I really don't want to be a teacher

The old man said, fell silent for a while, and then continued,

"...When I arrived at school, I found out on the first day that I didn't have enough money."

Looking at the street outside the shade, the old man said,

"I was thinking with another classmate at that time, go outside the school, find a restaurant or something, and do some work when you are free, and make some money... the first restaurant we went to heard us The reason why we came here drove us two out. The boss looked like we had something dirty on our bodies... He told us that his restaurant doesn't want Chinese people...

I was so angry that I wanted to find an opportunity to beat the man afterwards, but was persuaded by a senior who went to that school first... He told me that if the restaurant owner was beaten recently, he would bring the police Looking for you, the police there will arrest you when they see that you are from Huaguo... I can bear it. "

The old man said, then paused,

"...Finally, another classmate of mine and I found a job in an old overseas Chinese restaurant... Relying on the money we brought and the money we earned from working in that restaurant, we and That classmate of mine just barely survived and stayed in that school..."

"...At that time, there was a foreign student in the place where I was studying abroad. He often asked me in front of me, is their country developed? There are tall buildings in the city, bustling vehicles, developed industries, and the best schools... Sometimes He also smiled and told me, what’s wrong with our country, and that it’s better to drop an atomic bomb on our country…”

"...Jingkang is ashamed, it's still not snowing..."

The old man was talking, and the radio was playing, the sound of opera mixed with the voice of speech, ringing,

"...Just like that student, the country where he studied abroad threatened our country all day long."

"At that time, I endured it."

"...it took three years and I got my Ph.D. from that school."

The old man was talking, then paused,

Lian Ge glanced at the old man, didn't say much, turned his gaze to the street outside the tree-shade,

The streets are still bustling,

The snack vendors are busy, and the old man walking is smiling and talking about household chores,

The child stood on tiptoe, pointed at the snacks on the snack stand, turned his head, and said to his parents.

Chapter 405 I have to go back

"...Daughter-in-law, what shall we have for dinner tonight?"

"...Mom let me go home and said I made some dumplings..."

Outside the shade, on the road in the park, some pedestrians passed by from time to time, and their voices gradually approached and then gradually faded away.

Under the shade of the grove, the old man looked at the couple passing by outside the shady grove with somewhat cloudy eyes, and after watching the two walk away, he turned his head slowly and fell silent again.

"...In the second year of studying abroad, news came from China that a new motherland was established."

"...When my classmates and I heard the news, we excitedly cheered and yelled on campus, as if we wanted everyone to hear and know..."

The old man spoke with a smile on his face,

Immediately afterwards, the smile gradually faded away,

"...Before that, when I was a child, I saw with my own eyes people from other countries, riding tall horses and three-wheeled motorcycles, showing off their power in front of us... My classmate in elementary school was beaten by two The Japanese man on a three-wheeled motorcycle chased them down the street like a teaser, and was finally forced to a corner of an alley... At that time, I lived upstairs with my parents on the side of the street, and my mother came over Blindfolded my eyes, my father came over, pushed away my mother's hand in front of me, looked at me, and told me, let me remember, must remember! Remember firmly!

I watched my classmate being run over by the three-wheeled motorcycle... I remembered the smiling faces of those two beasts, the screams of my classmate when I was in elementary school, and the cries of his parents ..."

As the old man spoke, he paused again, looking out of the shade,

"...I know that after that, after the founding of the motherland, there will be no more of these, and no one will dare to bully our family and bully our people..."

As the old man said, there was a smile on his face, and there were tears in his cloudy eyes.

"... My classmates and I were happy and wanted to celebrate. We felt all over our bodies and found that the money we pooled up was not enough for us to eat... At this time, I thought of the food that I brought from China and I was not willing to eat. A small piece of bacon... We hurried back to our place of residence and dug out that piece of bacon.

