Battle Through the Heavens: I Am the Righteous Path

Chapter 398 It's All Fake
Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan expressed all their opinions to Xiao Yan, and they also argued endlessly about each other's speeches. Xun'er and others watching on the sidelines couldn't help but have some dark thoughts.

In order to win over Xiao Yan, the two people sat here and quarreled for almost an hour. They who were watching were thirsty.

Xiao Yan never said a word from the beginning to the end. He just listened silently from beginning to end. The notebook in his hand was filled with several pages of notes, all of which were the debates between Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan.

Finally, Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan also felt their mouths were dry, and they stopped arguing in unison, and both turned their attention to Xiao Yan.

"Xiao Yan, have you made a decision in your mind?"

Xiao Yan frowned slightly, and after a long time he slowly closed his notebook, closing his eyes and thinking quietly.

Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan knew that Xiao Yan was about to make a decision. Their faces were very anxious, and they suppressed it forcibly. They couldn't help but beat the drum in their hearts, praying for Xiao Yan to choose his own faction.

If Xiao Yan chooses the other party's faction, not only will the other party's faction have one more strong supporter, but the morale of his own faction will also drop drastically, and the balance of power between the two parties may also be tilted due to this.

Time, a minute and a second passed.

After an unknown amount of time, Xiao Yan slowly opened his eyes, and under the expectant gazes of Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan, he slowly spoke.

"It's incredible."

"Eh?"

Xiao Yan's words stunned both Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan, and then Xiao Yan looked at them and asked softly.

"I would like to ask, are these opinions of yours all thought up by yourself?"

"No, it's not just me." Qiu Feng came to his senses first, pressed his neck and replied: "When I discuss with members of our Mu Qiang faction on weekdays, I always write down their reasons for supporting Mu Qiang. In my heart, I couldn’t have imagined so much by myself.”

"The same goes for me. Many of the remarks I just made are the views of members of our power-fearing faction. Their views are the same and some are different, but they are undoubtedly deeply recognized by me."

Ye Nuan also spread out a hand and said this quite honestly.

"Ha that's it."

After hearing the two people's answers, Xiao Yan responded in a deep voice, with a ripple in his heart.

After a while, Xiao Yan looked at the two of them and said.

"Qiu Feng, Ye Nuan, I'm sorry, I won't join anyone."

"what?!"

Hearing Xiao Yan's words, Qiu Feng immediately exploded. We have been arguing with you here for almost an hour. No matter who you choose, will there be a result?But you actually said that no one would join?Play with us!
Although Ye Nuan also had resentment in his heart, he was calmer than Qiu Feng and asked in a deep voice.

"Is it because you don't agree with our views?"

"No, on the contrary." Xiao Yan shook his head lightly and said solemnly: "I think what you two said is very reasonable. I agree with both of your remarks."

"But right now, I really can't decide which side is right. I'm really sorry."

Xiao Yan said, bowing his head deeply to the two of them to express his apology, and continued under the stunned gazes of Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan.

"Please give me some time. I need to think carefully about what you both said. When I make a decision in my heart, I will report to you as soon as possible. During this period, I hope that both of you can temporarily stop using force. Conflict, please.”

After hearing Xiao Yan's sincere speech, both Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan were stunned for a while, and they looked at each other and communicated with their eyes.

After a moment, he nodded lightly.

"Okay, anyway, Mu Qiang has sent a lot of wounded during this period, so let's call it a truce first."

"Seconded."

Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan said this. They both understood that if they continued to fight, it would be difficult to distinguish right from wrong, and the result would only be losses for both sides.

Moreover, the two of them also vaguely realized that a conflict of force could not change the other's point of view at all. If it were so easy, Xiao Yan and the Xiao family would just kill them. Who dares to say anything?

Since Xiao Yan did not do this, it proves that Xiao Yan himself has discovered that force alone cannot solve the problem.

Now that Xiao Yan has said this, it can be regarded as a step down for the two of them, so let's stop fighting for the time being.

Then Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan left with their respective people. Wu Hao looked at their leaving figures and approached Xiao Yan and asked in a low voice.

"Hey, the captain asked you to dismiss them. Is that okay?"

"Don't worry, Sister Xiao Yu, I'll go back and explain to her." Xiao Yan stood up with his knees and chuckled: "And Sister Xiao Yu's original intention is to let them stop causing disputes. As long as they don't cause trouble, no matter how much they admire, It doesn’t actually matter to Sister Xiao Yu how long the strong faction and the strong-fearing faction have existed."

"Haha, that's true if you say so."

Wu Hao scratched his hair lightly, when Xiao Ning suddenly came up, hugged Xiao Yan's neck and snickered.

"Finally, I'm done with my work. Let's go. My cousin will take you there."

Boom!
Before Xiao Ning finished speaking, he was pulled back by two hands, and then he let out a series of miserable howls in the eyes of the people around him.

