley with me to study in that country. He was older than me. When he went out, he still went out with his wife. I gave birth to a child in that country, but he still came back...he told me, because this is home..."

After a pause, the old man continued,

"...He arranged his wife and children in Rongcheng, and followed us into the ravine... When I first went there, his belly was round. I joked with him and said, brother, you look like this Rich. He also said to me with a smile that when he was abroad, he ate too much oily and salty food. Now that he is here, he just loses weight..."

While talking, the old man paused again, and then continued,

"...After arriving at the place, because both of us had studied in that country, the person who arranged the arrangement thought it would be easier for us to talk, so he arranged the two of us in the same room... I just looked at him, that belly It disappeared little by little, and the flesh on his face became less and less... He also asked me with a smile, is he more handsome than me after losing weight...I said yes, yes..."

"...For a while, there was no food in the valley, and one person could get a few steamed buns a day. He took the steamed buns, gave me some, and told me that I was Younger, with a bigger appetite, he said to me with a smile, he said that there is still fat accumulated in his stomach, and if he eats less, it will be fine..."

"...At that time, in the ravine, once winter passed, mosquitoes began to appear in spring, and in summer, there were so many mosquitoes that it seemed that you could slap them to death with a slap of your hand, and repel them by fuming them. Mosquitoes are in the house, hanging a mosquito net, it seems to be useless, I don’t know when, he got in again... on your leg, bite on your hand, it’s a bag...

At night, cover yourself with the quilt, it’s too hot to fall asleep, and lift the quilt, the mosquito will bite you once in a while, and you won’t be able to fall asleep even after buzzing in your ear twice, at night when you are too sleepy, The mosquito bites can't be bothered, so I can fall asleep...

At that time, some of us didn’t sleep at all, just stayed in the room, closed the door, and continued to discuss those issues... When the sky turned white outside and the mosquitoes were less, we each lay down on the bed and fell asleep It's..."

As the old man spoke, he fell silent for a while, looking out of the tree-shade, his eyes in a trance,

"...that night...that mosquito kept buzzing in my ear, and I couldn't sleep, so I got up, thinking about discussing the problem during the day with some other people... I I called him, but he didn't answer... At first I wondered if he was asleep... After I walked in, I saw him lying on his back, completely covered in the quilt, and his head was exposed. On his face, there are still a few mosquitoes lying on his face, biting him... I saw that something was wrong, so I pushed and called him a few times... He still didn't respond... I don't know when, he just fainted..."

"...When he was sent to the infirmary, as soon as the doctor opened his trouser legs, he saw his feet were swollen and shiny. When he took off his clothes, he saw his belly...wasted too quickly, The belly on the stomach has not been retracted, it just fell there, fell..."

The old man said, and fell silent again,

"...In the end, he couldn't make it through, so he fell down in that ravine...not only him, but many people..."

"...Afterwards, I arrived at the Gobi Desert... When I arrived at the Gobi Desert, even more people fell down..."

"...In that place, sometimes the food can't be brought in... When the food shortage is the worst, I wish I could pick up the last leaves on the Gobi Desert and eat them..."

The old man looked out of the shade in front of him, his muddy eyes were in a trance, and he said,

Lian Ge looked into the distance and listened quietly,

The breeze swayed the branches and leaves, and swayed the dappled sunlight on the benches through the shade of the trees.

"...Someone was just sipping a leaf while doing research... just fell down like that, on the Gobi Desert..."

"There are still people who are tired, and once they fall asleep, they can't get up again... There are also people who have been exposed to radiation, and that's it, they got cancer, and they're gone..."

As the old man spoke, his voice gradually subsided, and he fell silent again, looking at the street outside the tree shade.

Under the shade of the trees, it becomes more and more quiet,

Only the opera sound of the radio and the voices outside the tree shade interweave, mix and resound.

Chapter 408

"...During that experiment, another person and I participated in some work on the spot..."

The old man looked out of the shade, fell silent for a while, and then continued,

"After the experiment, he was irradiated. Not long after, it was found out that he had cancer, stomach cancer..."

While talking, the old man fell silent, and then paused again,

Lian Ge turned his gaze to the old man,

"The old man has also been exposed to radiation."

Turning his gaze back, Lian Ge looked into the distance and said calmly.

Hearing this, the old man fell silent again.

"...I suffered a little, but not as badly as him..."

After saying something, the old man paused and continued,

"...At the end, he couldn't eat anymore... He started to say that he would be transferred back to the capital for treatment, but he didn't agree, so he had to stay in the nearest hospital... When I went to see him, he smiled He told me that he couldn't go on, but he still wanted to watch us, go on, and if he died, bury him there... At that time, I told him, you are not afraid to put You were buried next to the test site, and when the time comes, the test will open your grave. He listened to me and smiled happily. He said, if this is the case, then he is worth it...

At that time, I just looked at him, and I couldn’t speak for a long time... I finally told him when I was about to leave. I told him, hold on, hold on until you see it with your own eyes, and see the success of the experiment. when……"

As he spoke, the old man's voice subsided, and he fell silent again.

Under the shade of the trees, it became more and more quiet.

……

"...In the end, the experiment was successful, but he didn't make it to that point, and he didn't see it with his own eyes... There are quite a few people who didn't see it with his own eyes..."

After a long time, the old man spoke again,

The voice, echoing in the shade of the trees,

"...When the explosion was successful, I felt paralyzed all of a sudden, lying on the ground with an unstoppable smile on my face and unstoppable tears in my eyes. At that time I knew...we The days of being aggrieved are over, no one will use that thing to endanger us anymore, we don't have to suffer from that useless air anymore... no more...

That's right, they didn't see...they didn't see when the experiment was successful, and they didn't see it at this moment...Look at the present, we have what other people have..."

The old man was talking, his muddy eyes were in a trance, and he turned slowly, looking around him, looking at the quiet tree shade, the street outside the tree shade, and the bustling city in the distance.

"...Young man, what do you think, how is it here now?"