In the music series, the male protagonist writes a self-help manual for the inner world

So why is this happening? Chen Xinghua still didn't quite understand, but that didn't stop him from reaching out and stroking Deng's short gray hair, using this simple method to soothe Deng's mood.

"We are friends, for sure."

Chen Xinghua nodded. He and Deng could be said to be friends.

But to say they were lifelong friends... he felt that his friendship with Deng wasn't at that level for the time being.

But at this time, I should just say some nice words to calm her down. I am not the kind of person with low emotional intelligence who would say things without hesitation when I see something that should not be said.

After receiving a response, Deng hugged the warmth in his arms tightly, as if doing so could keep him.

Gently covering her chest with her hands, Toyokawa Shoko felt a heart-wrenching pain there, although she didn't know where the pain came from... right?

How could Toyokawa Shoko not understand where this emotion came from...it was just that she subconsciously didn't want to think in this direction.

Perhaps Chen Xinghua was the only salvation in her originally miserable life. If it weren't for him, Toyokawa Shoko might never have woken up again when she collapsed due to excessive fatigue and malnutrition last time.

174

Chapter 174 The weak Xiaoxiang died long ago.

If it weren't for him, Shoko Toyokawa might still be submitting her resume to the human resources departments of various customer service companies, hoping that a customer service company would be able to exploit her surplus value.

Compared to how Chen Xinghua needs Toyokawa Shoko, Toyokawa Shoko needs Chen Xinghua more.

So Toyokawa Shoko stretched out her hand, then put it down, stretched out her hand again, and put it down again.

If the guy standing here hugging Chen Xinghua was Nagasaki Suyo, she might have made up her mind to pull Nagasaki Suyo's hands apart from those holding Chen Xinghua tightly in the last second.

Because after being repeatedly beaten by life, the weak Xiaoxiang had died long ago.

So in order to pursue his own happiness, the tough Xiaoxiang, who was born from the body of the dead weak Xiaoxiang, was able to suppress the shame and guilt in his heart towards his teammates, and tried to pull Chen Xinghua back to his side from her former teammates.

If the guy standing here hugging Chen Xinghua was Shiina Riki, Toyokawa Shoko would definitely be able to pry Shiina Riki apart and then start a big quarrel with Shiina Riki who was angered by her.

If the guy standing here hugging Chen Xinghua was her childhood sweetheart Wakaba Mutsu, Toyokawa Shoko pursed her lips, which were as pale as the lamp just now, and felt that her half Wakaba Mutsu would definitely not take away her love.

Toyokawa Shoko's hands went limp, and her legs and feet followed suit. The strength that supported her to stand up seemed to be drained away by an unknown existence in the void, and she almost collapsed to the cold ground.

But why was it the lamp? Why was it her? Why was it the person he felt the most sorry for?

I have already hurt her once, do I want to hurt her again?

Shoko Toyokawa supported her body and forced out some strength from her body.

Things have not yet developed to the point where they are irreversible, because although Chen Xinghua does not have such thoughts about Toyokawa Shoko, he also does not have such thoughts about Deng.

He didn't push the lamp away, nor did he blush. And the lamp didn't have any thoughts about him in that way.

But sometimes, under the influence of a certain opportunity, the friendship between a girl and a boy will break through the barriers of friendship and take great strides towards causing a death. Toyokawa Shoko knew this very well.

After all, it's not like feelings can't be cultivated. Many romances are cultivated from friendships.

Isn’t it natural for deep friendship to transform into deep love?

Shoko Toyokawa's heart was suddenly filled with guilt.

But this guilt seems unable to stop Shoko Toyokawa from taking the next step.

But even more excited than the excited Toyokawa Shoko was a little yellow-haired creature standing far away and watching all this.

Why is it like this, why is it like this, why is it like this... The crazy echoes kept echoing in Sanjiao Chuhua's mind.

She finally used her memory to recognize the gray animal that had bumped into her and was now hugging Chen Xinghua... It was the lead singer she had just seen in the group photo on the 'CRYCHIC' homepage.

"Takamatsu Touma."

Sanjiao Chuhua whispered what she saw... She saw Gao Songdeng hugging Chen Xinghua in front of Toyokawa Xiangzi, and Toyokawa Xiangzi stood aside in a daze, just like the victim in the book who saw her beloved boyfriend being violently beaten by another yellow-haired man.