After the howl ended, Xun'er and Xiao Mei threw Xiao Ning aside with gloomy expressions, who was covered in shoe prints and twitching. They didn't care about his life or death at all, and Xiao Yan couldn't help but tremble.

These two ladies are still as ruthless as ever towards cousin Xiao Ning.

Then Xun'er and Xiao Mei immediately changed their faces and gathered around Xiao Yan with gentle smiles. Xiao Yan couldn't help but sigh at the speed of their face changes.

"Brother Xiao Yan, what will happen to you next?"

Xun'er asked with a smile. Xiao Mei on the side also had a hopeful look on her face. Since Xiao Yan arrived, she had been busy with everything, and she was also busy filming. She had no time to be alone together. She had been thinking about it for a long time.

However, Xiao Yan's answer made her look disappointed.

"Sorry, I want to be alone for a while." Xiao Yan said softly, turning to look at the others, "Thank you for your hard work, everyone should go about your own business."

Xiao Yan waved his hand and left slowly, making Xun'er and Xiao Mei look a little disappointed in their eyes.

Hu Jia on the side crossed his arms, looked at Xiao Yan's back and raised his eyebrows in confusion.

"Why does it feel like that guy's mood suddenly dropped a lot?"

Although he is usually very fiery when talking and doing things, Hujia is surprisingly sensitive to other people's inner changes.

After hearing Hu Jia's words, Xiao Mei's heart suddenly moved, and she immediately wanted to catch up with Xiao Yan, but Xun'er reached out to hold her back.

"Xun'er?"

"Don't disturb him yet, let brother Xiao Yan stay alone for a while."

Xun'er said softly, looking towards the direction Xiao Yan left, her eyes filled with worry.

After leaving, Xiao Yan came to the back of the courtyard and found a big stone to sit on. He looked through the series of speeches he had just recorded by Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan in his hands. He kept thinking about every word they said in his mind. Mark something with a pen.

At this time Yao Shen was revealed, looking at Xiao Yan's actions, he said softly.

"Xiao Yanzi, you seem to be very irritable now."

"Ah, Senior Yao, do you feel it?"

Xiao Yan did not deny it, while Yao Shen smiled helplessly.

"After following you for such a long time, I can almost grasp your mood changes." Yao Shen paused, and then said: "The words of those two students just now have merit for you. What?"

"Quite likely, the disciple also discovered the huge flaw he had before." "Huge flaw?"

Yao Shen raised her eyebrows in confusion. If anyone asked her what Xiao Yan's huge flaw was, Yao Shen would definitely answer "too upright" without hesitation. Although Yao Shen benefited a lot from Xiao Yan's integrity, But she still felt that being too upright was not a good thing, especially for Xiao Yan.

However, this is just Yao Shen's own idea. Xiao Yan will never consider being too upright as a flaw.

Yao Shen really couldn't think of anything that could make Xiao Yan himself feel that it was a huge flaw.

At this time, Xiao Yan frowned and answered.

"Disciple, I was too arrogant before."

"arrogant?"

The confusion in Yao Chen's eyes deepened. You, a person who has underestimated your own abilities from beginning to end, how could you be so arrogant?
Xiao Yan nodded lightly and said affirmatively.

"Well, it's arrogance, arrogance in all aspects." Xiao Yan looked up at Yao Chen and said softly: "Senior Yao, you also know, right? This disciple has always avoided accepting the favor of others, including you, the power of others , the disciples try not to ask for help as much as possible."

"Ah, that's right, because your integrity does not allow you to accept other people's affection casually. In your opinion, that means troubling others because of your own affairs."

Yao Chen said with a somewhat helpless expression on his face. Xiao Yan was just a fool, and she had wanted to complain about this for a long time.

Hearing Yao Shen's words, Xiao Yan smiled bitterly in a low voice.

"I have always felt this way before. I felt that I only tried my best not to ask for help from others for the sake of the right path in my heart." Xiao Yan paused and continued: "But after the incident in the Black Corner Territory, I discovered , the reason why I don’t ask for help from others, whether I don’t want to owe favors, or why I don’t want to trouble others, are just superficial reasons.”

"The real reason is that deep down in my heart, I feel that I can solve the problem at hand by myself, and there is no need to ask others for help."

Xiao Yan's words made Yao Shen pause for a moment, and then he immediately understood and agreed in his heart.

Indeed, it is indeed true.

Every time Xiao Yan encountered difficulties before, he gritted his teeth and persisted, not just to stick to his beliefs, but actually because of the arrogance in his heart, which made him always feel that he could solve it with his own strength.

So far, Xiao Yan has only taken the initiative to ask for help twice.

One time was when he first encountered Mobas in the Tagor Desert, and the other time was when he was taking revenge for the children in the Black Angle Domain.

Only in these two times did Xiao Yan clearly know that he couldn't handle it with his own strength, so he asked to borrow his own power.

"One more thing, Senior Yao." Xiao Yan looked at Yao Shen, his eyes dotted with light, "I've always been much stronger than people of the same level, right?"

