People in Tokyo, the world is clear

"It's like eating sickly sweet ice cream. It makes you dizzy."

“That’s a fitting assessment.”

Sasagawa Rimei was used to viewing all expressions of enthusiastic joy as ominous - Lin Sen had never seen ecstasy or laughter in her.

She will subconsciously keep the thought that all good things are fleeting.

Because she has always been a commodity that has been caged and pampered, she will know that a seemingly wonderful life is just a beautiful bubble that has not burst.

Fate had branded her with this clear warning. Therefore, she lacked the pride and ostentatious extroversion that most women of this era possessed.

Lin Sen explained everything to her one by one as they found the opening in the fence and went down to the sandy beach beside the road.

Then, someone looked at him with a complicated look.

"So, this is the reason why Master Futan Zhuxing doesn't favor you at the soul level?"

"Quite the contrary. This is the most important reason why I consider you as someone I can trust and communicate with. I like such qualities."

"..."

"How did we meet?"

Lin Sen squatted down, and with the help of the moonlight and the brilliant city lights behind him, he picked up a stone:

"If the life we ​​live and enjoy is the kind described in the song just now, then the place where we meet will be a bar or a nightclub, or a discotheque that has sprung up like mushrooms after rain. We will be surrounded by a bunch of drinking friends, coming and going, leaving and coming again."

"We will be dazzled by the brilliance of the city lights. Then, we will rush almost madly towards the end of this illusory era."

Then, the young man threw the stone casually, causing it to jump out of the water and float continuously.

He turned around, put his hands on his hips, and looked at the woman who was gazing at the sea until she turned her head to look at him.

Behind her were the brilliant lights of the city. But at this moment, only the gentle moonlight fell in front of her, illuminating her hazy and gentle face:

"But we are not like that. That's why I met you and you met me. You helped me when I had nothing, and I got to know you, a person as pure as the moon tonight."

“Our story is not part of this false and splendid era. It is another star in the night sky, different from the sun.”

"In fact, I feel quite happy and thankful for it. Do you feel the same way?"

Lin Sen picked up another stone, walked to the flamingo, and gently placed it in her hand.

Watching her throw it out clumsily, it landed in the water with a splash, without even a single splash.

Then he was amused and laughed out loud.

It caught someone's eye again.

She bit her lower lip, a cold light flashing in her eyes:

"For someone who goes with the flow, I'm afraid it's just another way of enjoying the fakeness, just like others immersed in the urban life you describe."

"I was only passionate towards you when I needed it. And after I got a lover, there was even a period of time when I didn't come to your place for several days. Life with you was just a pastime."

"!"

"Do you think so? Or is it my behavior that forces you to think so?"

After saying this, the flamingo beside him trembled slightly.

So, I just stood beside her and stared at the ocean in the same direction as her.

Take a deep breath:

"It's my fault. I don't spend enough time with the opposite sex in real life, so I'm too slow to realize these things... But, I can't use these useless excuses now, right?"

"I don't think Guanmiantanghuangjun is slow at all. At least, his love life progresses faster than 80% of young people."

"I was wrong about our situation. So, I accept whatever you think of me."

After a self-deprecating remark, he put his hands behind his back:

"Perhaps, my affectation, my conceit, and my childish behavior will drive a noble woman like you away from me."

"...Saying this at this time will only lower your impression in my mind."

After a moment of silence, the woman beside him snorted, "Or, has Mr. Chao San Mu Si decided to betray your current girlfriend?"

"Just because of the thirst of a vile body?"

"?"

After blinking, Flamingo turned his head and looked over. "That's quite surprising. It's rare for you to be honest. Are you going to stop pretending?"

"I can't help it. After all, in the eyes of a certain stubborn idiot, I am irreversibly like this. So, I might as well just go along with it."

"So it's a whitewashing that starts with a downplay and ends with an uplift. Let me guess, the next line is, 'I'm not the person you think I am?'"

"That's definitely not the case. There's a saying that seeing is believing. Since my actions have made you, who witnessed it with your own eyes, think that I am such a person, I will definitely not make a single excuse. After all, there's a saying that goes, 'You bring this upon yourself.'"

"..."

Is that a despicable way to do it?

He knew clearly that if he said this, the woman who was thinking about him would be speechless and would subconsciously think about him.

But, I still did it.

Because the next sentence is something I have to spit out:

"I'm really sorry. Before, I was too self-righteous and egocentric, and I didn't respond to your affection properly and in time. Now, it's like this. It seems that no matter what I do, it seems like an embarrassing mistake. It's hard, right? More importantly, I kept pretending to be deaf and dumb for my selfish reasons. It wasn't until today that I thought of you again, seemingly because of some physical desire."

"."

"Now, here, there are only two of us. If any unhappiness or anger accumulates in your heart for too long, you can do whatever you want."

