Didn’t you say you were just using me as a substitute?

"He will lose confidence in the face of repeated denials."

"He will feel terrible about himself, not good enough, and unworthy of love or respect. He will end up trapped in a cycle of self-doubt and self-denial."

"Maybe after a while, you'll feel like he's different from the one I remember, and leave him."

Kitahara Takashi has never experienced this kind of thing, but his friends have.

Kitahara Takashi once witnessed a friend who was once sunny and cheerful being made depressed by Pua. In the end, the girl felt that the boy had changed and was dumped.

"Have you ever thought about what will happen to Watanabe Takashi then?"

"You haven't thought about him at all."

This is the unconscious coldness and reality hidden under the romanticism of women.

This is also what Kitahara Takashi never believes women say.

Women's words are deceptive and beautifying, you can't believe them completely.

"I……"

"Are you trying to say you wouldn't do that? But how do you know I'm not telling the truth?"

When considering things, Kitahara Takashi always assumes the worst.

He doesn't have unrealistic expectations of anyone.

Even for Yozakura Tong, whom he liked very much, he had prepared himself from the beginning that he would not be able to stay with her until the end.

As long as you don't have expectations of anyone, you won't be disappointed.

This is also the reason why Kitahara Takashi has never cut off contact with other girls.

He must leave himself a way out, so that even if he takes the wrong path, he will have the confidence and courage to start over.

Even if you love someone, don't love without reservation.

To love others you must first love yourself.

Many people love others more than themselves. They give everything they have, including their hearts, to the other person. If the other half is a good person, it would be fine, but often they meet the wrong person and end up losing miserably.

Love is actually like a gamble.

Win the bet and be happy.

Lose the bet and lose everything.

"Kasumigaoka Utaha, I find you to be a really strange person."

"Watanabe Takashi is with you, but you treat him badly, always saying he's not as good as Aki Tomoya."

"But after he left you started to regret it. Have you read too many novels about chasing after husbands and cremating them?"

"Why do you always fail to cherish the people around you? You have to wait until they are completely gone before you start to regret it?"

"What did you do early?"

Although Kitahara Takashi is a scumbag, he cherishes the people around him.

Whether it is his women, Kamikawa Nari or Yozakura Hitomi, or his friends Otani Shota and Tanaka Kouta.

"Kasumigaoka Utaha, admit it, you don't really like Watanabe Takashi that much."

Kitahara Takashi believes that Kasumigaoka Utaha likes Watanabe Takashi.

But in his opinion, no, she liked him as much as she said.

The reason why Kasumigaoka Utaha is so sad now is mainly because she found out that the person who has always been with her will leave one day. She also knows very well that there will be no one who loves her more than Watanabe Takashi in the future.

pat!

Kasumigaoka Utaha's arms drooped weakly, and the silver knife slipped from her hands.

Silence enveloped the venue. Kitahara Takashi said so many words at once and was even cut in the throat. Although the cut was not deep, it still hurt.

After a pause, he said, "Kasumigaoka Utaha, maybe I lied to you."

"I admit that my feelings for you are fake."

"But every time I take the train from Tokyo to Chiba to see you, it's me, Kitahara Takashi."

"Every time you get hurt in Aki Tomoya, the person who calls you in the middle of the night to comfort you is me, Kitahara Takashi."

"I'm the one who reminds you not to catch a cold during your menstrual period and makes you some brown sugar water."

"I did all these things. Apart from our relationship, how have I ever let you down?"

"I can't say I have a clear conscience, but I haven't done anything wrong to you either."

When Kasumigaoka Utaha raised her face and looked at Kitahara Takashi with her tear-soaked eyes, she found that at this moment Kitahara Takashi and Watanabe Takashi were merged together.

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Chapter 246 Your life is full of his traces.

After saying everything he needed to say, Kitahara Takashi turned his head away and didn't look at Kasumigaoka Utaha again.

"Let me tell you more."

After dealing with Kasumigaoka Utaha, it's Eriri's turn.

"I, I didn't do anything as excessive as her."

She was clearly here to settle accounts with Kitahara Tsutomu, but seeing his sharp eyes, Eriri suddenly felt a little timid.

"I never used you to mess with Amai," Eriri said, but Kitahara Takashi interrupted her and raised his eyebrows. "Never?"

"Um... I admit, I did say something similar at the beginning, but I didn't say it all the time."

"Besides, I'm not like that two-timing scumbag, Xia Laofei. I quickly confirmed my feelings and even brought you home to meet my parents."

Kasumigaoka Utaha stared at Eriri with anger.

You said you were talking about yourself, why are you dragging her down?

