I'm surrounded by women.

Sachimi: "Mom, I'm doing something greedy."

Mom: "Yes, that's why I came to kill you."

Thinking of this, Sachimi shook her head even more vigorously, as if she was afraid that Nishizawa Meilisha couldn't hear her, and said loudly:

"No, absolutely not. I just care about Yuan Ying out of normal concern. When I'm with this child, I feel like I'm interacting with a little adult. After becoming a doctor, it's inevitable that I'll develop some affection for sensible children. After all, the children I usually meet are mostly naughty ones, so meeting a sensible child is so precious."

Seeing Sachimi trying hard to explain, Nishizawa Meilisha laughed and said:

"Okay, okay, I was just joking, don't be so anxious.

Your reaction is quite interesting. As a thank you for showing me such an interesting reaction, I will tell you about the psychological problems that Yuan Ying may have.

Hearing what Nishizawa Meirisa said, Sachimi, who was a little excited in the previous second, instantly calmed down in the next second, pricked up her ears and listened to what Nishizawa Meirisa said next.

"Yuan Ying's biggest psychological problem right now may not be depression, but rather a strong yet hidden tendency toward self-destruction. It's very strong, very dangerous, yet hidden so deeply, so deeply that even Yuan Ying herself isn't aware of such a serious tendency."

"Self-destructive tendencies?!" Sachimi broke out in a cold sweat after hearing this. Neither severe depression nor self-destructive tendencies were good for Gen Ying. And psychological problems were the most difficult to treat, as there were no targeted medications.

"That's right. The reason she's hiding it so well now is because Yuan Ying has unintentionally created a balance within herself. The specific method is probably to subconsciously lie to herself constantly, making herself unaware of her inner self-destructive tendencies.

However, if something happens that greatly stimulates Yuan Ying's spirit and heart, then Yuan Ying's current balance in her heart will be broken. Once it is broken, her entire way of thinking and solving problems may become extremely extreme."

Having said that, Nishizawa Meilisha changed the subject and said in a very serious tone:

"Let me make a hypothesis. Let's assume that Yuan Ying's life story is more complicated than you might imagine. A long time ago, someone important to her tragically passed away. For so many years, Yuan Ying has been immersed in the grief of her death, and has never been able to get over it. If Yuan Ying suddenly learned at this moment that the death of that important person wasn't an accident, but a long-planned murder, then... what solution do you think Yuan Ying would choose?"

"She might..." Sachimi said subconsciously, but when the second half of the sentence was about to come out, she suddenly felt creepy.

Yes, if Yuan Ying really has extremely serious self-destructive tendencies, then in this hypothesis, once Yuan Ying knows the truth, then Yuan Ying's behavior will be...

Although Sachimi didn't continue, Nishizawa Meilisa knew what the answer was from her expression, so she chuckled and said, like a teacher announcing the correct answer:

"That's right. Yuan Ying will go crazy and find the murderer. She will do whatever it takes, even if it means completely destroying herself, to drag the murderer into hell with her, even if it means becoming a murderer herself."

Ignoring Sachimi who was too shocked to speak, Nishizawa Meilisha turned her head to look at the crows outside the window, and whispered to herself in a tone that only she could hear:

"Yuan Ying, I'm really looking forward to your growth more and more."

Chapter 178 In addition to writing lyrics, Gao Songdeng also wants to...

Takamatsu family.

Since he had already gone to the movies yesterday, Takamatsu Deng planned to stay at home all day today.

However, with Takamatsu Deng's personality, she would not feel bored because she stayed at home all day. It would be better to say that she is a person who likes to stay at home. If people do not need to work or go to school, Takamatsu Deng feels that it is okay for her to not leave home for a year.

After all, the reason why he went out before - to participate in CRYCHIC band activities - has collapsed with the disbandment of CRYCHIC.

