Mountains and rivers are waiting for you to return

Chapter 118 Gu Jinheng Extra
Before they mistakenly entered the Chaoyang Underground Palace, he secretly kissed Pei Nai twice.

Once, on the night when the monk Jingjue was murdered, in order to facilitate his actions the next day and not alert the enemy, Na'er followed him to stay in the mansion of Duke Duan Ding.

At night, he used Yuan Qi to flow along her meridians to relieve her physical fatigue, promote the circulation of true Qi, and help her sleep more soundly.

Looking at her sleeping face, even though she looks strange, I know in my heart that she is my Naier, and the more I look at her, the more I like her.

He felt itchy inside and after making sure that she would not wake up, he quietly kissed her forehead and did not separate for a long while.

The next morning, Neil asked him in confusion, "Did anyone enter my room last night?"

Innocent and cute.

He answered "no", and Neil didn't think much about it, and turned his attention to breakfast.

He liked her so much that he wanted to hug her.

The second time was on the way to Nan Temple. In the early morning, he peeled the chestnuts roasted by the chef one by one, wrapped them in cloth, and carefully put them back into the food box.

Thinking that she could give Neil something to eat on the way, she might feel better.

Seeing Neil's eyes slightly curved with satisfaction after she put the chestnut into her mouth, his heart was filled with ups and downs and he was overwhelmed with joy.

He thought that in the future he would learn to cook many dishes so that Neil could taste them.

After eating the chestnuts, Naier accepted his suggestion to use Dandao's magical energy to clear her meridians, but she never expected that Naier's new body was so vulnerable, and she fell asleep after a while.

Giving him another chance, he took her in his arms and pecked her on the cheek twice.

Reluctantly, he laid her down, let her rest her head on his legs, and continued to use Yuan Qi to help her sleep.

After meeting Abbot Shi Ming of Nan Temple, Xiao Mingyi was assassinated again in the palace. He and Naier experienced many dangers in the underground palace and escaped death.

Before he fainted after being poisoned by the bone-dissolving water, he had thought that Naier would take care of her own safety and escape alone, and then he could send someone back to the underground palace to rescue him.

But after defeating the puppet, his Nair actually carried him out with her frail body.

After walking dozens of miles, without food or water, and without sleep, he forced himself to find some human habitation before finally collapsing.

When he woke up, he learned what had happened while he was unconscious, and knew that Naier had ridden his horse to Huayun Village first, preparing to join Han Ruize and the former members of the Pei family army to resist the Wu tribe's cavalry.

Not to mention the time difference of one or two days, even if the support was delayed by two hours, Neil might be captured.
No, it was not her character to allow herself to be captured, she would only fight to the death.

There was no time to lose. He was extremely anxious and immediately issued an order to send troops. He also led his men to the agreed gathering place of the three state garrisons and the southwestern border troops, a hundred miles northeast of Huayun Village.

He couldn't sleep every night during the journey.

They planned the fastest route for the army and sped up everything regardless of any losses.

He knew that there were traitors in the team who would report their movements, and he even took this into account in the plan in advance and estimated the arrival time of Wu Jun.

Even though he did everything he could, nothing could go wrong, and he was still afraid.

Afraid that Neil would get hurt, afraid that she would die in battle again, afraid to see her blood.

My heart is like a dangerous rock hanging high on a cliff, and I cannot be still.

It was not until they arrived in time after the war broke out that he saw her, so heroic and unparalleled among the thousands of troops, and his heart, which had been trapped and tortured, finally settled down.

But the first thing she did was to look at Han Ruize and smile.

He just watched and could only vent his jealousy on Lei Laiong's poisonous man.

After the war, he was worried about Pei Nai's injuries and rushed over immediately.

Kanael no longer needed him at all. Unlike him, she was so beautiful and there was never a shortage of people around her who wanted to love and take care of her.

It was then that he realized that Neil was no longer his alone.

She now has a vast world, freedom and courage, but he did not cherish her before and therefore lost her.

But he would not give up. Neil had done a lot for him in the past, so why couldn't he do the same in return?

Fifteen years ago, she let everyone in Chaoyang know that she loved the mute bastard of the Gu family. Fifteen years later, he would also let everyone know that he loved Naier deeply and could not forget her.

Han Ruize took Naier to have lunch, and Daxian took Naier to the high mountain outside the village to enjoy the scenery.

Daxian's intentions were obvious, and he openly proposed to Pei Nai in the palace hall.

But he was not worried about this, he was confident that Neil would not like an overly enthusiastic suitor like Daxian.