Despicable female competition.

Eriri pretended not to notice and continued, "I'm worried that you'll be angry, so I've reduced my communication with Aki."

"At school, I hardly ever interact with Aki except for club activities."

"This old fat Kasumi is wrong, Kato Megumi can testify for me."

"Even the confession you heard that day, you didn't hear it in its entirety."

"You only heard the first half: [You've always been the one I've liked] and ran away, but you didn't hear the second half: [Before Zun appeared]."

"That day, you ran away without even listening to my explanation. I was so sad and upset."

Having said that, Eriri sniffed and looked at Kitahara Takashi with grievance.

She now looks like a wronged puppy who got lost from her owner and met her owner again on the street corner a few years later.

It’s just that Eriri doesn’t have a tail, otherwise it would be shaking from side to side at this moment.

Beiyuan Zun's face remained expressionless, but he always felt something strange in his heart.

Aren't you here to cause trouble for me?

No matter how you look at it, you don't look like you are here to cause trouble for him, but rather to win him back.

"No, you forgive him now? Have you forgotten that he cheated on you? Have you forgotten what we agreed on? After all this time, I'm the only one who took it seriously."

Kasumigaoka Utaha looked at Eriri and felt that she was playing herself.

This is different from what was said before.

"Zun, please believe me, after I fell in love with you, there is no place for An Yi in my heart."

Seeing that Kitahara Tsuyoshi didn't say anything, Eriri thought he didn't believe her. She grabbed Kitahara Tsuyoshi's left hand with both hands, her eyes red.

Kitahara Takashi: "..."

I haven't even used a basic attack yet, why are you using all your skills?

"You can't sentence me to death just because I liked An Yi before."

"Zun, I don't mind you cheating on me, nor do I mind what happened between you and those girls. Can we start over?"

Eriri kept shaking Kitahara Tsutomu's left hand, and her look could be said to be a little humble.

Looking at Eriri's current state, Kitahara Takashi couldn't tell who was the bootlicker between the two of them.

Kasumigaoka Utaha stared at Kitahara Takashi with a nervous look, waiting for his answer.

"do not Cry."

Kitahara Takashi looked at Eriri who was crying with tears in her eyes. He felt a little reluctant, so he pulled his hand away from Eriri, put his palm on the side of Eriri's cheek, and gently wiped away her tears with his fingertips.

"Zun, do you agree to get back together with me?"

Eriri thought that Kitahara Tsutomu had softened his heart and planned to start over with her, so she looked at him in surprise.

Kasumigaoka Utaha's eyes suddenly dimmed.

Kitahara Takashi smiled, but his words were very cruel: "There's no need to get back together."

"I won't stay with you."

"Never, got it?"

If he really wanted to be with Eriri, he wouldn't have broken up with her last time.

"why?"

Ying Lili was anxious.

She has come this far and doesn't mind Beiyuan Zun's deception and sliding, but why does Beiyuan Zun refuse to get back together with her?

"Because your world is full of traces of Aki Tomoya's existence, I can't clean it up."

Kitahara Takashi's gaze was gentle, and his movements as he stroked her golden hair were equally gentle.

"Do you remember the Galgame 'Pure Love Notebook' you invited me to play last time I went to your house?"

Eriri nodded in confusion.

"You said this was your first Galgame, so you shared it with me. You wanted me to participate in your past, didn't you?"

Kitahara Takashi never doubted Eriri's sincerity.

She likes herself to be real.

Sharing what she likes, trying to make herself understand her past, is to make herself involved in her future.

This girl is always like this. Once she falls in love with someone, she wants to get married.

To be honest, I like Eriri more than Kasumigaoka Utaha.

"Ah."

"But you know what? Your game save file is not deleted."

At first, Eriri didn't understand what Kitahara Tsutomu meant, but soon she understood and her face turned pale.

"All your clearance records are of the childhood sweetheart route."

"You showed me your crayon drawings from childhood. The one that impressed me the most was a picture of a little girl holding the hand of a little boy wearing glasses."

"And the glasses in your room are the same black-framed women's glasses as Tomoya Aki. Maybe you didn't even notice it?"

"And oh..."

"Stop it, Zun, I beg you to stop it."

Eriri rested her forehead against Kitahara Tsuyoshi's chest, her tears soaking his clothes as she begged him to stop talking.

"That's why I'm not with you."

Kitahara Takashi gently patted her head: "Their existence seems to be silently telling the story of your past with that boy named Aki Tomoya."

"Zun, I'm sorry, I don't know, I really don't know."

"I know."

He believed that Eriri really didn't realize it when she shared this.