In the music series, the male protagonist writes a self-help manual for the inner world

After hearing Chen Xinghua's voice, Nagasaki Suyo stood up like a puppet, then mechanically sat down next to Chen Xinghua and shrank into the shadows with him.

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Chapter 123 What Nagasaki Suyo desires.

The starry sky is exceptionally bright tonight, and the Big Dipper hanging high in the sky continues to guide lost travelers, just like it guided lost sailors in the Age of Exploration many years ago.

Chen Xinghua's hands rested relaxedly on his legs, but there was a hint of fatigue in his gaze as he looked forward.

...In about an hour, it will be time for Xiangzi to practice the piano as agreed.

You absolutely cannot miss this time, otherwise you won't be able to pay her salary with the reasonable excuse that you accompany me to practice the piano.

"What do you really want, is it really 'CRYCHIC'?"

Without looking into Nagasaki Suyo's eyes, Chen Xinghua knew that she was already anxious.

But don't be in a hurry.

"Don't rush to answer... What I want you to answer is what you want CRYCHIC to give you."

"Music? Or the sense of accomplishment after a successful live performance, or something else?"

What Nagasaki Motoyo wants most from 'CRYCHIC' is definitely not the music or the sense of accomplishment after a successful live performance.

Because Chen Xinghua still remembered that the attitude she had shown in the previous band rehearsals... was that of a corporate slave.

I just want the work to be completed and I won't do anything extra.

This can be clearly heard from her bass sound.

If Nagasaki Motoyo was extremely eager for music or a sense of accomplishment, she should practice more seriously and put all her emotions into the bass in her hands, instead of just getting by like a corporate slave.

But corporate slaves work like this for the salary, so why does Miss Nagasaki Motoyo work with such a corporate slave-like attitude?

Nagasaki Suyo clenched her fingers. She was not as eager for the band's success as Shiina Riki, who was even willing to put pressure on herself and others.

What she wanted was actually very simple.

"As long as we can be together, that's enough...even if we only play in the studio for the rest of our lives and never have to hold a live performance."

But why couldn't even such a simple request be fulfilled... It was exactly like her family that had long been broken apart.

Perhaps she has never grown up, and has always been the little girl who, when her family is about to break up, can only stand there and watch her family fall apart, unable to mend the family rifts.

“As long as we can stay together forever, that’s fine.”

Nagasaki Suyo spoke her true feelings to Chen Xinghua.

Just as Chen Xinghua expected, Nagasaki Suyo may not reject music and successful live performances, but what she wants most is not these two things, but something else.

"But 'CRYCHIC' is dead and can never be resurrected. It's time to move on."

Chen Xinghua's tone gradually calmed down, no longer as emotionless as before.

"Just staying in the past... Impossible. The hands of a pocket watch can never go back. Unable to return to my old home, and unwilling to find a new one, I can only become a wandering bird floating in the sky, never able to stop and rest."

"But I will never forget 'CRYCHIC', Xiaodeng, Lixi, Xiaoxiang, and Xiaomu."

Nagasaki Suyo's tone was heavy.

"If you can't forget, then you can't forget. No one is forcing you to forget."

Chen Xinghua knocked on the railing in dissatisfaction, shaking Nagasaki Sushi's heart, "But Sushi... while you are reminiscing about 'CRYCHIC', at least take a step forward."

"Besides, Lixi and Deng are both ahead of you. Don't worry about forgetting them at this moment. At least follow them for a while and don't lose them."

Chen Xinghua raised his head and looked at the boundless starry sky.

"First, make sure you have what you have..."

"If you lose them, I think Deng and Lixi will be very sad."

Nagasaki Suyo nodded...Don't get lost, will you?

She raised her head and looked at Chen Xinghua.

For some reason, Nagasaki Suyo felt as if her memories had returned to half a year ago.

After she finished playing at the wind band at Tsukinomori Girls' College, Toyokawa Shoko came up to her and said, "Excuse me, are you interested in forming a band?"

That was her first meeting with Toyokawa Shoko, and also the beginning of her connection with 'CRYCHIC'.

If you think about it carefully, Toyokawa Shoko was a bit like a gentle tyrant at that time. It was just that after seeing Nagasaki Motoyo playing the double bass very well in a performance, she wanted to pull her into "CRYCHIC" as the bassist.

(Note: The predecessor of the electric bass is not the guitar, but the double bass. Therefore, as a double bass player, Nagasaki Motoyo was able to quickly switch to bass.)

But isn’t that good?

The position of a "father" should be gentle and domineering like this, using this unique domineering to connect all members of the family and support the operation of the entire family.

Nagasaki Suyo longed for a domineering father, a father who could bind the family together with his overbearing tenderness.

That's why Nagasaki Suyo longed for Toyokawa Shoko so much, because she was just as Nagasaki Suyo had imagined, connecting everyone with her gentle dominance.

And now Chen Xinghua said to her, 'Don't get lost'.

What Nagasaki Suyo hopes most is that she doesn't have to worry about anything and just follow the other person.