Gao Songdeng lay on the bed, idly looking at the familiar ceiling. She muttered softly, "In the past, when I stayed at home, I might have used the time at home to write lyrics, but now... I don't have any reason to write lyrics anymore."

After finishing speaking, Takamatsu Deng also sighed softly. Although she was not like Nagasaki Suyo who was thinking about restoring CRYCHIC all the time, she did miss the time when CRYCHIC was here.

When he stood on the stage as the lead singer of CRYCHIC and sang the lyrics he wrote, it was the first time that Takamatsu Deng felt that his love for songwriting was meaningful.

But now, having lost CRYCHIC, it seems that the meaning of writing lyrics has also been lost.

Even if you compose more songs, it will be meaningless if there is no band to play and sing them.

'Perhaps, besides writing lyrics, I can find another way to vent my inner emotions?' This thought suddenly flashed through Gao Songdeng's mind, like a meteor streaking across the sky in the dark night.

Thinking of this, Gao Songdeng suddenly sat up from the bed, because when this idea came into her mind, she seemed to have figured out what kind of creative method she should use next?

Just like what I thought yesterday.

——Write novels.

Gao Songdeng's state of mind at this moment has switched to the usual thinking state when writing lyrics, but this time she is no longer thinking about the lyrics, but whether to use a new creative method to release her creative desire?

Everyone in CRYCHIC initially thought that Takamatsu Deng just liked writing lyrics, but in fact, it is not the case. Although Takamatsu Deng does like writing lyrics, it is better to say that she likes to vent her creative desire in a way, and she just happened to choose writing lyrics as one of her creative methods.

Now, since he has no reason to write lyrics, Gao Songdeng will naturally subconsciously think about whether to use a new creative method?

Do you want it?

The answer is obvious, of course yes.

Since the rainy day when Toyokawa Shoko announced her withdrawal from CRYCHIC, Takamatsu Deng rarely wrote lyrics. This also made her accumulate a lot of creative desire in her heart. Now is the time when she needs a new way of creation to vent.

Although writing a novel was an idea that Gao Songdeng had only fantasized about in his mind before but never dared to put into practice, at this moment, the desire to write a novel in Gao Songdeng's heart became stronger and stronger. If he didn't start writing quickly, Gao Songdeng even felt that he might be burst by the creative desire in his heart!

Driven by such a strong desire to create, Gao Songdeng got out of bed and went to the laptop. Since buying this laptop, he rarely opened it to use it. He didn't expect that the reason he chose to open it this time was to write a novel.

After Gao Songdeng turned on her laptop, she clicked the mouse a few times and opened Word. Just as she put her hands on the keyboard and was about to start writing a novel, she suddenly froze.

Although I really want to write a novel, I haven’t figured out what kind of novel I want to write yet?

Gao Songdeng sat in front of the computer with her arms folded across her chest. She looked at the Word document interface and thought about the novel she was going to write.

There are many types of novels. Just in terms of the love line, they can be divided into single female protagonist, multiple female protagonists and no female protagonist.

As the name suggests, a novel without a female protagonist has no emotional line at all.

Although there are many famous novels without a love story and no female protagonist, Takamatsu Deng cannot finish reading any novel without a love story. She really likes novels with some love elements, especially those with a particularly twisted love story!

Although Gao Songdeng has never shared his reading habit with anyone, every time he reads a novel secretly by himself, Gao Songdeng only likes to choose a novel with a love line, and the love line should be very complicated and twisted.

"So, if I want to write a novel, I want to write a novel with a very complicated emotional line." Gao Songdeng made up his mind.

After deciding in her mind whether the novel had a love storyline, Gao Songdeng began to conceive again. Although she had never written a novel before, the way she was conceiving now was very much like a professional novelist:

"Since I've already decided on a love storyline, the worldview of the story must be very consistent with the love storyline. I also have to choose a worldview that suits me. I really like reading urban campus novels, so I'd try not to choose a worldview in another world as the first worldview of my novel.

