In the music series, the male protagonist writes a self-help manual for the inner world

"Are you here to criticize me?"

"I'm just telling you that if you follow your original idea, you might fail."

Chen Xinghua took out a few tissues from the tissue box on the side and handed them to Shiina Riki.

"Wipe your hands."

Shiina Riki gritted his teeth and rubbed his palms stained with milk tea liquid vigorously, as if he was trying to wipe off his skin.

"A spring that is constantly compressed and refuses to relax will break."

Chen Xinghua said, "This is how the band is, and so are the band members."

Shiina Riki equally puts pressure on everyone except Deng, even herself.

This may be a good thing for professional bands, but for a high school band that just gets together to play, it is a fatal thing.

Because once any fun game is related to a profession, its interest will be greatly reduced.

"Lixi, you're under too much pressure."

...by the standards of a band leader.

Because although this band was formed by lights, the theoretical band leader should be lights.

But in fact, the captain of this band is Shiina Riki, because she was responsible for booking the rehearsal venue for Deng, arranging the rehearsal time, etc., which are things that only the captain of a band should do.

"If you don't push me too hard."

Shiina Riki lowered his head, suppressing the feeling of inferiority that was rising in his heart. "...There's no way to do a live show."

...If it were Xiangzi, could he do better than me?

Can she complete a Live without putting pressure on her teammates?

Absolutely. The image of Toyokawa Shoko flashed through Shiina Riki's mind.

That girl can easily solve the problem that has been bothering me for a long time with just a wave of her hand... If it were her, she would definitely be able to choreograph a perfect live without putting any pressure on us.

Is that really the case?

...If it were my sister, could she do better than me?

Shiina Riki subconsciously compared the goal he was pursuing with his increasingly weak and fragile self.

In front of those two giant-like figures, Shiina Riki felt like a tiny ant living under their shadow.

...If it were them, they would definitely be able to do better than me.

“But before we can make it a live show, we have to make sure the band doesn’t fall apart… That’s the foundation of everything.”

Chen Xinghua clasped his fingers together and said in a low voice, "Do you think the foundation of Deng's band is solid?"

He knew that what he said would touch upon Shiina Riki's minefield.

But what if we don’t do this, or even force the next Live to be postponed?

As long as the low pressure surrounding this band does not change, I am afraid the ending of this band will not change at all.

The next process will probably be like this: low-pressure person → Aine, Suye can't get positive feedback → one of them explodes, or both explode → chain light explodes → light chain Riki explodes → ???

"I can't do it as well as my sister."

Shiina Riki suddenly clenched his fists and shouted at Chen Xinghua.

Then she tilted her body to the side and her head backward, as if trying to escape from here.

But before she could escape successfully, a hand grabbed her wrist and stopped her from running away.

"The person talking to me now is Shiina Tatsuki, not Shiina Maki...so sit down and talk properly."

Chen Xinghua let go of his right hand that had just grabbed Shiina Riki's hand and sat back on the chair.

"Haven't you met my sister?"

Shiina Riki wiped the corners of his eyes angrily, trying to wipe away the tears that overflowed from the corners of his eyes without making a sound.

It has been like this since I can remember. Everyone compares me to my sister and says, "You are worthy of being Maki's sister. It is only natural for you to achieve this level."

Am I just a lower-ranking substitute for my sister in the eyes of others?

"If it's my sister, she can definitely do better than me."

Shiina Riki turned his head and looked at the shadow under the parasol not far away.

It's very similar to me...I have always lived in the shadow under the parasol.

"Even if that's the case, so what?"

Chen Xinghua looked at Shiina Riki's profile and said, "The one in Deng's band now is Shiina Riki, not Shiina Maki."

"It's you that Deng needs, not your sister...even if her talent is much stronger than yours."

"That's because my sister can't play the drums. If she could...if she wanted to, she would definitely surpass me in no time."

Shiina Riki answered without hesitation, her emotional management was now close to being out of control.

“It’s been like this since I was a kid.”

Although Shiina Riki's emotional management has not gotten out of control, his ability to deal with people is still not very good.

"What about you? You must want Maki more, right?"

Shiina Riki felt that Chen Xinghua must want Maki to form a band with him. After all, Deng had been with her for a long time. It was reasonable for him to want her instead of her sister.

Even if it's a dog, you will develop feelings for it after spending time with it.

But Chen Xinghua had nothing to do with her a few weeks ago, and she even put pressure on him when she was with him. If it were him, he would definitely choose to team up with his sister.

Because I am not as good as my sister, whether in dealing with people or in musical talent.

"Actually, I'd rather form a band with Shiina Riki."

Chen Xinghua stared at Shiina Riki's purple pupils, "It's not Shiina Maki."

137

Chapter 137 Shiina Maki is the perfect superman.

"why?"

Shiina Riki spoke in a low voice, as if he couldn't believe what incredible words he heard from Chen Xinghua.

Shiina Tatsuki still has some self-awareness about how difficult he is to get along with.

...He has a bad personality, doesn't know how to express his concern for others, and puts pressure on others all day long.