Isn’t this a perfect plot from the book?

The nails that were trimmed too short for playing the guitar were embedded in the palm, causing a few traces of blood to appear, revealing the owner's dissatisfaction.

"It's okay, Xiaoxiang, I will help you."

As always, Sanjiao Hatsuka put on her idol-like sunny smile. She has always been a hard-line pro-Shoko Toyokawa side.

Even if Toyokawa Shoko wants to be enemies with everyone around her, her sister Chuhua will stand firmly on Toyokawa Shoko's side.

"Your happiness is my happiness..."

His fingers slid across the chest area above the black windbreaker, and as he recalled the good memories he had with Toyokawa Shoko that he had treasured in the past, the smile on Sanjiao Chuhua's face became brighter and brighter.

"As long as you let me stay by your side forever."

This is the only thing that Sankaku Hatsuka wants from Toyokawa Shoko.

She didn't ask for how much space she could occupy in Toyokawa Shoko's heart, she just asked for a small space beside her that was just enough for a blonde girl to curl up.

But even this small request might not be fulfilled. A sense of fear suddenly emerged in Sanjiao Chuhua's heart.

Because compared to the eldest daughter of the Toyokawa family and Chen Xinghua's world-class musical talent, is there anything irreplaceable about Sanjiao Chuhua?

Is it her guitar skills, or the fame she gained as a Sumimi idol?

These things are not irreplaceable.

With the capital of the Fengchuan family and Chen Xinghua's talent, there are many guitarists of the same level willing to join AveMujica and replace Sanjiao Chuhua.

Sanjiao Chuhua tried hard to throw these terrible thoughts out of his mind.

So how could Xiaoxiang get Chen Xinghua back from Gao Songdeng? Sanjiao Chuhua pondered this question while hiding behind a fountain that was two people tall.

But in the distance, Shoko Toyokawa stood aside, watching her sweetheart being tightly embraced by her former teammate, which constantly irritated Sanjiao Chuhua's fragile nerves.

Rushing out now would only make things worse. Sanjiao Chuhua forcibly stopped himself from rushing out.

Because although she just regarded Toyokawa Shoko as the victim in the book, Takamatsu Deng as the yellow-haired man in the book, and Chen Xinghua as the heroine in the book.

But in fact, Chen Xinghua and Toyokawa Shoko were just friends, not a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship with whom they had intimate contact.

To put it bluntly, even if Chen Xinghua had an improper physical relationship with another girl, it had nothing to do with Toyokawa Shoko.

Dozens of steps away from Sanjiao Chuhua, Chen Xinghua lowered his head, looked at the gray-haired little animal hugging him, and thought about what he should say to solve the current problem.

He could not reveal the real reason why Toyokawa Shoko left 'CRYCHIC' to solve the problem that Toyokawa Shoko and Deng did not get along very well, because this would shatter Toyokawa Shoko's self-esteem.

This can only be solved when Shoko Toyokawa figures it out and tells her former teammates why she quit 'CRYCHIC'.

175

Chapter 175 Am I Unwanted?

"Deng, why are you here?"

Chen Xinghua's gaze fell down to the lamp below her. From the beginning until now, she seemed to have no intention of letting go.

Without answering Chen Xinghua's question, Deng leaned forward, and her two little hands restlessly pinched Chen Xinghua's clothes, as if this would prevent him from leaving her like Toyokawa Shoko.

"Then I'll take you back, okay?"

Chen Xinghua asked tentatively, but the response he got was Deng's even more passionate hug.

Compared to Deng's exaggerated strength that was almost inappropriate for a girl of her size, her slightly androgynous face and body felt so soft.

But her body was unexpectedly cold, as if it had been left in the cold February wind for several days. Chen Xinghua felt the light rubbing against her neck and cheek, and suddenly felt that the light's face was very cold.

"lamp……"

Shoko Toyokawa took a deep breath, suppressed her guilt towards Deng, and then mustered up the courage to speak softly.

If Deng and Chen Xinghua were not as far away from Toyokawa Shoko as Ms. Sanjiao, Toyokawa Shoko's voice would probably have drifted into the air, just like the salary she earned when she was still working at the black-hearted customer service company.

"Xiao Xiang..."

Hearing the voice of Bai Yueguang, who had once redeemed her through the band, Deng quickly turned her little head towards Toyokawa Shoko, but her arm that was holding Chen Xinghua's clothes did not relax at all.