But he himself was not sure whether Neil would fall in love with him again. He had no experience in how to pursue someone, and he could not even ask for advice. He could only act by groping in the dark, hoping that Neil would not dislike him.

After finishing all his official duties, he learned how to make a bowl of Neil's favorite steamed cheese with sugar under the guidance of the military chef.

I wanted to stay and watch Neil finish eating, but she refused, so I had to leave.

He slept in the house that Zhong Lin arranged for them. Because the traitor of Pei's old army had not been found yet, he was worried about Na'er's safety, so he exerted pressure around Na'er's residence while taking a light sleep.

In the middle of the night, he was woken up by Neil's gentle pat on his palm. Was she worried that he couldn't sleep well?

He felt warm in his heart and withdrew the pressure briefly. After Naier returned to the house, he released it again, wrapping Naier's residence and making him feel safe.

Having regained the love he had, he felt more energetic than in the past ten years, as if he was finally alive.

He thought he still had a chance and that Neil would accept him again.

But the next day, Da Xi Shangle mentioned the saddle that the late emperor had given to Pei Nai, and he was really panicked.

In the past ten years, he had regretted this thousands of times and even wanted to go to the wife of the current commander of the Northern Border Army to ask for Neil's saddle back.

But he knew that Neil would not accept things that had been used by others.

Yes, that originally belonged to Nell. No one needed this women's saddle more than Nell. How much suffering must she have endured when she led her troops on marches for hundreds or even thousands of miles?

He had tortured himself for this, but he heard the accusations from Da Xian and Han Ruize, and heard Han Ruize say, "You haven't seen how painful it is for Pei Nai to travel hundreds of miles on horseback! Pursue her again? You don't deserve it!"

He still couldn't withstand the collapse of his defenses.

After they left, he headed towards the stables.

Seeing the tear on Neil's saddle, he couldn't help wondering, how many times would the sturdy leather have to be rubbed for it to be worn like this?
How much pain would Neil's legs feel?

With so many bumps and jolts, women have narrow hips, and riding horses for thousands of miles, how much damage would that do to their bones?
The bitterness and guilt almost suffocated him, his eyes were red, and it seemed that Huo Jiang's Yin Power began to collapse in him, and suddenly his shoulders began to tremble uncontrollably.

Now even he himself feels that he is not qualified to compete with Han Ruize and Da Xian.

But that was his Pei Nai, how could he bear to give her up?

Why did he ignore all this, why did he let Neil suffer so much? He couldn't answer.

Just like in the past ten years, he even wanted to break his limbs into pieces to ease the guilt and self-blame, and to repay Pei Nai's grievances and pain.

But he didn't dare to. He had been thinking about waiting until Xiao Mingyi was in a more stable position, then he would fold his body to apologize to Pei Nai and then go downstairs to accompany her.

But now he was extremely afraid that his body would be damaged again. Pei Nai didn't like him in the first place, and he was afraid that he would never have the chance to make up for it.

What can I do?
He covered the pouch on his chest, and his heart underneath the pouch ached so much that it seemed to be torn apart.

Even though he forced himself to go back to the celebration party and look at Neil, he appeared to be maintaining a good appearance, but only he knew that he had completely lost his confidence.

How could he be chosen by Neil again?

Therefore, when he heard in the meeting room that Han Ruize was going to confess his feelings to Naier, he panicked to the extreme.

He was not afraid that Da Xian would snatch Naier away from him, but he could not help but be afraid of Han Ruize.

That was Naier's childhood sweetheart. The Pei and Han families knew each other very well. Han Ruize knew Naier too well, better than he, who was negligent in his duties. They had a sense of responsibility for each other.

Besides, Han Ruize has been waiting for Naier for so many years, so his love for her is not necessarily less than his.

From anyone's perspective, Han Ruize is more suitable than him.

But he was really unwilling to accept it. He almost went crazy when he thought that Neil would smile at others from now on, and would transfer all the warmth she had once given him to another person, and would no longer belong to him.

That was all the color and warmth of his life, the only light in his long and dark life, and he could not let it go no matter what.

He was willing to do anything for this, just hoping that she would give him a chance.

Don't abandon him and let him wander in this world.

After dealing with Guo Min's problem, he returned to the military camp to deal with Chaoyang's sudden emergency. In the intervals between the arguments and discussions of his subordinates, he occasionally got distracted, wondering if he had forgotten to change the dressing on Pei Nai's injury in the afternoon? What kind of meal should he learn to make in the evening to replenish Nai's body?

A strong wind suddenly blew outside, and soon the sky was covered with dark clouds.

The bleak cold rain fell like needles, bringing with it a bitter feeling that reflected his broken and unaccepted heart.

(End of this chapter)