Although it looked a bit dark, the piece of bacon hadn't deteriorated yet. I took the piece of bacon and washed it. When I was about to put it into the pot, I hesitated again. I took a knife and divided the small piece of bacon again. More than half of it was put into the pot, and a small piece was left, which was put back...

After cooking that piece of bacon, my classmates and I ate that piece of bacon in that room, celebrating the founding of the new motherland. "

……

"...Come on, baby boy."

On the side of the road, in front of a food stall, a child stood on tiptoe, looking at the food stall,

The child's father took the snack handed over by the stall owner, turned around, and handed it to his child.

"Thank you dad."

Taking it happily, the child took the snack and ate it.

"Let's go, go home, your mother is still waiting at home."

"Okay... go home..."

The child's father smiled, took the child by the hand, and walked far outside the park, and the voice of his words gradually faded away.

……

Looking at the pedestrians passing by outside the tree shade from time to time, Lian Ge quietly listened to the old man's narration,

The old man looked out of the tree shade, his eyes were in a trance, he fell silent for a while, and continued talking,

"... That night, I lay on that bed and didn't fall asleep, thinking, I have to go back, back to China.

I told the classmate who lived with me, and he also agreed... That night, we didn't sleep for two or one nights, and we planned the journey back to China, thinking about the changes in the country, and what to do after returning to China. "

"...The next morning, the two of us went to the port and asked about the travel expenses we needed to return home... At that time, we both didn't have enough money together, and we were really anxious to go back home, so we wanted to find that person, what did we do? The old overseas Chinese in the working place borrowed some...

After hearing our intentions, he first paid us enough for our boat and travel expenses, then went back to the room, took out a cloth bag, and stuffed a few neatly arranged banknotes in the cloth bag... He told us that this was his The money accumulated over the years, since we want to go back, let us take it back... He said that he is old and useless, so he won't go back to cause trouble, but he just hopes that when we arrive, we can give him money. Send some domestic things, photos, he has not seen the appearance of the motherland for many years..."

The old man said, his eyes were a little dazed, and he paused,

"...In the end, the plan to return to the country didn't come true."

Looking out of the shade, the old man continued,

"...As the school approached, a senior who had already graduated persuaded me. He told me that I have not finished my studies, and asked me to study and accumulate more knowledge so that I can play a greater role when I return to China in the future. Effect. This time, let them go back first.

At the beginning of the second year, they embarked on the journey back to the country one after another. Many of them went back to the country, and many of them were detained by the country for various reasons...

...I stayed in that school to continue my studies, and since then, I have begun to pay attention... Most of the research results have given up publishing papers to avoid attracting attention. "

The old man said, then paused,

"...When I was in my third year at the school, the Silla war broke out. After the motherland entered the war, some foreign students swaggered in front of me and said that their country would defeat my country..."

"...I endured it at that time."

"It was also that year that I received my Ph.D.... Even though some people were reluctant, I also got a teaching assistant job in that school... At that time, I thought, I have to go back to my country, I have to go back to China Coming from China... From then on, I started to look for opportunities and prepare to return to China..."

The old man said, looking out of the shade with some cloudy eyes,

On the side, Lian Ge didn't say much, just listened quietly,

"...In the second year after that, on the battlefield of Silla, our country won and won, but their country was defeated... At that time, many people in that school looked at me with hatred, But I'm very happy."

The old man said with a smile on his face,

"...we won, we won..."

"...However, it was also at that time that many foreign students clamored frantically that they wanted to drop an atomic bomb on our country. Many of them said it directly to my face... just like those two beasts, I remember I remember the expressions on their faces and their tone of voice."

"...It was also that year that I asked for a leave of absence from school and planned to return to China, but just a week before I was going to leave, my classmate who was also planning to return to China was arrested on the grounds that he was leaving the country with secrets from that country... …But I watched him pack his luggage. Except for the necessary clothes and identity documents, he didn’t even carry a book or a page…

I had to give up returning to China at that time, and had to find another opportunity to avoid being detained for 'exiting the country with confidentiality'. "

As the old man spoke, his eyes were a little dazed, and he looked out of the shade of the tree, and fell silent again.

