Mountains and rivers are waiting for you to return

Chapter 119 Guilt and Forgiveness

The celebration banquet at Huayunzhai Square was completely over.

It was drizzling outside the window, and there was fog in the air, floating in the air.

Ju Yan finally finished speaking, leaving everyone present feeling uneasy.

Guo Min looked up to the sky and smiled proudly, "Yes, life is full of love and passion, this hatred has nothing to do with the wind and the moon."

Many of Ju Yan's words kept echoing in Pei Nai's ears, and those words struck at her heart.

Pei Nai finally understood why the people in charge under Gu Jinheng now were Ju Yan and Lin Shengtao, instead of Ji Wei and Jiang Wentao who followed him at the beginning.

She felt a strange blockage in her heart that was difficult to resolve.

Ju Yan said to them, "If General Han had not insisted on hiding the burial place of my wife, so that I could not be buried with you, I think he would have committed suicide long ago and missed you forever. In this matter, all of us ministers should thank General Han."

I don't know if he was serious or just being sarcastic.

Han Ruize's expression was distorted, and regret was written all over his face. "If you had told me earlier, would I not have told him if I had told him that he would commit suicide after finding Pei Nai's remains?"

Ju Yan just mentioned Madam Xuanwu's matter briefly, and Han Ruize frowned and asked, "Who is Madam Xuanwu?"

"A girl who looks very similar to me is now the owner of Mingyue Tower in Chaoyang City. I've heard her play the piano, and it sounds very nice." Pei Nai explained.

Ju Yan nodded, "Her face is very similar to Madam's. How could I allow her to live in a place of prostitution? So I bought Mingyue Tower and gave it to her, hoping that she could live more freely with a face similar to Madam's. Besides, I miss Madam so much that I am going crazy. When I am in pain, looking at her face can relieve a little of my longing. But I have never touched her, Madam, please don't misunderstand me."

Han Ruize sneered, and then observed Pei Nai's expression, and his features suddenly froze, "Are you soft-hearted?"

Pei Nai nodded guiltily, "I really want to go see him now."

"Can you work harder? How did he treat you in the past?" Han Ruize gritted his teeth, looking as if he was disappointed in someone.

Pei Nai's eyes drooped. "But I did misunderstand him. Since we met, he has been ridiculed and blamed by me many times, but he has never explained."

"Then why didn't he say it before? Why is he pretending to be innocent now?" Han Ruize said with a little anger.

Ju Yan calmly argued for Gu Jinheng, "Because I always feel that it was because he failed to supervise his subordinates and promoted traitors, which led to my wife's tragic death. He has an unshirkable responsibility for my wife and the sacrificed Pei family soldiers. I was helpless when I let my wife go to the battlefield, and I was in pain when I woke up and learned that my wife died."

Gu Jinheng was framed, and it was not his intention to betray the Pei family army.

Moreover, Gu Jinheng's attitude towards her recently also made Pei Nai realize that his indifference and indifference to her in those five years was probably because he did not know how to love someone.

After hearing about what Gu Jinheng had gone through over the years, Pei Nai felt more and more sympathy for him.

After the reunion, he has been groping slowly about how to be good to her.

Thinking of his often helpless look, Pei Nai lowered his head, and after a while he asked Ju Yan again: "Where is Gu Jinheng now?"

"My master should be handling affairs at the main camp outside the village right now." Ju Yan replied.

Pei Nai did not hesitate. She turned around and walked out of the conference room, as determined as when she first met Gu Jinheng.

"Hey!" Han Ruize called out from behind her, "It's raining outside, umbrella, umbrella, umbrella!"

But Pei Nai did not stop.

Han Ruize glared at Ju Yan and said, "I shouldn't have let you into the village. If I had known this yesterday, I would have asked you to leave." After saying this, he went to find an umbrella for Pei Nai.

Ju Yan remained calm and was not aroused by any emotions.

In the dark night and the heavy rain, Pei Nai just walked out of the village.

The rain beat down on her body, soaking her clothes, but she didn't feel cold. The scenes before her death came to her sporadically, isolation, fear and despair.

Then the scene changed, and it was Gu Jinheng trying to compensate her in every possible way during this period. Finally, it was Ju Yan's long speech.

She walked fast, and Han Ruize caught up with her after finding the umbrella, but before he got close, a familiar figure appeared in front of Pei Nai.

Gu Jinheng was also walking towards her in the heavy rain without holding an umbrella.

Pei Nai's mood was in turmoil. When he saw Gu Jinheng, he felt that the laughter and tears of the past were so far away yet so close at hand.

The two were getting closer and closer, and in a blink of an eye, there were only a few steps between them, so Pei Nai stopped.

"Why are you here?" Pei Nai said with a difficulty in his throat.

Gu Jinheng took a few steps forward and came in front of her. He didn't know what had just happened, so he just said calmly: "Du Ling just came over and said you were looking for me, so I rushed over."

The rain continued to fall, flowing down the corners of their clothes.

Pei Nai raised her head, the rain making it difficult for her to open her eyes.

But she still tried hard to look at the man in front of her, looking at his features which were more mature and tougher than ten years ago, and lamented the ruthlessness of time.

What did Gu Jinheng do wrong?
Just because he made a helpless decision and was betrayed due to a momentary negligence, he punished himself for ten years.

Like a prisoner who has been imprisoned in darkness for ten years, he now sees a ray of light ahead again and chases after it relentlessly.

He treated her so carefully, as if she was his ray of sunshine, and he was reluctant to let go.

For Pei Nai, these ten years were just a blink of an eye, and waking up again was a new life.

But for Gu Jinheng, he was deprived of all warmth and hope, as if he was exiled by his lover after making a big mistake. He struggled in self-blame and guilt for ten years.

Gu Jinheng didn't know why she looked at him like that. He used his sleeve to shield her from the rain in a daze. Then he took the umbrella from the guard behind him, opened it and hit Pei Nai on the head.

He said, "Your wounds haven't healed yet, why don't you hold an umbrella? What if your wounds get soaked?"

The rain was falling heavily. Pei Nai suddenly couldn't help but rushed forward and buried her head in his arms.

She couldn't see the rain, she could only hear the sound of it.

Pei Nai's actions were beyond Gu Jinheng's expectations. He even stood there in a daze. Qu Ran let her hold him, not knowing what to do.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know there was a hidden story at the beginning, and I always misunderstood that you broke the contract." But I didn't know how much pain he was carrying.

Pei Nai's heart ached intermittently.

Gu Jinheng roughly understood what had happened. He glanced at Ju Yan and others who were following Pei Nai not far behind him. He held an umbrella in one hand and put his arm around Pei Nai's back with the other.

He held Pei Nai's arms through her hair, but seemed to be afraid of hurting her.

He clenched and unclenched his fingers, then caressed them lovingly.

Ju Yan and the others just stared without saying a word, even Han Ruize stopped.

No one wants to disrupt the peace and tranquility in the storm.

Gu Jinheng's pressure dissipated unconsciously and enveloped them who were hugging each other. Only then did he realize that Pei Nai's mood was not right.

He took a step back and let go of Pei Nai, only to see her red eyes and tears oozing from the corners of her eyes.

Gu Jinheng panicked in an instant, thinking that he had done something wrong again. He carefully wiped away her tears and said, "It's my fault. Blame me for not treating you well before and not realizing what is most important to me."

(End of this chapter)