After rebirth, I became Tokyo Sentimental

Chapter 91 90. Even if I did something wrong, what does it matter?

Suzumiya Saka had good grades when she was in school.

So even now.

Still know some physics knowledge.

But she hadn't expected this to be the case.

It's so different from what I imagined.

For the first time, she intuitively felt something that had only appeared in movies. The hatred that was originally in Suzumiya Saka was caused by Harano Tsukasa suddenly disappeared for the most part, and she no longer cared about being angry.

This not only made Suzumiya Saka's breathing stagnate for a moment, but also made her feel her entire face was steaming. Her mind went blank, and even her heart skipped a beat. She felt at a loss.

Even though she slowly calmed down as time went by, she was still shocked.

He bit his lower lip and remained silent for a long time.

For the first time, she felt fear.

Moreover, many images began to emerge in her originally blank mind, making her, who was already nervous, bite her lips tightly and become even more anxious.

It's like a boiling kettle.

If you touch it accidentally, you will get burned.

The same is true.

It would be even worse in other places.

Suzumiya Saka was in a daze for a long time, until she suddenly felt a flowing discomfort and came back to her senses. She quickly dispelled the strange images in her mind, and bit her lips with shame and fear in her heart.

After a long time, Suzumiya Saka suppressed her fear and shyness, and continued with a difficult voice, "What do you mean?"

to be frank.

In this state, Yuanye Si was not feeling well either.

After all, he is now out of sub-health and is now at the age of youth with full energy. Even after many desensitization trainings, he is still relatively sensitive.

But he still forced himself to stay calm.

But whether it was because he needed to cross his inner moral threshold or to avoid big trouble later, he could only speak as calmly as possible.

"do you like me?"

"…like."

"Do you like me because of my appearance, personality, and attitude towards people, or do you like me because of the stimulation I bring you, including but not limited to physical intimacy?" Yuan Ye Si asked slowly.

This question confused Suzumiya Saka.

Even though she was constantly feeling strange in her body and mind, her attention was drawn to these words.

"I…"

She couldn't even answer.

As if Yuan Ye Si had expected that she would be speechless for a while, he continued: "If it is the latter, then if it is someone else, you will also say you like that person just like you said you like me, right?"

"how come…"

She retorted subconsciously.

"Why not? People are fickle, and the reason why freshness is called freshness is because it has a shelf life. It does exist in love between men and women, but we don't know how long it will last."

"So now you can say you like me and love me, but when the novelty wears off, you will hate me as much as you liked me at first."

"You never fell in love when you were young, so you naturally retained your innocence. Maybe you think that kind of thing is not that important now, or that it is something you can give away on impulse, but I don't think so. In order to protect you from regretting after losing, and to protect you from getting tired of me and causing trouble for yourself, I have never forced you."

Every word Harano Tsukasa said fell clearly into Suzumiya Saka's ears, and there was almost no fault to be found in its logic or authenticity.

For a moment, Suzumiya Saka even felt that what he said made sense and she couldn't help but agree with it.

And Harano Tsukasa expressed his own thoughts.

It's not that he's being pretentious.

Morality and guilt are always relative. He can have a flexible moral bottom line when dealing with real gold diggers. He would not feel any psychological pressure even if he had done that to Hoshino Ryuka before. But for Suzumiya Saka, who appears to be a gold digger but actually has a relatively pure mind, deceiving himself is just a temporary solution.

"To be a bit narcissistic, if I insist on doing something with you that could lead to pregnancy, even if you refuse, I think we can finally make it happen, but what are you going to do after that? How am I going to face the risk that you might lose interest in me at any time? These are all problems, so I just said so much to you, including what I said in Shibuya before, all because of this consideration. I respect your personality, and we are equal, so I don't want to take advantage of your impulsiveness to do something irreversible."

Hearing this, Suzumiya Saka completely understood why Harano Tsukasa had been saying those inexplicable things since that day on the observation deck, and why he had not touched her but instead explained even though they were lying on the same bed.

She didn't rush to refute this time.

Instead, he fell into silence and thought.