“Why did I quit ‘CRYCHIC’? Was it because I didn’t sing hard enough?”

Deng has never understood the art of speaking.

So sometimes, her words are particularly aggressive.

"If I had worked harder during the live performance that day, you wouldn't have quit 'CRYCHIC'."

For example, at this time, Shoko Toyokawa was forced to take one or two steps back by the attack of the lights, and a small tear welled up in the corner of her beautiful eyes, but under the cover of the night, the tear disappeared in an instant.

...Why did Toyokawa Shoko quit 'CRYCHIC'? Deng's question made Toyokawa Shoko unsure of how to respond.

Because no matter what, she made an irreparable mistake on that rainy day when she quit 'CRYCHIC'. She actually hurt the lamp.

This is the truth that cannot be covered up by any number of excuses or lies.

Chen Xinghua patted Deng's arm. Her arm was not as stiff as Chen Xinghua had imagined. On the contrary, it was soft like a girl.

"Deng, let me take you home first. It's very cold outside. It would be bad if you catch a cold."

Chen Xinghua is trying to change the subject.

He knew why such a suffocating atmosphere was created when Deng and Toyokawa Shoko met. It was simply because of Toyokawa Shoko's awkward pride that made it impossible for her to get along with Deng, and she could only stay away from Deng as much as possible.

The best way to solve this problem is to let Shoko Toyokawa figure it out herself.

Chen Xinghua glanced at Toyokawa Shoko, who looked a little dazed. He felt that this guy would figure it out sooner or later, because his band would succeed sooner or later with her help.

By that time, Toyokawa Shoko probably wouldn't feel ashamed to expose her former financial situation to her former friends, because she would have already succeeded.

Failure before success is a shameful thing, but failure after success is a good thing.

"It looks like tomorrow is a workday. If I catch a cold tonight, it might be a bit troublesome."

Chen Xinghua held Deng's wrist and gently applied force outward.

But now... let's separate Deng and Xiangzi first.

Because Xiangzi hasn’t succeeded yet, has he?

"Well...Xiaoxiang, I'll wait for you."

The light let go of Chen Xinghua, but his pupils, tinged with gravity, stared straight at Toyokawa Shoko.

Deng felt that after abandoning her, Shoko Toyokawa was still together with Xinghua, as if he was trying to take her important person away from her again, which was a bit too much, but she was still willing to forgive Shoko Toyokawa's actions.

As long as Shoko Toyokawa is willing to pick up the promise of "community of shared destiny" again.

Because of the angle, Toyokawa Shoko, who lowered her head, was unable to meet Deng's gaze with her eyes, which were tinged with a hint of guilt.

Shoko Toyokawa took a deep breath. Although she felt very guilty towards Deng, it was difficult for her to give up her own happiness.

……

At this moment, a girl with green hair that fell past her shoulders was sitting in the public waiting area of ​​the live hall where Toyokawa Shoko had just walked out, waiting for her housekeeper to send someone to drive over and pick her up.

The green-haired girl has the habit of going to live shows every day, so she bought a ticket for AveMujica's live show.

She lowered her head and looked at her white and tender palms with an expression as calm as a wooden person.

"…Am I not needed?"

Wakaba Mu's voice is very nice, it's like the voice of a natural idol.

But this beautiful voice lacks something - human emotion.

"I really want to disappear."

In the past, when he was lying in bed resting, Ruo Ye Mu once imagined such a world line - a world line in which he had never been born.

In that world without Wakaba Mu, would his childhood sweetheart, his friends, and his family be better off?

It seems that her childhood sweetheart Toyokawa Shoko doesn't need her particularly anymore, as she has found someone she can rely on.

Now it seems that I can't even be her emotional trash can.

What is more terrifying than being bullied is that you can’t be bullied even if you want to.

And what about his friends? Wakaba Mutsuki thought of his former teammate in 'CRYCHIC', Miss Nagasaki Motoyo. Ever since he broke her defense that day, she seemed to be trying her best to avoid Wakaba Mutsuki.

Doesn’t Su Shi need me anymore?

Wakaba Mutsu raised his head, his golden pupils were still so beautiful and charming.

Suddenly, the cell phone on Ruo Yemu's waist vibrated, filling her heart with a glimmer of hope.

Who called, Xiaoxiang or Sushi?