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Chapter 22 22. Diary
Putting Wen Zixin on the bed gently, Xiang Jiaxun gently pulled the quilt over Wen Zixin's body.

Looking at Wen Zixin who was sleeping well at the moment, Xiang Jiaxun finally regained some familiarity.

Just when Xiang Jiaxun was about to leave, he accidentally kicked something.Picking it up, he found that what he had in his hand was the bottle of medicine he found for Wen Zixin when he was in the library last time.

After carefully looking at the bottle of medicine, Xiang Jiaxun looked around the room for another week.Finally, several similar bottles and jars were found in front of the dresser.

Xiang Jiaxun clenched the medicine bottle in his hand, suddenly feeling a little nervous.After a while, he finally lifted his footsteps and walked towards the dressing table.

"Just, Xiang Jiaxun found the medicine bottle, don't tell me this is all in your plan!" Bangbang observed Xiang Jiaxun's movements, feeling very surprised in his heart.

"Hmm, it's natural!" Xu Yi was very proud of his plan.

"Then what if Xiang Jiaxun doesn't carry you back to your room?" Wouldn't it be impossible to find out.

"It's not easy, so I'll pretend to fall to the ground, if you don't believe he won't bring me back!"

"...A scheming woman."

"Certainly, I quite like this adjective! It's much better than the generous Virgin Mary White Lotus!"

Sure enough, only women are difficult to raise!Brilliant, I was convinced again!In the future, you should be more obedient, and you must not provoke me!

Xiang Jiaxun carefully looked at the bottles of medicine in front of him and a small bag in the corner.I vaguely remember that this should be the bag that Wen Zixin secretly hid behind his back when he came back last time.

The contents of the bag were gone, leaving only a shopping receipt, which should be the name of the medicine.

After glancing at Wen Zixin who was still sleeping, Xiang Jiaxun took out his phone and started searching for the name on it.

...for the treatment of heart diseases...

Xiang Jiaxun couldn't read what was written in the back, and his mind was filled with the words 'Wen Zixin' and 'heart disease', six words.

How can it be!Wen Zixin has always been well, obviously normal!We used to go to the playground together, we played together...

Xiang Jiaxun desperately wanted to deny Wen Zixin's illness!Trying to find strong evidence from memories to prove that Wen Zixin is healthy!
But the more he thought about it, the more ugly his face became.

No wonder, no wonder Wen Zixin went to the playground excitedly, but just wanted to watch him play... No wonder she never does strenuous exercise, and she said that girls don't want to be covered in sweat, no wonder...

But, Wen Zixin, why did you hide it from me?Why!Am I that untrustworthy?Wen Zixin!
Sitting weakly in front of the vanity mirror, Xiang Jiaxun looked at Wen Zixin, who was sleeping peacefully on the bed, and wanted to question him loudly.

Ask her why she left, ask her if she doesn't believe him that much, ask her if she left him for this reason...

At this moment, Xiang Jiaxun had a headache and his mind was full of doubts, but he couldn't bear to call Wen Zixin to wake up and see her crying.

Xiang Jiaxun was angry, he was so angry that Wen Zixin was still hiding it from him!I was also angry that I couldn't be her reliance, someone she trusted!

Not only angry with her, but also angry with himself!
With trembling hands, Xiang Jiaxun put the medicine in his hand back to its original place, but at this moment he found the book under the bottles and jars.

He remembered that this was Wen Zixin's diary, and he could often see Wen Zixin remembering something while smiling.

What did she write...

Looking through the mirror at Wen Zixin whose mouth was slightly curled up, Xiang Jiaxun's brows and eyes were full of hesitation.

At this moment, Wen Zixin is like an innocent and carefree child, who is smiling very gently because of a dream.

Although Xiang Jiaxun was deeply hurt by this smile, she didn't feel it.

His hand kept rubbing the diary, Xiang Jiaxun's upbringing didn't allow him to open it, but his heart went crazy, and he wanted to read it now!

In the end, Xiang Jiaxun followed his heart and opened the diary.

……

【The first day I miss Ah Xun——2017-6-13
Today is the first day I left, and I haven't said goodbye to Ah Xun properly, so I just left.

Ah Xun will blame me, I will definitely!
After all, Ah Xun is so stingy.

But, my stingy A Xun, what should I tell you.

Say I'm sick, say I'm sick, say I don't know how many days I can live, say I might die the next moment...

How do you want me to say it.

A Xun, since I am destined to leave you, it should be earlier, so that you still have a long time to meet good people.

hate me!

You hate me, a person who disappears completely without making a sound!
Hate me, the person who has deceived you for so long!
Hate me, hate me!

as long as you don't forget me...

No, just forget about me!

Then I met a kind girl who was optimistic and cheerful, and loved her well.

Just, don’t let me know…]

……

This is the day Wen Zixin left, so you thought so.

If I didn't open such a diary today, when are you going to tell me?

Wen Zixin, if you want me to hate you, then live a long life and annoy me every day!
I just want you to see me happy with your own eyes, don't even think about running away!
As soon as he read the first diary, Xiang Jiaxun couldn't help feeling sad.Imagining that thin figure three years ago, and writing these words while thinking of him, my heart is sore.

……

[No.70 Days of Miss Ah Xun——2017-8-22
Ah Xun, what are you doing now?I haven't heard from you for a long time, do you still miss me?

If you still miss me, then I am really happy!
However, I can't be so selfish.

Ah Xun, don't miss me anymore, come out, come out...

Today I also took a lot of medicine and did a lot of tests. I am very tired, but as long as I think of Ah Xun, I can persist!

Ah Xun, forget me!But don't forget too quickly!

No!do not forget me!Just in case, what if I can get well!
Forget about me, my Axun, you should be happy...]

……

Stupid!You can be more selfish!I can't take care of myself well, but I always think that others can be better, I'm so stupid!
Seventy days, what was I doing at that time... Yes, I was hiding in my room all day and refused to go out!

forget you?How could I forget you!I have been depressed and decadent for half a year because of you, so I just forgot about you, wouldn't it be cheap for you!
Looking up at the sleeping person on the bed, Xiang Jiaxun's eyes filled with mist.

After a long time, I continued to read.

……

[The 130th second day of missing Ah Xun——2017-10-23
Today is Frost's Descent, and it's also Ah Xun's birthday!
I want to go out to buy a birthday gift for Ah Xun, but my father forbids me to go out, because today's inspection is still full.

Ah Xun, I'm so tired, I'm in pain.

Ah Xun, I miss you so much.

I want to hear you talk, I want to see what you look like now, I want you to hold my hand again, I want you to hold me again...

Xun, Xun, Xun...

If I could stand beside you, I would definitely call you like this all the time.

Happy birthday, Axun!
Thank you for appearing in my life!Thank you for making me fall in love with you!Thank you for supporting me!
I love you, Ashun! 】

……

Seeing this, Xiang Jiaxun finally couldn't help but burst into tears.

It turned out that he was not suffering alone, it turned out that Wen Zixin was the same as him.No, Wen Zixin suffered more and more pain than him!
It turned out to be him who had been loved all along.

Wen Zixin, Wen Zixin... you idiot!

It's me who should say thank you!Thank you for making me like you so much!Thank you for making me so passionately loved!

You stupid!Just be selfish and make me suffer together, okay?

At least, at least let me stay with you...

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