However, the silence and thinking were not because he thought that he would be like what Harano Tsukasa said in the future, but because he was a little moved by his heartfelt consideration and respect for himself, and was speechless for a moment.

Women's sixth sense has always been very strong.

Suzumiya Saka is also a woman.

She could sense early on that although Harano Tsukasa's behavior towards her was extremely offensive, it ultimately stopped just before breaking the last layer of window paper.

At first, she thought that Yuanye Tsukasa was being embarrassed or wanted to make her feel that he was not the kind of person who would act rashly. He wanted to leave a good impression so that he could do more extreme things in the future. However, as they met more and more often, she gradually realized that Yuanye Tsukasa did not seem to want to do that kind of thing with her.

To say the most obvious.

Of course it's today.

After all, I had already said in front of so many people during the day that I wanted to live with him, and when they arrived at the room, I had no intention of letting him sleep on the sofa or on the floor, so he naturally lay down on the bed.

Follow normal procedures.

There was absolutely no need for Yuan Ye Si to say these words.

Even if he reached out his hand as soon as he lay down, Suzumiya Saka would not resist too much, because she was mentally prepared for this matter.

But he didn't.

Not only that, this time he directly explained without any concealment why he did not take the last step.

In fact, as Harano Tsukasa said, after the office incident, Suzumiya Saka also thought about whether she should punish this guy who had strongly offended her, but she admitted that she did not do it because of the novelty and excitement.

But the subsequent contacts may have been for the reasons he mentioned, or perhaps for reasons he did not say nor thought of, but what Suzumiya Saka can be sure of is that since that night in Shibuya, she has personally grasped the youth that she had missed for a long time. No matter what the reason was, the emotion of love was indeed born.

Harano Tsukasa is not a single man.

she knows.

But once emotions and dependence arise, it is almost impossible to eliminate them on your own.

Maybe he is right.

After the novelty and excitement wear off, lovers will become enemies, but Suzumiya Saka doesn't want to think about things that haven't happened, and she doesn't think that they will end up in that kind of relationship. Even if she regrets it, it is her current self who makes the decision, not her then self.

and…

Even if it was wrong.

So what does it matter?
"Since you are so self-aware and worried about this and that, why did you keep saying that you liked me and confessed to me in the office?"

After a long silence, Suzumiya Saka gathered all her thoughts and said with a slightly dry throat.

"Why..." Yuan Ye Si looked at her eyes that were shining with light. He was not sure whether she was crying, but he still answered: "Because you are beautiful. As a normal man, it is normal for me to like you."

"What about the two whole years of having a crush on me?"

She asked again in a low voice.

"It's true." Even if Harano Tsukasa had come here two years ago, he would probably have liked her more when he saw her.

After getting the answer, Suzumiya Saka seemed to have found a support point for her counterattack. She moved her face, which was pressed against the pillow, closer to him, took a deep breath, stroked the hair by her ear with her hand, and looked at his face:

"If it's true, then why are you still worried? If I didn't know that you had a crush on me for two years, if you weren't the first and only man who dared to confess to me and even offend me, I would never have had anything to do with you."

"..." "As for the novelty you just mentioned, let me ask you, those couples who have been married for decades and have lived together until old age, and even died together, did they lose the novelty when they first started dating? So after their novelty faded, did they become enemies?"

“…You have a point.”

"So you worry so much, what's the point of saying those things other than to make me angry and uncomfortable? You said it was like this the first time, so will it be the same the next time, Yuanye Si, let me ask you, am I such a terrible woman in your eyes?"

Speaking of this, Suzumiya Saka suddenly felt a sense of grievance in her heart, as if a dutiful wife was being suspected by her husband all day long.

She suddenly felt a sore nose.

But he still suppressed his sadness and continued to explain.

"And have you ever thought about it."

“I can think, too.”

"Will I still have intimate contact with other men after I have a boyfriend and a husband? Or will I shamelessly give others opportunities? Why do you only think that I am impulsive, instead of making the decision after careful consideration after the impulse?"

“…Sorry.” Yuanye Si opened his mouth.

"If sorry is useful, why should I cry?" Suzumiya Saka's voice was already tearful.