Glancing at the old man again, Lian Ge didn't say much, turned his gaze back, and looked into the distance.

Outside the shade, it is still lively,

Under the shade of the trees, on the side of the winding path, there are people sitting on the benches, chatting about some household chores.

Voices, wind, insects and birds, mixed together,

"...I didn't return to China until [-]."

The old man looked at the road outside the tree-shade, and continued speaking aloud.

Chapter 406 A Great River

"... That day, I finished my teaching work in that school and finished my meal. It was still early, and at that time, I was still a little bored about going back to China, so I was going to leave the school for a walk."

Under the shade of the trees, the dappled sunlight shone on the old man, and the branches and leaves swayed with the breeze.

The old man raised his head slightly, looked at the road outside the shade through the gap between the trees, and said,

The radio on the side of the bench, some opera sound came out, ringing,

"...The school is on the edge of a town. Not far from the school is the town. There are some restaurants, residents, and a small square in the middle of the town... I was thinking about things all the way, so I went to the small square. Walking... At that time, I was already an associate professor at that school, but things seemed to be getting more and more troublesome when I returned to my country. Thinking about how to solve those problems, whether I should continue to wait, and wait for the right opportunity, I walked to the side of the square in the small town."

The old man's eyes were in a trance, and he looked at the people passing by on the road outside the tree line from time to time, and said,

"... I was on the edge of the square, and I heard a burst of music. I don't often hear some music in that place. It seems to be a very familiar sound, a very quiet piece of music... Listening to that piece, my heart seems to be It was also much calmer... I followed the sound of the music and walked to the middle of the small square.

In the middle of that small square, a man was sitting, playing that piece of music.That was a man from Hua, who came from the same place as me... He played the song, as if he was immersed in it, while humming... I listened, and stood in front of him..."

As the old man spoke, he fell silent again, looking out of the tree shade, his eyes were a little lost.

"...Old man, what song did you hear at that time?"

Gu Xiaoying, who was sitting beside Lian Ge, looked at Lian Ge and asked the old man,

Hearing the sound, Lian Ge glanced at Gu Xiaoying, smiled slightly,

Hearing the sound, the old man turned his head slowly, his eyes were cloudy, and he looked at Lian Ge and Gu Xiaoying again,

Turning back, a little silent, groping in his pocket,

Taking out his hand again, the old man fumbled out a tape from his pocket. The sealing paper attached to the case of the tape had faded and peeled off a lot.

After wiping it lightly, the old man turned around slowly, pressed the switch of the radio, and put the tape in.

After buckling it, the old man pressed the switch again,

"... huh..."

After a period of bottom noise, followed by a piece of music sounded,

After the music, there is the song,

"...a great river with broad waves..."

"The wind blows the fragrance of rice flowers on both sides of the bank, and my home is..."

"My home is here, I live on the shore..."

The old man turned around slowly, looked out of the tree shade, and followed softly, humming,

There was no sound, Lian Ge listened quietly,

Under the shade of the trees, it becomes more and more quiet,

The songs on the radio and the hoarse humming of the old man were mixed and echoed,

……

"...Don't chat, don't chat...My son called and urged him to go back to eat."

"Then let's go, I have to go back now... I have to tidy up the house after dinner, and I will go to the vegetable market to buy some food... My daughter said that she will bring her granddaughter back at night..."

Under the shade of the tree, beside the winding path, on a bench, several talking old ladies stood up one after another, smiling and talking, and walked away from the park.

……

"...Old Chen, how is the business today?"

"Thanks to you, it's okay, it's okay,"

Beside the road, in front of the food stall, the customers who stopped greeted the stall owner,

The stall owner greeted with a smile and was busy.

……

"...Dad, let me mention it."

"I'll just mention it. I really thought that my father was old and couldn't carry this thing... You can call your mother and tell her that we will be home soon, so that she won't worry all the time..."