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Chapter 23 23. His Girl
[The 350th day of missing A Xun——2018-6-1
Children's Day is here again!It's my birthday again!

Mom and Dad held a small birthday party for me in the hospital.

The nurses and doctors who have been taking care of me have come to eat cakes.

It’s been a long time since I saw my parents smiling like this. I even feel less pain. Everyone is very happy, and so am I...

Ah Xun, do you still think of me occasionally?

The college entrance examination is coming soon, Ah Xun, what school will you go to?
A Xun, I really want to call you, but I'm afraid you've already forgotten me...]

……

I force myself not to stop every day, to live every day to the fullest, so that I have no time to think about you!
But every day, I think of you, and I want to ask you why you left, what I did wrong, why you didn't tell me, why you didn't even say goodbye.

……

[The 490th seventh day of missing A Xun——2018-10-23
Frost's Descent is here again, and Ah Xun's birthday is here again.

No my second birthday, Hoon, how are you now?

do you remember me.

are you thinking of me.

Hoon, I've had enough!
Day after day of inspections, taking medicine and injections, I might as well die.

I'm so tired, Ah Xun, what should I do...

Happy birthday Ash. 】

……

On her second birthday when she was gone, what he was doing was lost.

Not just that day, but every day after she left, to him, it was all muddled and there was no difference.

Day after day, step by step, it seems that all vitality has been taken away at once, and it looks like a haggard and no fun.

Gently groping for the diary in his hand, Xiang Jiaxun looked at Wen Zixin with softer eyes.

This is, his girl.

A stupid girl whose heart is full of him, even though it is her diary, it is full of his affairs.

Observing Xiang Jiaxun's reaction, Bang Bang sighed for a while.

Hey, poor hero, tsk tsk!Mingming and Wen Zixin could be a couple who will grow old together, but they missed it because of the wrong time, what a pity, what a pity.

"Only one? Are you asleep?" After sighing for a while, Bangbang gently called Xu Yi.

"Only?"

"Hmmmmm?"

Seeing Xu Yiyi's response, Bang Bang hurriedly said: "Don't open your eyes! You are pretending to be asleep now! Xiang Jiaxun is reading the diary!
Only actually fell asleep? !Sometimes, Bangbang really admires Xu Yiyi's calmness like a mountain.

"Ah? Oh yes! That's right! Great, how long has it been?" Xu Yiyi was still a little confused.

Awesome said helplessly: "More than three hours have passed!"

"More than three hours?! After watching TV, it's past ten o'clock! Isn't it past one o'clock in the morning?!"

"Yes!"

"Xiang Jiaxun hasn't finished watching yet?" Wen Zixin was a little surprised.

Thinking about Xiang Jiaxun's state just now, Bangbang inevitably felt a little sympathetic, "Look at your diary for a while, and look at you for a while, crying and laughing like a little fool."

"... How many more have you not seen?"

"It should be soon. I saw you returned home."

"That's good, I was woken up by you, I can't sleep now, but I can't lie like this all the time... But why did you call me?"

"Well, just, actually, I don't quite understand. You said that since Xiang Jiaxun was so impressed by this diary, why didn't Wen Zixin of the original world show it?"

"If she takes it out, Xiang Jiaxun will be very moved when he sees it, and the two will be reunited?" Xu Yiyi was a little envious of his innocence.

"Yup!"

Xu Yi felt a little helpless, "So you are still young!"

Sighing, Xu Yi said: "Xiang Jiaxun from the original world has been depressed for so long because of Wen Zixin's departure. Although Xiang Jiaxun is usually normal, but after getting along for so long, you can tell that he is a People with sharp mouths and bean curd hearts keep everything in their hearts, and as time goes by, people will inevitably dig into the horns and mistrust others.”

After a pause, Xu Yi continued: "But Gu Rui's appearance saved him who was in the dark, and became his light, his salvation! So Xiang Jiaxun loves Gu Rui, and even feels that Wen Zixin is just a young man. When I was paranoid, it was just because I couldn't accept being abandoned inexplicably, so I brooded on it."

"...So does Xiang Jiaxun really love Wen Zixin?" Bangbang still doesn't understand human love.

"Of course! At least, that's what I think! Because I love her, I can't accept betrayal, and because I love her, I will hesitate when she comes back."

"Since Xiang Jiaxun loves Wen Zixin, why didn't Wen Zixin take out his diary?"

"Maybe, she realized that they had missed it!" Xu Yi's tone was a little indifferent.

Awesome still can't understand.

"When Wen Zixin came back, Xiang Jiaxun already had Gu Rui in his heart. Even though he still felt unwilling to Wen Zixin, Xiang Jiaxun is a smart person, and one day he will understand who he really loves now So even if Wen Zixin took out the diary and made Xiang Jiaxun feel sorry for her and understand her leaving, but all this happened and it happened, there is no room for bargaining in the relationship.”

Speaking of this, Xu Yi couldn't help sighing a little, "Compassion and love are not the same after all, even if the two of them are forced to be together, they will not be happy. Besides, Wen Zixin is also a proud person, she will not allow Xiang Jia The reason Xun stays by her side is because of pity for her!"

Bangbang couldn't help sighing, "Hey, so people who can be together happily, but because the time is wrong, they can't be together, what a pity!"

Hearing Bangbang's long and short sighs, Xu Yiyi was a little amused, "Little Bangchui, stop thinking about it, how can there be so much love and sweetness, why do fairy tales end after the prince and princess are happy together."

"You can't just talk about love in your life!" Besides, there are too many embarrassing things.

"Just..."

"Um?"

"...It's nothing." Why did he suddenly feel that he was not as heartless as he appeared on the surface?

"But Xiang Jiaxun is not finished yet, I'm hungry." Xu Yiyi's words completely dispelled the rare sadness in the sea of ​​consciousness.

"It's just that you are still bearing it!"

Finally, Xiang Jiaxun finished reading all the diaries.

From the first day Wen Zixin left until now, Wen Zixin's uneasiness and longing, like a flood breaking a bank, rushed in wantonly, hitting Xiang Jiaxun so hard that he could hardly breathe.

During the more than 1000 days and nights that he didn't know, what did she suffer alone?
In the few months before her return, she wanted to give up, she wanted to see him, and even if she died immediately, she wanted to be by his side.

[Sure enough, the days without Ah Xun, even if they live, are meaningless! 】

This is a sentence she wrote on the first day she moved in.

He still remembered that day, when she wrote these words, the sun shining on her body was like the lamp by the bedside, wrapping her in warmth and making him throb.

Looking at the comfortable and beautiful person on the bed, Xiang Jiaxun suddenly didn't know what to do, whether to fight everything with Wen Zixin, or pretend to be ignorant.

Before he could figure out why, the person on the bed seemed to be moved, as if he was about to wake up...

(End of this chapter)