If it were just that, it would be fine. What's more important is that her ability is not enough. Even if she tried her best and was exhausted to the point of vomiting blood, she would not be able to accomplish what her sister and Xiangzi could do easily.

"Why did you choose me and not my sister?"

Shiina Riki's face was twisted and looked very distorted.

Even with this distorted expression, it still couldn't cover up Shiina Riki's beautiful face, but this made Chen Xinghua feel a little sorry when he saw this scene.

What a nice girl, it's a pity that she has a mouth full of pressure.

If Lixi stopped using words to pressure others, her charm would probably increase a lot.

"Sister Mingming surpasses me in every aspect."

Shiina Riki's breathing paused for a moment, but the next moment she was gasping for breath again, absorbing the necessary oxygen from the air.

To be fair, Shiina Maki is not bad to her sister. She is not like the villain genius sister in some third-rate novels, who uses her talent to pressure her sister on the surface, but secretly abuses her soft-voiced sister where no one else can see.

On the contrary, Shiina Maki can be regarded as someone else's older sister in every aspect of Shiina Ritsuki's life. When Shiina Ritsuki's family members were too busy with work to take care of her, the person who actually took on the responsibility of her guardianship was this perfect older sister who was not much older than her.

When Li Xi was too lazy to eat breakfast and wanted to fool her with a box of energy jelly, Maki would jokingly tap her on the head, gently take away the opened energy jelly, and then make Li Xi a delicious breakfast that was not rich but definitely nutritious.

When Lixi was in a bad mood, Maki would gently pull her arm and take her on a motorcycle for a short trip at any time.

Maki will unconditionally support any request of Riki that does not exceed the limit.

Shiina Riki believes that there is absolutely no better sister in the world than Shiina Maki.

But because of this, Shiina Riki feels even more suffocated.

Under the light of the sun and the moon, we are just ordinary people. What can we do? We can only stay under the light they shine and become their natural accessories.

Although Shiina Riki was thinking about her sister at this time, the figure of Toyokawa Shoko flashed through her mind.

Because after the dazzling sun sets, a bright full moon rises, which makes it impossible to escape.

When the day is over, it is night. When the night is over, it is day.

There is no intermediate state between night and day in this world.

The elder sister is the sun that shines on Shiina Tatsuki's daily life, while Toyokawa Shoko is the moon that shines on Shiina Tatsuki when she escapes from her daily life and runs to the band where the sun cannot reach. It is the moon that shines and guides people forward.

Tatsuki Shiina lives under the shadow of her sister and is guided forward by Shoko Toyokawa in the band.

"Whether it's studying..."

Maki Shiina is a perfect superhuman, so she easily obtained a degree from the University of Tokyo.

This is an achievement that even if Riki Shiina studied until he vomited blood, he would still be unable to achieve.

"……sports"

Maki Shiina is a perfect superman, so she easily achieved achievements in sports that Tachibana Shiina could never achieve.

“…interpersonal relationships”

Maki Shiina is a perfect superhuman, so everyone who meets her will say that Maki Shiina is an easy person to get along with.

“…on the music.”

Shiina Maki is a perfect superhero, so when she was preparing for the entrance exam to the University of Tokyo, she also joined the regional orchestra and won first place in the competition.

"My sister has surpassed me."

Until now, Shiina Riki still doesn't know how to properly express his feelings.

"Why didn't you choose her? Why did you choose to form a band with me instead?"

Shiina Riki actually longs for others to call her Shiina Riki instead of Shiina Maki's sister... She longs for it just like her older sister.

But she buried this idea deep under her aggressive shell, making it difficult for people to see what she really thought in her heart.

"Why? Maybe it's just because we're friends."

Chen Xinghua put the weight of his head on his raised hands.

"Talking about talent and the like between friends is a bit too utilitarian...it's not pure friendship at all."

If you resolutely belittle your friend just because she is not talented, then at best you can only be considered a drinking buddy.

...But even if they are just drinking buddies, they won't frequently use talent to belittle others.

"As long as we can have fun together, that's enough. That's what friendship is."

Shiina Riki clenched his fists.

Come to think of it, if it were my old self, I would have said, "Are you saying I'm not as good as my sister?"

How awful of myself.

Shiina Riki shook his head and chewed these extremely bad words into his stomach, putting pressure on his digestive system and driving it to digest these bad things.

In his mind, I... Shiina Riki's weight outweighs the weight of Shiina Maki's sister? Shiina Riki swayed, and then tried to look at Chen Xinghua's outfit.

As simple as ever, I don’t like to dress myself up with unnecessary things.

"...Are you a friend?"

Shiina Riki said in a low voice, now she wanted to say something to Chen Xinghua.

But after saying this, our Ms. Shiina didn't know what to say to Mr. Chen Xinghua.

So she could only remain silent for a long time.

“But then again.”

Chen Xinghua brought the conversation back to the original topic, "Lixi, can you relax your expectations of the band?"

"If the pressure continues like this, I won't be able to bear it and will run away. And you know what the light band is for."