Xiao Yan's question made Yao Chen stunned for a moment, and he couldn't help but reply.

"you know?"

In the past, Xiao Yan had fought so many opponents with vastly different levels. Not to mention easily winning, at least there were back and forth. However, from the beginning to the end, Xiao Yan never showed doubts about his own strength, so Yao Shen fell again and again. After his complaints, he gradually got used to it and thought that Xiao Yan was too slow to notice it.

But listening to Xiao Yan's words, it seems that he is not that slow?

Seeing the shock in Yao Chen's eyes, Xiao Yan smiled bitterly.

"It's just once or twice. After so many battles, no matter how slow the disciple is, he should have discovered it." Xiao Yan said slowly: "I will take the initiative to face powerful enemies that are far higher than myself again and again, because I understand in my heart , Although my level is not as good as theirs, I can deal with them with my strength, and I actually know my strength deep down."

Yao Chen was silent for a long time and asked slowly.

"Then why did you pretend not to know before?"

"Because I'm afraid." Xiao Yan smiled reluctantly, "I'm afraid that when I know that my strength far exceeds that of people of the same level, the pride in my heart will become stronger and stronger, and I will look down on others more and more. people, thus becoming the type of people I hate the most.”

"Once in Qingshan Town, after I killed the apparently most powerful Mu She, I had the idea in my heart to kill everyone in Qingshan Town who might pose a threat to the people around me, even innocent people. Because at that time, I felt that I was above everyone else, and that no one would criticize me no matter what I did.”

"I really didn't dare to encounter that kind of mentality again, so even though I later realized that my strength far exceeded people of the same level, I buried this matter deep in my heart, subconsciously. Let yourself be aware of this.”

"But the arrogance born of this incident has actually always affected my words and deeds."

"I am just a great fighting master. I dare to help children open a restaurant in a place like Black Corner Territory because I have the confidence deep down in my heart to do so."

"Including the revenge for the children later, it is not just because of my emotions, but because I feel that as long as I use your power, I can fight even the Douzong."

Speaking of this, Xiao Yan couldn't help but smile, looked at Yao Shen and asked again.

"Senior Yao, do you know why I have always been so humble?"

".It's because you have to strictly abide by your own right path."

Yao Shen hesitated for a long time and then said so.

Before doing this, she would never have hesitated to say this, because in her opinion, Xiao Yan was such a person.

However, after Xiao Yan's previous speech, she felt a little unsure.

"I thought so before." Xiao Yan said, his eyes revealing his disgust, "But in fact, the real reason is that I feel deep down in my heart that if I am arrogant and arrogant, then I will be like other arrogant people." Like any arrogant person, I am looked down upon by myself.”

Look down upon. These words really don’t seem like something Xiao Yan can say, let alone something he can do.

Even when facing those he killed with his own hands, Xiao Yan always just "hated" them and never said "disdained" them.

At this time, Xiao Yan was still explaining to himself.

"So far, I have always looked at my life from the perspective of [Zhengdao]. [Xiao Yan] is like a puppet controlled by Zhengdao, so I can restrain my desires again and again and control a completely It is far easier to control [others] than yourself."

"Deep in my heart, I have always held the concept of using violence to combat violence and evil to destroy evil."

"But the [righteous way] in my heart tells me that this kind of method cannot fundamentally solve the problem, and the result will only be counterproductive."

"Whenever I encounter difficulties and dangers, I always want to escape. I always want to give up when I promise others things."

"But [The Righteous Way] also told me that always thinking about escaping when encountering difficulties and dangers is definitely not the Righteous Way. People who practice the Righteous Way should never be so cowardly, and they must risk their lives to do things that promise others."

"That's why I have been trying my best to control myself in the name of [the right path], doing things that I don't want to do, and trying to endure the most instinctive thoughts in my heart as much as possible."

"Before, I had been deliberately ignoring these things. It was not until the incident in the Black Corner Domain that I finally saw clearly what kind of person I was."

"However, even so, [The Righteous Path] still persuades me to persist and not give up, but it does not tell me where to go next."

Xiao Yan slowly raised his head and looked at Yao Shen, who was shocked.

Two lines of clear tears fell from the side of Xiao Yan's face, his pupils trembled slightly as if they were on the verge of collapse, and a slightly broken smile appeared on his face.

"Senior Yao, the [Xiao Yan] you met before never existed from the beginning."

"All my words and deeds were never my intention."

"Those are all fake."

Xiao Yan's eyes were filled with confusion about the future, like a lost child who didn't know where to go.

The righteous path he had relied on before now had big problems.

What happened in the Black Corner Domain and the deaths of those children made Xiao Yan deny in his heart the right path he had insisted on before, and [Xiao Yan], the [person] who was built based on the right path, was also denied.

After listening to Qiu Feng and Ye Nuan's respective opinions today, Xiao Yan's heart became even more confused, and his previous beliefs were shattered.

Xiao Yan doesn't understand what the right path in the future and his future self should be like.
(End of this chapter)