As for the love storyline, the most common love storyline in novels nowadays is definitely the male and female protagonists, but I don’t know why? When I think of the love storyline now, the ones that come to mind are not the male and female protagonists I imagined, but the two female protagonists I imagined!

Could it be that my first novel is going to be about yuri?!

When Gao Songdeng thought of this, her cheeks suddenly turned red. Although yuri novels are very common, she seems to have never read a true yuri work. The ones she had read before were all light yuri works.

Despite being the lead singer of CRYCHIC, Takamatsu is a very traditional person. Therefore, Takamatsu considers yuri relationships to be too bold! Even the act of writing yuri novels seems so bold to Takamatsu. Although the number of yuri novels on the market increases almost every year, every time you go to a bookstore, as long as you walk to the bookshelf in the novel section, you can always see one or two published yuri novels.

"Do I really have to write a yuri novel for my first novel? Isn't this a bit too bold? If everyone knew, would they laugh at me?

No... Everyone in CRYCHIC has parted ways now. Even if I start writing novels, they won't know. That way, I don't have to worry about how I would explain why I write novels if they knew about it, and why I set the love storyline to be lesbian.

What's more, novels also have different levels of popularity. I haven't even written the manuscript yet, let alone uploaded it to a novel website. The probability of it becoming famous is unlikely, so there is no need to worry about it being known by everyone."

After talking to herself till here, Gao Songdeng gradually had a very clear concept of her novel, so she swallowed her saliva, made up her mind, and began to type the first word of her novel on Word.

--I.

After trying to type the first word, Gao Songdeng suddenly felt his body tremble, as if some talent had awakened in him!

Ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta.

Although Gao Songdeng's typing speed was not very fast, because Gao Songdeng had no intention of stopping, he had typed out a line of words in the blink of an eye.

This line of words is the title of the book.

When facing my best friend’s wife, I just want to say: I can just be the mistress.

Looking at the title of the book that he had typed almost subconsciously, although it looked strange, after rereading it, Gao Songdeng breathed a sigh of relief and said to himself while sitting in front of the computer:

"I seem to have a real talent for writing novels. This is the title of the book. Although I haven't started writing the specific plot yet, if I were a reader, seeing this title, I would definitely want to click in to see what the plot is all about."

This talk to himself was also Gao Songdeng's encouragement to himself. After he finished speaking, Gao Songdeng really felt that he had more confidence.

After gradually feeling satisfied, Gao Songdeng stopped writing and began to type on the keyboard with both hands. Although his speed was not fast, he never stopped for a moment and began to write the main text of his novel.

……

Three hours later.

Gao Songdeng stretched in front of the computer. She had just written more than 3,000 words, which meant she had finished the first chapter of the novel.

Returning from the last page to the first, Gao Songdeng read his novel from the beginning. When he was writing, his mind was full of thoughts about how to put the plot in his mind into words, so he didn't pay much attention to it. But now that he has broken away from the creative state, he looks at the first chapter of his novel from the perspective of an author and a reader...

From the moment he finished reading the first sentence, Gao Songdeng felt his cheeks gradually getting hot. By the time he finished reading a paragraph, Gao Songdeng already wanted to find a crack in the ground to crawl into.

Regardless of the plot, I seem to be getting a little accustomed to writing the protagonist's name!

The protagonist's name is Xiaodeng, the protagonist's best friend's name is Daxiang, and the protagonist's best friend's wife's name is Yingyuan.

This corresponds to his own name Takamatsu Deng.

I usually call Toyokawa Shoko "Xiao Xiang".

And Shoko Toyokawa's girlfriend, Sakura Minamoto.

After knowing the prototype of the character, let's take a look at the title and plot of the book you wrote...

For a moment, Takamatsu Deng really wanted to cover his face. If this novel was seen by Yuan Ying and the others, he would definitely want to leave the earth and go to Mars as soon as possible!

"Should I change the character's name?" Takamatsu Deng thought as he put his hands on the keyboard. After trying to delete the name Xiao Deng, Takamatsu Deng couldn't think of a replacement name.