"I was wrong." Yuan Ye Si could clearly see the tear marks on the beautiful face so close to him. He reached out his hand to wipe away the crystal tears from the corners of her eyes, sighed and answered honestly: "I really shouldn't have thought so much."

When Suzumiya Saka finished saying these words.

He knew it.

He has to bear this responsibility.

Harano Tsukasa also has feelings, so when faced with a woman who cries because of him, especially when he has a certain affection for this woman for various reasons, no man can really remain indifferent.

And at the end of the day.

He is not the one who suffers.

It would be foolish for him to say more.

Seeing him give in and wipe her tears distressedly, Suzumiya Saka felt much less uncomfortable. She immediately felt that she was too embarrassed, so in order to save face, she sniffed her nose, snorted, and said stubbornly, "It's good that you know you're wrong. If it weren't for your attitude of admitting your mistake, I would immediately cancel your status as a reserve boyfriend and kick you out. Don't ever think about getting into my bed again in this life."

Upon hearing this, Yuanye Si just smiled.

He stroked her face again.

Perhaps because of her emotional fluctuations, her face was a little hot at the moment, but as smooth as jelly.

He often comes into close contact with Suzumiya Saka.

But this was the first time that he had caressed her face so gently, like a couple in love, and Suzumiya Saka, who had always expected to be forced by him before, this time enjoyed this hard-earned tenderness even more.

The tears were quickly wiped away.

The originally chaotic emotions also stabilized.

"Shall we go to bed then?"

Yuan Ye Si whispered.

It’s already very late now, even without looking at the watch, and I have travel plans during the day tomorrow.

It's time to rest.

Suzumiya Saka was about to agree when she heard that, but after she recovered, the strange feeling in her body became stronger. Her face changed slightly and she said evasively, "You go to sleep first. I...I'll go take a shower!"

"bath?"

Just as Harano Tsukasa asked this question in confusion, Suzumiya Saka had already gotten up and got out of bed.

Seeing her limping into the bathroom as if she was escaping, Yuanye Si, who also stood up and turned on the bedside reading light, was a little confused for a moment, thinking that lying in bed all the time would not have any effect on her legs and feet.

But the sound of dripping water has already begun.

He couldn't rush in to ask, so after being stunned for a while, he could only lie down again and wait for Suzumiya Saka to come back.

Time passed by minute by minute.

I don’t know how long it took.

The sound of rain suddenly stopped.

Soon, the sound of footsteps became clearer and clearer in the darkness. With a gust of fragrant wind and the sound of mattress springs, Suzumiya Saka lay back in bed.

"Are you asleep?"

"waiting for you."

"Then... let's go to bed..."

"it is good."

After a brief exchange, the room returned to the silence it had been when they first lay down.

Nearly half a minute later.

Just as Suzumiya Saka was biting her lip and wondering why Harano Tsukasa didn't come closer, she suddenly felt the same warm touch on her right arm.

And then.

A strong masculine scent rushed in.

She was completely embraced.

"Why are you hugging me..."

"I want to hug you."

"Is it okay?" Yuan Ye Si suddenly asked.

This sentence seems to be acting first and asking for permission later.

But it also seems like it's asking something else.

There was no response in the darkness for a long time.

Just when Harano Tsukasa felt that she was still a little embarrassed and was unwilling to agree directly so she didn't respond, Suzumiya Saka's voice came to her ears with disordered breathing but as thin as a mosquito's.

"Um…"

Yuanyesi got the pass.

No more scruples.

Suzumiya Saka also clenched her fists.

In fact, she had already rehearsed in her mind many times what she was going to do next, the most recent time being last night. In addition, because she had watched many movies and TV shows alone late at night before, she knew what was going to happen.

But Yuanye Si didn't seem to be too anxious.

And he even burrowed into the quilt.

Just when she was wondering why Harano Tsukasa was not playing by the rules, Suzumiya Saka could no longer see him.

However, only two seconds later, Suzumiya Saka's face suddenly changed as if she had noticed Harano Tsukasa's intention, and her heart beat so fast that it was about to jump out of her chest.

"Not allowed! It's dirty there!"

"hiss!"

"You...you can't do this..."

"Fuck!"

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