Ugh, wasn't the Awakening System supposed to make me the main character?

I can only attribute all of this to the tasks the system gave me; it's terrifying.

At this moment, I could clearly feel that a seed called motherhood had been planted in my heart and was taking root and sprouting little by little.

Seeing that my thoughts were getting stranger and stranger, I rushed into the office as if I were escaping.

Once I was in my seat, I kept patting my cheeks and reminding myself repeatedly.

I am not Ning Xueyang's mother, I am not Ning Xueyang's mother, I am not Ning Xueyang's mother!

I don't want to play the mother-daughter game with her, I don't want to play the mother-daughter game with her, I don't want to play the mother-daughter game with her!

Ugh, but the thought of Ning Xueyang not being by my side fills me with unease.

Waaaaah, I hate it!!! Don't let these weird feelings fill my heart!!!

I know perfectly well that it's because of the system that things have become like this, but I can't help it.

I don't want to be a mom, I want to be a mom!

I don't want to be a mom, I want to be a mom!

I don't want to be a mom, I want to be a mom!

I don't want to become a mother, sob sob...

Strange thoughts tried to take control of my brain, and I resisted them with my willpower. The two clashed, sparking huge flames, as if trying to push my brain into a climax.

Not knowing how long my rationality could last, I decided to find something to distract myself.

Soon, my eyes were drawn to the plush toys on my desk.

I don't know why, but I had an urge to hug it, and that's what I did.

However, it would have been fine if I hadn't hugged him, but once I did, my already strange thoughts became even stranger.

As I held the plush doll in my arms, a strong maternal feeling erupted in my brain.

I actually wanted to treat the doll in my arms as my own child and take good care of it...

This is terrifying!

No, no, we must let go of this child immediately!

Although I was filled with reluctance, I managed to control myself and placed it on the table.

If I keep holding her like this, I'll definitely become her mother!

Even though I put the doll on the table, I still couldn't help but want to look at it a couple of times, and the desire and impulse to hug it didn't diminish at all.

I wanted to move it somewhere I couldn't see it, but I was afraid that if I touched it, I wouldn't be able to resist hugging it. So, I chose to leave the office so I wouldn't have to see it.

Is this what it feels like to be overflowing with maternal instinct? It's terrifying! If this keeps up, I really will become a mother!

A mother who, despite being asked to get pregnant, give birth, and breastfeed, still feels happy under the influence of maternal instinct!

Just holding my doll made me so happy, driven by maternal instincts. If I were to face Ning Xueyang later, wouldn't I be...?

Just as I was thinking that, my phone beeped with a message notification. It was from Ning Xueyang.

[Ning Xueyang: Mom, I miss you. Can you come over and feed me at noon? I'd like some milk.]

Ugh, don't send me this kind of thing at a time like this!

128. I want to nurture children, I want to become a mother!

Under the influence of strange thoughts, I spent the whole day in a state of avoidance. To avoid any unexpected situations in class, I even switched classes with another teacher.

Just now, a mere doll was enough to trigger my maternal instincts so much. What would I be like if I were standing on the podium looking at so many students below?

I can't imagine...

Not only did I change classes, but I also avoided most of the interactions I should have with other teachers, also to prevent strange thoughts from taking control of me and causing accidents.

When will this situation end?

I don't know. When I asked the system before, the answer it gave was that unless I trigger the task's trigger condition, which is to be alone with Ning Xueyang once and complete the task's tag, or until the time limit for triggering the task expires, which means I won't be alone with Ning Xueyang for a considerable period of time, I won't exit this strange state.

The bell rang, signaling the end of get out of class; it was lunchtime.

Looking at the empty office around me, I breathed a slight sigh of relief, but a faint sense of melancholy followed.

Damn it, if I didn't have classes at this time of year, I would have already eaten lunch in the cafeteria.

But now things are even worse; not only can we not go out to eat, we can't even see anyone.

The thought that the trigger condition for the mission was being alone with Ning Xueyang, and that all the teachers were out eating, made me think I knew what was going to happen next.

Ning Xueyang will most likely come over during the lunch break when no one is around, right?

They might already be on their way...

Although I could escape before Ning Xueyang arrives, given my current state, I'd be risking trouble if I went outside and saw the student council in trouble.

Even if nothing goes wrong, I can't hide anywhere; Ning Xueyang will probably find me again soon.

So, unable to think of any other way, they simply gave up on escaping.

The only hope is that my brain won't be controlled by that strange maternal instinct.

Despite constant self-reminders, I have managed to remain rational to this day.

But when Ning Xueyang arrives, will I be able to keep it up?

I do not know……

Sure enough, soon I heard a sound at the door. I looked up and saw Ning Xueyang coming over.

It was precisely the moment I saw Ning Xueyang that a strange thought attempted to take over my mind once again:

My child is back. I want to hug her, I want to care for her, I want to love her, I want to cherish her...

Just seeing Ning Xueyang almost overwhelmed me with maternal instincts, but thankfully I managed to regain my composure and reached out to pinch my thigh.

The intense pain brought me back to my senses, which helped me suppress the urge to rush over and hug Ning Xueyang.

Waaaaah, this...this is terrifying! Just seeing her has turned him into this, and he hasn't even said anything yet!

"Mom, I've come to find you!"

Ning Xueyang smiled and slowly walked towards me.

As soon as she called out "Mom!" into my ears, a strong and familiar feeling of dizziness followed.

She called me Mom! She called me Mom! I'm a mom now! I didn't want to at all, but I was so happy, so blissful...

No, no!

I can't feel happy, and I can't feel blissful! This is the system's doing. If I really feel happy or blissful, I'm doomed, I'll really become a mother!

After closing the door, she slowly walked towards me.

A strange urge surged through him again, making him want to rush over and hug Ning Xueyang.

But with my strong willpower, I managed to control myself.

Knowing that I couldn't help but look at Ning Xueyang, I simply shifted my gaze, lowered my head to look at the ground, and pretended not to know anything.

"Um, is there...is there something you need?"

"Shall we go have lunch?"

Hearing Ning Xueyang ask that question, I breathed a slight sigh of relief. Although her voice could also provoke me, as long as I didn't hear that strange address, I would be fine.

But the next second, what was bound to happen arrived immediately.

"My dearest mother~"

Ning Xueyang called out softly in that sweet tone, and a strong sense of happiness surged into my brain again, like a tidal wave, threatening to wash away the little rationality I had left.

"Eeya ah ah~~"

Just hearing that title makes me feel like I'm about to reach my peak.

Immediately following was a swelling sensation up my back; that area...it hurts so much!

It's so bloated, it's going to leak out!

I want to nurture children, I want to become a mother!

I want to nurture children, I want to become a mother!

I want to nurture children, I want to become a mother!

I want to nurture children, I want to become a mother!

I want to nurture children, I want to become a mother!

No...no! This is all the system's doing, Guiye, you can't succumb to your desires!!

I bit my lip tightly, using the pain to maintain my composure.

But clearly, this couldn't go on. The brain was becoming increasingly happy, the body was becoming increasingly comfortable, and that area was becoming more and more swollen.

Looking down, I noticed that it seemed to be a little bigger than before.

This reminds me of how a woman's breasts may develop a second time after she becomes pregnant and gives birth, in order to facilitate breastfeeding.