It’s like the protagonist of this novel must be called Xiao Deng!

Takamatsu Deng tried to replace the names of Daxiang and Yingyuan again, but the result was predictable. It was the same as when he wanted to replace Xiaodeng's name. He couldn't think of a second name to replace them.

It’s like the names of the protagonist’s best friend and his wife can only be Daxiang and Yingyuan.

Helplessly, Takamatsu Deng had to continue using the names of these three characters.

Just when Gao Songdeng was about to start writing the second chapter, she suddenly didn't want to continue writing. It was not that she suddenly lost interest in writing novels, but rather that instead of starting to write the second chapter, she wanted to upload the first chapter to the novel website.

Without hesitation, Takamatsu Deng quickly opened the most popular online novel website in Japan - Become a Novelist.

Although Japanese online novel websites are often written with love and no matter how many words are written, there is no profit, but the advantage of this website in attracting writers is that almost every day editors from major publishing houses are looking for potential new books on it.

If you submit your own manuscript to the publisher's email address, you may not receive a reply for half a month. Even if you get a reply, it may be a polite rejection email.

If you upload your written novel to the Become a Novelist website and start serializing it, not only will people start reading your novel after it begins serialization and you can receive comments from readers, but it may also be seen by editors from major publishing houses.

By then, the chances of publishing a single volume may be greater.

Want to upload!

I want to be seen by more readers!

I'd love to hear from readers!

I want to publish it as a physical book!

For a moment, all kinds of exciting thoughts emerged in Gao Songdeng's mind. Although Gao Songdeng knew that she was a little too hasty in thinking like this, after all, she had not even started uploading the novel yet, but it was undeniable that when these thoughts appeared in her mind, Gao Songdeng really couldn't calm down. She now wanted to open the novel website to upload it immediately.

After registering an account on the Novelist Bar website, Gao Songdeng immediately started to register a writer account. After all, the first account he just registered was considered a user account. He could be a reader, an author, or both a reader and an author.

But if you want to become an author, you need to register a writer account and fill in some contact information to facilitate contact and communication with the publishing house's editor.

When Gao Songdeng registered his writer account, after filling in all the information, he ran into trouble with the most important pen name column.

She doesn't know what pen name to choose?

However, as his pen name, Gao Songdeng didn't want to pick one hastily.

In this way, Gao Songdeng sat in front of the computer and began to think, from morning to afternoon, and from afternoon to evening.

Finally, when it was almost time for dinner, Takamatsu Deng finally decided on his pen name.

Gao Songdeng took a deep breath, then typed out the words seriously, one by one.

Pen name: I want to be human.

Mouse, click OK.

Soon, a pop-up window appeared on the website.

"Congratulations on successfully registering a writer account. We look forward to your stories."

"Dear author 'Want to Be Human', you are welcome to start writing your story at any time."

Chapter 179 The Young Couple at the Aquarium

After taking a few deep breaths, Gao Songdeng finally plucked up the courage to open the interface for uploading works.

After I wrote the title, the backend even prompted: "Creating multiple titles can have a good recommendation effect and help increase popularity!"

Although Takamatsu Deng didn't think his first book would become popular, when he saw the words that it would be more helpful to increase popularity, Takamatsu Deng admitted that he was indeed a little tempted.

However, naming a book is not an easy task, so Gao Songdeng had to come up with several other titles based on the original title.

When she first started to come up with new book titles, she was a little unfamiliar with it. However, as she tried gradually, Gao Songdeng gradually found that she had entered a very good creative state. After writing several new book titles in one breath, she deleted and revised them, and finally kept a few titles that she was more satisfied with.

When Gao Songdeng came out of her creative state and started looking at the new book titles she had just written, she was stunned at first, and then she couldn't help but cover her cheeks. She was a little curious about what was going on in her head? Why did she come up with these new book titles?!