He turned his head to look at the woman holding the stone in her hand, then turned back to face her, spreading his hands palms to the ground in a gesture of non-resistance.

I watched her stare blankly for a long time before slowly raising the stone in her hand.

Then the young man closed his eyes.

I waited for a long time, but I didn't feel any pain from being hit.

On the contrary - it was the sound of stones hitting the ground.

Then, the man opened his eyes, squatted down, and gently hugged the woman who was squatting and covering her face.

At this moment, a hint of wetness leaked out from between her fingers.

"I am indeed a despicable person."

Hugging her trembling body, the young man sighed, "In fact, if I had known earlier, I would never have known that you, such a kind-hearted fool, would be willing to hurt others."

"mean."

She was trying to steady her trembling voice and her gasps for air.

Like a big kid trying to maintain his decency.

Chapter 90: Water Tide and Heart Tide

In fact, it is something that should have been figured out long ago.

How could a woman who is unwilling to give up even an old car that she has used for a long time, a sensitive person who cherishes everything she has, be willing to give up her marriage?

And her love.

Therefore, they will act contrary to their usual behavior and break through the shackles of their personality, and struggle desperately even if they foresee a hopeless outcome.

Burn out the last embers.

This is a heavy emotion that must be taken seriously.

But this is the complexity between people - there is no correct answer between you, me and her.

Sometimes, caring about someone is equivalent to throwing problems and possible negative emotions onto another party.

It is difficult for everyone to find their own position in it.

There may always be people who are not satisfied with the final answer.

But at least now, having calmed down, the flamingos on the beach sat on the sand with their legs folded up.

Take a deep breath of the salty sea breeze.

She expressed her opinion on these matters:

"You are the beginning of hell."

"It's still the artistic idiot version of the expression, and it's indeed appropriate."

The source of the incident was indeed on Lin Sen's side.

When the theory that was once regarded as the goal of life is broken by oneself, all the balance built on it will collapse.

In four months, he, who had been single for more than 40 years in his two lifetimes, had no time to distinguish the vague line between friendship and love.

To the extent that he was somewhat entangled with the people around him - however, this statement had a bit of a shirking of responsibility meaning, so Lin Sen would not speak of such remarks to anyone else.

Studying the causes is only to better solve the current problems.

However, this is not an easy task. As she said:

"The giant of language, you presume to see through everything. But in the end, a theorist who only knows how to outline things won't accomplish anything."

Turning her head, she could vaguely see the dim lights of the distant city reflected in her eyes:

"What are you going to do? Or to put it another way...how would the director like me to cooperate with you and give your performance a final touch?"

"If I tell you to just follow your nature and pursue a future that brings you true happiness, wouldn't that be cunning?"

"It's not cunning, it just makes you look self-righteous and intellectually deficient."

"Because I'm still throwing all my moral guilt and the dilemma of being an outsider at this moment onto you, right?"

"So, knowing this, you still want to issue such guidance?"

Out of his sight, Sasagawa Rio clenched her fists hidden outside her body.

When mentioning these things, one inevitably feels a strong sense of loss, sadness and frustration.

Will he still make such a decision as he just said?

Talk everything out, and then continue to pretend to be at ease and "deal with" her ridiculous farewell performance in an impeccable manner?

The lubrication of pessimism makes it easier for the mind to slide downhill.

But the next second, the sad and miserable mood was broken by an action.

because.

"Uh..."

Amidst someone's protesting and shameful moan, a hand reached out, grabbed her arm, and captured her clenched fist.

He placed them on her thighs, then, one by one, broke them apart and placed a carefully selected, smooth, washed pebble on top.

"I'm not a perfect person. I'm full of flaws. Likewise, I'm terrible and foolish, and I don't know if my decisions are right or wrong. However, I do have one small advantage: If I end up causing a disaster, I will definitely accept all the punishment and consequences."

He spoke this way with his head lowered.

He was looking down at the moment, so his expression was somewhat unclear in the dim moonlight.

Then, the next sentence:

"I want to follow my heart and fall in love with you, and treat you as if you were my lover again. If so, would you agree? Sasakawa Rio."

"..."

After a moment of silence, the woman stood up.

He gripped the stone tightly in his hand, raised it high, and aimed with all his might.

In the end, the stone only used its smoothest and least sharp side to fall against the young man's arm with a force that could not be called heavy at all.

Then, a white sneaker kicked his thigh. This time, as if to make a statement, the force was more normal—but it only caused slight pain.

A clear scolding voice began to echo in the seaside air:

"He's a scumbag. He's fickle, easily attracted to other people, and treats feelings like toys."

This was clearly an abnormal behavior, because, for her, this would have been a happy answer.

But the young man was not surprised by the behavior of this woman who subconsciously did not use her full strength even when punching and kicking.