"Do you want the band of lights to keep going?"

But Nagasaki Suyo began to worry that Chen Xinghua would abandon the band like Toyokawa Shoko did.

She was obviously very happy before that there was a rift between this guy and Li Xi.

...But he truly understood Xiao Lixi, so there was no estrangement between them.

Looking at Nagasaki Suye's longing eyes, Chen Xinghua felt that his words were too effective.

But being too effective isn't necessarily a good thing... Her eyes are too longing.

So how should he answer Nagasaki Suyo now.

"Of course I want to keep this unknown band going."

Chen Xinghua certainly knew that if he chose not to answer at this time, or chose to give a vague answer, it would easily lead to bad end.

After all, Nagasaki Suyo now seems to be planning to move forward. If the answer he gives to Nagasaki Suyo is not very certain, how can he ask her to continue to believe in his advice.

Before you persuade others, you must first convince yourself of your own point of view.

So he gave an accurate and firm answer.

...It shouldn't matter if I give an accurate answer.

"And I'm not just thinking about it, I'm also going to work hard for it."

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Chapter 124 So...I'm the worst.

If it is possible to maintain this unknown band, Chen Xinghua would certainly want to do so.

After all, the band's disbanding might cause great damage to the friendship between Deng and Aine.

Of course it would be better if we could not disband.

What he had told Aiyin before, that she would still be Deng’s friend after she left the band, was just Chen Xinghua’s backup plan.

His real plan was to create a good atmosphere in the band, good enough to allow Aine and Lenai to stay permanently.

A backup plan is just a backup plan in case your plan fails.

"Um……"

Nagasaki Suyo nodded happily.

At this moment, Chen Xinghua's figure gradually overlapped with Toyokawa Shoko in her mind.

...Of course, now Chen Xinghua's figure only slightly overlapped with Toyokawa Shoko in her mind, and it was not like Shiina Riki's figure that directly overlapped with Toyokawa Shoko in the hallucination.

Nagasaki Suyo is not yet heavyweight enough to this extent.

"You'll help me, won't you, Sushi."

Although Chen Xinghua used the sentence structure of a question, his tone was affirmative.

After shattering Nagasaki Motoyo's idea of ​​reviving 'CRYCHIC', this guy fell into confusion. Once a high school student of this age falls into confusion, it is difficult for him to get out of it on his own.

After all, Nagasaki Motoyo is just a high school student with insufficient experience and ability.

So I have to use a firm attitude to make her believe that I can lead her out of confusion.

"Yes, I will help us."

Nagasaki Suyo looked at Chen Xinghua's black pupils and felt as if her mind was being sucked in.

……

After parting with Nagasaki Suyo, Chen Xinghua hurried down the stairs of the building, preparing to go to the rented piano room where he had agreed to meet with Xiangzi.

…The cash is ready, and the piano music to be recorded next is also ready, that’s all that’s left.

Hmm... Chen Xinghua took out the vibrating cell phone from his pocket, and someone sent him a message.

Is it Lixi?

"The music will be ready in a few days."

On the other side of the screen, Tatsuki Shiina held his phone and sent this message.

"Lixi, the appointment time will come soon. Could you please let me use the computer for a while?"

The familiar voice of my sister came from outside the door.

Hearing the voice of her own sister, Shiina Riki turned her head inward.

Because Shiina Maki is working on an AI project recently, which requires the computing power of Shiina Ritsu's computer, Shiina Ritsu can't stay up late to compose music recently.

...It's so embarrassing.

The screen of the mobile phone reflected Shiina Riki's rather happy expression, and then this expression turned into an expression of pressure in the next moment.

"What on earth am I doing..."

Shiina Riki asked himself, "Why am I so excited?"

Because you feel that your arranging ability surpasses Chen Xinghua's, so you can be happy?

...Admit it, Shiina Riki, you just treated him as a victim of your inferiority complex.

Because you think he can connect everyone in the band like Shoko Toyokawa did, you take out the pressure you felt under Shoko Toyokawa on him.

"So why don't you show him your revised piece during practice today?"

Shiina Riki asked himself again.

In addition to the fact that she previously felt that his arranging skills surpassed hers, just like Toyokawa Shoko, there was another more important factor.

Because Shiina Riki exposed her most vulnerable side in front of Chen Xinghua.

…I actually stayed up all night arranging music until I collapsed on the floor, and he still sent me home.

So Shiina Riki felt that she had to present her best side to him.

Because you show vulnerability, you have to show perfection.

The song that he had revised repeatedly until he fainted on the ground was not perfect enough. He had to present a more perfect self to him.

"Really are……"

Shiina Riki turned over and faced the smooth wall. "That's terrible."

In the end, am I still not as good as Toyokawa Shoko?

That guy can organize a group of strangers and put on a live performance in a few months.

And as for me... I was actually happy because the band members' arrangement skills were not as good as mine.

If this continues, how can we achieve the goal of Deng’s lifelong band and how can we make the next performance worthy of Deng’s singing.

"So... I'm the worst."

"What on earth am I doing!"